Jan Tetstone Poetry Diary

Heartsong's Poetry Diary

Poetry Written by Jan Tetstone

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When enough times passes
for a moment time will
stand still-as life blossoms
Forgotten worldly things...
for the world knows not
the value of the treasures
one carries in their heart.

For a moment time will
stand still...like it does
the moment before one is
born...so shall it be
the moment eyes are closed
in eternal sleep.

Wait not for the end of life
for life knows no end...
When time in this world
comes to and end
life in another moment
in time begins.

Keep Faith....
8:45pm July 23, 2021

The rich reach for things
they cannot obtain
Tho good intentions be
in the beginning many
take credit for many
things...life has fallen
into decay on the beds
where many a rich man lay.

One does not help
the world by neglecting
the needs of the world's

The hands of the wealthy
no longer move the hands
of justice in any land
where the few demand
justice be placed in
more intelligent hands.

Life is much to precious
to allow the desires of
evil men and women to be
fulfilled at the expense of
the hopes and dreams
of the many.

There is no hope, nor
can there be, in any land
where the rich get 'high'
believing they control
man's destiny.

Tho men and women may die
penniless in worldly things,
as the greedy gobble up
everything their riches can
buy.... a faithful man will
gains greater treasures
when he dies.

Indeed there will be many
rich whose hearts were
in the right place, and who
died not knowing their
part in breaking the dreams
carried in many a poor man's

Live this moment knowing
everything worldly belongs
to the world and is only
temporary. What is awaiting
will be for an eternity.
11:13am July 19, 2021

When your heart is breaking
at the end of the day
and the tears flow like a rain
that won't go away...

Your angels are always there
With you, to share your pain,
and watch over you until
 you are  united again.

You can feel an angels touch
in a gentle breeze
in the warmth of the sun, and
in each heart beat .

Faith is the key to heaven's gate
Where loved ones wait for loved ones
to step into eternity.

Keep faith.
12:49am July 18, 2021

A baby knows not worldly
ways, when first born.

Through innocent eyes
the baby sees everything as new,
as it rests peacefully, cradled
in its his mother's arms...
listening to the sound of the
heartbeat....that once sing him
to sleep.

Oh the joy of those precious
memories ,in the moment I am
in.... as a mother I get to
remember, beneath my heart
life, in its most innocent form,
shared my heart and body with me,
before being born and placed
in my waiting arms.

Babies truly do step on our toes
when they are small, and step
on our hearts after life takes
their innocence away.

But when all is said and done
"love will always have the last

Live life your way, my sons and
daughters....these are your days
to feel the aches and pains of
letting go of the babies you once
held in your arms and kissed
away their pain.

It would be nice if things could
have been different. But. we do
what we have to do....then we live
by our faith...It's called tough
10:20pm July 17, 2021

Don't divert from the path
your heart is taking you

Follow your heart...
the world is a battle
ground - created for
each of us to journey

A place for a short time
we call 'home'
before, in the twinkling
of an eye, we move on.

Follow your heart,
wherever it leads you, go
It's better to seek
love, peace and happiness
than to settle for less
than your heart needs.

As long as the heart leads
love waits to be found.
A satisfied heart...is
far better than wearing
a king or queen's crown.

We each have our own
journey to make...
Walk up right, hold high
your Shield of faith.
9:38pm July 17, 2021

God never puts on us more than we can bear. jt

So much time but so little
of it has been spent with those
I love the best...

Little did I realize
the time I threw away
could have been spent
making memories
for days such as

Sometimes when
we think we are
protecting others
from the fallout of
our sins...we create
a wall between our self
and them...

but things done out
of love reap there own
kind of reward.

I am free to be
who I am....no regrets
for how I chose
to live my life ...

in my yesterdays
or my today.

The angels have always
been there to dry my tears.

I live by my faith
and that faith in my god
gets stronger everyday.
6:23pm July 15, 2021

Lord today is my oldest
brother's Birthday
and the day the angel's
took my last brother

Give me the strength
to bear my earthly loss
and please, forgive me
for crying today....
while three angel brothers
sing together, holding on
to family and old friends
cradled, one, by one,
in the arms, of their
angel father and mother.

The eyes of the angels
watch from afar...our
times of joy and pain
smiling down, sending
love unending, until
we all meet in heaven

My brothers are at peace
Angels all three- who
will never die...
Angels who walk with loved
one-who will always be by
their side.

I love you Jimmy, Johnny,
and James...

Happy Birthday Jimmy...

The greatest gift of all
is love.

12:29pm July 15, 2021

I thought today I'd take the time
to send special thoughts your way
If pillows of hope did not exist
for one to cling too...
And dreams come true were only
for the few...
And, none thought positive thoughts
how cold and empty the world
would be...

What if all the love in the world
belonged only to one-and that one
was you...
How would you choose the ones
to give your love to, if not one
processed love to give back to you?

Love is the essences of everything
and nothing in ones life...
Human compassion cannot survive
in a loveless world...

Positive is created when people
strive together to make a change
for the better in the world.

To understand what you know not
it takes a lot of faith and heart...
Having no shoes is not a sin
unless negative thoughts are at

The happiest times for me are when I
can feel the earth beneath my
1:48pm July 12, 2021

The truth is not always
what one wants to hear. jt

When my heart is sad
it's hard to think
beyond the sadness...
Lord, give me the
strength  to rise above
my weaknesses
the courage to walk
the insight to see
beyond the darkness
and Lord if you will
send angels to all
in need.

Teach me Lord to look
beyond what my outer
eyes can see...
Guide me through the
darkness closing in
on my world... keep
safe my soul from
the worldly ...
send your angels
to watch over me.
10:46pm July 11, 2021


"God knows the heart of us all.
Do what you can live with."

Sweet Memories

The memories we store
inside our heart
are the ones that bring
us peace when we can't
reach out and touch
someone we love ....

To the faithful, there are
no goodbyes, only "I love
you...see you on the other

Tears are for the ones
left behind to journey on
still awaiting God's time

May God send his angels
to comfort and remind those
morning this day

that God takes nothing
until its time....

then God calls in
what was ours on loan
and takes another sweet angel
2:56pm July 8, 2021 

Another Angel Brother

October 6, 1952 - July 7, 2021

Your dreams in worldly things
brought you unrest, and
at times a troubled mind.

My little brother...
God called you home
today to live in peace
and sing once more
praises to God- with heart
felt songs.

Fly, sweet angel brother, you earned
your angel wings...
You completed your journey

...to eternity.

when you awake
 at heaven's gates
you will be .reunited, once more
with family and friends happily waiting
to welcome you in.

rest sweet brother
in the arms of your angel

You are home now brother
another angel who will
 always  walk by your
 loved ones side.

This world has a way of
pulling loved ones a part
but in the end, if it be God's
will- we'll all be together

I love you...Rest in Peace
8:26pm July 7, 2021

God is moving
be still and listen
to God's footsteps
echoing in the wind..

Don't ever doubt
God's love, or God's
power to create
peace from turbulent

Doubt has no place
in the minds and hearts
of the believer...
A man who gives when
he processes little is
worthy to receive more
than the rich who have
much and give only
crumbs to feed the poor.

God knows the heart of
all his children....
Take one day at a time
trust in the god of
your fathers... be not
afraid to show compassion
for those in need;
God is good but God is
not blind to the weaknesses
of any.

The day is fast approaching
when the eyes of man opens
anew and shame many shall
find themselves counted
among the poorest of souls...
pleading for the crumbs
from the tables of faithful

Keep faith, when you feel
like all [even God] have turned
their back on you...Keep faith
in what the eyes cannot see
but the heart keeps reassuring
you is there.

8:55pm July 6, 2021

I awake to a sunless day
the ground so wet
won't be going outside
much today.

But still it is a
good day
to work inside,
create something
and to live
by my faith.
10:13am July 5, 2021

The eyes of
the angels
a million years old
sent from God
to guard my soul...
That's a beautiful
to awaken to...
Never far-always
near to watch me cry
then dry my tears.

Tears fall for many
everything in life
Tears have a season.
10:22am July 5, 2021


God gave me three
(Jimmy, Johnny, and
James ) to love, grow
up with and call my

Three brothers (two
older and one younger)
than me...
Special parts of my
childhood - special
part of my every day.

They did not stray far
from the old home place,
My life took me further

Years passed but one
thing never changed
(at least not for me)
together or a part I
never stopped loving
my brothers...
with all my heart.

My oldest brother was
called home years ago
I didn't get to tell
him good bye, and at
the time it hurt me so.

But in the years since
I come to realize- my
brother's not gone
He's a beautiful angel
always by my side.

Now as life would have
it be- unless God
intervenes- my other two
brothers will soon leave.

We all fail to spend time
with loved ones, when
they are alive...

My brothers don't need me
there to watch them die
-when in my heart
they will always be alive.

Three beautiful angels
always by my side.

If it be God's will, and
they are ready to go,
I will morn their leaving
in my own way.

3:47 am July 3, 2021


A lot has happened
in the USA
Since the first Americans
proclaimed their liberty
on Independence Day.

Since Americans like
George Washington,
Abraham Lincoln
Thomas Jefferson
and other honorable leaders
like them, others have filled
their political shoes but
only a few have held
a place in American hearts like
Washington, Lincoln, and
Jefferson still do.

We have come a long way since
slavery was brought to our shores
and divided our nation ---since
state right issues tore at
every American heart--since
JPMorgan and like minded men
plotted, planned and twisted the
issues of the day to steal from
all future generations the right
to their share of the American
dream- and what better way could
there be than to use their combined
wealth to make slavery the issue of
the Civil War days.

How would any one ever find out
that greedy men- in back rooms- were
plotting to make their offspring
the only inheritors of the American

Two hundred-forty-five years ago
the Declaration of Independence proclaimed:
with a natural born right to life
and liberty.

As Americans let us once more resolve
ourselves to the task of insuring
that every American, regardless of color
or creed, have a God given right to
a share of the American Dream.

Stand Proud America-you have never fail
to inspire the best in men, though
some living under your colors of Red,
White and Blue have betrayed the
American way- for a life of greed.

I'm proud to be an American---to proud
of America to be silenced when justice
needs a voice to speak.

Happy 4th of July! God Bless America!

8:17pm July 2, 2021

What good are riches
to a starving soul
when a heart seeks love
and love can't be found
What good are silver and
1:25 am July 1, 2021

Let God lead the way
His words are true
yesterday, today
and always.

Believe with your heart
that good abides with
you... no one
can carry your burden
but you
(be they many or be
they few).

Seek, what your heart
knows to be true...

you are never alone
God angels are
always with you.

Keep faith
as you walk through
this day...

The eyes of your
dearest angels
are watching over

The love you show
to others
(a kind word-a kind deed)
are precious water
for loves seed.

Find peace and
you will know
you have found
your god.
1:40 pm June 30, 2021

Today is gone
and here I set
giving thanks
to God whose angels
watch over me and
nurture my spirit
with their love...
Now it is time
to sleep...
to let another day

What did I learn
in the day...?
I learned not to
worry about who
loves me and who
loves me not.
I know the love
shown to me every
day comes straight
from the heart.

To be loved for
who you are is truly
a priceless gift.

People drift apart
out of need
[because years change
or just because they
choose to cut people
from their lives.

Don't waste a day
worrying about what
others think of you
live your life
and to yourself be

No one knows another's
thoughts or why they do
the things they do...
that's the way of this
world-cling to your faith
there is a purpose for
everything in the day.
11:24 pm June 29, 2021

The light in the dark
is sometimes hidden
by ones dark thoughts.
Dare to look beyond
the here and now.
Let the flicker of
light guide you to
God's eternal flame.
10:29 am June 29, 2021

Love like life has no
color but its own...
Learn, by living, life
learn, by giving, love
learn, by these things,
all there is to know
to be happy with ones
10:36 am June 29, 2021

It's a new day
to awaken
and give thanks
for the smallest
of things.

No one can live the day
God appointed for you
Look around...to see
what good you can do
in this world you
 are only walking through.
10:40 am June 29, 2021

If what I do is held up
by love there is nothing
more I can do.

God gives the weak the
strength to conquer
whatever needs to be.

Faith will raise you
above the things that
seek day and night
to rob you of your soul.

Stand up for truth
be it yours or someone

Love flows on angel wings
the god that lives through
us-can perform miracles
beyond what man can think.

Keep faith...
Its a beautiful day
to walk upright in.
10:53 am June 29, 2021

The beauty or ugliness around me
I create with my inner thoughts
If I think on nothing
but the bad in life-I open the
door to heartache and strife.

By my actions my physical world
is changed and rearranged.

Lord let my memory fill my day
with happy thoughts ,and my labor
serve to add to the beauty God

Give me eyes to see beyond the
weakest part of me.

Guide me through each day
as I hold high my Shield of Faith.

12:51 pm June 28, 2021

Believe with your heart
that all things are possible
this world may beat me down
mentally and physically
but my spirit will not be broken.
Faith is a powerful weapon
against the dark
that takes on many forms.
in this world.
Trust your heart when
you cannot trust
The word was before
the world was formed
and many a man has twisted
reality with empty
Trust the god that
keep the candle in you
Shine your light in
dark places
so others
can see.
Keep faith
let none trick you
into believing
another's belief.
One god
who answers to
many names.
Walk up-right
speak the truth
and the angels
will have a hand
in every thing
you do.
4:05pm June 26

It don't matter
where I stand
in your life
As long as the
day brings you
Love needs not
the sight of you
to love you
with all my heart.

Life can change
in the blink
of an eye...
but love,if it
is real love
will last
a life time,
and jounery
with us
when in the end
we spread our wings
and fly.
10:19am June 26, 2021

The safety net,
in this world,
is not in worldly
When darkness
and doubt cloud
your mind
let your faith

For, it matters
not what's in
the world
or what lys
just beyond
the eyes-
what counts
in the end
is what we
carry inside.
10:28am June 26, 2021

Be happy being you
you are a part
of things greater
than you are...

A shiver from God's
eternal star.
10:34am June 26, 2021

When I was younger
the easiest things
sometimes seemed to
be hardest.

With time I learnt
not to worry about
a thing being to
hard to do.

If trying don't get me
anywhere, I call on
the angels, and what
ever I left undone the
angels will help me do.

Sometimes it may appear
giving up is better than
putting one's all behind
one's effort.

But in the end the
finished product
will testify:
the worst of jobs
can get done when one
is willing to try.
5:50pm June 25, 2021

I was thinking
how blessed I am
to have the love
I have in my life

When I was a child
I was shown love
everyday...I didn't
feel the need
to hear the words
'I love you.'
My heart always knew.

Then I grew up, and
remembering the feeling
I got inside, after daddy
told me 'I love you"
a few weeks before he died.
I told my children it was
important to always tell
the ones you love "I love
you." when you are together
or when you are parting ways.

Looking back now, on second
thought, knowing I am loved
is far better than someone
telling me something
my heart finds hard to

Children grow up [some children
don't get the chance] If I
have taught my children one thing
let it be... that there is a time for
hearing I love yous, and a time
for knowing you are loved.
6:14pm June 25, 2021

Where once the eyes
were satisfied to gaze
upon the beauty of a flower,
and there was no sweeter sound
than a child's laughter...
only self centeredness can be

Life is much to short to live it
beyond the moment...
treasure the moment and the beauty
of its nakedness.
For in the moment some live while
others die.
Why waste one precious moment
remembering moments gone?
Riches and fame cannot buy back
yesterdays gone.
The rich and poor alike dwell in the
moment alone.
12:58pm June 23, 2021

There is nothing
more soothing to
the soul than
love and honesty.
Nothing can contain
what one does not
One can change their
world but not all
will choose too.
The time one spends
on self-pity is a
waste of time.
All have felt
therefore - all know
the feeling.
Judge not the
ignorance in another
based solely on what
you believe.
Life is a waiting game
we all take part in
from day to day.
None know the ending
until after life's game
is played.
Don't judge foolishly
the part in life
others play.

2:07pm June 19, 2021

What be the fate of man
need not be the fate of all.
Listen to the heartbeat
of the quite.

In the darkness
light is hidden.

Rise above your
lower self.
10:04am June 16, 2021

Keep faith, the angels who
loved and took care of you
on earth are never far
from your side...

Live one day at a time
that's all we have to live

But, know, the eyes
of the angels
are always watching
over you.
2:10am June 15,2021

If not for loss
one would not know
the true value of
a loved one's life.

I'm thankful for
the time and the
memories made with
loved ones-that's
two things no one
can take away.
2:01am June 5, 2021


Mama, the years have
come and gone
since you took
your journey home.
That was another sad
day in my life...

Tho the years have come
and gone, and I have
never stopped missing
our time together
I know in my heart
when you moved on
to your heavenly home
that your love stayed
behind to comfort
those you love...

Tho I cannot see you in
this world- I can see you
and feel you with my heart.

Happy Birthday Mama

I love you
1:38am June 15, 2021

It's your 41st Birthday
Renee, and a very special
You were independent
since the day you were born
when the one who was there
placed you in my arms.

My Birthday wish for you
my child is the gift of
peace and the strength to
forgive those who did
your heart harm...

I wish with all my heart
I would have held you
in my arms more often
close to my heart
and told you how very
special you are...

Just remember regardless
of how far apart we are,
regardless of all else,
you are ,and have always
been, a special flower
in my mothers-bouquet...
I love you and in my
heart you have a special

may this day- and all
your days- be blessed
in every way.

"I wish I had taken the time
to let you know- more often-
 how proud I am to call you "mine"
Love you baby girl-   Mama

If I lose sight
of who I am
on my journey
back home...
and get caught up
in worldly things
I know
I'm never alone
my angels walk 
with me.

Keep faith
shine your light
faithfully for
all, lost in life's
darkness, to see.
1:03pm June 12, 2021

Today, I thought much
about the world around me
How blessed I am to be
able to awaken and find me.

For a long time I hid my
hurt ,and alone, endured
my hearts pain...
But there is no one but me
to blame.

I am thankful for the
people, in my life,
who took me for granted
because of them- I can
live in peace with my self.

There are reasons why
our hearts get broken
lessons to be learned
from every thing we
get up too every day.

And sometimes years
pass before we realize
we wasted so much time
trying to figure out
the 'why' of things
that [good or bad]
touched our heart.
9:52pm June 11, 2021

I should have cried when
my heart was broken...
released the hurt inside of me
but that was not my way...
to show weakness-during times
I needed to be strong.
9:37pm June 11, 2021

It's your 35th Birthday
You were the last son
God blessed me to carry
beneath my heart.
You are a man now
with daughters and sons
and a life of your own.
My wish for you this day
is that in it, you find
peace with the world
and yourself...because
everyday spent in worry
is a day wasted...
a chance missed to let
love create a world
in which you always feel
loved and safe.
Not everyday, has a
special meaning...but
your birthday is special
to me-because it represents
the special man, my baby son
grew to be. I love you...
Happy Birthday John David,
3:23pm June 9, 2021

We all are born to fly..
Broken wings will mend
Strive always to be
the best of who you
grew to be.

Not all will love you
but the ones who learned
to love you for you will.
11:03am June 4, 2021

If I could re-raise
my children- I would
I would not change
a moment of the time
I loved them and
called them mine...
Now, its their time
to lead, before
their children leave
them behind, and
they realize after
pondering their own

Everything has a time,
being with them
during their childhood
years was mine.
10:54am June 4, 2021

The birds are singing
to remind me they are
there in their
aqua home a few steps
from my chair.

The fish are busy
cleaning up ,after
their morning feed...

As I set and
ponder things
that cross my mind
and touch my heart.

In the moment
time has moved
and left me
an essence closer
to my destiny.
10:37am June 4, 2021

Picture taken June 3, 2021  about 11:00pm

All my life I've felt like
I was standing on the
outside of life
looking in...
God has been good to me
he has never once left
my side....
When I was in the darkness
of my life
He was with me.
I have asked God
never to take from me
my ability to care...
If one shuts the door
to their heart...
ones life will be
nothing more
than a cycle
of unhappiness.
Without the ability to care
where would be
  the purpose in ones life-
Mistakes get made
hearts get broken
and somewhere
becomes non-existence.
If I love
I am complete
in who I am.
If I care
from my heart
I feed the better
side of my self.

Keep faith
and never lose
sight of
who you are.
11:54pm June 3, 2021

Life- many words have
been used to describe
Yet, not any have
described what life
really means...
I breathe ..there
is life in me
I see, I hear...there
is life in me
I laugh, I cry...there
is life in me
But what does life

Are the unborn
any less human than I?
I was once unborn
life did not begin
with my first cry
life was in me before
I was born.

When I slept beneath
my mother's heart,
there was life in me,
when we lived as one.
The same life I am
today, and have been,
since inside my mother's
womb I was first born.

What is life?

I feel, I love...there
is life in me.
Life so many take
for granted as if
life is nothing...
Life is a natural
entry....emotions are
not life they are
expressions life conveys
to life.

How far we have drifted
from a simple life
What is life?
Is life what life says
life is?
Who died and made any of us
god over innocent life.

Life is not as long
in this world, as it will
be in eternity.

8:51pm June 2, 2021

One Truth-One God

One who walks in the light of truth
and feeds the souls of men
must be wise enough to recognize
that the enemy that reeks havoc
in the world, creates darkness
first from within.

Not all who teach are worthy
to claim the power of the pen.

God's word was not predestined
to serve the greed in women
and men, while many suffer
hunger from within.

The light of old shall light up
the world again...

Create as many gods as it takes
in the day to keep the true
god at bay.

But be warned self proclaimed
prophets and teachers who
wand the pen, as you create
images of how you perceive
life, your god may not be the
god that walks unseen among

The darkness or light that the
teacher releases out into the
world stems from within
one can tell evil and good apart
by how one uses the pen.

10:12am May 30, 2021

My memories of you
never fade...
You were a special
part of our lives
for 21 years before
you went away.

You were always your
mama's boy...
Katie's best friend
and my grandson,

I miss you but in
my heart I know
You are not gone
God gave each of us
special time with you
before he called
you home.

Always in our hearts
RIP Michael

We love you
2:47pm May 29, 2021

What does the future hold
for those yet to be...
Yet to be born?
Today technology robs
tomorrows yet to be...
Which kingdom?
which god?
will technology fatten
as it moves minds
to realms of fantasy?

Lost the desire to become
as technology dictates
what is to be.

Wake up, welcome to the
new world order...
where everything is free
unless you believe the
devil works through

Then ones faith in god
becomes technology's
worst enemy.

Illusions once created
by the minds of men are
now the offspring of
manmade machines ,that
fill minds with empty

1:37pm May 28, 2021

Thank you Lord for this day
for all the joys you filled
it with,for my faith, and
for giving me the understanding
and strength I need to face
whatever comes my way.
3:39pm May 27, 2021

My love for you my child
did not begin when you
were born...It begin when
I was a child planning
my future around you.
3:33pm May 27, 2021

Tho loved one wandering near
and far may deny me entrance
into their world -forgotten
is the reality- beneath my heart
they once shared my world
with me. 3:28pm May 27, 2021

As long as I can see beyond me
I know my soul is safe
Tho my world is not perfect
its always filled with my faith.
3:21pm May 27, 2021

I woke to another blessed day
not because its filled with
everything I want but because
its filled with every thing I
3:17pm May 27, 2021

I am blessed
I have no need to search for my god
he lives in and through me..
He and he alone
knows my heart and all my needs
I'm not perfect-I make mistakes
but in order to be judged rightly
good or bad-I must be me.
8:41am May 25, 2021

I stand in the middle of my world
and I am lost
See things in my world that scare me
I am lost in the shadows of my mind
and can't find reality

Where are you now that I am lost
I am trying to find you
but first I must find my self
I lost sight of me somewhere on
life's roads-
exactly where I do not know.

8:57am May 25, 2021
(Written for my dear friend)

Things change
but not love
whether you love
a little or a lot
love is forever
if it stemmed from
the heart.
1:42am May 25, 2021

Don't choose a road to travel
just because its there...
Set the direction you want
your life to go
and do the best you can
to follow the path your
heart chose.
1:37am May 25, 2021

I don't walk through life
with blinders on anymore.
Pretending life is perfect
when it's not, and
can never be.
No life is not perfect
it was created a
garden of Eden
for imperfect souls
like you and me.
1:31am May 25, 2021

Until your life is touched
with human compassion
in forms that cut deep
into your heart...you will
never know how much
of your life was wasted
on yourself.
1:24am May 25, 2021


I Love You....Thank you for the fish.... (HUG)  May 23, 2021

HAPPY  7th BIRTHDAY FAITH! I love you (hug) May 22,2021

You are growing up to fast...slow down girl.

At my granddaughter's graduation



It's your Birthday son
time to tell you from
the bottom of my heart
how proud I am of you
You always took to heart
the things I told you...
But some things
I did not tell you yet
is no matter how old you are
You will always be my first
born son...
I watched you grow into the
man you are today... Not once
were you not there for me
if you thought you needed to be.
Be happy and never stop being
who you are-- because who you
are no one else could ever be-
you are my first son
who grew to be a good man
who will always be special
to me. Love you Joe
Happy 44th Birthday!

12:45am May 21, 2021

God knows our heart and its needs
when the direction in our life
changes-it's a sign that it's time
to move on...to where God would
have us be.
1:46pm May 16, 2021

When life takes a different direction
I often find a yearning to bring
loved ones, too....

I got so used to life being a certain
way, I took the time spent with loved ones
for granted [as if they would always
be a part of my day]

The yearning to bring loved ones through
life by my side...has much to do with
the mother part of me...

As I grow older, I realize, children
are born to live their own lives
and make their on decisions of how
they want their life to be... after
spending their childhood days walking
through life with me.

1:32pm May 16, 2021,

The night has once more
over taken my day
It's time to
go to bed....
leaving much undone
and much unsaid.
My eyes are heavy
it's time to sleep
things left undone
will have to keep
and if things left unsaid
need to be said
I will remember to say them
when I get out of bed.
Thank you Lord for the day
that brought me to this night
Thank you all the blessings
you send my way. Thank you
for your love and guiding light.
I love you Lord...Good night.
10:27pm May 12, 2021

It's time to work in my
garden...  11:27am May 12, 2021

I read a beautiful tribute today
a husband [and father] had written
for his wife.

All I can say is it touched my heart
to read the story of how love filled
both hearts, for each other, their
three children, and all who touched
their lives.

Every word was meant to shine on
the life and cherished memories of a
much loved and adored friend, mother,
and wife.

Without love ,ones death wouldn't mean
much....die and move on.

When love is a part of ones every day
life...love is shared from heart to
heart...love makes a happy home for
the living...and a pillow of comfort
for the heart, after a loved one moves

Sometimes the fullness in other peoples
lives shine on the empty spots in our own.

Love is so much better when its shown....
There is a need in every heart to love
and be loved.
Take time to say "I love you." today
don't wait until the one [s] you love
are dead and  gone.

 2:35pm May 11, 2021

My Poetry Diary exist
that I might learn from my past
 to live wiser in my today.

Thank you for taking the time
from your busy life to touch
mine through my poetry Diary.

Being imperfect I  have made
many mistakes in my lifetime,
hurt people I love- and been hurt
by people I love. Everyone has
reasons for why they live life
the way they do.

Remember, some times we
have to love enough to let go.
Nothing is more important
than striving every day to be
the best of who you are....
Keeping faith is the key
to reaching your star.
Love and Peace.

12:11am May 10, 2021

When no words can be found
to describe the thoughts going
on inside. It's best not
to say a word.

For there are always those
if something's not said just right
who won't understand.

Lord, it has been another blessed day
with only a few disappointing
moments in thought...

Sadness is a human trait
that with time will fade away.

No one is to blame
for the choices we make.

If a child fails to see
his/ her mistakes
another mistake they
will make.

God sees into the heart
and knows the secrets
hidden there.

Be careful when pointing
a finger at another's mistakes
without understanding
why the mistakes were made.

Hold high your shield of faith..
10:04pm May 9, 2021

It's Mother's Day 2021
The sun is shinning
and the angels are
smiling down on me.

God made mothers to
endue children's
childhood days...

God made mothers tougher
than nails, to withstand
life's storms.

Then, God put insight
into mothers to know
without seeing, if
a child is safe or

Next God placed
wisdom inside mothers
to help guild them
to understand that
its a mother's place
 to raise and love
the children  God,
placed in her motherly

And, seeing the world's
need for love...
God knew that mothers
not being created perfect
would make mistakes
in rearing the children
so God created a Shield of
Faith to carry always
before them

To remind mothers of how
special they are God created
a mother's heart....
Filled it with love
[to refresh her memory
from time to time]
in case she ever forgot
the feeling of her child
sleeping beneath her heart.
3:27 pm May 9, 2021

Thank you Lord for always
having my back...

Many times I have stumbled
blindly through life, and
fell into life's little
pits of hell...
And found myself lost
standing at the cross roads
of life...
It was during a low point
in my life when Jesus
reached out his hands
from a glow of light
"follow me"
the hands motioned
tho they never moved
from the position
they were in.

And in the twinkling
of an eye as fast as the
image surrounded by light
appeared -it was gone.

But I knew my life
would never be the same
from that moment on.

11:58 pm May 8, 2021

We had our time ,together
me the child and you my
dear mother...
You were a blessing in my life
all the time you walked this earth
and watched over me...
It didn't matter if you come over
to visit me or not,
Because I knew without a doubt
you loved me with all your heart...
It was you "mama" who nurtured
my heart with your love
It was you "mama" who set for me
the the best examples of
what a mother should be.

I love you Mama. Happy Mother's Day.

Love Is For Ever 

Setting here in the peace
created by the sound of
chirping birds, and the
sound of water falling
on water-as fish watch me
through the windows of their
glass home, many things fill
my mind
and I ask my god "what
does it all mean?"

Every day I awake to find
a little bit more of man's
history...or is it what
evil minds wrote as history
and want innocent minds
to believe.?

Walk upright in the day
believing only what you
know to be true...so many
things are hidden away.

Some scary things indeed
Think of the  knowledge
a few would find, by tapping in,
at will, to the human mind.

Will the god who lives through,
and in every man allow the
"god seekers" to find him, or will
he send his angels to seek
them out?

The most important things in ones
life comes from the heart.

This world is the testing ground
for our inner faith, fear not
the evil part of those
in search of  the key to
the human mind...

 Little do they know
  one can only find the things
 god  wants them to find.

Keep heart oh faithful ones
hold tight to your faith ...

Give thanks to your god

who has the ultimate power
to give  and  take it away.
12:25pm May 8, 2021

"Rest in peace my precious Angel"


Sonya Marie Sanford   April 29, 1971- May 6, 1993

Angels never die
they watch over
loved ones left
behind, until
they, too, earn their
wings, and learn
to fly.

When a gentle breeze
touches your cheek
oh so gentley
that means....
an angel touched
you with the tip
of her/his wings.

Only the best memories
deserve to be remembered.
9:58pm May 7, 2021

It's not easy being strong
when it feels like your heart is
going to break-
Raise high your Shield of Faith
Be thankful for the day.
11:44am May 7, 2021

There are angels where we set,stand
and lay...never far from our side
watching over us every day.
11:43am May 7, 2021

Faith is made void when doubt rules
the day.

My faith is not in worldly things
that any can touch any day-My faith
reigns inside of me I am one with
my faith. 11:38am May 7, 2021

The tears have drained from my heart
once more, and from yesterday's heartaches
I learned over again, the importance
of living in the day.
11:24am May 7, 2021

I'm so tired, and night
has fallen
a blanket to sleep beneath. jt


It's okay to be who you are
It's okay to be different
than everybody else.
It's okay to cry from
time to time....
But it's not okay to pretend
to be who you are not ...
Be who you are and
live your life with heart.
1:20am May 7, 2021

Lord, Thank you, for everything
The rain falling outside
my window...
the love that surrounding me...
the angels smiling down on me...
And the Shield of Faith
that will ,again, help me through
another day.
11:28am May 6, 2021
Lord enduring the loss
of my child, I never
ponder the loss...
I sealed from my memory
the ones that would rip
out my heart, the ones
where[ ] ...that are always
in me... the ones
that can not /would not
vanish with open grief

I'm thankful every day
that more pain
than my heart could take
you have spared my

Thank you Lord for the
angels, I love so, you
sent to comfort me.

Tho I know, and feel the
loss of loved ones
I believe with all my
heart 'they are home'
they were never really
mine.. you placed in my
life, so I could remember
this day, and every day
all that I love
and call mine
are/were only mine on loan.

Give me the courage to
be strong when my heart
gets caught up in
my inner grief.
11:06am May 6, 2021

I think the older one's
memories get
the greater a loss feels.
10:44am May 6, 2021

my eyes dampened with
the day's first tears
are weary from
looking for a child
who is not here.
10:40am May 6, 2021

The story of Sonya's Birth

While going through my writings I found this today
I think it should be shared on this 28th anniversary
of her death. In the picture Sonya is sleeping
beneath my heart was taken a few months
before she was born. Her big 'sissy' Sabra is next to me.

It was April 29, 1971, when my daughter Sonya [my second child] decided to make her debut into the world. I awoke in labor; I dressed and walked to my mother's house [She, I, and one of my sisters lived next door to each other]. Since my sister owned the most reliable vehicle we decided to use her 'new' car to transport me to Shand's Teaching Hospital, in Gainesville, Florida. [This is 56.28 miles / 1 hour 11 minutes away]

During my labor I tried to stay as calm as possible [This was my second experience having a baby but my sister who was setting in the front seat is three months pregnant with her first child and being the oldest of three sisters my thoughts were more on not scaring my sister than on my own pain at the time.] As the pressure of the baby against the lower part of my uterus grew steadily worse I positioned my body as much as possible in a semi-sitting position [which wasn’t easy for me to do because my sister’s new car was not built to accommodate a pregnant woman in labor.]

My mother who was driving and my sister seem to have only one thing on both their minds [getting me to the hospital. And not breaking the speed limit] as the contractions pressed the baby downward and outward. My first concern remained not doing anything that would cause my younger sister to fear her pending labor and delivery.

As more and more of my baby’s head made its presents known to me I resided myself to the undeniable fact that my baby would be born before reaching the hospital. The silence from the front seat told me thus far I had caused no fear to the other passengers in the car.

From time to time the semi-truck drivers [in passing] got an bird’s-eye - view of the birthing process taking place in my sister’s small car.

Normally, when a pregnant woman is in active labor [having contractions] as she is pushing the baby out she’ll hear,” Come on, just a little more – good girl- push harder – now relax, the contraction is over. Breathe deeply, get plenty of oxygen- here you go, just come on, push again…”

All I could hear was silence from the front seat. This was my first experience with natural childbirth [real natural].

With my hand I could feel the crown of my baby’s head exiting the birth canal. There was no time to concern myself with my own pain my main concerns now is continuing not to frighten my sister, and delivering my baby safely.

As the car enters the circle in front of Shands hospital in a voice of pure relief I informed the passengers [in the front seat] who were totally unaware of my daughter’s birth, that my baby was now an independent entry in life.

My sister [who hadn’t once turned around during the hour long trip] turned around with a surprised look on her face and exclaimed, “It is a baby!”

As the car came to a complete stop people [complete strangers], some entering the hospital others leaving it, gazed in amazement at the sight of me exiting the car holding my newborn baby with cord still attached to me. “It’s a miracle!” was heard more than once as I was being wheeled into the hospital.

I often think back to my daughter’s unexpected birth [in my sister’s car] and to the scene of me setting in the wheelchair holding my precious baby as complete strangers pointed at us and declared loudly, “It’s a Miracle!”

Twenty-eight years ago, today
my life was at its fullest
little did I know
heartache waited
in the tomorrow.
11:24am May 5, 2021

God's greatest gifts to me
are the children
I watched grow
into men and women,
loved and let go..

Stray as they will
stray as they may
where ever their
hearts take them
my love is with
them every day.
11:14am May 5, 2021

Setting here my thoughts
are on two words
"brave" and "soul"
In a world gone a stray
one must be brave every day
it takes courage to face
the soul's enemies
Raise high your shield of faith.
Never lose sight of the light
your god sent to you
to light your way.
11:02am May 5, 2021

I can't hold her in my arms
but I can cradle her memory
in my heart. 1:29am May 5, 2021

Tomorrow will be
a hard day for me
as memories of my
golden haired daughter
fill my mind and heart.
Twenty-eight years
to the day, the angels
came and took her away.

I don't understand
all the things
happening in my life
but I know no matter
what happens
angels won't be far
and my god will always
be in control.

I don't live my life
for others anymore
My children are grown
and gone.
I live my life for
my god, I follow the
teachings of Jesus
who is the key
to opening the gates
to eternity.
1:03am May 5, 2021

This is the hardest time of the year
for remembering- I know
my loses were heavens gains
but their deaths hurt the
weakest part of me- they
were parts of my heart -
that left empty places
in my life... filled
with their memories.
Let me cry Lord
Let me release my tears today
Then give me the strength once more
to tuck their memories away.
9:11pm May 3,2021

There's a feeling ,once more ,that
makes me feel so empty, when
my life is so full.
The feeling I get
when I think too long
 on yesterdays that have come and gone.
And my cherished memories
move my heart and
bring my tears.

Happy memories- times embedded
in my heart and mind
that are hard remembering
but would be far worse to forget,
the times in my life when
the sun seem to shine all the time.
Lord, I have remembered
and I have set free my tears...
I thank you Lord


For the happy memories-
that cross my heart and mind
from time to time.
8:59pm May 3, 2021..

It Crossed My Mind (thoughts)...
People, shouldn't waste their lives
trying to figure out why
other people do and say things.
Every human reacts mentally and
emotionally the same,
in many situations.

My belief:
Some times a person looks
for flaws in others
(way of doing and saying things)
to make their own flaws appear
justified/less noticeable, or even
11:57am May 3, 2021

Regardless of how
one spends their
time-It's their
time -their choice.

I am tired and must
seek rest for
my weary mind.
For in this night
there are no words
for my heart to
find. 12:24am

Lord, thank you for the
day night has brought
tho only a few minutes ago
it was yesterday...

Time slips away
so fast...
Where did the time
Setting here, my
thoughts caught up
in long ago...
I set through time
slipping away
as yesterday turned
into today.

One can't live in
yesterday and not lose
out on some of their
12:13am May 3, 2021

Tho life has taken me down many roads
not all smooth traveling
It was during the time spent in the
ruts of life that I was taught
the importance of not trying to
miss every pothole on the road.

I have nurtured the hearts of the
children my god loaned to me...and
know the returns for nurturing
the love in a child's heart.

I have felt 'unconditional' love
in its truest form.
The roads a mother takes determine
many of the roads her child will wander down
after being born.

I have taken paths that brought me shame
and truly reaped my just reward
for tarnishing my father's good name...

I have walked each road in life trying to
make something, in another's life better
per chance some kind deed on my part
might spare another the bumps in life
that I fell into -and save them from
having to endue a broken heart.

I know both side of life, from walking
and sometimes moving to fast, into the
future from the past.

When standing at the cross roads in your life
make sure to follow your heart's directions-
raise high your shield of faith, and try not
to walk to fast.

Never forget if a mistake in life is made
Don't give up on reaching your star
Learn from your mistake.
1:06 pm April 30, 2021

God has never
deserted me
or left me alone
in my time of need.
He has special
angels, day and night,
watching over me
from his beautiful
garden in eternity.
10:59am April 27, 2021

I will endue
my heartache
and pain-it's
a small price
to pay for the
joy of having
you in my life
before unseen
hands carried
you away...
10:51am April 27, 2021

I know my tears
cannot bring you
back to me
but tears are my
way of releasing
some of
the heartache
I've endured
since you lay
dying on the
highway, and I
COULDN't tell
you how much
your presence
[and love] in my life
meant to me,
before the angels
sent from heaven
gather you up in their
arms and carried
you away.
10:45 am April 27, 2021

Being your mama
when you went away
a piece of me went
with you.

The light of love
born when giving
birth to you
has never dimmed
or lost its glow.

Tho you were not
a flower growing
alone in the
beautiful flower
garden God created
from inside my womb,
and turned into
a love filled home.

You were a beautiful
flower, I called 'my child'
you were special standing
in a crowd or all alone.

I regret not one moment
of having your presence grace
my mama's bouquet...
My only regret is taking your
specialness for granted before
you went away.
10:32am April 27, 2021

Let your heart decide
what is most important
in your life.
To do otherwise
is to err.
An err you may
one day
look back on
with regret.
Tho lovers drift apart
and deny love
The heart ,if it was love,
will never forget. the
one who gave their love
to you.
11:47pm April 25, 2021

Walk when you want to run
through the day....
The faster you walk
the faster time slips away. jt
April 22, 2021

This day holds
all that we are
walk into it unafraid,
head held high
to show the world
the better side
of who you are.
Dare to love
dream, and keep on
following your star.
9:08am April 21, 2021

One Thought

It takes one thought
to set action into
Thus by one thing
set into motion
evolved today's battles
fought with mind
and machine.

The illusion of sanity
in an insane world
welcoming innocent
bystanders in.... as
new blood in the chain
of lies.

Created in the minds
of men.

Far off in the distance
mothers wailed in anguish
on hand and knee
arms raised toward heaven
on the ground where
innocent lay buried....
nothing more but a
mother's memory.

The women prepare for war
against the minds trapped
inside the evil machines
determined to destroy and
put to rest, the evil created
by a thought, in innocence,
that grew to be the greatest
threat to humanity.

Be careful, when putting a thought
into action...what we think
and act on has the power to
grow out of our control.

8:52am April 21, 2021

Love moves the better part
of each of us....
Without love one's flame
of life burns out, never
knowing the value of nurturing
love inside a beating heart.

Love has many ways
of showing love ....
But love is only love when
it stems from a caring heart.

The inner eyes can see things
the outer eyes cannot see.
Love is nothing more than
a feeling the heart recognizes
7:26pm April 20, 2021

Spread your wings
it's time to fly
to live life, free
until it's time
to die.

We all are fallen
angels who like
to believe by being
a caring soul today,
all our sins have
been washed away...

That faith in a god
one cannot see
makes one heaven ready...

Woe, be to him who
thinks time is on his
side...No one knows
the appointed time to
take the last breath
before we die.

There is hope for the
sinner, but that hope
rests not in this world.

Not in the things the
eyes can see ...

Hope rests inside the heart
of the sinner-who strives
every day to be worthy of
the light guiding his way.

Do the best you can
in the day.

Accept, that what has been done
has been done, and walk straight
into tomorrow, knowing faith,
in a god one cannot see
is the only key to eternity.

Raise high your Shield of
Faith...Faith has the power
to change unchangeable things.
6:58pm April 20, 2021

Don't accept the things
that break your heart
as things you earned...
No one is perfect
No one is suppose to be
Don't let the criticism of
others get you down
about who you are...
No one worthy of friendship
would ever, knowingly,
hurt a friend....
A friend is a friend
through thick and thin...
One who knows you are a friend
who will always be there for them.
4:24pm April 20, 2021

Some times
in the quiet time
a beautiful memory
is made, without
doing anything more
than looking out
ones front door.
Nature has a way
of touching our life
and putting sunshine
into a rain soaked day.
3:27pm April 18, 2021
[7 of my neighbor's peacocks came to visit me today.]

Lord, my journey
on this earth
has been a long one
Since the day I was
born, and placed
in my Mama's arms.

Not always did I
deserve the loving
parents you loaned
to me
to help me learn the
things about life
That they believed
every child would

Life moved at a slower
pace when I was child
and my future meant
little to me...

Each day I woke
feeling safe and loved
what more could
a child want or need.
3:21pm April 18, 2021

It's been a day or two
since I shared
my thought with you.

My heart has been filled
with so much to say
The words would not come
until today.

I awoke to a quiet, peaceful
world all around me...
with me, and the good Lord
to keep me company.

The rain brought with it
yesterdays' memories...
of the people and things
in my lifetime
that, together, helped to
create the faith living
[today] inside of me.
3:10pm April 18, 2021

Evil will always
find ones weak spot
be prepared to fight
the enemy
head on....keep faith
God sees and hears
all things...He knows
when and when not
to send more angels
your way.
We never have to
fight alone
under our Shield
of faith.
2:47pm April 13, 2021

Put heart into everything you do
A little heart can touch a lot of
10:05am April 13, 2021

Not always will a day
bring the sunshine
but a day will always
bring with it
another chance to be
and strive for a better
10:00am April 13, 2021

The Night Creature
There's a darkness in the world
that only a few can see through,
Heartless and vain the dark
creature moves, unhindered by
mortal man.

Unaware of the light's eyes
watching its every move the
black souled creature moves
toward an innocent child,
thirsty for just one taste
of innocence-before the light
overtakes him and strips the
dark away; before the lie
can conceive eternal night...
and outen life eternal flames.

The night creature dies
reaching for the light
he cannot obtain.
9:51am April 13, 2021

When one morns the
ending of one road
they often over look
the beginning
of another.

Life's roads are many
Long roads, short roads
and roads we never
travel down.

One makes a stop
or two... in life
that leaves
bitter-sweet memories.

Looking back one can
often find a little
regret that makes one
wonder, where they would
be today, if they'd chosen
to go the other way.

Yesterdays combined
brought us to today...
Yesterdays are gone
let them be.

1:17pm April 12, 2021
- Jan Tetstone

Love can conquer
the evil that walks
among men
dressed as caring souls.
Love has no beginning
Love has no end...Love
has always been
inside the hearts of men.
1:03pm April 9, 2021

Each of us carry light
and darkness inside
Each of us decide
the side we show
to the world
and the side
we want to hide.
A caring heart
will always choose
... to show
the better side.
12:59pm April 9, 2021.

In their shadows many walk
never venturing to stray
beyond the dark
where the sunshine lay.

Never to know the joy
of seeing their own image
created by the sun.

Never to know the whole
of themselves beyond the
dark of another's shadow.

Never to know the light
that was stolen from
the depth of their souls.

Wake, Oh sleeping souls
for the shadows you are
walking in belong to the

The truth of the matter
you think...
only you and the shadows

Darkness is the toll
for greedy souls....
Always hungry with an
un-clinch able thirst
for fame, power and gold
Never fully aware they've
been robbed by the men
whose shadows they live and
walk in.

12:43pm April 9, 2021

If you have never tasted
your own tears
you can not understand
the reasons that makes one

One cannot know
but the things
that affects ones
all else would be
to live and dream
another's dream.

Experience is the wisest
When one experiences
they alone endure the
good or bad experience,
they alone know the
feelings an experience
left them with.

Man is not a god
tho many would like all
to believe they are....

Follow the paths that
lay before you...
let others follow
their own.

The dreams of some
are the reality of others.

The value we place on
the lives of others
reflects in how we
choose to live our
own life.
11:39am April 6, 2021

Make a difference
in the worst of times
Stand for justice...
when others
find it easier
to keep silent.....
until injustice
reaches their door.

In doing what's
right today, tomorrow
justice will reign,
the destiny of humanity
to grow in wisdom, and
to thrive in peace
shall be safe..
10:09am April 6, 2021

 I set , listening to the birds
chirping just outside my window
as I search my inner thoughts
for words...and think how
peaceful the sounds of
nature are
by human thought.
Nature's God, never sleeps
while tending the soul
 of humanity....
Faithfully, rocking the cradle
of humanity.
9:52am April 6, 2021

Happy Birthday Daddy...
Just want you to know
I'm thankful that God
created you to be my Daddy..
In my eyes you were, on earth,
everything a Daddy should be....
Now, that you are my angel Daddy
watching over me... proudly I walk
in the shadow
beneath your angel wings.

You were and always will be
my hero, Daddy...
Thank you for always loving me
watching over me...and
 being my pillow of strength.
I love and miss you Daddy...
your memory never fades..
3:23pm April 5, 2021

I give thanks this day
for the years passed
for the children
who shared those years
with me...
For all the things
I once took for granted...
flowers blooming
filling my everyday life
with their colors
and beauty...
birds singing
happily as they
flew from tree to tree...
the laughter of the children
who brought so much
joy to my heart,
and shared the days
and years with me.
Never take those
who love you for granted...
love them, and hold them
close to your heart-every
chance you get...

Time doesn't stand still
for the young or the old...
cherish the moments
everything we call our own
in this life
is only ours on loan.
12:47am April 5, 2021.

Beneath a mother's
beating heart
- unheard-
the baby's cry... jt

The night has fallen
Sleep calls
but my heart don't
want to sleep.

So. I set here
in my rocking chair
wrapped in memories.
11;11pm April 2, 2021

When fear overshadows
everything loving and decent
the doors to demons open....
And one's life is redefined.

Remember, in theses times
that strength will never
desert the faithful.

Tho, life has many doors
we choose the doors
we walk through.
According to
the love inside.

There's nothing to fear
but fear itself ...We
are all born to live
and die.
2:31pm April 2, 2021

When eyes are closed
one is sleeping,
or trying
to shut out reality.

Like a child lost
on foreign soil
humanity wades
the sands of time

never knowing
where he's going...

Until the last grain
of sand falls
on a new day
and all things old
have passed away.
12:11pm April 2, 2021

Everything in life has
its reason, its time
and its seasons.
Everyone in life
are born equal
(in spirit)
but not all
in life will be
spared the tears.
Not all will live
to grow old .
It is in our
 saddest times
that God tests
our soul.
12:25am April 2, 2021

I am but the essence of all
that was, all that is, and
all that will be
set a drift on life's sea.
My journey, yet,
is still a mystery.
The depth and width of
who I am rest within
And beyond me..
What will be
Will be...
6:33pm March 31, 2021

The flow of human thought
sometimes get out of tune with
the rhythm of the human heart.
In trying to sort out
the good from the bad,
the heart, every now and then
skips a beat...
When two memories collide
each process the power
to call forth life's storms or
 turn life into a gental [gentle] breeze.
5:42pm March 31, 2021
un gental de gente a mass of people

Humanity is divided
by the very thing
that should join
...to serve
the needs of any
unable to communicate
because of the language
barrier that was
created long ago
to hide secrets of old.
Secrets used by demons
from hell
to destroy a man's soul.

The god that I follow gives
the faithful the heart to
make it known-
as different as we are
Love has a language
of its own.
11:52am March 30, 2021

When one does all one can do
to make the world a better place
that's enough for God.
The strongest thing about the flesh
is the faith one carries inside.
Hard times are for remembering
that the angels of God still
walk among men.
Let tears fall not without
there will always be things
that can be learned from
our strongest and
our weakest times.
1:36am March 30, 2021

I woke to the wonders
of the day....the magic
in the moment
when my eyes opened
to the paths of life
that lay before me.
And I give thanks
for the guiding hands
of the angels
who walk with me.
12:01pm March 29, 2021

weaving themselves
back and forth
across my heart
as I wait for what
I do not know.

Faithfully, I follow
my heart when my mind
cannot see beyond
the moment.

Time takes much
but leaves much
to ponder in the
quiet time.
Be true to who
you are.
Dreams do come true.
11:37pm March 28, 2021

When time stops
on a tear drop
When life comes
to its end
and another life
When the heart
beats for the
last time...
and no one
notices you're
When your voice
becomes a gentle
gently through
the minds of men,
a reminder that
every thing has
a beginning
and everything an end.
Old is but a flicker
of light- destined
to burn a flame again.
6:14pm March 27, 2021

In The Wrong Hands
To many words have been written
to many changes in what was did,
what was said,in another day and
time....to make any sense.
What do you mean?
The pen truly is mightier than
the sword...
A sword kills the flesh. A pen
in the wrong hands can change
history and mankind's destiny.
Words are meaningless left
From the lips of the pen
many a brave soul has been slain
and many a heart broken.
Be careful when writing stories
meant to entertain...
For writing is a dangerous game...
that can destroy man's reality.
1:03pm March 26, 2021

In the darkness of the night
in dim light, I can't help
wondering if I am worthy ...
As dark as my life, at times
has been...as tarnished
as my spirit's cloak
do I process the strength
to aim life's bow, and
prick the conscious of the
giant oak called 'humanity'?
Will but one rise up with
spear in hand to defend
the future's right to be?
In an unsuspecting world
will dreams out reality?

Let each heart judge
Remembering always
where love is
peace will be
waiting quietly
to be set free...
to blossom like a flower
wherever there's a need.
11:26pm March 23,2021

Today, I sit and ponder
what brought the world
to this day...
What happened to
the caring souls
that once kept things together
when things were drifting a part
and love begin to fade?
Where are the kind spirits
that walk among men?
Those who dare to raise voice
step forward and raise a hand
to make the world a better place
for themselves...
and the offspring of man?
Let all who hear heed the cries
for peace the wind carries
through every land.
11:08am March 22, 2021

My heart can still love
tho emptied out a lifetime~
To love is to care beyond
the space one fills.
To feel through heartache
to endure what is ~knowing
in the end that love and
caring walk hand in hand~

Never stop caring~ without
love moving each heartbeat
we are all empty and void
inside~ cold beyond the
winter time~ betrayed by

Look beyond your wants
to the needs of others.
True happiness comes from
sharing the love we carry
in our heart.
10:47am January 8, 2021

Keep faith when doubt
enters in...
Keep faith when the wind
seems stronger than you
can walk in...
Keep faith when the
weakness in you gets you down
Keep faith always.

Faith makes troubling times
Faith has the power to
change the course of ones life...

Keep Faith in the one true God
who walks with you everyday.
Keep faith~ miracles stem from
the faith one carries inside.

With all your heart hold
to your faith... Faith will
carry you through the
darkest day.
9:30pm January 8, 2021

Life has been blamed
for good and bad things.
The results of "choice"
give our life its meaning.

Life is a journey we all
travel through
a journey that takes us
to where souls come together
reuniting with eternity.

Walk the paths of life
choose wisely the paths
you walk
be ready always~ for
the winds of life to change.
7:45am January 7,2021

The shadow of yesterday
Lives in time
a blanket of love
watchful, always
from the place of
heavenly peace.

Stay strong in your
faith. jt
January 6,2021

The Path of Time
Time has no beginning
and no end...
Only in time can one find
the full measure of a lifetime.

Hidden by time all things
man seeks/sought to hide...
deep in uncountable moments
rest uncountable lives.
the measure of which only God

Worry not about what lay ahead
and what you crave for in

Today, the moments of time
one by one belong to you~ to
enter in.

Cherish the moment~ putting
into each moment the best of
who you are.

You are a part of time~ un-end-able.
The moment belongs to you
The path of life lay at your feet.

Choose wisely, dear loved one,
where you place your feet.
8:50am January 6, 2021

When memory recalls
times of old
That leave a bitter taste
deep inside your soul~
Shake free from the memories.
Decisions made dictate
what the future holds~
Make no mistake, more lives
than one is at stake...
When much thought was't/isn't
put into the decisions one makes.
What happened in the past
can haunt the day~
break hearts~ un-thought of
at the time~ the choice was

Live life to the fullest
Learn to live with any
mistake made in
another day and time.
January 5, 2021

Beauty is in the eyes
of the beholder,
It was first said
many years ago.

But when life
takes its toll
the eyes don't see
as clear the beauty,
in the world or
the beauty of ones soul.

The years mar the
memory of man.
Nothing can fade the
Beauty God created
in man's soul.

Yet, not all have
the ears to understand
what the eyes cannot see,
and lose sight of the beauty
behind each heartbeat.
-Jan Tetstone
8:25 am January 5, 2021




Porch Thoughts

O tears inside of me
wash over heartache's
Flow free, fall that
my inner self might find
For nothing in life
comes easy when one lifts
not the load one must carry
to reach their dream.
Fall O tears
for heavy is the burden
weakened by the worldly
surrounding me.
Fall O tears of mine
that peace might calm
the raging sea....and
my soul might find the peace
that's reaching out to me.
12:35pm October 12, 2020
-Jan Tetstone

Time does not stop with the ending of a storm
when a baby is born or just because we want it
In time clouds form preparing for a storm....
In time we each are born and placed in another's
In time we grow to be the reflection of time's toll
on our life and soul.
Yet, time is not to blame for who, after birth, we
came to be.
In time we live with time-and with time,from time,
we learn the things that life holds in secret until
we enter in; our future waits for time to pass
so the future can be created by the times of old-
to hold the best and worst of who we are - as our life
in time draws closer to its end.

Time was before we were born
and will be life's moving force
long after we are gone.
8:26am Oct 7,2020

As we grow thus we become
the seeds of life yet to come. jt
When times are darkest, lights shining
from afar touch us and seem much closer than
they are.

Let your lamp of human kindness
light up the world around you
and the love that fills your heart
shine through...
for the world is in need of the love
that feeds the world through you.

Let yesterdays rest in peace for all
in them were created by your presents
passing through.
Long not for what might have been
strive to obtain those things worthy of
your love and care.
8:46am Oct 7, 2020


The quickly fleeing rain
came long enough to bring
and leave behind a sense
of being,a sense of peace
a sense of being a part of

The light of the sun on a drop of rain
is much grander than any sparkling star
that the darkest night could bring.

The feel of rain on the hottest day
changes many things.

The rain washes the outer man but
cannot touch ones inner side.

Many thirst for things rain cannot
satisfy...t'is the way of things.

If rain drops were drops of gold
many would still go wanting.
-Jan Tetstone
August 31, 2020 1:25pm


Morals it has been said
time and time again
evolve from the values
that stem from within.

Life is its own teacher.
To follow another's values
one must devalue personal
beliefs, in favor of another's

In my world, opinion has no
power over common sense
or good judgment.

Never let another's doubts
and beliefs dictate how you
should live-what you should
think-and what you should

Is God real? For me, my god is
as real as the air I breathe.

My life is mine, my thoughts
are mine and my faith belongs
to only me. -Jan Tetstone
12:32pm August 26, 2020

Sleeping Souls Of Humanity

Hidden beneath time's ghostly past
layers and layers of deceit
nurtured by the worst in men.

O pasts gone by, release their memory
to the grave; let lay the evil deeds
done in the name of want and need;
bring an end to what once moved through life,
carried by deep rooted greed.
For, no man is worthy to be remembered
who causes his country grief.
Shake free O time from the ghostly
hands of greed.

Let rest the souls who paid the price
for another's life of luxury..
For all are equals in death and process
no power over the living, except their evil
desires left on earth, that continue
to breed the image that somehow the worth
of the living is based on the blood
that runs through ones veins.

Awaken O sleeping souls of humanity
Let sleep the souls of the dead; for just
as one is remembered for their deeds of
kindness ;let us not forget, the evil that
spring up, and was left behind by darker side.

Let the past reap the rewards for its own deeds
Let the living carry the torch of light,
according to the light inside each.

The evil that consumes worldly things in not to
be found in the world, but inside each of us.
-Jan Tetstone
10:20am August 8, 2020

Patriot's Heart

We will bury you from within and never
lay hand on you
was the Nazi threat to the American people
living under the Red, White and blue.

Socialist/communist have proven to be
the greatest threat to life and liberty
Long have Americans who love living free
fought the communist to save liberty.

The weeds of communism thrive on plucking
away at the legal safeguards put in place
to protect freedom press, freedom speech,
and religious liberty.

Where are the safeguards now!?

The safe guards rests safely inside the
patriot's heart...

The threat to bury the American people
from within can only happen when Americans
stop rearing patriot women and men.

God Bless America and all who struggle
against the deranged part of humanity
in the name of life and liberty.
-Jan Tetstone
9:43am July 23, 2020

Today, I thought back to a time
much different than the one
I awoke to...
A time when the average person
wasn't so easy to fool.
Yet, I know in my heart
that the spirits of those
dear souls lingers on
and their spirits walk this land
with me
ready to defend those things
dearest to their hearts
that only the angels
can know and see.
Be not fooled into
giving your soul away
It matters : ones beliefs and
and how one chooses
to live in a day.
8:43am June 29, 2020

For 45 years, I have walked through this world missing you
You were more than my daddy...you were my hero.
I'm sorry I took you for granted, but I thought you would live
forever, and I'd never have to let you go.

The passing of forty-five Father's Days without you
proves I was wrong.
I want you to know I've never stopped loving you
my daddy and my hero... I miss you so.
Happy Father's Day.
6:04pm June 21, 2020

Ninety years ago, today, you were born
to one day give birth to me
and I was born to look back, as I'm
doing now; to the time you made my
world safe, watched me grow and nurtured
the spirit in me to know the importance
of love and family.

I thank God every day for the time we
spent together before you went away.
Because of you Mama, I have managed
to pull myself up from the pitfalls
in my life....
Because of you Mama, I know the
meaning of 'a mother's love.'

You were only fifty-seven
when God's angel handed you
your angel wing.......
My heart was broken in two
a part of my heart I sent
with you.

Because of you Mama
I am who I grew to be
Knowing every day
You will always be
a part of me.
Happy Birthday Mama
I love you always.

Alone I set with sights and
sounds of things going on around me
Thinking on, and remembering the
way things use to be.

Yet, I am not alone
as I am reminded of the one who
shares my burdens with me.

Ten babies entered this world
through my womb
Two left much to soon...

The others left me, each in turn,
as they grew older, day by day
And their childhoods faded away.

I've had my share of heartache
and often did go astray, but
no matter what, Jesus was with me
every step of the way.

Though those of this world may
wipe me from their day, and I may
appear to be all alone
Jesus is my dearest friend
and will guide me the rest of
the way home.
1:00pm June 14, 2020

Happy 40th Birthday daughter
It seems like only yesterday
you were born and placed
in my arms......
I did not see you on your
special day but want you to know
My thoughts and love are with you
wherever in life you go.
I love you more than words can say.
June 13, 2020

My baby son turned 34 today....
I don't see him anymore so I will
write this Birthday wish anyway.
I wish you a happy life-
and may each day be filled
with as much love and joy
you once put in to my days
I love you always- forever
and a day.
Happy Birthday.

11:28 pm June 9, 2020

Sitting beneath heaven's sky
I caught a glance of reality
with my inner eye.
To fast life slips away
and the chances to make
happy memories fade.
There's peace to be found
in a world gone astray---
if ones life is guided by
inner faith.
1:40 pm June 3, 2020

RIP Michael
There are no words to describe
the empty space you left behind
a void no other could ever fill
I missed you the moment
God called you home,
I miss you still sweet angel
I love you and always will.
10:22 pm May 29, 2020

We all have a path to follow and a journey to make
The journey's end is shortened with every breath
we take.
When our paths cross we share everything but
the space we occupy...
When our lives intertwine, for a time, we share
our thoughts, dreams, and life.
If, in passing, we fall in love, and give our hearts
to each other, blinded by love,
we forget there will always be some loves that break
our heart-not for lack of love, but because some
people are destined to grow apart.
We all have a time to live, love and be happy
before we die-just as true-We all have a time to cry
and question 'why?'
6:19 pm May 26, 2020

As I set here looking out the window I see my work's
reward; where once only grass and weeds grew, grows
squash, cucumbers, okra, and corn.
Every day, my table shall be blessed ...and
I shall be thankful for the blessings, I reap every day.
Faith, and hard work have their rewards.
6:34 pm May 26, 2020

Tho I did not see you on your
43rd Birthday
My Birthday wish for you
comes from my heart
May you remember on this day
the sound of my heartbeat,
and feel my love in the breeze
touching your face.
I love you my first son,
not less, but more
Happy Birthday...
Love you always.
7:47 pm May 21, 2020

Today,I found unrest
in everything around me
that once brought me peace
Then I realized it was
just the negative in me.
God, I need your help
this day putting the negative
Touch my heart with your
loving hand, and ,once more,
make me stronger than I am.
8:55 pm May 15, 2020

Never let yesterdays tears
Wash away your happiness
today or in the coming

Wasted time robs the heart

Linger not, with your mind,
with those things left behind.

Don't let the world rob you
of the most important things,
that are not of this world.

Walk up-right always facing
head on what comes your way.
8:31pm May 14, 2020

I tried to teach the children of my womb
to value each other, in their lives and
in their hearts.
To remember as the years fly by that
ones brothers or sisters are worthy
of being loved, whether together or a part,
That words said in anger will never hurt
as long as the pain of losing a brother
or sister to the grave will....
It matters not your relationship with me,
here on earth, for not everything will
be as it seems.
Now, each of you must strive to steer
your own children toward their heart felt
dreams.....many times your heart shall be broken.
Many times you will question whether or not
you chose rightly for each child...Then your
children will, much to soon, grow up and away...
And it will be the things taught to you
in your own childhood that will often come to mind
the many times your heart gets broken, and
looking back, to when your children were small,
you know in your heart it was all worth it; and
you, like me, would happily, spend your life
raising your children, again.
6:44 pm May 11, 2020

Happy Mother's Day-
My mother pictured with 5 of my children .In the 1970s

Today, there are no words
beyond those rooted inside
my heart that have no voice.
Thoughts of yesterday, tomorrow
today, and the moment I am in.

Thoughts of life's beginning
and life's end.
Thoughts of eternity and
thoughts of the world I'm
living in.

Thoughts I carry with me every day
some never to be given voice
Thoughts I shall carry to the grave.
9:36 pm May 8, 2020

I love you with a mother's heart
whether we're together or apart.
Once I could follow the path your
feet took with my eye sand if I saw
danger, take your hand and guide
you another way.

I love you with a mother's heart
whether we're together or apart
Today you are grown and out on your
own and your feet go the way you want
them to... I 'm no longer with you
to help you choose.

From afar I keep my eyes on you
From a distance I see, with my heart's
eye, angels walking next to you.
I love you with a mother's heart
whether we're together or apart.

Thou the path you take may lead you
further from me, my mother's love
will follow you into eternity.
9:16 am May 8, 2020

Faith in God is a
powerful thing
Waste not - want not
Faith is not faith
unless its stems
from the heart. jt

Twenty-seven years ago today
I touched your flesh
Your small hand
that if you had stayed
would be wearing a wedding band
today... for all to see.
But, that was not to be
The mortician forced the wedding band
on your finger....you took it with you
into eternity.
To say I don't miss the sight
of you walking toward me,I WILL
For, my angel, though you were
only on loan- while you walked
this earth-you were mine.
6:16 pm May 6, 2020

Never take for granted
those dearest to your heart
For, unexpectedly, things
can happen,that makes your
world feel like its coming apart.

Keep your shield of faith
over all that you love
all that you hold dear.

Never take the love and peace
around you for granted....
for many a happy moments
has been over shadowed by,
unexpected, heartache and tears.

Accept, not defeat in trying times
hold to your faith, believe with your
heart, that God will calm the storm
and keep loved ones safe.

Never doubt, the power of heart felt
11:23 pm May 3, 2020

This moment is the beginning
of all that is to come.
Be thankful for the moment
in this day
For it is the the moments
all that we are, shows
through our faith. jt
11:17 am April 29, 2020

Who would I be if not for where I've been
I would be the innocence of my youth
Untarnished by time travels
I would be the whole of me
unmarred , filled with love, hope
and peace.
Yet, to need understanding,
for in my innocence
I was a part of everything.
9:21 pm April 18, 2020

Being disconnected from the outside
world give one a clearer picture
of life...
With nothing to distract from a far
the web of life unfolds from the essence
of who we are.
No stranger to distract from
the view ones eyes gazes on
no pretending-just
the nakedness of being alone.
9:02 pm April 18, 2020

As I watch the unfolding
of deceit on human kind
It's hard to believe how
many closed minds
are willing to let others

Death is a by product of life
Eternity rests on what we believe.

Awaken from sleep....

Today is not
the thief of yesterday's dreams
Hopes and dreams stem from within
one must build on their dream
until the dream becomes a reality.

This world has no power over the
spirit of man...
Raise high your shield of faith
Tho there be many religious beliefs
There be only one god at the helm
of every thing.

A religion that teaches
hate and division is
worldly created; from the
beliefs and teachings of

Peace and love cannot be
created in the world; Peace
and love stem from the
hearts of men.

Walk not the path of fear
Walk the path the faithful
are called to follow.
12:18 pm April 8, 2020

A man without a heart
is a shell of a man...
Empty of emotions
that make one human.

Builders build
dreamers dream
doers do.

Good needs no excuse
for kind deeds done.

The rich are the worst
kind of thieves...

Greed is a bottomless pit.

Truth doesn't stop being the truth,
when told in a different language.
10:56 pm April 7, 2020

It's never to late to
reach out a helping hand,
for the right of a matter,
to take a stand.

There are to many self
appointed judges ,who judge
blindly the degree of good
in others; and another's sin,
Forgetting there will be only
one judge setting on the bench
in the end.

If people knew the effect
heartlessness played in the lives
and hearts of the best of men....
Love would weed out the heartless
And those without hope
would find reason to hope again.
12:22 pm April 7, 2020

As I set here
In the stillness
of the night,
my heart has a need
to put voice to the
feelings I have inside.

God has let me live long
and in living my life,
I have met friends and foes
at the crossing of the roads.

I learned much in 71 years
much more than I would have
chosen to know.

But it is from living and
surviving I learned to value
the knowledge life holds.

No one can understand what
one has not experienced...
Without having freedom taken
away ,one cannot truly
treasure the freedom one has.

Without losing a child, one
cannot truly know the void
and loss, one who has, endures.

There are so many things some
take for granted ...

Life is a gift. Don't take life or
liberty for granted.. Many have
fought and died for the right to
live free.

There's a reason why survivors
survive...When the time comes
you'll know why.

The world created survivors
God created the world.
2:23 am April 7, 2020

Daddy was my hero
He unknowingly
by his mere existence
in my life, nurtured
the fighting spirit
in me.
Today is my Daddy's 97th
He was only 52 when he
went away.
I will never forget the tears
that fell from his closed eyes
as his spirit crossed over
into his eternal day.

Happy Birthday Daddy
I love you today
and always...It seems
like only yesterday
that you went away.
10:13 pm April 5, 2020

I woke to the sound of rain
and fell to sleep again
I woke to the sound of birds
singing in the morning, and
lay thinking about the day.

I raised up from my bed, put
my feet on the floor, thanked
God for another day, and asked
Him to prepare my heart and soul
for whatever life sent my way.

Let me not forget the lessons
life tested me on, that brought
me to this day; the dark times
I traveled through :the many times
pieces of my heart were left behind
on my way back to you...

Let me remember always to be thankful
for the smallest of things as I continue
my journey through... and let me not
in my time of need- lose my faith in you.
11:55 am April 5,2020

Lord, I need not put voice
to what I feel in my heart.
It's not the first time
I've wiped tears away....
Will I never learn to accept
there are those such as I
who are different from the norm
Who care -because if we stop
caring, life would be meaningless?

As you can see my heart has
once more opened self-pity's door.

Help me accept the imperfections
in myself and those I love.
Give me understanding and make
me wise enough to see beyond
my own tears - for I'm not in
this world alone, we all have
a burden to carry; we each seek
to be loved, and to find inner
10:26 pm April 4, 2020

If one has God in their life
everything in that life is
engulfed in love, and mercy.

When times get dark, and evil
abounds, the faithful's lives
are covered by angel wings,
and the Light of God can be
seen, filling the lives and homes
of the faithful with blessings
that no man with an evil spirit
can destroy or take away.

Lack of faith has hindered many
from receiving the Light of faith
that holds the power to miracles
and all good things.

The evil in this world thrives on fear
Fear not! For, evil has no power over
a faithful man's life, unless, a man lowers
his shield of faith, and evil catches him

Fear not things of this world for the spirit
is not of this world; follow faithfully the paths
of old--for this world is filled with trickery
intertwining with just enough truth to deceive
even a wise man.

Walk in faith; never doubting God's power to save
you from the evil seeking to destroy your soul
every moment of every day.
12:50 pm March 29, 2020

Today is almost gone and tomorrow
is drawing near...
The labor of the day remains in
the day...The sweat on my brow
has dried in the sun now
faded away.

Now, it's time to rest the aches
and pains of my labor...
and think on what I will plant
in the turned soil...
As tired as I am ..
I have the satisfaction of knowing
I have created a place where
after the seeds have been sow
food soon will be growing.
8:25 pm March 27, 2020

I give thanks for this day
and all the blessings sent my way...jt

Today, like every day before,
I ask my god to guide me
to wherever He would have me be
to show me what He would have me do
to give me the wisdom, knowledge,
understanding and strength to stand and walk
the path of truth...
to send me an angel to watch over me
as I strive to be worthy of the love
He has always shown to me...
to open my heart, mind and eyes to
the things in this world that He would
have me see, as faithfully, I carry my
Shield of Faith, ready to meet my destiny.
3:14 pm March 23,2020

Don't let fear rob you of your commonsense
There is a truth for every lie, and a liar behind every lie. jt

Today the sky is cloudy-gray
waiting for the sun to shine
The world gone astray
collides with reckoning time.

For everything under the sun
there is a darker side
even silver and gold have a
darker side.

What lay hidden can no longer
hide, from the all seeing eye.
Not one speck of darkness
can escape truth's light.

For all now come face to
face with their inner demons
let loose out into the

Fear not the demons that belong to another
for your own demons have the power
to destroy your soul.

When the innocent cry for mercy
God's ears notes each cry, and His eyes
witness every tear that falls.

Wipe away the tears from another's
eyes, to keep thy own eyes dry.

Many soulless creatures wear the face
of innocence to betray moral eyes
but there is no light in a soulless
creatures eyes.
8:41 am March 18, 2020

When silent lay the moment
Listen to the beating of
your heart...
For only when the heart
is stilled by death
will hope for tomorrow
be put to rest.
Listen to the wind
and be faithful
to the belief that
love is the healer
of hearts
Faith is the key
to miracles
Jesus is the doorway
to God
and home is where rests

Waste not one moment
of life morning for things
that were never meant to be.

Let the light in your eyes
shine and the love in your
heart show.

None can take from you your
soul unless you betray it
for worldly things-and the
love in your heart grows cold.

God watches, and for a short time
you [and I] decide the destiny
of our souls.

Think not to out smart the god
that created you...for the eyes
that watches over us belongs to
the life giver-betray not your
soul. Let love lead you always
as you follower the path before
you; fear nothings of the world
For nothing in this world can
rob the faithful of the treasures
that awaits them after this world
fades away.

Live patiently, and faithfully
believing with your whole heart
that He who is in you is stronger
than he who is in the world.

May peace and comfort fill your
life, knowing, as you make the
journey home- with each
step you take-you are not walking
11:26 March 14, 2020 jt

I have never ate from a silver plate
Cannot imagine what it would be like
to dress in a beautiful gown and dance
on a ballroom floor...
But I have ate from paper plates with
plastic forks and spoons with the best of souls
and danced heart to heart, from time to time
- with love's arms around me.
11:57 am March 9, 2020

Reach out to what is in the moment
morn not for what is not there
grasp the love that is in the moment
for one moment can change everything
there is but a moment between life
and death-be thankful for each moment
that breathe life back into you...
12:05 pm March 9, 2020

I set here in my moment
giving thanks for all the moments
God has helped me through.
Knowing in my heart -without a doubt-
Jesus is in my moments too.
12:12 pm March 9, 2020

Life is like wind
A gentle breeze
carrying peace and
A stormy wind of
destruction that
reminds us of our
darker side ,like
our brighter side,
unseen by the
human eyes, yet,
moving and alive.
8:34 am March 3, 2020

Lord, help me through
another day
Let my hands do your
work, according to
your plan.
Let my feet follow in
the path you laid for
Let not my mind linger
in the past...
Let my spirit rise
above the worldly
Let not my memories
blind my eyes to the
needs of another
Let my heart not loose
its ability to care
And, Let me remember,
Lord, when darkness
fills my day-You will
never put on me more
than I can bear.
8:45 am March 3, 2020

Never compare your life with
another's broken life,
broken health or broken heart.
Grasp the moments given to you
Be thankful for all things
and who you grew to be.

Let your heart sing its own song
Blame not another for what was
or for the sun that did not shine
Mistakes comes from choices made
Put to rest things gone
that have the power to deprive
you of your happiness in the day.

Love ,given, remains, sometime
hidden beneath ones inner pain.

Be happy, not for others, but for
Then those who truly love you
will be happy too.
1:36 pm February 29, 2020

There's clouds in the sky today
that have turned the whole of
the sky to gray.
There's a stillness in the air
that allows me to see more clearly
the things setting there.
There's but the moment I am in
that allows the whole of me to begin
10:04 am February 26, 2020

I morn not for the dead but for the
living-who cling to the memories of
the dead, as a child clings to life,
and all in it for guidance.
The dead need not your tears for
their time in this life has been spent.

Love does not end at the graves where
loved ones lay; Love remains behind to
bring comfort to those who forget, the
soul rests not in the grave.

From dust, to dust, all who enter in,
must go.

It's never easy letting go of a loved
one-to late ,many think of the things
they'd change, if only they had the chance

Little do they realize, God's will will be
done, after our life on earth begins, and
when our life on earth comes to its end.

Remember, when tears threaten to tear the
heart out of you, that this world is a
testing field the living journey through.
10:25 am February 26, 2020

The rain drops hitting the roof above my head
muffle the thoughts in my head- and, at least for now,
call my attention back to reality.

If only, the rain could wash away the lingering
memories, that come out of hiding, every
now and then, and leave the most negative of them
washed clean.

Thank you, Lord, for the rain, and the time to gaze
out my window-while your love washes over me.

I have a need, to breath in the peace of you
for, you are the very air I breathe.
3:34 pm February 25, 2020

Some people thrive on fake and phoniness
while others struggle to understand what
is real and what is not.

Life is more than the world I and you
live in ;its more than a desire to obtain
things that create the look of having
more than an equal share of all that this
world has to offer.

Life does not always appear fair, between the
haves and the have nots ... the ones who have
silver and gold and the ones who process hearts
of gold.

Far richer is he who suffers in the flesh in
God's name than is he who never sheds a tear...

Let not the appearance of any deceive you, even
the flesh of ones flesh, was born to test ones
soul...to help the spirit grow.
12:05 pm February 25, 2020

Lord, it's not easy, starting over
When everything seems distorted
and nothing is as it once appeared
to be.

I know that nothing that has happened
or will happen to me, is without purpose
Guide me Lord to do your will...I accept
the price for believing in you...whatever
it be.

Watch over your faithful followers
answer each prayer according to God's will.
For, many have yet to be tested, and know
not, what waits to devour their faith and
draw the life's blood from their heart.
5:39 am February 25, 2020

I kept my word, and silent lay
in the grave, the whole of the

Tho it pains my heart to give
up what once was dearest to my
heart...I no longer feel the
need to pretend to be who I am

I no longer live my life for
the innocent who now must live
their own life, and follow the
paths of parenthood for themselves.

So much, I could say, that is
better left unsaid.
Live for the living
Let the dead bury the dead.

I would not change one bitter
word said in anger; or erase one
line of hate sent my way..
For, I no longer can feel the pain.

Life makes no promise the sun
will always shine in a day;
that every word spoken will be kind;
That the ending of life will be better
than the beginning of ones life.

You are each grown now-smile.....
You make the choices......You pay
the prices.

Love never turns to hate-love linger
waiting to be recognized.

Tho it may never be in this lifetime.

3:37 pm February 23, 2020

Pain that stems from a broken heart
is hard enough to bear-without
the hate, created by the pain, one
inflicts on one's self...
12:21 am February 21, 2020

Me on my 71st Birthday. With Billy (my son), and three of my daughters: Renee, Sharea, and my youngest daughter Katie. I'm holding my Grandson Mason Storm (Billy's son who underwent open heart surgery on Jan 21, 2020) God is good all the time.

It's a new day
the birds are singing,
happily, loud enough
for me to hear.
Yesterday, in the past
lay, with the darkness
of its time...

The things
that once broke my heart
are left behind.

Lord, You have always held
my hand; You have never let
me fall below who I am.

Thank you Lord for staying near
enough to my heart, that all
I have to do is turn to you,
in faithful prayer, to always see
you standing there to help me
through the things that's hard for
my heart to bear.
9:07 am February 20, 2020

As I journey on in life
let me not with sadness in my
heart look back on yesterday's
tear; for what is passed has
no substance in my today, but
what I give to it.

Life has many faces, many dreams
many failures, but life does not
end with these things.

Lord, let me see beneath the
shadow of doubt...to bigger and
better things.
9:16 am February 20, 2020

Camo Wings

Your life you lived
to the fullest
doing the things
you loved to do...

It was hard on your
children, when
your life in this world
was through.

You and I grew a part
tied together by the
children we both claim, in
our lives and in our hearts.

How could they possibly
understand, the pak we
made so long ago...
to stay together out of love
for each of them, and be their
for them- to watch them grow.

You and I knew, when the last
child left home, it was my time
to go.

I kept my promise, that's all
they need to know: we were both
there to watch them grow.

On Valentine's Day, God called
you away
Your children's tears could not
keep you here, Because
it was your time and you could
not stay.

Heaven needed another angel, and
God knew only the best would do
That's why He ordered a pair of
camo colored angel wings- designed
just for you.
11:35 am February 17, 2020

Each day is a blessing
Tho some may think
it a curse-
Never taking the time
to consider-
Things, as bad as they
maybe, could be a lot

Loved ones die every day
If you have been spared
the pain and loss
of having a loved one
Taken away...
Be thankful, but remember
At any moment-any day, in the
twinkling of an eye, any
of your loved ones
could be taken away.

Cling not so tightly
to a loved one
That you curse God
for calling in His loan.

Remember, we enter this
world alone, and leave
it the same way, when
it comes our time to be
called home..
11:28 am February 16, 2020

When things in life become a burden,
Turn to God and breathe peace in.
Not all who do you harm mean to,
Like you, they too are on a journey
in this world, we are all just passing

While people part at the crossing
of the roads...what love was shared
there lingers, long after people fade
from our life.

Bitterness has but one excuse for
being; often times love's sting leaves
a heart wanting more of the sweet.

There are those in life drawn through
life, their whole life through, who pay
a price for the happiness of others.
Who faithfully accept, that true happiness
waits in the past of all things.

I'm thankful, for the life I have lived
for each moment, I grasp, with each breath
I breathe in.

Thank you God for the tears that was used
to mold me into who I am this day.
12:11 pm February 15, 2020

The roads in life are many
The stops in life may be many
or few...
We travel the roads unaware
of the things we may
be called on to endure and do
It's not always clear where a
road ends-where we stop
could very well be,a delay,
where another road begins.

Often times one travels
blindly the paths in life,
and stumbles passed the places
where unconditional love waits.

Be careful, when traveling
Life's roads- Every step
one takes in life, lightens or
adds weigh to the burdens one
already bears.

If by chance you stumble over
another's heart, linger not
For hearts that break when
paths cross will mend...but
hearts that cling together
Out of duty, suffer long.
And are left empty
when the last road ends.
7:31pm February 14, 2020

I wonder, many times, why
my destiny pulls me away
from the worldly, to inner
places my heart once lived
Places that no longer exist,
yet, once did.

Lord, give me insight into
what was that I might brave
what is to be.

Keep your hands above those
who carry my heart with them
and guard their souls, as they
wade through life's seas.

The world has chained many to
the worldly, where my heart
no longer lives.

Today, is all there is Lord,
one breath the whole of me.
Let me not waste another moment's
thought on what was or what
will be..

Let me face head on, my destiny.

If I weaken on my journey
give me the strength I need
For, none but you know me
from the depth of my heart
None but you, understand the
things hidden from the worldly
None but you can calm the
raging sea-and fill my world
with peace and fill my every

Thank you for always being
there for me.

The world has blocked the
ears of many, from the songs
of life that many sing.

But the faithful hear, and
understand, there is but one
god over everything.

Be quiet, O soul of mine, let
each put voice to his own song
for each have a song to sing.
12:22 pm February 12, 2020

A rooster crows
An airplane in
the open sky.

The roar of the
plane fades away
Replaced by
a gentle breeze.

Lord, this day
I owe to you
For none but you
can create such
a soothing peace.
When you seek answers
Turn inward...
Ones faith does not
come from the worldly
Neither does the answers
to life's woes one seeks.

Ask God for guidance
concerning things
that trouble your heart
and mind...
seek knowledge and
In your troubling times.

In times that tempt your
soul to stray-let your faith
show you the way, in your
time of need, put your faith
in God, and let love lead.
The faithful are flicker of light
burning brightly from the same
Flame of life.
12:21 pm February 11, 2020

Another can hear a story told
and not comprehend the amount
of heartache and tears that
went into its writing.

Be not so quick to judge another
for life has many pages yet to turn
and more chapters to be written.

I choose not to be a part of those
things I know wait to break my heart.

I don't need more in this life
than I need...sunshine, birds singing,
flowers and, now that I am older, the
sweetest memories.

Only when one reaches the winter time
of their life, will they understand, why
life, like the year, has its seasons.

As much as I am hated, and misunderstood,
by some I poured my life and heart into,
I would not dare change anything, that
brought me to this day...and chance being
someone I am not...for others' sake.

Life is short enough..don't waste it
thinking about things in the past you
would change ,if you had it to live
over again.

Love can stand alone-and it often does.
2:14 pm February 11, 2020

The warmth of the sun beams coming through the glass
engulfs the tiny bundle...as what's inside
struggles to make itself known in its new world.

The trials and tribulations of life can wait
innocence prevails this day.
8:23 am February 9, 2020

Unseen presence
the feel of
something strong
enough to move
my heart,
surrounds me.
A baby sleeps
a few feet away
People passing
the glass windows
voices soothing
the woes of small
What unseen presence
brings you here today?

Hoover not so closely
to the places where
innocence lay... take
mercy on the babies
whose lives you
touch this today.
1:37 pm February 8, 2020

Each day we enter into
is the testing field
for our faith.

Hold to your faith
with your heart and soul.

The hardest tests are the
ones that test our faith
and our love for our god.
12:28 pm February 8, 2020

My heart is so happy
as I put my thoughts
to words...

Gentle the wind that
touches my world
with endless love and
wondrous peace.

Answered prayers
touching my heart
like a gentle breeze
Reminding me that
God is a god of love
and endless mercy
for all who believe.

Thank you, God, for
answered prayers and
the sense of peace
I feel in the passing
of the gentle breeze.
10:43 am February 6, 2020

One day at a time, knowing not
what the day holds for me
I carry my shield of Faith
unafraid of what I know not,
and cannot see.

For, God knows my heart
and my every need
When I am lost in life, God
sends His angels to find,
and guide me.

when I feel I can't take another
step God lifts my spirit up
and strengthens me.

When hard times break my heart
God gives me the understanding
my heart needs to mend.

When I cry, feel deserted, and
all alone...I know down deep
inside, that my tears will dry
if I lift my Shield of Faith high
and journey on.
9:23 pm February 5, 2020

I was born, to live and die
like all born are born to do.
I was raised to believe good
out weighs the bad, regardless
of what one goes through.

With loving hands to guide me
in my growing years, it still
took a lot of falling down,
heartache and tears, to teach
me "to myself I must be true."

There will always be memories
of tear filled years...but
there will always be memories
without tears, too.
11:26 pm February 4, 2020

Precious Child

I have loved you
longer than you
have lived in this

Before your first breath
Before your first tear
Before you became a part of
the worldly -you were
a part of me.

I have loved you, holding
you in my arms...just as I
loved you when you woke
and slept beneath my heart.

Now, that we have grown apart
I want you to know, sometimes
in life distance and time
Teaches us that just as we
entered this world alone
and we will leave this world alone,
there will come times in our
life , that we will travel
through life alone.

Remember, precious child, I loved
you before you were born- when
together- we lived as one.
- Jan Tetstone
9:33pm February 3, 2020

It is the beginning of a new day
as cold as it is, under the light
from Heaven, it's filled with
peace, and much hope, for the
warmth the day will send my way.
9:26am February 2, 2020

Yesterday, a piece of my heart
flew away, void of its rightful
place, my heart smiled at
the thought of what awaits at
the end of my heart's journey.

You can use my love to hurt me,
just as, no doubt, my love has
hurt you, else you would not
hate me so.

God, take my hand this day
Put understanding in my heart
for the road I journey down
is filled with unknown dark.

From my yesterday's
I enter my tomorrow
after passing through
the day.
Guide me ,Lord, the
rest of the way.
9:39am February 2, 2020

I alone control my destiny
be not quick to judge me...
My tears have bear witness
to my trials and tribulations
No less human than you
am I...
I have gained from life
and given back to heaven
my share of loved ones
and friends...
I have nurtured the future
and left yesterdays behind
I live one day at a time
Giving thanks for all
things....I love and
call 'mine."
11:52 pm February 1, 2020

With the years comes
of the things that
once seemed strange...
How could family desert
one of its own?
How is it excusable
for turning one out
into a world-and putting
them at the mercy
of a world gone a stray?
Today, I understand...
When life calls one
it is not always a journey
down the same path we
travel on...for, none travel
the same roads back home.
Love doesn't die it just moves on
Leaving memories of times
gone....for the lone
traveler...to find comfort,
in what once was, regardless
of what awaits tomorrow...
If love were so easily
destroyed, at the parting of
the roads ...where would love
go but back into one's heart
to nurture their memory?
10:01 pm February 1, 2020

A cow moo not far from my window
A bird tweets as if the song has
been forgotten.
A tweet here a tweet there but no
happy tune can I hear....
It must be the gloom of the day
A rooster crows
A car passes on the old dirt road.
3:01 pm January 31, 2020

There is no worse feeling
than blaming ones self
for the short comings and
failures of another.

That's where my mind is today
Lord, I have tried to mend
the un-mendable,,,,
I choose this day to journey on
and leave the un-mendable pieces
where they lay.

Give to me Lord the strength
to endure what has been broken
To take up my cross and move
forward beyond what was to where
you, Lord, would have me be.
2:12 pm January 31, 2020

I need not fear what my god
lays before me...for each step
brings me closer to my destiny.
3:15 pm January 31, 2020

Today, I thought
about family...
I thought about
and realized
strangers met in
passing are
potential friends
Family members
who grow apart
potential enemies.
After pondering
these thoughts
with a sad heart
I accepted that
my place in
other peoples'
that never was
never would be
if in exchange
I , again, must
become a stranger
to me.
8:42 pm January 30, 2020

My Thoughts Today

I am me
I am not you
I have walked
fires that you
may never walk

Oh, little child
where have you gone
you are no longer
your purity has gone
replaced by a shadow;
you wander through
life bitter, for you
cannot replace what
once was so full of
innocence... with the
nothingness, meaningless
emotions you keep trying
to hide, from the
eyes that can see.
9:57 am

Lord, let me not be fooled
by the cunningness that resides

None know what is hidden
in the brightness of day
waiting its time.

Judge me according to what
your heart tells you.

I choose to live alone
to be closer to my god.

Hate cannot hide from the
eyes of the hated.

Love cannot be killed
but love can be pushed away.

12:30 pm January 30, 2020
-Jan Tetstone

Lord, I know I've strayed
from the path you laid for me
time and time again.....
And after I've cried over the
mistakes I made
You have given me chances
time and time again.
I have learned much
while in your care....
it's so much harder to find
inner peace
without you being there.
7:40 pm January 15, 2020

Freedom Wasn't Free
The United States of America
What does that mean to you
Is it a capitalist country?
or a place where the dreams
of a poor man can come true.

The Revolutionary War
What was it fought for
For freedom of religion, or
so the haves could have more?

What does the Declaration of
Independence say, do you even
know, the mindset of America's
Forefathers who lived so long

Do you know, or even care, about
the price of freedom that the
first true Americans had to pay
for the liberty you enjoy today?

The Revolutionary war was fought
for freedom of people who
had created their own country,
free from the interference
of Kings and Queens...

The Declaration of Independence
Out ranks the US Constitution
because it recognizes all peoples
inalienable right to religious freedom,
life and liberty.

The Declaration of Independence
Did not conceive, in the blood,
sweat and tears of freedom loving
Americans, a country devoted to
the idea that Americans have a
duty to be "world policemen"

The First American cut free from
the bonds of living under the reign
of Kings and Queens.

I am proud to be an American
raised on what it means to live
on the soil, that so many Americans
died to keep free. -Jan Tetstone

12:34 pm January 3, 2020





In the quiet buds blossom
unhindered by sounds of life.
Blooming to share the beauty
untouched by worldly strife.

Quiet bears witness to unseen
beauty, that only the inner eyes
can see....
The beauty created by a loving
God that gives birth, in the
quiet, to one's inner peace.
-Jan Tetstone
1:19pm November 25, 2019

Never Alone

Loneliness is a sad place to be
I've been there a time or two;
Drowning in self-pity, forgetting
that Jesus has never left me
alone, to carry my burdens.
He's always been there for me.

It's easy to find short comings
in one's self- when loneliness
allows self pity to fill one's
mind with self doubt...
We are all on a journey, ups and
downs, is what life is all about.

There is no promise of tomorrow
or that one's day will be free of

When lonely times come around and
tears fill your eyes, remember the
love it took for Jesus to bear the
cross alone.

And the loneliness He endured to
ensure the faithful a safe journey
home. -Jan Tetstone
12:32pm November 10, 2019

For God

We end up where life takes us
regardless of where we were
when our life begin.

It's not the beginning that
counts in our life.
It's where we, as individuals,
stand at the end.

From humble beginnings
man has stumbled throughout
life, holding to his faith,
during happy times, and times
of heartache and strife.

But it is in our lowest times,
our greatest times of need
that God's angels come to
visit and remind us, that
the world is far from perfect
and our life is where it's
suppose to be.

If I am good enough for God
with Jesus by my side
I will journey through life
striving, not to please others,
but to please my god who has
long watched over me.
-Jan Tetstone
9:15am November 10, 2019

Like You Once Watched Over Me

I fly above the stars at night
intertwine with daylight's light
to brighten up your memories of me
when the world dims your faith,
draws tears from your eyes, and turns
your day into night.

I set next to you when you are missing
me, to touch your memory.

When you lay down at night, you don't
see me, but I'm laying next to you.

With out stretched wings, I cover you
with my love, as you kneel to

You don't hear me .but I ask my Heavenly
Father to dry your tears, give peace
to you, and to give you the faith and
courage to make it through another day.

May a smile always be found on your face
when you think of me....Think not that
I am gone....I am now an angel you cannot
see-watching over you like you once watched
over me. - Jan Tetstone
2:28pm Oct 23, 2019

Heart Felt Message

The people of the world are no longer willing to sacrifice that the rich can get richer, while the rest get poorer; While the elite have the best of everything, and many of the poorest have nothing but streets and wire cages to call 'home.'

God has blessed America; because the patriotic spirit still thrives in the majority of American hearts.

Freedom can not thrive in any country where greed sets at the helm of government; and as long as communism rules, ones thoughts and everyday life.

Take your country back by putting effort into weeding out any foreign owned banks and companies that have shown little or know respect for the values and traditions passed down from times of old.

Just by doing what the heart dictates is morally right, just by taking a stand for the right of a matter, thing change for the better, be it ,sometimes, slowly.

There is safety in numbers; but there is endless power in 'truth.'
The crumbs of life are sweetest when hope fills ones daily plate.

-Jan Tetstone
10:08am October 4, 2019

Angels Watch

Have you not the eyes to see
the black threads of light
lurking behind every silver thread
of sunshine?!
Have you not the ears to hear
the waves of tears drawing near?

The angels watch and the angels hear,
What will be, drawing near.

Have you not the heart to stand in
the waters, to fight and bend, with
the winds of time...to spare but one
kind thought for the stranger whose
heart has been broken...?

The angels stand in the trenches of
man's blood, sweat, and tears; unmoved
by the waters or the wind...to give
hope to those whose hearts have been
broken. -Jan Tetstone
5:42pm September 25, 2019

In the silence, I set, with quietness surrounding me.
With nothing but my thoughts to keep me company
In a world so quickly fading into a memory,
Clinging not to the worldly, I wait, faithfully, for
A tomorrow that may never be. -Jan Tetstone
1:02am September 22, 2019

Someone has to think about the future of today's children.
Who will it be? Who, besides the solder, will defend the
right of all to live and die free?
Are not innocent children worth the blood, sweat and tears
it takes to water the liberty tree?
Have we learned nothing from history!
As for me, like those who guarded liberty for me,
I am willing to sacrifice all, to insure future generations
inherit the torch of liberty -that all past, freedom loving,people
passed down to me. -Jan Tetstone
3:58am September 19, 2019

Thoughts of Mine

Keep faith in the day
turn not away from
the Light that draws
you on......
Believe with all your heart
in faith's power to heal
the outer you, and its power
to keep safe the spirit that
dwells inside of you.

God gives the faithful the
power to heal according to
ones faith.
3:22pm September 12, 2019

The test of ones faith
is an inner one.
Think not that man is god.
Science is the devil's tool...
Used to turn the most
brilliant mind
into the mind of a fool.
3:10pm September 12, 2019

Lord, The darkness that once slept with the stars
has betrayed the day. Light grows dim beneath an
empty sun, as the blueness of the sky fades to an
unnatural gray; Mortal eyes cannot see the invisible
armies of demons sent from hell to kill the soul.
11:27pm Sept 11, 2019

There is nothing more one can do
after all one can do is done.
Once a thing is done
it's always done, regards,
of the number of changes made.

Getting older gives one more time
to ponder life with heart and mind.
O how nice it would have been,
to know what I know now, way back then.

Believe with your heart- your beliefs.
5:56pm September 10, 2019

The fool is he who hides behind
flickering sparks of ignorance
-to feed lies to unsuspecting minds.
-Jan Tetstone
3:10pm,september 9, 2019

There Are
No one knows the hour
or the time that life and death
shall meet and loved ones
shall weep.
Worry not about the things
to come that you may never
Waste not a moment
worrying about unchangeable
Live in the moment
love in the here and now
there is no promise of life
after a breath is taken...
Life is much to dear and
the length of one's life is unknown
There is a time for every thing
under the sun....
Things that will and won't
get done...
There are reasons why
some give up, and cry over things
come and gone...
While others wipe away their tears,
lift higher their shields of faith
and journey on.
Faith comes from believing
in something greater than
we are. -Jan Tetstone
11:27 pm September 8, 2019

Ride the Winds

Every day is the beginning of old things anew
Wake, O soul , let me not walk blindly
in the day I'm travelling through.

Lift my spirit above the turmoil created by
doubt and uncertainty....
Show me the things I should do- that my
outer eyes may not see.

Fill my heart with love enough to ride the winds
of time and give me the courage to stand firmly
against life's rising tides.
-Jan Tetstone
3:16pm August 31, 2019

From a Trail of Tears

From a Trail of Tears
and so much more,
Love created a melting
pot of hope and peace.

Mended hearts, renewed
faith, the past lays
sleeping in yesterdays.

Hope for tomorrow was
paid for by a Trail of
Tears and so much more.

Hate and war cannot de-
stroy, the melting pot
created by love.

When are we going to learn,
the beast has always been
here, manipulating people, and
using hate and fear.

Wake up, open your heart,
along with your eyes

Stop blaming children for Crimes
against humanity and dignity,

Stop blaming children for the sins
of adult men and women
strive for a world where love, hope,
and peace lead...and the hearts of
men (as in humanity) opens to all,
regardless of color and creed.

Stop blaming children's crimes
against another's dignity,
on illiteracy...

Stop telling children
'all the world is underhanded'
then proclaim yourself a seeker
of peace.

Give children reason to believe in
better tomorrows.

Teach them that it's because of the
Trail of Tears and so much more
That Americans of the melting pot
have learned to respect each other's
right to life and liberty.

Teach children, by example, that love
has been, and always will be, the key
to peace. -Jan Tetstone
5:11pm August 20, 2019

I am French, Cherokee, and Irish.
This was written in response to a poem I read on a MWC board.
It's a waste of time to try to teach a heart writer rules for writing.. Smile. jt

Re: From A Trail of Tears /long poem
Reply #1 on: September 06, 2019, 08:54:20 PM
Reading this I understand why you call yourself a heart writer. The heart is indeed more powerful than the mind. It is through identification with the mind that most are unwittingly hypocrites. The world rationalizes and uniforms minds by coupling mind to the symbolized flows of conditioned values. Somehow we have forgotten we are not the mind, and most identify the Self with the egoic desires of the mind which seeks to consume the world for the benefit of its own body. It is the heart that transcends the mind, and lights the path towards a better world. This modern age is like a second Nimrod's Babel the world is a rationalized prison of exploitation. Unless we can learn to listen to our hearts, we will continue to allow our mind to delude ourselves and others.

Thank you for your heart felt and illuminating poem Jan

When night falls
day follows.

Forget not
day begins
with a single
heart beat.

Sky watches

Faith is its
own eyes.

Love remembered
is better than
never having
love to lose.

Reasons exist
for a reason
Reasons are
nothing more
than excuses
one makes
to lessen blame
for made mistakes.

Life has secrets
better untold.

Love is a part
of man's whole.

Love that is blind
is love that kills
ones soul.

Love, never expecting
love in return, has
rewards of its own.
August 15, 2019 12:21pm

When your world feels
Like its turned upside down,
Raise high your shield of faith
Put your faith in high gear
and turn things around.
4:01pm July 25, 2019

A place in which my life and my god
can exist as one, away from the negative
into which each were born to hunger for
the kind of peace, that feeds the soul
and strengthens the weak.

A place called "home" that's filled with
love, and covered with a blanket of faith,
that gives comfort to those who sleep and
wake cuddled to their inner faith.
3:47pm July 25, 2019

Love is shown every time
someone does something
for another with the best
of intentions...out of the
goodness of their heart.

Don't judge someone you
have no way of knowing...
we all have our trials,
and burdens to bear.

God is my strength
when I am weak...
My pillow of hope
when the worldly
makes me doubt the
sun will shine again.
The love in my heart
when I need a reminder
that love has the power
to change
The heart of humanity.
1:16am July 25, 2019

  Thoughts to Think On
In the end there will be nothing hidden...
the liar shall be overcome by the lies
told....and each man's life but a thread
to his soul.

The teachings of deceit shall shine under
truth's light...and the deceitful shall
learn, the price for filling the world and
the souls of the innocent, with the darkness
of the night. -Jan Tetstone
2:13pm July 1, 2019

Sentimentalist Writers

Critics [and some writers] throw the word
'sentimentalist' around like it's the
absolute devil...
Writings by Sentimentalist writers have
even been called 'terrorist activity'

Like the thought of feeling emotions is a sin,
Like it's wrong to write anything that might
cause people to feel, or start feeling something

I'm a heartwriter and writing from the
heart, is what I do.
It doesn't take asking a critic, for me
to know the events in my life, that tears,
love and faith, helped me through.

Without emotion-with ,only, reason to go
by.. written words would be cold...
Sentimentalist writers write with heart
and soul.

When written words move another in such away
as to: bring tears to their eyes; put a
smile on the face of one who hasn't smiled
in years...or cause one to be reminded of
their own humanness ...I fail to see where logic
and reasoning fit in to the telling part of
writing poetry or prose.

If one writes without emotion, how does it benefit
the reader...The disconnect of heart and emotion
from writing leaves the reader clueless, and lacking
in understanding, as to what the writer wrote about.

While not true of all writers-the majority of human
beings are Sentimentalists at heart.
7:49pm June17, 2019

Another Chance
I know not what this day
will bring
but it holds those closest
to my heart
and another chance
to be and dream.
-Jan Tetstone

Thoughts to Ponder

Look for the things in the day that
will touch your heart and give you
reasons to hope and dream-
put negative away.

As different as we may appear to be
we are threads, woven together,
hearts, minds, and souls
intertwined by life-
into the whole of humanity.
-Jan Tetstone
10:11am June 3, 2019

Moments Already Spent

Don't let yesterday's tears
rob you of happiness....
The past is gone, regardless
of how is was spent.

For every thing there is a time,
a season and a reason.
There is a time for love to grow
and a time for love to let go.

Live life moment by moment
One breath at a time is all we get.
Waste not a moment worrying
about moments already spent.
-Jan Tetstone
11:02pm May 5, 2019

Our Baby's Time

The sun was shining brightly
Flowers of every color blooming
Red birds and blue birds, together,
joyfully, singing... and two small
children laughing and playing...

"What's wrong Mama?" a little blonde
headed boy asked his mother, who was setting
in between him and his smaller sister, on the
back porch, with the ground under their feet.

The mother's arms drew both closer to her,
all the while ,she was asking God to help her
find the word to say.

"Sonya's gone...God took her to Heaven.
He takes babies from other families every day."

"Why did it have to be our baby," the little boy
wanted to know; tears streaming down his face...

"It was our baby's time." the mother said, praying
God would not let tears show on her face-and give
her breaking heart away.

Then an unmovable cloud fell over every thing...
Lost the peace and beauty of the day,
beneath tears that could not be wiped away.
-Jan Tetstone
4:07pm April 29, 2019

Happy 48th Birthday Sonya.....
Love you always, forever and a day. Mama

Others, Before Us

Others, before us, walked through life
Not knowing what lay ahead...
Many were homeless, beneath the sky,
a pile of leaves for a bed.

Many were not rich in worldly things...
But by the labor of their hands, and
the sweat of their brow, their families
were clothed and fed.

Many were lowly born, with, only, their
love for God and family, to keep them going.

Many a faithful soul, before us, endured,
in Jesus' name, that their offspring who
followed in their foot prints, might find
some amount of comfort
In the legacies they left behind.
-Jan Tetstone
10:12pm April 21, 2019

The Old Man

The old man, his body weak and deformed, from a long and hard life, set on the river bank.
Every day, since he was a wee lad, he had came to this spot,
to dream about his future or just too think.
Suddenly, the old man heard something falling through the tree
limbs above his head, his old weak-fragile limbs, hindered his escape.
The decayed old oak limb fell next to him.
Tears, streamed down his face, from his sky blue, tired old eyes.
The old man ,slowly, raised his boney-hand to touch the decaying limb.
A tear, making its way to the ground, fell on the old man's trembling hand.
"Lord... thank you.... for the strength, to make it here ..." the old man said, pulling the rope swing, attached to the old oak limb, to his bent over upper-part, and holding it against his clean- shaven chin.
They found the old man the next day, clutching the rotting swing, with the old Oak limb laying next to him.
-Jan Tetstone
12:51pm April 10, 2019

The Little Girl Dressed in Black 

A little girl, dressed up in black, from head to toe, watched quietly the scene before her unfold.
Standing in front of the flower draped casket, a gray headed man- with an open Bible in his hand,begins to speak, the little girl, who had been silent, until now, suddenly, raised high her small hand.
'Speak, my child.'

'Where is my daddy? Why isn't he here with me? He never lets me go places... Unless he's with me....'
The man did not answer, just stood there in a daze, as if he'd lost his voice.

The little girl's mother, who was setting next to her, took the little girl by the hand.
'Daddy was called away...' she said, wiping a tear from her eye.

'My daddy's gone!' the, teary- ey ed, little girl asked, staring up into her mother's face.
'Don't cry...'

'But I miss my daddy being by my side...' Another tear fell from her mother's sad eyes.
'Do you remember, what your daddy said, the last time he held you in his arms, and, jokingly, placed your hand over his heart?'
The mother's words brought a sparkle to the little girl's tear- filled eyes.
'Yes, I remember, Mommy, Daddy placing my hand over his heart. We laughed, and played hide-and-seek.....Sometimes, he hid so well from me.....I cried because I couldn't find him...'
The mother reached over, took one of the little girl's hands, and placed it over her heart.
'Then what did daddy tell you...precious child?'
Getting up from her seat, the little girl walked over to the casket, placed one hand on the casket, and the other hand over her heart.
'Daddy told me he loved me ... If there was ever a time we had too part....all I have to do is look for him... inside my heart.'
Turning to her mother, a smile on her face, out of the blue....
The little child said, 'Daddy told me, mommy, I can always count on you.'
Again, setting, down next to her mother. The little girl leaned over, and whispered in her mother's ear 'Don't cry mommy, daddy is not gone.'
Then, gently, placing her tiny hand, over her mother's heart...
'He lives right here.'
-Jan Tetstone
12:24pm April 5, 2019


Fantasy and Make Believe

I needed to see the world beyond me
how others live, believe, and, through
their eyes, see.

I wanted to know why some feed the
world, with pen, fantasy and make believe.

The power of words to create worlds is
nothing new...in ancient times foolish
men would come together, pens in hand,
talk for awhile, and pen words, like
those today do.

What is the purpose, of twisting reality?

After reading the words, penned by
mischievous hands, I begin to understand.

When ones world is incomplete, void of
human compassion- filled with emptiness,
creating a make believe world can give
one reason to live a loveless life, or
fill an empty world with imaginary bliss.

O foolish man, reality is for living, and
nighttime sleep for dreaming...
Fantasy and make believe for those who have
forgotten how to live.
-Jan Tetstone
11:41am April 1, 2019


Linger not in yesterdays...
Let not what is no more
steal your happiness away.
Waste not one moment
waiting for the past to
return what was lost to you...
For nothing in this world
stays the same...
Life is a journey
Life's roads change.
-Jan Tetstone
12:27am March 23, 2019

Seasons of Life

Life is a strange thing
Where flowers and weeds
grow together in Spring.

Where Summer and Fall
reap the joy and the woes
that living brings...

Where Winter appears
and the years turn into
precious memories, or
sad memories encaged
in frozen tears.
-Jan Tetstone

Life Is

Life is a never ending journey
filled with mountains to climb
or fall off of.....
Oceans to swim or drown in...
Flowers to pick or watch die
on their stem...
Hearts to break or hearts to
help mend...
Life is a never ending journey
of happiness or sorrow
filled with memories of yesterday
that gives one reason to give up
or hope for a better tomorrow.
-Jan Tetstone

Never allow worldly things to guide your actions
before taking the matter to heart. -Jan Tetstone

Flowers of Knowledge
Wake from your sleep O flowers of knowledge planted so long ago
Let the sweetness of your words flow. Hidden too long the wind of
understanding that rides the water but never touches it. Blow wind
sweep away the ignorance that traps love inside hearts.Rise up water
for the flowers awaits to clinch your thirst.Terry no longer apart
for your winds must be set free too cleanse souls. For, too long hearts
have mourned your passing and cried out for a sip of your water.
Wake from your sleep O flowers of knowledge planted so long ago.
Let the sweetness of your words flow, a reminder of the unseeable traps
laid to trap innocent souls.
-Jan Tetstone
10:55am March 10, 2019

Thoughts of Mine

Writers who create fantasy worlds , written on paper or air
to deceive humanity; to strip, even one, of their true
Identity- with the betrayal of words- shall find in the
end- truth's reality.

On the journey through life, minds weaken, over time, to
greed and lust, forgotten the superior mind of innocence;
left behind all sense of time, to live in a fantasy world
that was created, not by flesh and the labor of any part
of humanity- but by the darkness, encaged by flesh; a
tormented mind.

Innocence was born from words spoken before this world was
formed - any who find delight, striping away the purity,
first born by words-to be passed from man to man- shall
find in God's time- that hell waits not to burn the flesh
it waits, its time, to swallow up earths evil-tormented minds
Those who knew not that by their own betrayal of words, they
create for themselves, a living hell for all eternity.

Words have the power to create but words also hold the power
to destroy
-Jan Tetstone
11:27am March 7, 2019 

The Curtain

The difference between living in an
imaginary world and the real world:

0ne exists only in the imagination
and the only factual events are those
one often seeks to hide in their own reality.

When in reality, in the real world,
there is no escape from the real that
one faces daily.

The mind: the curtain between sanity and
-Jan Tetstone
9:25am February 24, 2019


Until you've had freedom taken away
Until you've watched a new life ,struggling to live, die in your hands
Until you've walked in my shoes
Leaned over a casket to kiss your child good bye
learned the hard way that gays are evil, deranged
excuses for human beings-who sexually assault babies
Don't talk to me about the gay life style being normal
Don't tell me about a woman's right to choose
-Jan Tetstone
9:57am February 16, 2019

The quickest way to lose a friend is to under estimate
their ability [insight] to see beyond themselves.
We learn lasting lessons - when we are
a part of the lesson. -Jan Tetstone

Thoughts About Love

Where there's love in the heart
There's love in the home.

Love has the power to change
ones mind and/or heart.

Never underestimate the heart
whether it belongs to you or
someone else.

Love can conquer he fear of
loving, after a heart has been

A moment with love can change
ones destiny.
Love doesn't need permission
to be.
Love is the key to living a full
Hate can only destroy a loving
heart if one lets it.
Once touched by love, one never
- Jan Tetstone
11:38am February 14, 2019

Inescapable Heartbreak

Lord, don't let me waver
in my faith...
When times are dark
and my heart wants to
break, raise my spirit
above the doubt in the

Faith is the cure for
all things that bring
hurt and pain.

Let me not doubt your
power...Let not my
faith in my time of need

Heal the sick
comfort the broken hearted
Guide the lost out of the
Strengthen faith that
the faithful might endue
inescapable heartbreak.
-Jan Tetstone
9:23pm February 8, 2019

Heart Scammers

When wickedness gets its arms
Around an innocent heart
Wickedness releases not its hold
Until its drained the heart it stole.

"My love, I love you so...
Here's my money and my gold.
My heart is yours always.
I cannot live without hearing your voice

I long so to feel your touch on my skin.
To feel loved, needed, and like a woman

The wicked thrive on the money, partying
Day and night, on the stolen gold.

"I love you my dear...can you help me out
I need money- will you send some cash to me?

I can get things in my life back to normal,
You see, if you help me, I will
Come to you and never let you go."

Time passes, bank account and heart get drained
No more calls, and...O the tears that fall
For something gone that never was.

Surely, Hell shall engulf the heart scammers
Who for riches and gold
Spin webs of lies and deceit
-To break the hearts of unsuspecting souls.
-Jan Tetstone
7:03pm February 7, 2019

Life's Lessons

Learning one new thing
Everyday- increases
ones knowledge, in so many

What one learns from living
life, may some day,keep
him from making the same

When one learns about life
from experience, the
lessons last longer and
makes one stronger, than
learning about life, from
the experiences of others.

Learn from life-for experience
builds character and makes
us who we are today.
Survive the bad times-
Clinging to your faith.
-Jan Tetstone
11:59am January 29, 2019

Some things one remembers
Breaks their heart in two
Other things one remembers
Gives one the strength to
journey on, tears, like a
Sparkling stream, loosening
Memories, that one sparkle
At a time...comforts the heart
And eases the mind.

If not for memories kept
Of the times we laughed; of times
We wept...

There would be nothing but the
Moment we are in...to live
Over and over again.

Worst of all - love would be lost
Too the darkness.

One remembers things for a reason
To relive the things that broke
Their heart; or to remember the love
That put their heart back together
When it fell apart.
-Jan Tetstone
7:11 pm January 26, 2019

The Positive Side of You

Don't let other peoples'
negative side
.......get you down
Use your positive side
too turn things around.

There are those who thrive
on feeling superior to others
Those who would destroy
another's dreams, to make
their own dream come true.

When there are decisions
to be made- that only you
can make... think logically,
and strive to make your
dream come true..... reach
down deep and tap into
the positive side inside of you.
-Jan Tetstone
11:00 am January 25, 2019

God First
Tho my heart was broken
I thought beyond repair
In my heart I always knew
That God was always there.

That the shivers of pain
cutting into my heart
Angels would repair...
with love and tender care.

That as long as my faith
is stronger than heartache
and strive.....I may stumble
and fall but I won't stay down
as long as I put God first
in my life.
-Jan Tetstone
1:33pm January 18, 2019

Quite Time
The quite time awakens
thoughts long thought
forgotten. . .
Awaking memories buried
beneath layers of yesterdays,
pealing away moments of
laughter and tears...revealing
the joys and woes that being
alive brings into ones life.

O quite time, pour out
the memories of yesteryears
created by day to day living
Least I forget mistakes made
and am tempted to make the same
mistakes again.

Sleep not O memory! Awaken!
Mingle with the quite time
Renew with memories of old
thoughts to strengthen my heart
mind, and soul.
-Jan Tetstone
2:31pm January 5, 2019





Reflection in Reverse

To the evil that dewells
in the hearts and minds
of all who lay claim to
knowledge, ignorantly...
who think they are wiser
than all others:

You are but a speck of
nothingness, because of
your hateful ways.

A seed spit from the mouth
of lies and deceit.

A reflection in reverse
of what you perceive life
to be....

Beware! For angels hands
are tied, but soon....
The creator of night and day
and all things under the sun,
shall pour out the tears of
the innocent over evil's
head and set the angels free.

Wise is he who judges not, and
tramples not on the footprints
made for others to walk in.

Choose not to stone an innocent
soul with unkind words....
least you trip and stumble over
your own words.
-Jan Tetstone
1:40pm December 29, 2018

Happy New Year
on: December 30, 2018, 10:30:57 PM

Seas of Life

The seas of life are many
and few...
Only one sea must one
swim through.

Ones sea another can't
swim without them...

For, each life is a sea
with it's own storms
and waters to thread.

Going up and going down
each moment filled with
old waters mixed in
with the new.

Swim your sea, face each
storm faithfully....

For, in the heart that
knows love rests the key
to calm life's raging seas.

- Jan Tetstone
3:48pm December 28, 2018

Loveless Soul

Let not your enemy fool you
with his cunning ways, his
forked tongue, and the warmth
of his hand.

For your enemy is set on your
destruction ...
and must find the flesh weak,
before He can destroy your soul.

Love is something that evil
cannot conquer or control....

If your enemy offers you his hand,
take it, compassionately, knowing
the fate that awaits a loveless
-Jan Tetstone
1:23 pm December 27, 2018

Thoughts on Life

Look Beyond yesterdays
that put a damper on your dreams
Even bad days are a thread
sewing together the whole of a life's

Learn from mistakes that life
has no set rules for how one
goes about reaching their dream.

Building up and tearing down
some do well, while others seek
only to build the best the first time

Strive not to tear down other
peoples' dreams while trying
to reach your own.
-Jan Tetstone
11:09am December 20, 2018

The worst enemy one can have
is one who hates them enough
to pretend to be their friend,
in order to destroy one,
otherwise, they could not
manipulate or control . jt

Seasons of Life

Life is a strange thing
Where flowers and weeds
grow together in Spring.

Where Summer and Fall reap
the joy and the woes
that living brings...

Where Winter appears
and the years turn into
precious memories or
sad memories encaged in
frozen tears.
-Jan Tetstone
9:43am December 18, 2018

Drops of Rain

We are all only drops of rain
in the ocean of life.
Together we make up the
waters of humanity.

One rain drop has the power
to move the waters.

The rain drops that fall by the
sea shore, and are carried off
by in coming waves, pollute
the waters one grain of sand
at a time.

Every rain drop that falls
has the potential to be
struck by the sun and for
a moment...
the reflection of a sunbeam.

-Jan Tetstone
12:07pm December 16, 2018

Darkness Shines

For worldly goods do many strive
and die trying to obtain...
Blindly walking the path of destruction
More! More! More!
Swallowed up by greed as the hunger
for riches and fame, laughs and
shuts hell's door.

To have more than another is not
The greedy man/woman wants what
little another has, to fill their own treasure

Woe be to him or her who dares to thread
on life's poor waters.
For where greed abides the darkness shines
in ones soul brighter than the light.
-Jan Tetstone
11:59am December 14, 2018

Fly Free

I am alone walker travelling through
this life,capturing with my heart's eye
the things the worldly eye cannot see.
I bend for none but my god who lives
in and through me.

I am alone walker I seek not to draw near
to any...yet, occasionally, my heart will
betray me.

Life is to be cherished like life's creator.
Life does not hold one back who yearns, and
strives everyday,to journey through life
a spirit wanting nothing more than
to fly free.
-Jan Tetstone
4:59 pm December 13, 2018


Youth is a physical thing
Fading away with time.
None can know the beauty
Another stores inside.
Age causes the flesh to
Fade a little everyday......
But the beauty in ones
Heart and soul- time cannot
steal away.
-Jan Tetstone
8:00pm December 11, 2018

Where worry and love live together
there you will find grief.
Peace and love... jt

Peace makers are those who recognizes their own weaknesses
while considering the weaknesses they perceive to be in others.

Honesty that hurts is honesty that teaches.

-Jan Tetstone
12:49pm December 3, 2018


There are days that bring nothing
but worry and woe...
Days a dark sky robs the day of
its beautiful glow.
Days that life is filled and over
flowing with matters of heart and mind
that another cannot know.

These are the days one needs to walk
closer to their faith-whatever it be.
Seeking knowledge, wisdom and understanding
while praying, " my God, my God, I am lost in a world
that don't know me...
cover me with your love, and please, fill my world
with peace."
-Jan Tetstone
9:25 am December 2, 2018


Every life is special, and plays
a role in God's great plan.
Friend, Stranger, or foe, judge not
For only God knows their purpose
and their heart.

'Angels walk among men' has been
said time and time again.
Who among us has entertained angels
unaware... ? who among us has judged
angels as mortal men....?

It's better not to judge than it is to judge

The love in one's heart shows in how they
choose to treat others.

The memories one carries in their heart
is poetry waiting for voice.

None but you control your choices.

-Jan Tetstone
10:25 a.m. May 2, 2018

Dreams Come True

Let not life pass you by
because you dared to dream
but to reach that dream
- you didn't try.

It matters not what others do
Stand upright, head held high,
aim for your star and believe
with all your heart- your
dream will come true.
-Jan Tetstone
5:56pm November 29, 2018


Perfection is for
in an imperfect world
trying to create
what does not exist.

Lost in ideas
wondering through
their heads...
that'll rest with them
in their graves
after they are dead.

caught up in
thoughts of how
happy all would be
in a perfect world
created by
their dreams.

in an imperfect world
Bearer of perfect dreams
- inside imperfect men.

-Jan Tetstone
11:19 am November 17, 2018

Author Unknown

I have a gift
my god
gave to me
To write
the unwritten
to unsing the song
to rewrite what
has not been.

I don't write
to impress
the eyes that read
with a closed heart
closed mind.

I write for the
broken hearted
who in a fake
filled world
is lost in the
dreams created
by others.

Some of the
best writers
are those who
touched lives
and hearts
and moved on...

Marked by a greedy
writer's hand
"author unknown."
-Jan Tetstone
4:17am November 15, 2018


Some things are ageless
don't tarnish, don't rust
Tho flesh ages with time
and turns back into dust.

Thoughts that find voice
on the pages of time...
Hearts that find love and
leave love behind...
And the spirit inside one
untouched by time.
-Jan Tetstone
12:10pm November 8, 2018


No one can stop you from reaching your dream
Just like no other can live in your reality.
It takes all kinds to make the world go round
Some wreak havoc and sow unrest - others sow
seeds of love and reap peace and happiness.

- Jan Tetstone
1:34 AM October 31, 2018


I was born to spread
my wings and fly
to taste life's honey
to feel life's sting
to feel the pain from
broken wings.

I was born to feel the
Hear songs I'd never sing.

Still I cling to my dreams.
-Jan Tetstone
12:58pm October 29, 2018


I am awakened to another day
to ponder yesterdays turned
to memories in my mind.

To think on what I've left behind

To bring alive, the things I can
only live in, and touch with an
aging mind.

Like a waterless lake or stream
that the warmth of the years have
touched and drained.

I exist in time a reflection of
my hopes and dreams, chained to
yesterday's memories, as I continue
to swim life's invisible streams.
-Jan Tetstone
8:33am October 25, 2018 

Faith and Determination

The cold of the new day mingles with the warmth
of me,as I wonder outside with my mind's eye,
in search of inner peace.. .

The inner eyes rest upon reality that's sometimes
the outer eyes refuses to see.

Hopes and dreams alone are only the beginning of
what could be. . .
Faith and determination are needed to make a dream
A reality.
-Jan Tetstone
8:37 am October 21, 2018


Never doubt your ability
to climb the highest mountain
and swim in the strongest sea
when your heart is breaking
and your mind is filled with
thoughts of negativity.

Set your course in life...
be the best that you can be.
Never doubt your ability
to reach your dream.
-Jan Tetstone
10:18 pm October 19, 2018

Selfish Love

If every one in the world
valued their own life, and
happiness, above the life
and happiness of others,
Love would die ...
Love would not exist ...
Love would not be ...

For what is love, if not
two hearts willing to satisfice
all, one for the other?

A selfish love is one sided love
while one love thrives
the other love dies.
-Jan Tetstone
10:46 am October 11, 2018

Star Fairy Meets Carter Crow
By Jan Tetstone

One day, while Star fairy was flying through the enchanted forest, very fast, she glanced down at the blue water below her, just as she was raising her head, she found herself looking straight into the face of a wide-eyed black bird. The fairy and bird collided and both fell into the water.


Star fairy's head popped up out of the water. Her fairy wings had saved her.

"Why didn't you look where you were going," the black bird screamed at the fairy angrily.

"Why weren't you looking where you were going," Star fairy replied back.

"What do you mean," the crow asked.
"Well...If you had been watching where you were going, you would have seen me long before we collided, and we neither one would have ended up in the water," Star replied, looking the crow dead in the eyes.

Knowing the fairy was right the crow started laughing.......and he laughed....and laughed...

Star managing to lift herself from the water, looked over at the crow that too was, now, flying just above the water.

The crow stopped laughing, "My name is Carter Crow."

"My name is Star fairy. ...What's so funny about the two of us colliding, and falling in the water, asked the fairy, wondering if the crow's head had hit the water so hard that it knocked the sense out of him.

"Apparently, we were both looking down at the water, wishing we had time for a swim, at the same time, Carter Crow answered, starting to laugh again.

This time, instead of wondering why the crow was laughing, Star fairy started laughing right along with her new found friend.

Moral of the story: Be careful what you wish for when flying over water.

6:56pm October 9, 2018

I often wonder about life
and the hold it has on me
The air I breathe,
The things around me
The things I see and cannot

When I open my eyes from sleep
I see a little more of me
unfolding in the Mirror
called " Destiny."
-Jan Tetstone
10:10am October 8, 2018

I Am and I Am Not

I am the child of long ago
traveling down a lonely road
wearing the scars of the years
on my heart.

I am the one the years molded.

I am and I am not.

I am the young one of long ago
Journeying through a land
that has burned my very soul.

I am and I am not.

I am the shadow of what was
reflecting off of an old heart.

I am and I am not.

I am a stranger to all who know me.

I am a thread of breath
chained to destiny.

I am and I am not without soul and
without heart.
-Jan Tetstone
10:04pm October 7, 2018

Stranger's Song

I set here thinking
of this morning
that started out with
so many tears
and so much gloom.

Why was my heart so sad
why did the tears fall
from my eyes
Did I know someone
I hardly knew
was about to die.

This world is crumbing
right before my eyes,
But few can see the
unseen tears of the
stranger in passing...
or hear the stranger
in passing sing.

Rest in peace dear soul
you have lived a life
of grief- now, you've
found eternal peace.
-Jan Tetstone
12:56pm October 7, 2018

The Purple Fairies

Once upon a time, in a deep dark forest, in a teeny tiny house, lived a little fairy. Her name was Star. She was a magical fairy.

One day, Star was cutting the purple and yellow wildflowers that grew near her house when a strange looking purple butterfly landed on top of the bouquet of colorful flowers, she had in her hand.

"What happened to your wing," the fairy asked, gently touching the butterfly on top of its tiny head. "I'll take care of you. You can just rest on top of the flowers for a while."

To Star fairy's surprise the butterfly, winking his tiny eye, and giving her a smile, replied, "Thank you, kind fairy."

Being a magical fairy, Star could have used her magic to heal the purple butterfly and sent him on his way, but, she decided to take care of him without using her magic.
Suddenly, it started raining, the colorful flowers surrounding her begin to multiply, and the beautiful purple butterfly disappeared, right before her eyes.

Making her way back to her tiny house, head hanging low, feeling sad that she again was all alone; she raised her head to see purple fairies, all holding a bouquet of purple and yellow wildflowers, waiting for her to return home.

Star fairy couldn't believe her eyes. On top of every bouquet of flowers set a beautiful purple butterfly.

"How can this be," Star asked the fairies, joyfully.

An older purple fairy stepped out from among the other fairies.

"Every purple fairy must undergo the test of worthiness before joining the purple fairies. Today, when you decided not to use magic to heal the butterfly, you proved to be worthy of the magic powers in your procession. Welcome to the family."
From that day on, Star fairy was never alone again, unless she chose to be.
She had all the purple fairies to keep her company.

Moral of the story: Good things come to those who make the right choices.
5:40pm October 7, 2018

The Things Resting in the Heart

When the words don't come easy
and your feelings yearn to be
set free.

Do not release ,out into the
world, the things that rest in
your heart.

There is a time for everything
under the sun..... just as there's
a time to be heard......there is
a time for words.

Listen to the sounds found in the
silence .... do not betray
the thoughts locked away....
just to have something to say.
-Jan Tetstone
5:20 pm October 3, 2018

A Little Girl's Dream

Why do I write poetry?

As a child, my voice
was not complete
getting words out
was hard for me.

But being a child
my imperfection
I did not see...

Though the laughter
I received, every time
I tried to convey
my thoughts to others
wasn't funny to me.
I pretended, in my
childish mind, they
were hearing my voice

I was a little girl
who ran, played, and
saw my world as the
perfect place for me
to be and create my

My stuttering voice
was a part of who I
was as a child.
Until, I realized,
no one else's voice
made other's laugh
like mine.

I was a little girl,
but I knew, if I tried
hard enough my words
would find away to be

As a little girl, Words
without voice Filled me,
until I asked God for help
and he gave me a voice
that others no longer
found funny.

Poetry gives my words wings
and fulfill a little girl's
-Jan Tetstone
6:06 am October 2, 2018

Picture taken in the 1950s. My sister has her foot on me. jt

Not Buried in the Grave

Tears for Mama . . .
Tears for Daddy, too.
Life has changed a lot
Since I lost both of you.

Now, that I'm a mama
I understand so much more
What a mama and daddy
go through.

Because now that I'm a mama
I'm going through the worry
and the woe of loving and
raising my children,
and having to let them go.

I didn't know as a child growing
up in your care, that being
a mama or daddy could be so
hard a thing to do, until I lost
the two of you. . . You both
were always there, when I needed

Now, that I'm a mama, and my
children, like yours, grew up and away.
Now, that I'm alone-I understand,
the satisfies mamas and daddys make
everyday -even after their children are grown
and move away.

I am a mama blessed and I owe it to the
both of you-who never stopped loving me,
no matter what I put you through.

Your love for me is not buried in the grave
Your love for me touches, and warms
my life every day.

-Jan Tetstone
4:54pm September 30, 2018


Never give up on
your dream

Reach for that star
your heart desires

Believe in better

Endure the heartache
and the sorrow
that life sends your way

Endure life at it's worst
and at its best ...

Learn from mistakes
and eat from life
what life puts on your plate.

Endure the things
that weigh you down...
that rest heavy on your
heart and mind....

Live in the day and
love always the one who
returns your love in kind.

None are perfect-all are
destined to live but one

Worry not of what is to be
until it reaches reality.
-Jan Tetstone
7:08pm September 29, 2018

Chosen Memories

A memory can be the kind that brings
A smile to the face or a tear to the eye. . .
Makes one laugh or makes one cry.

Memories are made and stored on ones
heart, and in ones mind, for remembering
the most important things, in life's winter

Memories are touches from yesterdays come
and gone, that live inside one when life finds
them all alone.

Memories of what was, and is no more,
Memories of how life use to be
when one was young, and life was sweet.

Memories that have the power to comfort or
re-break a heart that makes one realize as their
life draws to a close ....
That the only memories keeping them company
Are the memories that they chose.

-Jan Tetstone
10:30am September 26, 2018

Yours To Lose

Love doesn't always
bring happiness to
the heart welcoming
love in.

Some times the one
the heart loves
cannot love, because
of where the heart has
already been.

Love doesn't always
stay the same, heartfelt
hurt can cause a love
to change.

Love makes no promise,
that the one you love will
stay with you, your
whole life through.

Love sometimes gets
washed away by to many
tears; and too many empty
nights, that turned into
to many bitter filled years.

Love doesn't break hearts.
Life changes people . . .
Love is the same today
and always.

The love that leaves is
the love that never was
meant to stay.

One cannot rightfully
blame love for breaking
their heart....
Because two people in love
somehow grew apart.

Be thankful that the one
you gave your heart to was
yours to lose.

So many crave for just
a taste of love; and yearn to
hear the words 'I love you'
From the lips of the one they
gave their love to.
-Jan Tetstone
3:49pm September 24, 2018

Be Happy

If your day started
out all wrong
and you're feeling blue
How your day ends
will be up to you.

You can accept defeat
and settle for less
or you can keep on striving
and giving life your best.

A life that's worth having
is the life that makes
you happy.

You can accept where you are
and call it your destiny
or determine yourself
this is not how my life is
gonna be.

-Jan Tetstone
12:26pm Sept 23, 2018
By Heartsong

Shield of Faith

Faith is positive
no doubt
no second thoughts
No worry about what
might be.

Faith is believing
in the power of God
sight unseen.

Faith is hearing Jesus
softly knock on your life's
door and welcoming Him in
when you hear Him call.

Faith is the shield
that protects the faithful
night and day
And lifts them up when
they stumble and fall.

Faith is watching your
world crumble and fall,
knowing God is with you
through it all.
-Jan Tetstone
9:15pm September 23, 2018
By Heartsong

Broken Circle

I remember yesterdays
filled with children's laughter,
tears, and their hearts breaking.

The laughter they shared
the tears they shared
and the loss they shared.

I remember how happy and
complete life was, before the
family circle was broken one day
and a special angel was taken
from my mother's bouquet.

I remember how strong children
can be for each other, when their
hearts are breaking right along with
their mother's.

If your family circle has yet to
be broken, thank God, today. . .

Because, Someone's child is carried
away by an angel sent from heaven,
every moment of every day.
-Jan Tetstone
Written in memory of a child
11:11pm September 10, 2018


What does being an American
mean me ?
It means I'm a defender of

That with liberty comes duty. . .

What does ' Defender of Liberty'
Well, you see, God gives everyone
Natural rights to be born and
live free.

The Declaration of Independence
was signed and the American Revolution
was fought by the first Americans
all in the name of Liberty.

Freedom is a God given right but many
men would stripe freedom from you
and me.

The United States Constitution spells
out what government can and cannot do
'WE The PEOPLE' are Americans devoted
to guarding and keeping safe, our natural
God given right to live and die free.

Patriotic Americans are called, 'Defenders
of Liberty.'

Some wear uniforms, some do not
but all love God and Liberty with all their
American heart.
-Jan Tetstone
4:26pm September 7, 2018

A Special Part of Everything

For those who think
'I'm a no body'

You may not have got
the best of starts
You may feel useless and
un-needed at times
You may be lonely today
but you were born with
an innocent heart
When life sent you on
your way.

Life was not meant to be
easy . . .
Life is meant to be lived
day by day.

For every hard time you
endure and survive . . .
A footprint is embedded
on your heart. . .
A testimony of your life.

You say 'I'm a no body'
out of hurt and pain
Look around you, and you
will find contradictions from
Nature's god that you are
a special part of every thing.
-Jan Tetstone
11:54 am September 3, 2018

Journey On

God, as I journey on in life
give me insight into the
things that get in my way...
Let me not stray far from
the path you lay.

Let not the strife I face
destroy my faith.
The paths that I have travelled
have left me tired and weary
and at times the memory of
the paths I have walked find me
in my sleep.

Yesterdays taught me never to
take people or things for granted,
not to worry about getting more
from life but to be thankful for
what little I had, and never to lay
down my shield of faith if I wanted
to walk safely in a day.

From living through heartache ,sorrow
and more than a few mistakes
I know if you had not put your
loving arms around me and given
me the strength, the path that I
travel today, would be a lonely one
without you God and my faith.
- Jan Tetstone
8:45 p.m. June 6, 2018

Healing Angels of Prayer

Let none want for food when
their soul is hungry feed them
with manner from heaven..fill
their plate of life with love
everyday- that through your
good works the lost will once
more ,overcome the darkness, and
find their way.

Let none want for water when
their soul is thirsty.
Fill their cup of life to the
brim that when Jesus knocks
on their hearts door,they will
joyfully let him in.

Healing Angels of Prayer, raise
up your shields of faith , as you
bow your heads to pray, and work
miracles in the lives of all who
need an answered prayer today.
-Jan Tetstone
8:49 a.m. May 30, 2018









Today, there was a darkness
closing in on me.....
I felt the dark hands tugging
and tearing at my heart
as my love ,locked
inside, struggled to be set free.
-Jan Tetstone
2:43 pm Feb 8, 2017

Let not your grief
distort today's reality
nor destroy the good that
awaits thee.
For, where the heart morns
And tears fall in the day
loneliness waits
to steal ones happiness away.
-Jan Tetstone
7:20 pm Feb 9, 2017

A friend will remember days
and times that others forget
Moment in time together spent.
8:06 pm Feb 9, 2017

Love's Way
A heart that seeks out another's heart
wants nothing more than to be loved
in return.
Oh heart be still........Let love have its way
Turn not from the one who loves you
beyond measure.
Embrace love for loves' sake.
-Jan Tetstone
9:12 pm Feb 9, 2017

No words come to mind
when uncertainty is at play.
Words are extensions of
emotions and feelings.....

Without words there would
be no way of releasing
thoughts built up over time,
that seek voice to free
a troubled mind.

When in the darkness
peace eludes you
and words fail to form
that others can hear
hold tightly to your
Shield of faith
Believe with all your heart
that God will make a way.
11:37 pm Feb 10, 2017

Words are like rain drops
falling from the sky












Twenty two years ago
you took on an angel's glow
and left the worldly behind.
Back to your beginning
where beauty and peace
are the only things
that an angel's eyes can find.

Twenty two years ago
you went home.
A journey you had to make alone.

Rest in peace my beautiful angel
next to your baby brother...
who too left this world much to soon
to live in eternity....
I love you both...
You both live in my heart
and in my memory--
8:15pm May 9, 2015

Happy Mother's Day

Mother, you carried me
beneath your heart
Until I was strong enough
to live apart.....
You carried me in your arms
my heart against your heart
until I could walk alone........
Then you took my hand
and walked with me
through my growing up years
On my wedding day
You let me go, to walk or
fall on my own.....
But I knew in my heart
you loved me with the same
heart that once sing me to sleep
with its beat.....
I knew, without a doubt, if it was
possible-You would always be
there for me.
Little did I know the power of
a mother's love.....
Until you moved to heaven above
and touched my life
with an angel's love.
I thank God everyday for giving me
a mother like you.....
For even though you live in eternity,
I know, I will always have memories of a loving
Angel Mother to help me through.

Happy Mother's Day, Mama....
I love you.
6:08pm May 9, 2015

The evil that looms above
the innocent
devouring the purity
shall find in the darkness
of his wickedness
the sword of justice
as from his blackened heart
upon the alter of righteousness
for his crime against innocence
fire from his filthy soul
upon the alter bleeds.

For the innocent shall be healed
and those who robbed them
shall taste the sword that bears
witness to their guilt.

For those blindly used to satisfy
your lust, a chain shall bind
you to the eternal flame.....
No more will the tears of the innocent
In your own evil you shall be consumed.

Think not that justice shall be swift
For, not until your ashes are blown by
the wind into every nation on earth
and the thought of you has turned to dust
Shall your debt to the innocent be paid.
4:17pm May 9, 2015

Three Generations

In my arms I hold innocence
Tomorrows hopes and dreams
Of bigger and better things.
I am Winter....
He is the Flower of Spring .jt

As forever draws near to my soul
Wearily, I struggle, to stay on the
path that lay before me......
Let me not cling to the worldly
as into the light unseen hands
carry me.....
Let me not seek that which
belongs to another......Let me give,
for as long as I have something to give.
And when all is emptied out ,let me not
selfishly want more, than what was my
Let me walk upright, in all of my ways
and not forget to give thanks at
the end of my days.
1:53am April 28, 2015

Poetry is but a heart put into words
that flow from places deep within. jt
1:25 am April 28, 2015

Silent, voiceless,
rest the words
Chained inside of me
Next to my heart beat.

Oh, why cannot I unlock
those words of love, to
share with those in need?

Where lay the key?
It rest not inside of me
but far beyond my reach.
1:35 am April 21, 2015

The morning has caught me
pondering the whys of things
Hopefully the answers
the day will bring....
How tired I am this moment
Sleep is what I need......
I wish for nothing but
Sweet inner peace......
2:29am April 19, 2015

Lord, give me the strength
to always stand for what
I think is right.... and
Let me not fear death, more
than I love truth. jt

What the rich man sees
he can buy according
to his greed....
What the poor man sees
he buys according
to his need.
And in the end the rich
and poor both lay down
to sleep..
10:22pm April 16, 2015

Let the wind blow
and the waters flow
for no man can control
my destiny.... No man
can reach for my dreams
but me.

If I fail along the way
to walk through the doors
that have been opened for me
it will be because its not
things of the worldly I seek.
10:07 pm April 16, 2015

This day was filled with
loved ones near and far
and thoughts of thankfulness.
How blessed my life has
been this day---
Not with riches and gold
but with love, and a sense
of the peace deep down
inside my soul.
9:52pm April 16, 2015

Each of us carry a burden
and a blessing all of our life........
Sometimes the burden gets so heavy
the blessing feels like its dying inside.
This life is not our permanent home
One day all that the eyes see will be gone.
Everyday I awake I know I still
have a burden to carry and I must journey on.
None can travel the road I walk - each must
travel through this life seeking his own way
until he reaches the end of this life's day.
Never think to live so fast as to forget
nothing in this world was made to last.
9:35pm April 16, 2015

I would like to think
where there is a beating heart
there is a caring soul
tho I have learnt from living,
many years- that this is not
always so.
5:40pm April 9, 2015

You sent the flowers to cover the weeds
The night to cover the light
and in the midst you placed a shadow of what
is to be.
As your light withdrew back into itself; into
the greater good, it released upon the world
havoc and grief.
5:13 pm April 9, 2015

Love is a wise man's
And a good man's
blessing. jt

Sometimes one does not realize
ones need to release the feelings
bottled up inside...
Until after the tears have fallen
and the eyes have dried.
7:50pm March 31, 2015

.There are tears falling
from my eyes
That my heart cannot deny.
Tears that fall before
a memory...as inside
my spirit weeps.
7:44pm March 31, 2015

As I look outside
through the windowpane
To the wildflowers
that Spring brings....
I can't help but wonder
how the flowers survive
the weeds.
7:39pm March 31, 2015

Today, my children
are pieces of my heart
that fit perfectly together,
to form the sweets memories
of the many years we shared
together ......children,
and mother.....
Bearable, my empty nest
because I have always known
as much love and care
as i have put into raising them
they were never really mine
they each are a blessing
sent to me on loan
destined to receive
blessings of their own.
2:53pm March 26, 2015

Today, the sun is hide behind
a tainted sky....
as angels search the darkness
for lost souls....
Why are so many blinded
by man-made lights?
Do not they know it's
an illusion, that they are
standing in the night?
2:29pm March 26, 2015

My life is more
than the eye can see
My life is what exist
beneath and beyond
the vessel I call "me".
2:18pm March 26, 2015

It's dark and in the darkness
I set pondering the moment
and how precious a moment
of time is.
In the moment I am. jt

I have lived my life with heart.
Love is my heart's creed....
I live and love
because love was given to me
in my time of need.....
When a man is blind to love
Life and heart, empty be.
Judge not one by words alone
without considering his deeds.
10:54pm March 23, 2015

When night time falls for the last time
and the last thought gives way to life's
When the end becomes the beginning
and all that was is no more...
When eyes that slumber see
what is not to be.....
When void be tomorrow's dream,
Where lay your heart, among life's dying
10:34pm March 23, 2015

The sky above my head
that man shall cause
his own demise. jt

Today, I felt God's hands
at work in the world; I saw
The clear skies reclaim
what the hands of man
had made ugly and vile.

I witnessed the heart beat
of mankind beating
to the step of its better self,
in each glimmering ray of sun,
that erased, from heaven,
what the hands of man
had done.

Man can not become
more than what he was
born to be......Man cannot
change what God has done
or what lay in wait

If man cannot live in peace
on earth -he is not worthy
of the peace that lay
beyond his reach.
7:17pm March 16, 2015

Sometimes, when
I take the time
to look beyond the
things over head
and the things beneath
my feet
to the things that
only my heart can reach

I find in the darkest of places
faithful souls, who seek
nothing more than to awaken, and
fall asleep, under a blanket of peace.

And in those moments
when I dare to look beyond
the me-I doubt not, that
God hears innocence's plea.

In the hands of all, duty rests,
Will you heed the cries for peace
Will you turn a deaf ear,
Which will it be?
6:46pm March 16, 2015

I wonder, how many lives
would be changed, in a day,
if all knew life would end
How many would plea the fifth
to be spared foreseeable
How many would claim
someone else is to blame
They didn't know, if they had
their life would surely have changed?
How many would beg to be poor
give all their treasures away
just to own a pair of angel wings?
11:07pm March 9, 2015

Today, I endured
That I might sleep
and awaken to peace
worry free.

Yet, I know, that sleep
while it gives one rest
can not give one
inner peace.
11:26 pm March 5, 2015

There is no glory
in sacrificing
innocence in honor's

No greater sin than
denying the hungry food
when one's table is full.

Little knowledge, have
the wisest,
without understanding.

Not always are the eyes
to be trusted to reveal
the truth of a matter.

Never rush tomorrow
before the day is done.

A heart close to nature
is closest to nature's god.

A Wise man sees the world
through his understanding
of worldly things.

A wiser man views things
from the depths of his heart.
11:11pm February 28, 2015

The world is suffering so
The sky once so blue
suffers from mortal abuse.

The grass covered ground
is dying beneath my feet..
The air I breathe is thick
with grief.

Lord, I know your will
will always be done
and there is a time for
everything under the sun.

I know these things to be true
Because this life would be
unbearable-if not for you.

Thank you, for taking my hand
so long ago and never
letting it go.
11:51am February 23, 2015

It's hard to find words
of comfort for another
when the waters rise
so high....
Lord, let me not get lost
among the thorns of
another's pain.
If I drift beyond your sight
help me in life's darkness
to find my way in life's night.
A million times I have turned
to you for strength
Many times I have asked you
to show me the way you would
have me go.
With each passing day I learn
something new about my self.
In the flesh I am weak
but in my heart I know
I can always count on you.
Thank you for loving me
when I feel so alone....
Thank you for loving me
until my tears are dried
and my fears are gone...
Thank you for the light
that shines in the darkness
of my night.
12:17am February 22, 2015

God is truly an awesome god .

Into tomorrow
Into today
an angel waits

As I wade through
this day.....
of trials toward
my fate.

I seek not what
my hand cannot touch
or my eyes cannot
rest upon......

I am but a traveler
in a world not my own
With faith, in the hard
times- I am made strong.

What tomorrow will bring
I must wait on...and not
rush what is to be.....

For only God knows all things
and what all tomorrows
will bring.

Lord, teach me daily lessons of love
as you fill my heart with assurance
that wrapped inside each dark cloud's
silver lining-I will find a feather
to add to my set of angel wings.

Thank you God for this day
in which I strive to find my way
Thank you for keeping your hand on me
For, in your care, I know I'm safe.

Written for Bella on my 66th Birthday
February 20, 2015

It's easy to find the bad
When one is not looking for good

Deeds done when anger leads
Is not the quickest way to peace.

A heart filled with Love is to be
desired above all worldly things.

Waste not your life hating your
enemy.....for the heart of neither
shall escape the eyes of God.

Life is the ultimate test of a man's

None shall be judged for another's sin.

Love those who would cause you pain,
with a sincere heart-for by doing so
two souls might be saved.

Love today that you might awaken
to love tomorrow....

From love peace finds entrance

From hate only grows sorrow.
12:20am February 16, 2015

In the silence of the night
I feel the hands of God
at work in all things,
Ones faith need not feel
God's touch, to know
His presences.
When I fall God's love
gives me the strength to stand.
Love has a courage of its own.
11:30pm February 15, 2015

Lord, I need you to guide me
down the path you would
have me go......
If I fall into the waters, please
keep me afloat.

My eyes have seen places
where danger lay in wait
give me the wisdom
to know which path to take.

My heart has felt the knife
of human compassion
and restraint's hand...
Anger has moved my lips, please
help me too understand.

My life is but a flicker of light
blowing in the wind, please
give me the knowledge
I will need to have in my heart and
hold in the palm of my hand.

Guide me, where you would have me go
Take me to the places
you would have me stand.
1:38am February 10, 2015 Picture taken 12:15pm 2-10-15

Wake from your sleep
and see what darkness
has done....
While you slept the liar
of all liars created clouds
to hide the sun...
And in the darkness prepared
for you a pit of snakes
to fall into.
Let not his cunning ways
His dress of silver and gold
and promises of riches
rob you of your soul.
When in the morn you wake
thread the waters of the day
prepared, always, to face
the enemy of your soul
the keeper of the snakes.
Trust your heart
to guide you in all things
wherever you go...
For love is a blind man's
strength, and the liar's woe.
1:07 am February 3,2015

Lord, thank you, for the lessons
living has taught me.
Thank you, for keeping me afloat
in life's raging sea.
Thank you, for showing me
that no matter how bad life gets
That faith is not enough
unless in one's heart
he truly believes.
11:37pm January 31, 2015

When I look beyond my world
I see a world I once knew
at the point of destroying
all that it once had me believe.
I see a world, millions of worlds
lost on life's wavy sea.
And I stand in awe at the sight
of so many caught up in living
life in another's dream.
11:27pm January 31, 2015

I have looked back in time
and pondered what once was.

I have thought about life
and what it truly means
to be alive.

One's life is more than the
eye can see.

One life holds the essence
of all things.

Where man is born new hope

Judge not another according
to what he has or what he
has not.

For who among you will
taste the wine
or hear the fine maiden sing

who among you will recognize
the rich from the poor

when your worldly eyes
can no longer see

The shine of the things
that used to be?

Who among you
in death, will remember
the price of worldly things?
11:08pm January 31, 2015

Lord, the years have brought me
to this day........
Was the promise you made to a child
that I shall give voice too.

Let me never lose the feeling of
knowing that something greater
rests beyond the darkness.

Let my inner eyes not close
to that warm glow that touched
my soul so long ago.

Guide me this day to the end
of what was to be, when
my life was new, and innocence
rested inside of me.

Let those who seek truth
rest their inner eyes on the things
that the outer eyes can not see.
Let those with heart listen with
their inner ears, to what the heart
knows to be.
1:39 pm January 28, 2015

Do not let the eyes be deceived
into seeing what is not there.
Do not let the ears believe
only what it wants to hear.
Many a good soul has been blinded
by an invisible foe.

Listen not with ear alone
to the happenings in a day.....
For, such will guide the most innocent,
from his raising, to stray......

Look beneath what the eyes can see
for beneath the surface rest
the heart of the dead,
and the living.
1:23pm January 28, 2015

The wicked, long ago, devised
a plan to control the fate of man.
In the beginning, when all things
were new, some thought to rule
with mighty hand.

But, to have another take by force
was not to be.
For many a wise man gathered to
face the foe and save humanity.

Then a few evil men gathered in
darkness's back room
and another plan was conceived
to rule mankind's' destiny.

Never again to use force
but to rule by greed.
For, what man will let his family
go hungry-when offered a piece
of bread, on which all can feed?
1:03pm January 28, 2015

Intertwined the silver threads
of today's living and yesterday's dead.
In and out the glimmering strands
lust and greed go hand in hand.
Seek shelter from the morning dew
close not your weary eyes least
the spider finds you sleeping
and makes a meal of you.
12:47pm January 28, 2015

A drop of rain will not satisfy
a rich man's thirst
and the rain cloud, that sent down
the drop of rain ,he will curse.

For, thirst blinds where greed
thrives.....and those made blind
would rather curse the cloud
that sent down the drop of rain
than give thanks, for their
share of life and the smallest things.

They know not, that the first drop
of rain, that fell to earth, rests
at the bottom of the greatest sea
and that a drop of rain is but a sign
of the greater things to be.

Keep faith, yea thirsty soul.
10:13am January 24, 2015

Honor....Where is the honor
in demeaning the less fortunate?
Have you no shame? Do you not
see what has been created for
future generations to reap?
Once, those who held tomorrows'
reigns walked proudly on the
ground of their ancestors; and found
strength to conquer their inner demons
of lust and greed, in the blood
that run through their veins.
Oh, how blind has the years made
those that came forth to walk this earth
from the seed of great men who now lay
sleeping in their graves.
Do you not hear the pleas of those
God has placed in your charge?
Gold and silver belongs to the earth
it is the value a man places on them
that decreases or increases their worth.
Belittle not
those who live by the sweat of their brow.
For when the end of time comes
it will be they who offer their hand
in friendship-and share the fruits
of their labor with those who have never
had to earn a living
by the sweat of their own brow.
There is no honor in kicking a person
when they are down, or in feeling
superior to one's equal.
Honor is earned one day at a time
It cannot be brought with silver and gold
Honor must be nurtured inside one's soul
Honor must earn its place among men.
Follow not a greedy heart
In all things look for the good in others
The truth of a matter rests not in tales told
but in deeds done.
5:53pm January 11,2015

Let the wind carry my song
deep within its shadow
for those in darkness to hear.
Let the waters carry my song
to its shores.....and wash clean
the sands of time
that the blind might see and weep
and find peace from troubling
Let the heart of mankind
once more hear the song of peace
when darkness falls, and the earth
trembles beneath the weight of
those who walk with no feet.
Let every heart pour love out
for those who first built
the greater things with heart-
who now sleep.
12:37am January 5, 2015

Without remembrance
all the good that once was
can no more be......
For it was in yesteryears
dreams first took flight.
It was in what was that
what is came to be.
2:59am January 5, 2015

I set pondering life
and what my purpose be......
I have lived long enough
to know I am my own destiny.
Tho my path lay before me
and an uncharted sea
I must choose wisely
the waters I thread
and the path on which
I place my feet.
2:13am January 5, 2015

Yesterday, a year came
to its end
and a new year begin.
Let me journey onward
with time, until
like yesteryears
my life comes to its end.
Let my life serve meaning
my hands serve righteousness
and my heart serve to bring
others back into the fold
of human compassion....
then when darkness falls
I can rest in peace.
11:33pm January 1, 2015

Silent lay the year gone by
nothing but memories remain
not a sound but a whisper
of yesteryears dreams
can this heart of mine claim.
11:20pm January 1, 2015





Everything in life has a special role
to play in prophecy.......
None can control what will be.
Many think to possess a world one only
needs silver, gold, hold in their hands
the power to control the waters and wind
and the means to buy up a world.

How blind is such a man, who sees not
the trap he is setting for his own soul?
The wind and waters know but one
master.......God is always in control.
12:18 pm December 18, 2014

I , like all who have been born,
am born to live and die.
Be my years many or be my years
few, let me put love into every thing
I do.
Let me not succumb to the pain
inflicted on me and my heart
by loved ones and foe.............
Let me walk the paths of honesty
and respect, and use what life
has taught me to sow seeds of love
and understanding
wherever I go.
11:29 am December 18, 2014

What is being alone
when angels sup
with thee?
All who thrive
on the worldly
are bound by the worldly,
and cannot see that they
are never alone in the
spirit that is no part
of the worldly.
11:08 am December 17, 2014

Lord, You brought me to this day
I have no doubt you will carry me
the rest of the way........
My life has long evolved around you
When the worldly sought to keep us apart
you sent your angels to set my spirit free
and through life's burning sands
your angels protected me.
In your time Lord, are all things to be.
Not enough can I sang your praises
For the many times in life
my captured soul was set free.
11:00 am December 17, 2014

As the sun blankets everything
as far as my eyes can see
I set beneath its covers
Giving thanks for the smallest
of things.
The trees that tower above me
that gives me relief from summertime
heat and protects me from
wintertime's breeze.
The dead grass that in the summertime
is so green and in the wintertime
lay a brown carpet beneath my feet.
The beauty of the butterflies and birds
that in the summertime kept me company
and in the wintertime remain as
sweet memories.
As I set beneath the suns blanket of warmth
and give thanks for the things that were
and the things that are........somewhere
in between the past and the present
my heart has found wintertime's peace.
10:38 am December 17, 2014

The moments spent with loved ones,
family and friends, are moments
captured by the heart and mind,
that years ahead one will relive,
time and time again.
Take not those precious moments
with loved ones for granted......
Never miss a chance
To say "I love you"
To tell those closest to your heart
just how special you think they are...
To be close to those you love
and share your feelings from your heart
that you will have no regrets, if suddenly
you have to part.
3:12 pm December 12, 2014

As I walk the roads of life
and cross life's streams
I will doubt not the power
of the god,
who works miracles
through me,
The giver of life and
all good things......
Faith in one's god is
the key.
Tho many strive and few
suffer not from want,
Life swallows up
those without heart.
8:42 am December 12, 2014

Life, I have thread your waters
and bathed my soul in your light;
I have ate from your tree of knowledge
and been captured in your whirlpool
of loneliness and bliss;
I have drown in your waters time
and again...picked flowers from
your garden and watched your
strong winds pluck them from my
The waters of your valley are many
and few; your mountain I climb daily
to reach safely the one who
waits there for me.

Let not your waters overtake my
soul until I reach my destiny.
7:43 am December 12, 2014

Little by little
through out the years
I learnt the importance of me.

I realized ,after life took
everything far from me......
That I had lived my life
with little regard for the real me.

That the me that is, was, and
will always be.
Not perfect but worthy
to live life for me.
6:24 pm December 1, 2014

I'm thankful for this day
and all things in it.
I'm thankful for life's fullness
and how much my life is blessed.
I don't have lots of money
Some say I live in a shack
I don't have fancy clothes
but I have the clothes on my back;
I don't eat out but rarely.....
But , none of these things bother me.
Because I have a lot of heart
and manna from heaven to eat.
6:03 pm December 1, 2014

I looked out my window a hundred times today
and took note, that some of the things here yesterday
are nowhere to be found in my day.

The clouds have replaced the sunshine
drops of rain have replaced the butterflies.

Silence has replaced the sound of laughter,
overcome by the rain.....

O, How my eyes yearn for the sight of butterflies
and my heart ,over come with the peace, longs
to hear the laughter of children, playing in
the rain, once again.
4:37pm September 28, 2014

Time has a way of reminding me
That time's not on my side..
That life is much to short
we are all born to die.

My yesterdays stand off
in the distance......

My tomorrows come much
too fast.

Nether last forever...

As soon as my daily walk ends
My day becomes the past.
4:17pm September 28, 2014

When I look into the shine in your eyes
I see winter time, and a longing for Spring.
Upon the face of one so young, I see
Written in the shine , longing.
Rest, now, sweet angel , while your
loved ones weep.
10:39pm September 26, 2014

As I strive to understand
why my life is like it is today.
Lord, give me understanding
take the darkness away.

Give me insight into where
evil lays this today.

Then, give me the strength
to take up my shield of faith
until the darkness fades away.
11:35am September 16, 2014

No one gets through
this world untested.

Dry away the tears
that stain your day.

Lean on the promises
of God-

Jesus is the light and
the way.
1:31am Sept 16, 2014

Never think your life
is not important
or that your dreams
will not come true.

Your life is special
there can never be
another one like you.

Believe in yourself,
and your ability
to make your dreams
come true.
1:09am Sept 16, 2014

Yesterday is behind me
all I am is in this moment
I see hope in the morn
Through the darkness that
surrounds me.
May the night bring sweet dreams
and the day be filled with peace.
12:44am Sept. 16, 2014

I have lived long enough
to see clearer
the value of those things
I once took for granted....

The touch of mama's hands
as she prepared me for the day....

The feel of daddy's hands
as he pointed out the value
of always standing firmly behind
what I believe.

My child's first cry
that I will never hear again.
Love's first song
my heart will never sing again.

The beauty in just feeling life
when all things are organized
and flowers, birds, and butterflies
are all the eyes could see.

The times when God, family,
and friends...all shared in creating

A special sense
of being loved- away from unrest-
closer to peace.
1:35pm Sept 12, 2014

Setting here....
looking out my window
to where yellow butterflies play,
I know in my heart nothing matters
beyond this moment in my day...

All that once was, is no more.
With yesterday all things were
changed, into the moment that gives
reality, to the moment I am in.
11:12am Sept. 12, 2014

There has been a stillness
in my world
nothing got in -nothing got out
My heart was silent
as my mind pondered each day
helpless to reach outside
from the realm of my being
to where shattered hearts lay
sleeping, and mankind screams out
in torment and pain.

Then God brought me to this day
and released my heart to speak
of bigger and better things.
10:54am Sept 12, 2014

Jesus Is My Shepherd

Jesus is my Shepherd I shall not want
Together we travel the roads that I walk.....

He prepareth my heart and nurtures my soul
then leaves the choices to me....

He gives me inner strength when I am weak.....
Down every road I take Jesus is in the lead.

Jesus gives me inner eyes to see the flowers
growing among the weeds...

Jesus gives me the courage to stand against the
mightiest wind-in my times of uncertainty.

Yea tho I walk down roads of trial and heartache;
and my day be a burden to me.....

I will walk upright on the darkest day..... Because
Jesus is sharing life's burdens with me.
10:36am Sept. 3, 2014

Can you hear their silent screams
muffled by the blood in their veins?

Can you feel their tears fall upon
the ground you stand on?

Can you see beyond their graves
their dreams of a better day
that was never meant to be?

My heart has heard their muffled screams

My heart has felt their tears roll onto
the ground....

My heart has gazed upon their graves from afar.

My unseen tears have fallen on the ground
where they lay.

My heart has touched their shattered dreams
in the emptiness they left behind.

Lord, how long must the innocent suffer
for the sins of others?

How much blood and tears must
mingle together, before the
price for peace is paid?

Lord, Give rest to the weary...

mend the hearts that grieve....

and, release love out into the world
that those filled with hate might
come to know peace.
8:16pm August 32, 2014

Silver clouds above my head
Many colored butterflies
dancing gracefully in a gentle
Not moved by anything
but the wind beneath their
outstretched wings.
5:17pm August 31, 2014

Let us not forget
the power of love
in the face of intolerance.
Let us say no to hate....
Let us respect the right of all
to worship according to his own conscious
Let us not forget all that we do this day
to make the world a better place
all the knots of friendship tied-
will determine the fate
of those not born yet.

4:40am August 30, 2014

Jesus' Sail of Love

Under Jesus sail of love
I carry my Shield of Faith
Through the passages of life
My heart satisfied.

As I discover my weaknesses
And contemplate my strength
Laughter fills my soul, when I think
Jesus is strong when I am weak.

Jesus love is unconditional . . .
His forgiveness, like a gentle wind
Blowing through my heart and soul,
Time and time again.

I know, absolutely, without a doubt
As I journey toward the reunion
up -above..
That Jesus has His hands on me
And he Shields me with his love.

-Jan Tetstone
By Heartsong

Never Alone

Sometimes, when I am down
and feeling so alone....
I cry a tear or two to release
my self pity- and I think of all
the lonely times, come and gone,
and how ,after drying my last tear
God never fails to remind me
That His son ,Jesus, is always there
for me-and I am never completely
alone ..... unless, I choose to be.
11:49am August 4, 2014

Lord, Take my hand this day
lead me where you would have
me go.
None but you will I follow
None but you do I trust completely
to lead my soul to safety. jt

Words of love mean nothing
to the heartless......who claim
no god....no beginning ,no end
just an existence, destined to
become non-existent.
How sad it must me to believe
in nothing but one's self ....
never to find the kind of peace
that brings joy to the soul.
How sad in deed it must be
never to be completely whole.
9:39 am August 2, 2014

Counting down the days
before, again, I must be
stronger than I am.
What will tomorrow bring?
I do not know......
I only care about this day
and what it brings
my way.
For, none can change
a tomorrow from where
they stand today.
9:28am August 2, 2014

Today, I hear the birds singing
as they fly from tree to tree
Reminding me that still
there is beauty to be found
growing among the weeds.
9:21am August 2, 2014

God gives us choice
to choose the direction
our life will go in . . .

God gives us innocence
of mind and heart
to prepare us for a world
of sin.

God gives us love, hope
and promise of a better day.

God gives us life, heart, and
Freewill. . .

Then lets us choose the way.
10:23am July 25, 2014

No one's life is perfect
tho it might appear to be.
Everyone has times when
peace reigns, and times
when tears fall. jt

Awaken, with hope, in the day
take up your Shield of Faith,
and ask God to lead the way.

For, nothing is impossible,
From the smallest, to the biggest
when one asks God for a miracle,
Then with his hearts ~truly believes.
8:52am July 25, 2014

I was lost in a world
that did not know me
A wandering soul, lost in
the dark.....
Searching the world for
answers to things of the
heart....seeking love
where love was not,
When God's mighty hand
reached down for me and
pulled me from life's
dreary dark.

8:30am July 25, 2014

God, the day has just begun
What was now lay behind....
What will be lay before me
In the dawn of day I find
the warmth of your love
the presents of your angels
Waiting to help me through
troubled times.
Again I raise my Shield of Faith
and turn my life over to you.
You are my morning sunshine
Thank you for the day and night
Thank you, for all the times
I strayed, and you brought me
back into the Light.
8:03am July 25, 2014


You were always there for me
Anytime night or day.
When God's angel came for you
He took some of my sunshine away.

No one could ever fill your shoes,
erase your memory
. . .or take your place.

I lost a special brother here on earth
When the angel took you away.

No one could ever fill the void
your leaving left behind . . .
When God was giving out brothers-
I am so thankful . . . that He made you
July 15, 2014
Wrote in Memory of my brother Jimmy. RIP

If one does not know why his heart gets broken
and why he is exiled from another's heart,
how can one fill the void, and find understanding
as to why their heart was broken-and how it is
that love can shine so brightly only to leave
one standing in the dark
holding in his hands pieces of his own
breaking heart?
11:29am July 14, 2014

When ego gets the upper hand
a lot of tears will water the soul
of love. jt

The day is done . . .
The night that waited
for the morning sun
as I lay beneath the stars
gave way to tomorrow
only to awaken to the tears
in my day...
So . . . bitter to the taste.
11:03am July 14, 2014

If a heart must be broken
let it be the one
that beats inside of you.

If you take that step
into tomorrow
and leave shattered hearts

In your own heart no peace
you will ever find.

If you must move on
with your life ,don't do it
to hurt the ones you
leave behind.

If a heart must be broken
let it be the one
that beats inside of you.

when your heart is breaking
that after all is said and done
tomorrow will come..

Yesterday's broken hearts will
mend . . .
And love will warm your heart
1:51am July 11, 2014

Up until I got disconnected
from the world outside
I was falling into a dark hole
and in danger of weakening
my spirit . . . and destroying
my soul.

I am so thankful today
that God took the darkness
away, and showed me where
the weakest part of me lay.

Because I can only see through
my eyes, and my heart's eye
I see things in different ways
I see the outer- what the flesh
wants me to see .....
And the inner that only my heart
can see.

Shut off from the worldly
I took back control of my heart
and my destiny....
and found peace once more
in my life-and the heart
inside of me.
9:05am July 9, 2014

Today, as I set here
thinking of yesterdays
gone bye . . .
So many things awaken
my spirit
to just how blessed
my life has been.
I can complain and carry on
All I want too . . .
But the truth is
I have been blessed my
whole life through.
8:41am July 9, 2014

I do not fear being loved
I do not fear giving love
I ,only, fear being unworthy
of the love that's given to me.
8:55am July 8, 2014

If one could read my mind and know
the memories that linger there
Their tears would mingle with mine,
And neither, peace would find.

If one could feel the beating of my heart
from the inside, and know the love spent
and taste the love locked-up inside,
They would understand why my life is so full
and empty at the same time.

If one could know all of my worry and woe,
Heartache and sorrow-hidden behind the smile,
and carry my Shield of Faith for a while, they
would find, that no matter the joy and sorrow
Jesus will be there in my yesterday, today
and tomorrow.

We each have our good times and troubling
times ~ Times the rain falls, and times when
the sun don't shine.

The roads in life are many...Not all will one
travel down.
Choose wisely your path-Your destiny....

For none can read my mind ,feel my heart from
the inside, or make my journey through life -
but me.
8:48am July 8, 2014

My heart is beating out its pain
I find I am being tested once again.
It saddens my heart to see the roses
dying ...
The grass over-taking every beautiful
thing . . .
Yesterdays' beauty slowly dying away.
Silence without peace . . .
The turmoil growing inside of me . . .
The darkness coming through on a
bright sunny day . . .
And, finding myself alone with
my Shied of Faith in hand,
Asking God, once more, to help me
8:24 am July 8, 2014

There was a sudden mist of insight
as I set here...a cloud of darkness
lingered in the mist, long enough
to move my spirit to attention.
Looking through the mist, I saw
eyes piecing back into my eyes
and what I saw hidden there
was pictures of what is to come,
the nakedness of wailing
and total despair....
grief and suffering everywhere.
I saw in the mist warning signs
of what rests ahead for all
10:35am July 6, 2014

The sun is shining through the morning clouds
and my heart is rested from last nights sleep.
With faith I enter this day tearless and unafraid.
9:07am July 6, 2014

I've stumbled through life
fell, got up, and fell again
trying to move ahead
and leave behind where I'd

I've made mistakes that
I couldn't undo....I've walked
through hell on earth a time
or two.

I've misplaced my identity, and
pretended all was right in the day
when in my heart I wanted to run

I've learned that everything in life,
like the rain and the sun that shines,
has its own appointed time.

That it's my faith that gives me the
courage and strength to survive the
winds of life's spring and wintertime.
12:35am July 6, 2014

Tonight, my soul is so weary
and my heart so filled
with tears.
But, still, love finds room
inside my heart.
Still, God's goodness
touches my world
to remind me that beneath
my shield of faith waits
my inner peace.
11:09pm July 5, 2014

God lift me above
my self created pain
Help me understand
the dark times
I'm living in.
Help me to be
the better part of me
and when I am blinded
by human weakness
and self pity, please,
Don't give up on me.
10:59pm July 5, 2014

If tomorrow finds me gone
and there be a void filling
life's gap where I lived long.
Waste not a tear over my grave
when alive none came to comfort me
and wipe my tears away.
Empty not your pain out over my
grave-let me rest in peace.
Waste not a tear on my memory
For a memory is an empty thing
and cannot comfort the stilled
heart that lays broken in the grave.
10:37pm July 5, 2014

Everyday, I awake and find
another bridge to cross
another mountain to climb.
Another bridge to burn
another path to find.
Another heartache to remind me
of yesterdays pain
Another memory of what was
and a thought of what might have been.
10:21pm July 5, 2014

One can not be more than they
were meant to be....
Own more than they were meant
to process.
Know more than what life
has taught them through living.
Love more than the heart can give.
One can not find peace in life
until he has found peace within.
8:00pm July 1, 2014

You can judge me, even curse me
and it just does not matter anymore.
I use to think I deserved the pain
that you inflicted on my heart......
That the tears you caused me to cry
were nothing more than a payback- for
all the mistakes I have made in my life.

But by the grace of God, I no longer
feel that way....
You used everything I hold dear to bend
and mold me into what you wanted me to be
but the truth is, I finally realize
what has always been right in front
of my eyes:

Every time you broke my heart
you broke your own in two
Every time you caused me to cry
Tears filled your own eyes.
Every time you turned your anger on me
and tried to mold me into someone
I could not be- you robbed yourself of the
better part of you.
Every time you thought you hated me
You knew in your own heart
That my love would always be with you.
7:08pm July 1, 2014

Seek not to burden another
with your worry and your woe
God see all things and your
needs he already knows.
Hang tightly to your shield of faith
let none take your faith away...
For, always does the liar hate the truth
and always does evil work its wickedness
from behind a shield of deceit.
Keep high your shield of faith
never weaken in love, never try
to live in tomorrow
before you defeat the demons in the day.
4:36pm June 30, 2014

When the day is darker
than the night to your soul
Reach down deep inside
your heart and seek God's
guidance in the dark.
4:27pm June 30, 2014

Today, yesterday's sun still shines,
tomorrows encounters still wait,
and memories are waiting to be
made. jt

I do not know what tomorrow will bring
or what night time dreams I will dream.

I do not know where this life will take me.

I do not know the heart of another
or what things brought them to this day.

I only know what yesterdays brought
my way...
I only know my night time dreams
and the things that brought me
to this day.

I only know the heart in me
that has both loved and grieved.
7:40pm June 22, 2014

Today the sun caught me
thinking on yesterdays.....
and the first sunbeams
reflected off my tears.

I was thinking of times gone by
when all that mattered to me
was my family ties.

When my dreams were not for me
but the small child whose head
rested against my knee.

When I built my world a round family
and unknowingly was losing my own

and of all the times, I changed me
hoping to fit in to the world
I had created for them.

The Lord has shown me the errors
of my ways, much to late
to change the way things were
way back then.
8:38am June 22, 2014

Because man is not perfect
neither is his ways...

Strive not to be perfect but
to be true to yourself.

None can make you
smaller than you want to be.
7:22am June 19, 2014

My eyes have awaken to a new day
in which yesterday's sun still shines
tomorrows encounters still wait, and
memories are waiting to be made.
7:18am June 19, 2014

The enemy of the soul
rests not in the outer world
it rest within the man.

Life divides only what is not
suppose to be together.

The lips speaks many languages
the heart only one.
7:09am June 19, 2014

Broken Hearts

I have looked into the hearts of many
and saw pieces of yesterdays.

Engraved on each piece
the word love.

And the sight saddened my heart.

There was no love beating in harmony
Just pieces of broken heart.

One cannot be tortured so, from within,
and easily open his heart again.

Such a heart can only bitter be
to have loved so many
cried so many tears, only
to awaken one day to find
itself empty.

Had I the power, broken hearts
I would mend....love would be
whole, and every broken heart
would be filled with love,
and the desire to love again.
12:09am June 19, 2014

Old age,
is an issue
of time.

The old heart ,
like the young heart,
Is moved by love ...
by dreams.....
by life......
by destiny....
by the desire
to be.

To harness youth
and rob the world
of the wisdom
that comes with
is not times' place.

Enjoy the beauty of youth
for to quickly
the years pass away.
9:54am June 16, 2014

Tho I be judged a hundred times over
by those in the world I'm living in,
I will not turn my heart against any.
Tho distance divides my heart from yours
and a blanket of darkness lay over your
heart... my love rest next to yours,
in the dark.
7:25am June 16, 2014

Again, my heart is made heavy
by things beyond my control
and, again, I set here thinking
its not worth my tears.
Too many tears I have cried
Too many times I have believed
that I am not worthy...
Too many times I have trusted
and opened my heart only to find
tears in place of happiness.
Lord, every time I reach out
my heart gets broken...
I need a place in this world
where my heart can mend.
Put your arms around me
and heal my heart again.
9:01am June 10, 2014

What is in ones heart is not always
reflected in ones daily life.

Worry not that the day is darkened
by the past....

Give thanks for the way things were
and the way things are today.

Tomorrow depends on the direction
our life takes us in this day.
7:06am June 10, 2014

I did not know the loneliness that
you were going through
in this world you left behind.

I was to busy with a life of my own,
and I never took the time.

If only I had taken the time
to visit you and hold your hand

when you needed someone around
and no one could be found.

If only I had known the heartache that
was inflicted on your heart

every time life took you and your children
farther and farther apart.

But there was no way I could have known

until I reached the place in my own life

where I had to live in this world alone

after one by one my children left my side
to face life on their own.
7:19am June 8, 2014

When the heart's in morning
Life itself sheds a tear. jt

Oh, child of my womb
my heart bleeds ....
For what used to be
when your life was innocent
and you walked through the
flowers with me.
If setting among the flowers
I taught you only one thing
let it be, that in life one
can always find flowers
growing among the weeds.
9:19am June 7, 2014

Yesterday, I was tested
to see what I would do
when doors were opened
and shut, and I could not
go through.

Often we build relationships
on memories and not
on reality.

Once bridges are burned
there is no going back
to the good times and the
way things used to be....

Tho love remain forefront
in ones heart
there are no bridges
that will ever again
allow some hearts to
meet half way in between
what was, what is, and
what might have been.

Tho love remains locked
forever inside my heart.
and your place in my life
has moved to a lower plane
The memory of better times
inside my heart will

forever remain.
9:00am June 7, 2014

Cling not to tightly
to what does not
belong to you.

All things fade away
at the grave.

Nothing will one
take with them on
judgment day.

Into the world
we are born
to taste the rain
and feel the sun.

To live, then die
once the race
is run.

11:08pm June 6, 2014

One travels many roads in ones lifetime..
Taking memories with them and leaving
memories behind. jt

I am not a pretender
I live in the real world
where people fall out
of love with those
they never fell in love with.

Where people pretend
to have more than others
when they have far less.

My world has no blinders
around it....to close out

I live in the real world
somewhere between real
and make believe.

I am not a pretender
I live in the real world
where hearts get broken
more often than they get mended.

Where people that should be loved
are pushed aside, and forgotten.

Where growing old is welcomed
and considered far easier to do
than struggling in life to get through.

Where giving up ,for many,
is easier than keeping faith
that God will make a way.

I live in the real world
the one that can tear your heart
out with the promise of love
and never shed a tear.

My world has no blinders
around it....to close out

In my world, heartache
through prayer
gives way for peace.
10:42pm June 6, 2014

I wish I could cry, and then find that
it was not worth my tears;
Oh heart, let not the worldly
use your love; love with understanding
that broken hearts touched by your love
might heal.
Love with a heart that has been broken
and mended ....
that others might learn to love again.
10:18pm June 6, 2014

Not always does one show
the world the better self. jt

For days my spirit wandered
to places beyond the sea
where sights beyond the eyes seeing
were in the spirit revealed to me.

Hatred filled the hearts of many
whose souls cried out in mortal pain
as war was waged against my soul
and arrows, at my heart were aimed.

The hearts of men burning and
blackened by loves eternal flame
wanting my heart, to quench their
thirst ...knew not .....
that my spirit drew its power from
the love rooted deep inside my heart.

My spirit, morning the sights that it
had seen, reached out and gave
those thirsty souls my heart's key.

Not to unlock the love in my heart
but to release the love in their own.
11:06pm June 3, 2014

Tonight I set here alone,
giving thanks for the day
that just past and the day
that has just begin.

And in the stillness of the night
I open my heart wide and asked
Jesus, my friend, if he would come in.

For, long ago, when life broke my heart,
and the world offered me no comfort
my tear fell like rain, until
I met Jesus , and in the midst of my
suffering and pain.....
forever my life was changed.
2:23am June 3, 2013

It is never easy, explaining
ones feeling to another
When it is something
they do not want to hear. jt

God's time has no beginning
God's time has no end
From the moment we are born
Our time on earth begins.

God's time is like no other
Time is God's alone
Time, like life, is only ours
for a short time, on loan.
1:45am June3, 2014

My Grandma

Her hair was like threads of silver
Her eyes blue like the blue in a sunny sky.
Her clothes were plain and simple
protected by the apron that she wore
Her life was not an easy one
her loses were many after she was born
Her love was the silent kind
she never told you she loved you
but somehow you always knew.
My grandma was a special lady
Her death, sad in deed
For many times throughout
her lifetime she went out of her way
to help someone in need.
Her faith she wove into her daily life
for the world to see.
My grandma loved and suffered long
to earn her angel wings.....
My grandma was a special lady
Her memory gives me strength
and inspires me to take
faithful steps in life
and to be all that I can be.
11:35am May 31, 2014

In the days that lay ahead
rests my destiny
Let me walk bravely
to meet it. jt

In The Blink of An Eye

No one knows what moment
their life on earth will end
when God's angel will be sent
to take them home again.

No one knows what moment
all dear to their heart
will morn
when death pulls them apart.

No one knows what hour
On their journey home
they will blink an eye to find
they have reached their heavenly
8:45am May 29, 2014

Four years today my 21 year old grandson
opened his eyes to find he was home.
Rest in Peace
Michael Ray Tetstone

Today, I begin a new journey
through moments of time
Lord, give me the patience not to hurry
and show me where to draw the line
When thoughts of worldly things
toy with my mind.
8:00am May 29, 2014

If my tears touch your eyes
Let also my love touch your
For love has the power to
change the direction of
heartache's wind.....and give
one reason to hope again.
4:33am May 23, 2014

So tired and weary I journey on
not knowing what lay before me.

So tired and weary I let my heart
A restless spirit in search of heavenly
4:17am May 23, 2014

In the moment, all things rest. jt

There are those who take and take
never giving anything in return
Seeking riches and immortality
And there are those who give and give
seeking nothing in return who
are happy just to be.
Life, itself, is a double edged sword
that cuts both ways at the same time.
Life is a negative and a positive
Life is everything and nothing.
Life is in me and beyond me.
3:54am May 23, 2014

When a loved one dies
Heaven's gates open wide
to let another angel inside.

When a loved one dies
One who walked among men,
to fly with the angels,
has been chosen.

When a loved one dies
One who lived on earth
moves to Heaven
to live for all eternity.

When a loved one dies
One who carries burdens, and
worries about tomorrow,
lays his burdens down
along with all sorrow.

When a loved one dies
during his rebirth -we cry
and endue heartfelt pain
but a faithful heart knows that
earth's loss is heaven's gain.
5:56pm May 21, 2014

The years fly by so quickly.

One day, life is like a twinkling
star shining brightly
waiting to be lived.

Then, suddenly, life becomes
a falling star growing dim
as its sparkle nears its end.

Take life not for granted.
The glitter of the day dims
with the night.....

But the spirit, in the end,
raises up from the darkness
to mingle with life's eternal light.
12:47am May 19, 2014

First Cousins

Dear First Cousin:
When we were young
We laughed, played, and run
happily down dirt roads, and
among the pecan trees, having
lots of fun.

During our growing years
we shared laughter and tears.

We were bonded together by
blood and by love-

From the time we were born
We were destined for life
to pull us apart, and carry our
childhood memories engraved
in a special place inside our

I am thankful for the happy times
we shared...
Thankful to be apart of a family
that cares.

I may not always be there in person
to help you out- but I always hold
you up in my prayers, when I'm
not there.

May God watch over you, dear cousin,
lighten the burdens you carry.... and
in your time of need, May God touch
your heart with understanding and fill
your life with peace.
11:03am May 17, 2014

I face each day, knowing
I am never completely alone...
That no matter what the day sends
my way, I will get through it
because my god ,through my faith,
gives me strength beyond my own.
Let my heart sing praises for all things
my flesh and spirit endure....let my lips
never cease giving thanks to the
creator of all things.
I am weak but the love of God
abides with me......and nothing
more do I need.
3:47pm May 15, 2014

Alone I set pondering
the things life sent
my way today....Wondering,
how many take the time
to see beyond the bad things
to places where good things lay.
Why worry about what is over
and done- choices after
they are made- a race
that's already been run?
Learn from things past
things that will brighten your
tomorrow......lessons that
will ease mental, and
heart felt pains.....and help you
rise above your sorrow.
3:32pm May,15, 2014

The day brought the sunshine,
the rain and.....
Children sleeping peacefully
soon to awaken again. jt

When words do not
fall easily
and thoughts are not so
clearly formed-
it is time for silence
to capture the moments. jt

As I think on the day
I cannot see beyond the

There is a warmth that fills
my spirit and gives me

I am blessed to awaken
to such a day:

Another chance to be
and do...

Filled with Unsung songs
waiting to be sung...

And, another race in life
waiting to be run.
7:10am May 8, 2014

The stillness of the morning
brings the sound of songbirds
singing. jt

The sun light is resting
in the shadow of the maple tree
atop the uncut grass.
It is a beautiful beginning
of a day once filled with so
many tears.

The birds are singing
as silent you lay sleeping
Stilled by death ...
your spirit set free
far-but never far
from me.
7:18am May 6, 2014
Born: April 29, 1971 - Died: May 6, 1993

Sonya Marie

I carried you beneath my heart
until the day you were born
I watched you grow up to be
a strong but gentle soul..... content
and happy just to be.
I carried you beneath my heart
and blanketed you with my love
to shield you from life's cold.....
I watched over you your whole
life through...near or far
my love and prayers were
with you.
I watched with a broken heart
the day you drifted off to your
eternal home, to claim your
angel wings.... leaving me
with one less flower, in my
mother's bouquet.
Once you slept beneath my
heart .......
Now, your memory lives
inside my heart.... so sweet.
And your angel wings cover
me with love, comfort and peace.
I love you my angel daughter.

11:09pm May 5, 2014

I feel the chill in the morning wind;
the warmth of the morning sun
the clouds are holding at bay.

I see beauty in the smallest thing,
I smell the newness that the
morning brings.

As I enter in to another beautiful
day, I thank God for all things the
day contains...

And for always reminding me
at the beginning of each day
that his love is my life's shelter
when the clouds bring the rain.
8:52am May 5, 2014

The world is ever turning
away from the face of God,
as was foretold long ago.
O my god, and my creator
have mercy on my soul. jt

When I am alone
I am closer to my god. jt

Let not your enemy fool you
with his cunning ways,
his forked tongue,
or the warmth of
his hand.

For your enemy is set on your
destruction and must find
the flesh weak, before He can
destroy ones soul.

Love is something that evil
cannot conquer....

If your enemy offers you
his hand, take it, with compassion
knowing what fate awaits
a loveless soul.
10:51am May 4, 2014

The Word is written not on paper
but in the hearts of men. jt

Don't look for life
to return you back
to a yesterday
to find the heart
you left behind...
For, nothing gone
stays the same
with the
passing of time.
10:34am May 4, 2014

The wildflowers cover the
ground that I walk on...
Now, that Winter has
come and gone.
None but God could
create such a carpet of
beauty for my bare feet
to travel on.
10:27am May 4, 2014

One who's greed
causes him to steal
from a friend
is still a thief. jt

The universe is a mystery
Tho the stars and sun
shine for all to see
none can touch the
their beauty or smell
the fragrance
from their flames.
10:18am May 4, 2014

As time passes
quickly, away
so does ones life. jt

Watch for none shall
know the hour or the
time when the waters
shall flood their house
and carry away all

For the waters shall
rise up and cover
every land..... leaving
nothing in its path

Prepare now for
that time.

The waters wait
in the desert
knowing the time is

Fear not, O faithful one
Let none move you
from the path created
for your safe journey home.

For the spirit inside of you
is not of the worldly and
what is not of the world
the waters cannot touch.

9:34pm May 2, 2014

My Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ
is my closest and dearest friend
I have never been in want;
Jesus walks with me day and night
when things go wrong
he sets them right
Yea tho I walk amidst life's troubled
waters and life's raging sea
I will fear no evil; because
My Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ,
has His hands on me.
7:00am May 1, 2014

Hate hurts no one but
the one who hates.
Only by a physical act
can the hated be hurt. jt

As a piece of my past is being
moved beyond my seeing---
for other eyes to fall on....

I wonder, how many ever give
thought, to the place they once
called "home".
10:30am April 30, 2014

Child of My Womb

I ask God to watch over you
because we are so far a part.

That your scars might be healed,
I ask God to touch your heart.

I ask God to give you
understanding and to take away
your pain, so my love, once more,
you could feel.

I ask God to send an angel
to walk with you hand in hand;
to catch you if you fall, and
to help you stand again.

I ask God to give you insight
into my heart-as this world
you journey through, that you
might come to know how much
love I carry inside my heart
just for you.
8:50pm April 29, 2014

I was tested today to turn from the path
I walk.....
To accept defeat without striking one blow
against the enemy.

My spirit was in torment, over worldly
and spiritual things.....

I wanted to run away, to a safe place, void of
tears and heartache..

A part of me weakened for a little while-then
my spirit ,through the faith in me, rose up
like a lion.

I may lose battles that lay ahead-but, this day,
I shall face the enemy of my soul, and pierce
him with the sword of Truth...
And in the shadow of my Shield of Faith
the enemy of my soul, in defeat, shall lay.

6:20pm April 29, 2014

Today, is my angel's
It is hard to describe
the emptiness and the fullness
flowing through my heart
at the same time.
Fullness because I know
for having her I was blessed-
Emptiness because the flesh
misses the nearness of the angel
that once shared its flesh.
Sadness because she is gone
from here----
Happiness because I know
just having her in my life
I have been blessed.
Happy Birthday, child of my
Your beautiful memory
fills your place in my life.
6:00pm April 29, 2014

God, with today you remind me
to cherish loved ones near and far
to love them regardless of the place
I hold in their heart.

7:47am April 29, 2014

I woke to the day
Thankful to be...
Thinking of those
good souls
who loved
and nurtured the
me in me.
9:00am April 28, 2014

Why is it, when people
need each other the most
they build fences to high
for any to cross?

Oh, the misery that one
could be spared, if only,
the fences were not there.

One cannot build a fence
so high, as to keep their
broken heart outside.

One can deny love but
their heart cannot.
12:31pm April 27, 2014

No one gets through this world,
unaffected, by the lives of those
they meet in passing.
We learn from life and living
to value, or not, the love
inside another's heart.
12:16 pm April 27, 2014

Another's words are meaningless
to one with a closed mind. jt

Today, as I look back on yesterday
Let me not, look only for the good
things that yesterday contains...
Least, I be caught off guard
when I find- the rain mingling
in with the sunshine.
8:03am April 27, 2014

This day may not bring
anything but sadness and

My heart may take
a few arrows today
I really can't say
I really don't know.

I only know this day
is covered with clouds,
and holds lessons on
holding on to things, and
then having to let them go.
8:24am April 26, 2014

One who has Jesus
never stands alone.
Jesus is there, when
all others are gone. jt

Lord, I know that
everything that happens
has a time to be.....

But sometimes its hard
accepting the change,
without inner peace.

Guide me in this day
as I seek to prepare
for a tomorrow that
may never be.

Strengthen my mind
Increase the love in my heart
And Lessen today's worry
that I might grow in
wisdom and understanding
in my time of need.

Forgive me for my weakness,
If I stumble in my faith.
Thank you for everything
and thank you for this day.
8:13am April 25, 2013

I am not my own
I am a wondering soul
seeking the path
that will
take me home. jt

The good in the world shall take revenge
for those who screamed for justice
and were struck down by the hands
of injustice.

Nothing goes un-noticed by God's
watchful servants ,who mingle
among the living.

Cry not for justice o evil ones
for the measure of the mercy
shall be exact, according to
your own acts of mercy.

Let none think himself
to be wiser than his creator.

10:19am April 24, 2014

My religion does no demand
that I deprive another of the
freedom to believe according
to his own conscious.
3:02am April 24,2014

One who judges another blindly
can not see friendship's
opportunity. jt

Today, a child spoke
with wisdom, far above
his years..
And my heart listened
as he spoke.

"We think friendship
is forever;
that one does not,
with the passing years
leave friendships behind,
Until, the paths of old friends
cross, again.

Then we find two strangers
where once stood two

Pondering the wisdom
my heart had taken in....

I took the words to mean that
the passing of time can dull
ones memory of the best
of things.

While, one may keep the memory
of a dear friend close to their
Others with the passing of time
may not.

"We think friendship
is forever;
that one does not,
with the passing years
leave friendships behind,
Until, the paths of old friends
cross, again.

Then we find two strangers
where once stood two
12:58pm April 22, 2014

One truth can be twisted
into many lies.

When one seeks to dishonor another
without just cause
one brings dishonor to himself.

One must not turn a deaf ear
to the wind.

We never lose what we love....
It's just placed beyond
the here and now.
2:07am April 22, 2014

Today is the day that love rose
from the grave........
and went out into the world
when the stone was rolled away.
2:48pm April 20, 2014

I feel the beauty in the world
with my soul
I see the beauty in the world
With my heart.
2:45pm April 20, 2014

I am blessed
just to be. lt

The heart that feels
the world's heartbeat
can see into
the world's soul. jt

If you want someone
to overlook something
Put it where they'll
stumble over it. jy
11:07 April 20, 2014

Evil uses self pity
as a tool against
a man's spirit.
For, the flesh is weak
and is the gateway
to a man's soul.
2:54pm April 19, 2014

The one who seeks to hide the truth
is the liar. jt

There has always been
tears pouring out into
the world.
And there will always be
tears for the worldly
to taste jt

Lord, for many years
You have guided me.

Sometimes, to places
I didn't want to be...

Other times to places
I didn't want to leave.

Now, I set, with no
place to go but to

I take it to mean, you
are leaving the rest
of my journey
up to me.

Guide me Lord
to choose wisely
the place where
You would have
me be.

For I need
to find the place
that gives one
a sense of inner
1:50pm April 19, 2014

I have given some thought
to why I share my most
inner thoughts with others

In a time when one who
thinks they are bringing
people together....

By their
worldly inter-fearing

Are helping people grow
farther and farther apart.

I think maybe it's because
I realize, that not all
who are in positions
to do good in the world

Can see the evil at work
in their lives, and the lives
of those they seek to provide

Nature has its own way
of balancing out the
scales of life.

I am not in this world
to throw stones
at those who care about

But sometimes good hearts
are misguided in their

And create opportunity
for the servants of evil.

Not always will the
messenger bring truth to
your door...

Seek to be wiser than
the one wearing
the mask of deception.

Look into the eyes
of any man, to find out
whether or not
he brings to your door
honesty and a caring heart.
7:25pm April 18, 2014

Setting here
looking out
the glass
that separates
the inside from
the out...

I wonder at
the stillness
filled only by
the sounds of
distant thunder

and the nearness
of the birds'
their songs.
4:59pm April 18, 2014

This world is dying
faster, than man can

It's dying from
Starving to death
from spiritual
need. jt

My walk with Jesus
Begin many years ago
beneath the waters
of a man made pond...
Many would say
it's "impossible"
for such a walk
to have taken place.

I did not see the face
of the presences walking
next to me-
But, I know it's possible
for the spirit
to walk on land or
under the sea.
5:05 pm April 17, 2014

The spirits of a hundred angels
came to comfort and strengthen
my spirit today.......

They moved and sing God praise
encouraging my heart not to sway
from the path that I follow
that Jesus lay.

The angels reminded me
with rejoicing and praise
that life here on earth
is only temporary....
a better place awaits
the faithful in the end.

The spirits of a hundred angels
surrounded me with their love
and promised that if I stay
the coarse-
we will all be together again.

The voices of a hundred angels
filled my day with love and
touched my heart to share their
message with those they left behind,
when they crossed over to the other

The spirits of a hundred angels
came to comfort and strengthen
my spirit today.......
Moving and singing praises
encouraging my spirit not to sway
from the path, that I follow,
that Jesus lay.
1:26 pm April 17, 2014

NOTE: I was inspired to write this
while watching a home video that is very old.
The picture of "Gramma" is untouched-
The first thing I noticed was the cross-
that wasn't in the picture
when I took it at about 2:00pm today. jt

Throw your stones
and I will stand
beat me down
and my spirit
will raise me

For you see,
I have no need
of anything....

Because my Lord
and Savior
Jesus Christ
is walking next to me.

8:55am April 17, 2014

I waken to the day rested
with a refreshed spirit...
Lord, use me in this day
to your glory.
Walk with me to the gates
of righteousness
There set my spirit free
to guide me in this day.
Walk with me to the
free flowing water
and there cleanse
my soul.
8:47am April 17, 2014

It's time to rest my weary
soul and let tomorrow wait
on me, to awaken from
my sleep. jt

In this world we are judged
but we are also the judges. jt

Take the time today
to look into the face
of a child ......

Cherish the moment...

Take notes, of the beautiful

Then, engrave inside
the deepest part of your heart
an image of that innocent face
that holds so much beauty
and so much grace.

Never miss a chance to engrave
on your heart an image that you
would want to carry with you
to your grave.

God gives, but God, also,
takes away.
1:37pm April 16, 2014

An angel has a hold
on my heart
and a forever place
in my memory.

I cannot see my angel's face
but, I know....

When the angel is close
enough for my heart to
feel- the warmth from her
angel glow.
12:59 pm April 16, 2014

Lord, wipe the tear
from my eye....
lift the burden
that I
carry inside.

Help me Lord
to stand
against the
strong winds
headed my way.

Give me the strength
to finish what,
so long ago, begin.

I know not what
I will face in my

Whatever it be
I ask you Lord
to keep your hands
on me.
12:32am April 16, 2014

I may stumble
through life
fall every now
and then
but with the help
of my Lord and Savior
I will walk upright
12:08 am April 16, 2014

Be thankful, for this day that
God has made for you.

Today is a step closer
to eternity.

May you be blessed
And in your day find peace.
11:25am April 15, 2014

This world takes mercy
on none.
In the end we all leave
the flesh, to journey on
in the spirit. jt

Everyone has a page
in the Book of Life
but none ,alone,
can fill the pages for all
the names it contains.

One ,only, has the power
to preserve, or to burn, his
own page, in the Book of Life.

Don't live your life for others
Live your life in such a way
as will, make you worthy
on Judgment Day.
11:07am April 15, 2014

The world is in turmoil
because the spirit
and the flesh
are at war.
A war the flesh
cannot win
because its a war
that's fought from within.
10:53am April 15, 2014

Yesterday, I was overcome
by the human part of me
and suffer in spirit, for it, today.

That's the price to be paid. jt

When hurtful words,
in anger, are spoken....
Many times, its the heart
of someone dear that
gets broken.
Yesterdays words
can't be unspoken.
I can only regret
saying them, and try
to mend the hearts
that were broken.
Lord, help me not
to use another word
to break another's
I have many things
weighing heavy on my
mind....but that's no
reason to be unkind
to those who have long
filled my world
with love and sunshine.

10:39am April 15, 2014

Messenger From The Sky

Faith is not a sometime
One who talks the talk
must be willing to
walk the walk of trial
and tribulation, with a
willing spirit ,and an
open heart. jt

I know that God is watching
over my life....and tho
I don't understand why
some things happened to me
I know what ever reason
for the tears, the heartache,
the lonely times, I am stronger
in my faith....
I don't understand why, or how,
loving someone can some times
seem to be in vain...... Love is not
a some time thing.
You either love someone or
you do not ....
You cannot love someone one day
and tomorrow take that love away.
There are many degrees of love
but, love in any degree, will love
always be.
10:41pm April 12, 2014

Be watchful....
Seek understanding
and God will give you
eyes to see evil in the day.

Be faithful for one wiser
is in charge of all good and
bad things.

Don't fall victim to your
own rage.

God creates innocence
in the new born babe.

Wise is he who loves
his god more than his own life.

Dreams of power
create the realties of war.
9:24pm April 12, 2013

When one is young
one dreams of many things
but not of growing old.

When one is not young
but is not old
One dreams less about
tomorrows and finding
life's pot of gold.

When one is old
One lives more in the
Spirit-closer to ones soul.
8:41pm April 12, 2014

Dry your tears
let not the world
throw darkness
in your way
with its lying tongues
for words fall
like honey from
the liar lips.
Guard well your soul
test another's words
with your heart...
Dry your tears
and from your faith
stray not.
The liar hates the truth
that lives inside of you.
The liar hates a caring
12:35 am April 12, 2014

If I lose everything worldly
my faith will carry me through
each day.....
For what good are treasures
of silver and gold
that one can't take with them
when they go.......
What good are mansion, fast cars,
and fancy clothes compared to the value
of a man's soul?
12:20am April 12, 2014

The heart that loves
is made stronger
by its caring.

So much love
many hunger for love.

Its as natural for a child
to love as it is for a child
to breathe.....

Nurture the love born
into innocence
and love will never
flee from the heart.

Love heals unseen wounds.

Even the poorest man
has love to give.
11:53am April 7, 2013

One can always find
someone else to blame
for their life's pain...
failures and misfortunes.
In all my years of living
I have learnt first hand,
Life's choices cause the
pain life dishes out...
Failure comes when one
is not prepared for the task,
and being lucky or not
determine ones misfortunes
in life ......
Others are not me
With life comes responsibility.
11:15am April, 2014

There are feelings
of fullness and emptiness
in my life today,
The fullness comes from yesterdays
when life was full of laughter and
The emptiness comes from
a mother's loss
when a child leaves home
for the last time.
10:34am April 7, 2014

Time leaves
its foot prints
on ones heart
and on ones face.

With time
all worldly things
change and return
to the nothingness
it once was.

Time has no power
over spiritual things.

The time we share
with one we love
sometimes is not
long enough.

Time stands still
for none
Not the old...
Not the young.

1:28am April 6, 2014

One day at a time I enter into
Yesterday I have already
lived through. jt

Yesterday's tears have been
dried by the night.
My cries hushed by the reality
that we all are living on borrowed
time and what will be will be.
1:13am April 5, 2014

Love carried you

My child rests inside this casket.....
She had just turned twenty-two
For over twenty years these pictures
were put away- I thought I'd share them
with you for her forty-third birthday.

She was a gentle soul who never allowed
the world to lessen the love she had for her
family......friends, and people she hardly

Many hearts were breaking, and many
tears were cried.......gazing at the casket
with the angel sleeping inside.

How did I survive the heartache of losing
a child? I didn't ...My heart aches every time
I think of the baby who grew into
a caring soul-and how much she loved
life, and how quickly her life came to an

When she was born- people pointed
at us being wheeled into the hospital,
and called her a miracle...... because
God delivered her straight into my arms..
I was the first touch she felt when she
was born.

My lips were the first and the last to kiss
her beautiful angel face.
God, was with me the day she was born
God was with me the day she went away
God, gives me the strength to endure
my heartache, day by day.
9:15pm April 4, 2014

Thank you Lord for this day
and everything in it;
Guide me to do your will, amen....
Make me stronger than I am. jt

Lord, often, I have asked you
To make me stronger than I am.
To make me strong enough to stand
Against the evil and deceit that eats
away at the heart and leads a spirit
to defeat..

Lord, often, I have asked you
To show me the way that
You would have me go. . .
To straighten a crooked mile,
fill a hole in life's bumpy road,
and help me carry a heavy load.

Lord, Thank You, for the angels
you send to me in my time of need.

Many times, Your angel has carried
me when I have fallen, and helped me
to stand, and understand ~ that it is the
spirit in me that makes me stronger
than I am.
11:07am April 2, 2014

It's hard to write my feelings
this night.....
For there is enough sadness
and sorrow, without
my own.
We each process
the power of being that makes
each of us special.
When we reach out to comfort
another, in his time of need,
good things follow the kind deed.
One moment at a time the night
unfolds on tomorrow.......
2:47am April 2, 2014

Tears will one day
wash the world clean.

Tears cannot form in the
eyes of a heartless man...

Only a caring soul measures
wicked deeds with his tears.

Angels are closest to the broken

Sometimes tears are needed
to clear the way for better things.

May your tears give way
to a brighter day,
and understanding grow
in the trail of tears-we are all,
at times, called to wade.
10:05am March 31, 2014

There is a storm brewing
that shall touch the world
and open man's eyes
to where the enemy of his
soul lie....
And the waters shall come
together with the rain...
Oh, man, prepare for the storm
in the day- Seek shelter
beneath the pulpit of truth,
clinging tightly to the blade of
For, from the blade of forgiveness
is drawn the power of love.
11:19am March 30, 2014

Many times, as a child
I sing "rain rain go away
come back on another day."
Many times, as a child
I played, in drops of liquid sunshine.
The rain came during the night
leaving a muddy trail behind;
and I awoke to a cloudy day
wishing for the sun to shine.
10:21am March 29,2014

I often feel the moment's
heart beat. jt

When tomorrow comes
and finds me not
but fragments of a loving
and in the place that
I once filled, there
is an emptiness, and I
am nothing more than
a passing memory
to but one-let the memory
of me fill the emptiness
with peace.
4:02pm March 28,2014

Be careful that little hearts
do not get broken or injured
by your hand.
A child does not understand
that their heart can be broken
by love's own hand.
Be careful not inflict pain
on an innocent heart
that loves you so......
A child is to young to know
that one who truly loves them
can be the one who give their
heart a tearful blow.
7:14pm March 26, 2014

The morning finds me
thinking of you
with a heavy heart
The ones that drink
my life's blood
and are wrapped in
my blanket of love--

And I wonder why after
resting beneath my heart
and sleeping, and awakening,
to my heart beat
you stray far from me.

I cannot, and would not
change who I am
for your love
I will never
cease loving you
you were born a part of me
destined to your own
life's calling.

When you awaken
to each new day
draw close to your heart
those you love, and be thankful
for the time you share;
for with the passing of the years
you will lose so many things.
7:55am March 24, 2014

Beware of believing
everything you hear.
Keep an open heart
to those you do not
We all feel the warmth
of the same sun, and share
the nighttime moon
and stars; we all strive
to find our place in the
We all live ,love and die.
And we all have
at sometime in our life
drink from life's cup
of heartache and strife.
9:09am March 23, 2014

Everyday, I try to do what
has to be done in the day
Accepting that yesterday
rests in the past where it
belongs......and tomorrow
has no place in my today or my life.
Tomorrows are things to hope on
for when today ,like yesterday,
is gone.
8:43am March 23, 2014

Life is not a simple thing
Living life is like walking
in a maze-
never sure which way to
8:32am March 23, 2014

The time to forget something
is when remembering it hurts. jt

Every time one loses the ability to care
the world loses a piece of its heart. jt

I find as the years
come and go
that no one
gets through life
untouched by

That some just
hide their past
better than others.
and live in a
world of make believe.

Failures and misfortunes
are part of life's reality.

The biggest misfortune
is when...
one let's life's misfortunes
over power their will to
try again.
7:34am March 21, 2014

Life begins with a heartbeat
and a tear...... jt

Today, I felt evil's
detectable heartbeat
beating against the peace.
And was reminded
of how weak and defeated
in life I would be,
without my shield of faith
to protect me.
God, strengthen the spirit
inside of me , stand next to me
and guide me down the road
of peace.
If I fail lift me up
above my failure.
If I weaken
renew the spirit in me.
6:00pm March 20,2014

Many times, I've thought of you
And asked God to comfort
your heart...
and help you through.

Life has a strange way of pulling
the closest hearts a part,
a little every day.

And, sometimes, unintentionally ,
we push those we love away.
1:19am March 20, 2014

Never rush tomorrow
it gets here fast enough.

Life flows always forward
What lay in yesterday
belongs to yesterday.

Experience has a voice
of its own.

Love is never wasted.
Given love is never
thrown away.

Accepting what is
doesn't mean things
can't be changed.

The measure of a man
depends on the man.
10:59am March 17, 2014

I wish, I could reach out,
take you by the hand
and lead you around
life's troubled ground.
But. Life is a one way
journey that the living
must make....
Each to his on life
Each to their own mistakes.
The secret of life is not to carry
another's burdens
but to help lighten their load.
One cannot truly learn
from another pain, until one
has tasted their tears.
2:23pm March 16, 2014

It's easy, to give up
when things go wrong.
Oftentimes, it's easier
to be weak than it is
to be strong.
Things in life worth loving
are worth fighting for.
Defeat is impossible
when faith leads in battle..
Sometimes caring means
letting go.
2:09pm March 16, 2014

The day is at hand, Lord.
Walk each step with me
Help me to walk upright
and give me the words
that I will need.
9:17 am March 13, 2014

The sun is out, and shinning
brightly, as I ponder the
time drawing near
When, again, I will ask my god
to make me stronger than I am.
10:26am March 12, 2014

The day is a test of a man's faith.
The moment a test of a man's will. jt

Today is filled with hopes and dreams
For a better tomorrow
mixed in with yesterdays sorrow.
Lord, help me sort through the
things that bring my spirit unrest...
Help me not to forget, I am never
alone in sorrow;
that one cannot grow in understanding
when sheltered from life's storms; that
one cannot prepare for life's wars
until one has learned to fight life's battles..
Be strong, for each day is a battle field
and each tomorrow a war
waiting to be fought.
12:54pm March 9, 2014

As surely as I breathe
God's angels watch over me.
If I feel alone it's the
weakness in me---
If tears fall it's the
weakness in me---
If I lose my way in life It's the
weakness in me ---
It is these weaknesses in me
that testify to my worldly
state of being.
Thank God that my spirit is whole
and even in my weakest times
is strong enough to carry me.
12:13pm March 8, 2014

Lord, this is your day I awaken too
As I strive to service you
Guide me through...
Give me inner eyes to recognize
truth from lies.
Give me strength to overcome
my weaknesses....
Give me patient to move slowly through
the day-too cherish the moments, one
by one, before they fade away.
Lord, give me understanding, and fill
my heart with love as I walk through
this day.
10:39am March 8, 2014

Truth is what all
good men search for.

Truth cannot be otherwise
else it be a lie. jt

A Sinner Forgiven

I once believed, with all my heart
that God would never allow
harm to affect my life; that
as long as I was trying my best
that God's angels would protect me.

Then, one day, that belief shattered
into a million pieces of my heart.
All that I held dear, the values
I had long carried inside got
all mixed up-and I had only
myself to blame.

After that, nothing was the same.
I became my own jury, and judge
and sentenced myself for my sin.

It took a lot of heartache, and
losing, to help me understand
that God didn't let me down
I let myself down.

Not one time did I ever call
out for help was I denied.

I am a sinner, Saved only
by the grace of God.
10:04am March 7, 2014

With each passing day
I find the need to reach out
beyond where I set
to lighten another's burden
and to remind humanity
not to blindly
follow the ways of the world.
We, separately, and jointly,
are nothing more than the
offspring of what once was.
9:15 am March 7, 2014

Long ago, my destiny
took form ,as a babe
wrapped inside my mother's

I know not what lay
before me
the future is not mine to

I only know of yesterday
what life had in store for me.

I know not what tomorrow
will bring, what things life
will ask of me....

I can only pray whatever it be,
that Jesus ,my Lord and Savior
will be walking next to me.
10:28pm March 6, 2014

Truth has a way of finding
its way out from under
the lies, it sometimes gets
buried under.

Truth is often overlooked
by those not looking for
the truth.

Truth can be twisted but
truth can never be turned into
something truth is not.

A good raising is
a poor man's treasure.

A liar defeats himself.

Truth can be hidden for
only a short time
before its light
......on the liar shines.

6:20pm March 6, 2014

"I love you" are words all seek to hear
but often time, to these words,
turn a deaf ear......
Loving someone does not mean
one loses ones ability to love others.
Love is known by the way
love makes one feel.
Love is an endless stream of caring.
Never think to forget loves touch ...
In a moment, love can change
ones lifetime. without them even
knowing it...
Once touched by love,
one's heart never forgets.
12:33pm March 6, 2014

The tears left behind, in ones life time,
have long been dried.

But, the stains from those tears, intertwine
with heart and mind, leave one wanting
for the things that might have been.

Yesterday is gone never to be lived again.

Given time the broken heart will mend
and, the troubled mind shall find peace
from within.

May love, peace, hope, and understanding,
fill your day.

May the troubling times, that lay heavy
on your heart and mind, quickly fade away.

And, may love always fill your heart and
find a place in your day.
12:02pm March 5, 2014

The road to peace
is overshadowed
by war and greed.
Still, it is a road
worthy of the
seekers of peace,
Still, it is a road
that's end has, yet,
to be reached.
10:13am March 4, 2014

In this moment
the sun still hides from the day
the day still lay before me
and what will be will be.
Let me wait patiently
as the moments flee
Let me do in each moment
things, from my heart,
that will touch this day with peace.
Let me remember, like yesterday
today will fade away into
a memory.
9:25am March 4, 2014

Happy Birthday, To My Daughter

Forty-one years ago, today
You passed through my womb
into my arms, and found,
waiting, your place
in my life and in my heart.

Happy Birthday, Sharea
I love you.
8:22pm March 2, 2014

Never worry about
someone giving you love
then taking that love away
Love, real love, lasts longer
than a moment or a day.
Love does not come in parts
and pieces....... or different
shades of gray.
Love is a lasting thing
that all the time in the world
cannot erase.
8:05pm March 2, 2014

One wears many faces
in ones lifetime.
But as many faces
as one wears
ones heart never changes. jt

There are times I have
a tugging at my heart,
a longing to hold
the children that entered
this life through my womb
and tell each of them,
in turn, how complete
each of them have
made this life
for me.

But, as life would have it be,
they have all grown up
and rightfully so,
must learn for themselves
that as mush as one loves
a child- there will come a time
to let that child go.

I cannot hold my
children next to my heart
When I remember
their growing years,
and miss them so.

So... I have placed each of them
in God's loving hands, where
my mother placed me so long ago.
5:17am March 2, 2014

Love doesn't need a reason
to be.....Love just is. jt

Today, my mind is full
and overflowing
with memories of times
gone by.
Times when peace
was always where I was,
at the time.
Times when tears found
their way into my eyes,
and hurt clouded my mind.
How does one forget the
times in ones lifetime
that changed everything
that was?
4:32pm February 23, 2014

If time were mine to seal
I'd steal back
a little more time with you.

During that stolen time
I would hold you close
to my heart, until again
time robbed me of you, the
angel, I once called mine.

I'd steal back every moment,
not one of our moments together
would I leave behind.

I would tell you, how proud
I am to be your mama, and how
sorry I am that I didn't make
more time for me and you.

We would set, me holding you
next to my heart....
until time came, again,
For us to part.

The hardest thing I ever had to do
in my life time, was to let go of you.

But. Time is not mine to steal
You are where all angels go
when it comes their time to leave.

You are an angel, in heaven.....
You earned your wings.......
May you always rest in peace.

No, I can't steal back time.. But..

I can be thankful, for the time
that was yours and mine.
2:10pm February 23, 2014

I wish, sometimes, that
I could pretend that
life is perfect. But. It's not.
Life is not a state of mind
or a simple state of heart.
Life is a state of being.
By our actions and deeds
we are known- not by
our feelings, or the amount
of love in our heart.
So, cruel perfection alone
would be---so many things
the needing eye would
never see.....
One will not find, perfection
in an imperfect world.
What will be will be...
10:45am February 23, 2014

If I fail to give thanks
for the good and the bad things,
what lessons has living
taught me?

If not for the worry and the woe
Life's upside and life's downside
The darkness that often hides
life's glow

There are so many things
one would never know.
10:26am February 23, 2014

Each day is a new beginning
Put on your shield of faith
and step into it unafraid. jt

Thank you, Lord, for each life I carried inside.
It hurt when you called two of my children home.

It took me a long time to cope with my loss......
A part of me left this world, the day my babies died.

There were tears.. a lot of tears--- while adjusting
to the empty places in my life; And the void
their leaving left behind.

I know as much as I will always love them
not a one of them was ever really mine.

The Lord giveth and the Lord taketh away.

It is never easy letting go of those who carry
a part of your heart with them.

Tho the time we spent together belongs
to yesterday---

The precious memories our lives made together
will never dull, and can never be taken away.
7:51pm February 22, 2014

When words don't
come easy
its better to be silent
then unthinkingly
use the wrong words.
A few words from the heart
is better than many words
said, just to have
something to say.
7:19pm February 22, 2014

I have tasted life's bitter side
that broke my heart many times.

I have reached out in total despair
and cried over things I could not
undo, that I wish I had not done.

I know lonely times
When I felt so alone that I wanted
to die.

I have tasted heartache and sorrow
wish I could change yesterday
into tomorrow.

My life has been filled with the good
and the bad......
That test my very soul.

I thank God every day for every tear
and every bump in life's road.

For it was during the trying times
the love of God worked through
others to lift the burdens- that I learned
the importance of the moment.

It is not what was, that determines what
will be....It is what is.

A single tear has much to teach......

To survive life one must learn
to savor the bitter with the sweet.
7:26am February 22, 2014

The night has faded with the dawn
Day has come - night is gone.

May this day bring you happiness
and peace
May love shelter you from life's storm.

May the sun dry your tears
And God keep you safe
from heartache , worry
and fear.

The night has faded with the dawn
Day has come - night is gone.
7:03am February 22, 2014

Give me not what I seek
Give me what I need.

In my time of need
give me only enough
to meet my need...

For anything else
would be wasted
on me.

When there are so many
with so many needs.

God, you see into
my heart and soul
when my spirit is hungry
you feed me.
6:35am February 22, 2014

All that I am
or hope to be
is wrapped up in me.

If my life comes to an end
and I have not
reached my dream
I will still carry
my dreams
inside of me.

Dreams worth having
are dreams worth
holding on too.

If I have nothing else
in this life
to help me through
I have my dreams
to hang on too.
6:18am February 22, 2014

Tomorrows' hope lives
inside of all who live today. jt

If my life has taught me anything
Let it be, that
There is a purpose, for every tear
For every good and unkind deed
For every heart that breaks
For those who give and those
Who take.
For leaving behind yesterday
and carrying inside (today)
the memories that were made.
10:04pm February 17, 2014

I was raised a poor child
Lacking is worldly things
But my cup of life was far
From being empty.

As a child I learned to
Value the little things
That surrounded me.

The sky above my head
the ground beneath my feet;

A family, a home, lots of love
the things that mattered the
most to me.
9:48pm February 17, 2014

I asked my god to walk with me
to give me strength in the day.

My god 's goodness reached down
and touched me, and
took my weaknesses away.

I asked my god to empower me
with knowledge enough
to help me understand
why some turn and walk away
when they know, in their heart,
help is just a prayer away.

My god brought to my remembrance
how easy it is for one to stray.

I asked my god what can I do
to bring lost sheep into the light

My god lit up the world around me
and breathed love into my night
and said "Its up to each,
to know wrong from right."
11:45pm February 13, 2013

Let your heart lead and good things
will follow. jt

Only, a foolish man would
value his life above all others.
Two things the rich man and the
poor man have in common
Both are born to live and die.
So much wasted
in the name of "self."
Lord, help me not be selfish
when things don't go my way
let me not forget to be thankful
for the things I have to be thankful
for each day.
9:20pm February 12, 2014

Greed is a never ending
desire to own everything.
A greedy man is never
satisfied with anything in part.
Having too much ,too a greedy man
is like having not enough.
Give a man who is satisfied
with his life a dollar
and he will see himself a dollar
Give a greedy man a dollar and
he'll ask for more.
8:58pm February 12, 2014

We live in a world
where the best of souls
can be led astray.
And, where one thought
to be the worst of man
can be moved by
love's caring hand.
One's ability to care
must be guarded
Else, one day
one stops caring....
and the world reaps
another lost soul.
8:41pm February 12, 2014

When tomorrow comes
Let me enter into the day
unafraid, holding faithfully
to the belief . . .
that right makes might.
Lord, give me the strength
to endure another day
Give me voice
that all who hear take
to heart my words,
and ponder the meaning
of my presence.
Your will be done
in all things....You are
my Savior and my King.
7:57pm February 12, 2014

The road that lay ahead
is shortened by the road
that lay behind. jt

Thank you, Lord,
for giving me
the gift of insight
that allows me
to see beneath what
the eyes can see.

Many times your gift
has helped me find peace
and understanding
in my time of need.

Thank you Lord, for
the moment that is
Thank you, for the love
Your gift has given to me.
1:35pm February 11, 2014

I do not ask for much, from
the world that despises me,
and darkens the light of my

My spirit is not weakened
in the company of the
world and all its greed.
I live each day, thankful,
that God provides for me
in my time of need.

Judge me not, until
our spirits meet.......For,
one cannot rightfully
judge, what ones eyes
cannot see.
12:28pm February 11, 2014

If the day brings tears and sorrow
and your heart is breaking in two...
My heart goes out to you.

None are spared the trying times
and all must taste life's pain...

Heaven deserves only the best
From those who claim to believe
Who are called upon to accept
their heartache as heaven's test...

Be brave, O faithful one, as you
endure life's pain.

For, from your tears of sorrow
All you think is lost, awaits you
In a better tomorrow.
12:pm February 11, 2014

Lord, help me this day
to see behind the darkness
I find...as I strive to follow
the long and narrow line
that in front of me lay.

Open my eyes to the things
you would have me see;
Give my mind and heart
insight to pick the flowers
from the weeds.

Let me walk through the darkness
untouched by evil things
as I strive to find peace
among the turmoil that
awaits me.
11:27am February 11, 2014

Everyday is a test of how
much knowledge has been
acquired in ones lifetime,
and how much wiser a man is
because of that knowledge.

The richest man can buy things
a poor man can only process
in his dreams.

The poorest man's riches
are wrapped up
in heart felt things.
1:18pm February 10, 2014

Bad will always raise up
to cause one tears.
Just as evil will always
build illusions of hate and
for the willing eye to see.

Look not for the worldly
to teach heavenly things.

Trust the heart not to lie.

2:55am February 9, 2014

Now, I lay me down to sleep
in the comforting arms of love
and peace.....
My shield of faith, that strengthens
me, propped against an angel's wing.
The troubles of the day left behind,
for yesterdays to keep.
2:40am February 9, 2014

With our words we paint
the truest picture of our inner self. jt

When in the day darkness falls
overshadowing your hopes and
dreams ,and your cup of life is
not so sweet......
Remember, faith in a god
one cannot see is the key
to everything.
Even in the darkness,
the love of God can find you.
9:23am February 5, 2014

Somewhere, there will always be
a broken heart for love to heal;
A dream waiting to come true, and
a desire to understand life.
Somewhere, love waits.
9:06am February 5, 2014

After the Rain

The feel of last nights rain
is still in the air I breathe...
As I set on my wooden seat.
What does it mean?
This feeling washing over me?
The traces of rain linger.
Where is the rainbow's
promising kiss
In the dampness of the
morning's mist?
8:56am February 5, 2014

Greed blinds a hungry soul.
Stand firm, always, in thy faith.
Let the heart lead the way. jt

Soon, the day will come
that tries my spirit
and tests my faith.
Lord, let me stand firm
on that day.
I sought the reason why
I wandered alone
in a world that
can never be my home...
soon the reason and I
Shall come face to face
and you shall stand next to me
on that day.
Until that time, prepare my heart
and mind, for the things that
you would have me say.
And let me not lose sight
of the most important things
in this life.
11:21am February 4, 2014

Don't let the world get the best of you
Let the love in your heart stay strong
And every chance you get
pass some of your love on.......

For, what a cold world this would be
if not for the warmth of the love
that passes from heart to heart....

Love is the key to happiness

and peace....

My love I give to thee.
2:05AM February 4, 2014

In the silence of time
truth overtakes the night,
and the Light shines.
Let those who doubt
turn inward for the secrets
bound up by time.
For, in the shadow of ones spirit
truth waits and destruction bids
the liar "Come," and [truth]
swallows whole-what once was.

February 3, 2014 6:03pm




Christmas Day
It's not what's beneath the
Christmas tree that makes
Christmas time special to
the faithful heart.....
It's the joy of knowing
what Christmas day
truly means.
Christmas day came to be
when in a manger
a child was born
to hang on the cross
and wear a crown of thorns
For you and me.
May your Christmas day be
filled with God's gift of
love and peace.
11:46am December 25, 2013

When Time Come For Us To Part
When the time comes
to shed this worldly form
I pray, my lips fall silent
not until the last ounce
of love in my heart
finds words of comfort
for those I leave behind.
Remember not the times
life pulled us apart.....and
dulled the good memories
with broken hearts.
Remember ,only, that
I lived and died loving you,
When you think of me.
2:06pm December 23, 2013

Many will have barely enough to eat
on Christmas day, as others
gather at tables full and over-flowing
with food bow their heads to pray.
Many will be happy and content just
sharing a cup of love with loved ones,
while others dine, drink fine wine,
and share their Christmas time...
Christ is in Christmas for a reason
10:00am December 23, 2013

 I do not doubt God's love for me
His love embraces me in my
good times, and in my times
of need. jt

O heart of mine, Take the helm
of my life with your love and compassion,
and guide me through life's stormy seas.
For, you have been broken, healed, and
love has made you stronger with time.
With love setting the course of my life's
destiny- I fear not life's stormy seas.
9:29am December 22, 2013

Lord, the day has just begun
The night has lifted on
another race to run.........
Give me the strength and
courage, to overcome
my weaknesses.........
Make me wise enough
to understand that even
on the darkest day
all things unfold according to
God's great plan.
8:55am December 22, 2013

If I fight the good fight
with truth and honesty,
and lose the battle
If I enter an innocent plea
and justice turns a blind eye to me
[tho truth stood behind me ]
I will not accept it as defeat
but as a battle between good and bad
that was meant to be.
It is by the examples we set
that the young learn life lessons
they will never forget.
Let the old lead wisely, the young
follow their wisdom and youth will
grow up to be defenders of truth
and honesty.
11:31am December 21, 2013

I am not seeking advice on
how to change trial date.
I look forward to "my day in court."
I am not an attorney but I fully believe
justice stands behind honesty and truth-
when it is represented by facts.
Defeat is certain only when one fails
to defend his/her rights.
10:47am December 21, 2013
[This was written concerning my
upcoming foreclosure non-jury trial.
I was moved to repost it here.]

The world is filled with wandering souls
lost in the darkness of flesh and bone;
crying out but never heard; destined
to thirst and hunger for peace.
Let not the darkness overtake thee.
9:42pm December 20, 2013

December 20, 2013   Me in the middle of my two daughters Renee and Katie.

O but would many a heart
be changed, if it knew that
the love it denied
was the love it
had drawn from, in this life.
Remember, that the names
of those one loves are sealed
inside the heart; that
Life has a way of pulling
people a part......
Making them strangers
to the ones they love with
all of their heart.
1:13pm December 20, 2013

Wasted are words that
fall on deaf ears. jt

The spirit inside is never fully broken
its suppressed by the flesh.

Never doubt your life's worth
It was given value at the time of your birth.

Only the 'me' can destroy hopes and dreams.

Believe in your ability to climb life's mountains
and swim in Life's seas. . .

Regardless of the heights and depths life take you
Believe in your ability to succeed.
9:47am December 14, 2013

 A bird is singing outside my window
The roaring of a plane passing by
Quitted its song. And, to my ears
Silence falls.
O the beauty the morning has brought
To capture my eyes, and move my
9:27am December 14, 2013

Life is an endless chain of heart and soul
holding together- the living, the dying,
the dead; the young and the old.
An endless chain of hope and dreams
Where faith increases strength in
the weakest of links.
3:56pm December 13, 2013

Lord, I feel the rising of the tide
a storm blowing in...... You know
my heart; you know my thoughts.
You know where my life is headed.
You know where my life has been.

So. I know you will understand
if I ask for your help again.

With every storm, the waters
take a toll on me.

Help me rise above the waters
high enough to see
beyond the clouds that threaten
to send the rains down on me.

Help me accept the loss of what
the waters wash away.

Prepare me, O Lord, for the tears
and turmoil the storm will surely
bring, without your mighty hand
holding it at bay.
3:07pm December 13, 2013
It's better to be who you are
than to be recreated by another
in to who you are not.

Never let another lead your spirit
to wander where their spirit
has been.
You have a lifetime in which to live
and learn life's lessons in.
2:10pm December 13, 2013

Setting alone
with only my thoughts
to keep me company....
I am content just
being me.
A free spirit
not bound by the worldly.
Cherishing the peace
I find being alone
with only myself
to keep me company.
1:31pm December 13, 2013

Not always will the day be bright,
and only good things come your way.
Some days will be cloudy, and dark
enough, to hide the sun that fills your
Look for the silver lining, when the
day is the darkest; hope for the best
when things seem to be at their worst;
Grasp with your heart faith's truest
meaning; be silent and feel the
presence of God in your life.
1:17am December 10, 2013

No words can I find
No thought worthy
Still, I long to share
Bits and pieces of
my heart, with words
I cannot find.
It's not the words
that inspires me
It's the love inside my
1:02am December 10, 2013

 God hears a tear drop
before it falls....
A song before it's sung
The first breath
before it's taken.....
A prayer said
before it's spoken...
A heart break
before it is broken....
A baby cry
before it's born.
Nothing falls so silently
far or near
That the ears of God
cannot hear.
11:06am December 7, 2013
The journey through life
one makes alone
With others to keep them
company. jt

In the stillness of the moment
love seeks out love's own. jt

Never take those closest to your heart
for granted........
Never miss a chance to hug a loved one.
The words "I love you" mean so much
but, for one reason or another, rarely
are used among the closest of family
and friend.....
Sometimes, we all need to reinforce
knowing we are loved with hearing the
words, "I love you."
Never miss a chance to say
"I love you"..... to those you love......
You may never get the chance again.

8:04am December 6, 2013

My Angel Mother
The first tear that fell
from my eyes
was wiped away by
the hand of another.
Before I learned to crawl
I was carried in the arms
of another.
The first steps I took was
holding on to the hand of
I was born helpless and weak
To protect me from harm God
placed my life in the care of
a guardian angel -who I gave
my first love to, and have
since, called my 'mama.'

The hands of no other
will ever take the place of
the hands of my angel mother
that held me up so many times
and , lovingly, helped me
hold my world together.

7:38am December 6, 2013

I have so much to be thankful for
And I thank God every day
for both, the good and bad times
in my life.
I'm thankful, that God helped me endure
what life sent my way; that he kept his
hand on my life every day; and, that
I got a taste of the tears, that fall
when one makes mistakes.
I am thankful, for the second chances
God gave me time and time again
when I was lost from His Fold and He
reached out His loving hands
and pulled me back in.
8:30AM December 5, 2013

Looking out my window
I can see the Winter marred
The dead flowers barely
hanging on to once green stems,
in a clutter of brown, dried-out
Wintertime! O Wintertime!
You have changed even the color of
the once green leaves, on every tree,
and created brown and golden beauty
with your cold and chilly breeze.
7:52am December 5, 2013

When morning arrives
to replace the night
A page in life turns. jt

It is easier, not to make
some mistakes
than it is to correct them
once they've been made. jt

I once sought a childhood dream
and a life's story with a happy
I once searched for the pot of gold
at the rainbow's end, and for
the luck a four-leaf clover would bring.
My life was, once, filled with thoughts
of reaching the unreachable things.
Oh, the power that an innocent mind
and heart does process-when all things
still lay ahead....and the future still
wears chains.
9:16am December 4, 2013

The thing one seeks
oftentimes loses its
value, once it's found. jt
Lord, a new day is breaking
and I ask that you walk through
it with me.
There is so much loneliness
beyond my realm of things.
I need the peace and quite
I always find beneath an angel's
You are my strength; my heart's
Lift me above my weaknesses
and help me not to stray
As you hold me in the palm
of your hand, and carry me
Thank you, Lord, for opening
my eyes, to see the things
You would have me see.
And, for teaching me how
important it is to
thread through life's waters
more gently.
For you, my Lord, are my world
and my world's very heart beat.
8:10am December 4, 2013

Today, I was touched by yesterdays
memories just long enough to feel
yesterdays love. jt

Life was never intended to be easy.
It's not an easy life that gets one
in heaven's gate.....
It's being faithful to one's god,
and enduring anything, and everything
that comes one's way...Believing
with all your heart, not in the things
that are or the things that have been
but in the things yet to come.

For, a faithful heart may morn
But, it is in the falling down, and
getting back up, that one's faith
is, time and time again, reborn.
12:09am December 1, 2013

If not for the arms that held me
close to another's heart
where ,so many times, I heard love's beat.
If not for the hands of friendship,
so many times, that were offered to me
when my life felt empty....
If not for the love shown to me
in my loneliest times and
times of need......
I would be silent, and my heart
and your heart, would never meet.
The love and caring I received from
others, during my life's journey,
nurtured the caring, for others,
I carry inside of me.
11:42pm November 30, 2013

The spirit in one is the spirit
in all.....but not all spirits
are joined. jt

Today, the devil tempted me
to lose control....
He used the ignorance in man
to venture onto angel- guarded property
Unaware of the eyes watching over
all who share my world with me.
As quickly as I was moved to anger
my faith in God took command
and I realized, that the devil cannot
destroy truth with lies.
I own nothing in this life,
because God gives me all on loan.

If I own nothing, and all is taken
away, I lose nothing, and -still- keep
procession of my soul.

Never forget: God is- always -in control.
10:12pm November 30, 2013

 Take time to spend time
with those closest to your heart.
Never miss a chance to tell them
how much you cherish them in
your life.... Then, if unexpectedly
you have to part-it's easier to let go,
knowing that the last time you said
goodbye, you told them you loved
them (straight from your heart).
Nothing in this life lasts forever
Just as life brought us together
death shall cause us to part.
1:56am November 29, 2013

May the love setting at your table engulf you
as you set down with those at your table
to enjoy the holiday feast.

And, may the number of family members and
friends, sharing this day with you, grow
in numbers and never decrease.

Happy Thanksgiving!
10:46 am November 28, 2013

One is not born wise, knowing, and
understanding all things.
It is from living life, enduring life,
and learning from life that one gains
knowledge about life.
Just knowing about life doesn't
make one wise.
Wisdom is double edged sword
that cuts two ways.
A wise man knows and understands
that all things work according to
 God's Plan.
1:08pm November 27, 2013

When I was in prison, an angel disguised
as a blind girl, with a seeing-eye-dog,
came to visit me.

I have never forgotten her kindness.

She was not able to see my face but she
saw into the heart of me.

That was forty years ago.

I can't remember the angel's name, but,
my heart remembers the warmth from her glow.
This angel, with the seeing-eye-dog,
Touched my life more than she will
ever know.
5:16pm November 26, 2013

What Might Be
I am at a loss for words
that would be of value to another.
My mind is occupied with thoughts
of how I would hold my world together.
Not that my world is falling apart...
I've been blessed with everything
I need.....My needs are met daily.
And my world is filled with lots
of caring hearts.
I know, that God will always make
a way for me; and, that He has the
power to hold back the storm, and
still the ragging sea.
I know, that in this world there are
good, and faithful souls, thirsting
and hungry, who are worse off than me.
Sometimes, like today, God shows me
where the devil is working in my life to
take everything from me.
And, my thoughts turn to pondering
not what is but what might be.
4:41pm November 26, 2013

Manna To My Soul
The sky is the color of an angel's eyes
The air I breathe in is cold......
The sights I see outside my window
are manna to my soul.
A family of quail hurrying, to hide
in the tall brown grass.......
Red flowers dawning the morning
with their beauty......
A pink rose that only my eyes see.
The warmth of the sun outlining
the shadow of the oak trees
as their leaves fall in a wintery breeze.
The sky is the color of an angel's eyes
The air I breathe in is cold......
The sights I see outside my window
are manna to my soul.
9:00am November 25, 2013

A Piece of My Heart
Before you were born,
I carried you inside of me,
beneath my heart.

After you were born
I carried you on my hip,
next to my heart.
Many times, in your life
I held you close to my heart

Now, that you are grown
with babies of your own
Wherever life takes you
A piece of my heart
tags along.
10:29pm November 24, 2013

Love is like a gentle
unseen and unhindered
making itself known-
by its touch. jt.

A man loves his country.
The land holds his heart.

Yet, every day, those who
pledge allegiance to none-
work to own, and run
them all.

Keep the tradition of thy
fathers, that teach one to
value the things that nurture
a good spirit...

that teaches one from youth,
to respect the old-who once were
the country's keepers; the teachers,
the soldiers; the young parents who
sacrificed for all who would inherit their
 duties, and benefit from their labor.

Peace among all countries is possible
but only when it evolves naturally.

It can not be forced by the labors
of the wicked.

Let not thy mind and heart be deceived
Every country gives birth to good and
bad seed.
7:57pm November 23, 2013

The wise man never
let's his guard down
when something inside
him feels ill-at-ease. jt

There is a giant that kills
the spirit, with the drawing of tears.
That strips away at a man's very soul-
until there is nothing left.
There is a giant, created by men and
women too, that crushes homes and hearts
that feeds off the dreams of those who,
unaware, become the victims of their greed.
If a man's heart gets broken
love can mend it......
If a man's spirit gets broken
Faith can heal it......
If a man loses his will to fight
he loses the battle before the fight begins.
In our daily lives , in this life, when it
comes to heart and home- fear not the
giant of greed......faith and love are things
the greedy can never own.
Keep faith! Fight the good fight!
Never doubt the power of the smallest stone.
8:04am November 22, 2013

There is only one breath between
living and dying.
Take life not for granted.
To quickly life passes
from the first breath taken
to the last breath. jt

If tomorrow brings me sorrow,
I will wipe away the tears, as I did
in my yesterdays.
If tomorrow my heart should break
I will accept heartache, like the tears,
as being part of being alive....
Just as we are born to die
we are born to cry.
9:54pm November 21, 2013

Sing, O heart of mine
Sing the tune I carry
inside of me....
Sing softly into the breeze
that the winds might carry
love and peace ;and
 those touched by the breeze
might life's greatest gift
Sing of love, O heart of mine
loud enough for the closed ear
to hear.....
Sing, softly, O heart of mine
Sing softly into the breeze
that the winds might carry
love and peace.
9:26pm November 21, 2013

Material riches is the fire
that burns away at a man's soul.
Lost in life's shine is the treasures
belonging to eternity........ that those
with an unending hunger for worldly riches
shall never find.
I cannot imagine an unending desire to process
more than one needs.
Where there is too much there will also be
too little.
6:22pm November 21, 2013

As dark falls over day again
I wonder why the sun so bright
gives way for the stars the night.. jt

One of the devil's tools
is his ability to deceive
the weaknesses of the flesh;
and convince one whose live
is filled with love,
that they are alone, and no
one cares.

Evil is as real as the good
that works through man.
10:21am November 17, 2013

In life it's the choices we make
that will, in the end, determine
our fate. jt

What does it matter
what another thinks
about your life?
Life is an individual thing.
Ones thoughts and deeds
is the foundation of ones
daily living.
Waste not your life
on trying to live
someone else's dream.
10:08am November 17,2013

Love can overcome anything. jt

One who looks for the worst
in a man can find it.
Those who search for perfection
will not.....
There are two sides to a man
and the worst side often
hides his heart.
9:51am November 17, 2013

Gazing out my window
to a new day unfolding
My heart is filled with thankfulness
for the many times my life has been
May the warmth from God's love
continue to flow throughout this day
beyond my world to where the faithful
kneel and pray.
Let the love of God flow through the
hearts of men that even the unfaithful
might find love enough to hope again.
For, sometimes life can be cruel
and even a faithful man can get lost
in the maze of life we all walk through.
9:08am November 17, 2013

If your world feels like
its falling in all around you
and you fear the worse
is coming your way, don't
give in to your fear.
Raise high your Shield of Faith,
and pray.
12:29am November 17, 2013

If it were in my power
I would erase all heartache
and pain...

I would mend every broken heart
and they would never break again.

I would destroy hate among men.

But, there is only so much I can do.

From experience, I know that
sometimes God uses one to help another
11:48pm November 16, 2013

The words are hard to find
to share what's in my heart
and on my mind.

Like all the rest, this day
was blessed, and in it I found
the fruits of my labor abound.

Never let disappointment cause
you to lose focus of the most
important things in your life.

Many a heartache awaits those
who take things for granted.

Be thankful, for what you have,
be it plenty, or just enough to
get by on.
Money comes and goes....
Love is never gone.
11:13pm November 16, 3013

The heart that can feel
for a stranger in despair
is worthy of another's love. jt

Lord, Prepare me for the battle
that await me in the morn.

Make me wise enough to overcome,
with truth, the treachery of the evil
that is born.

For, I will be walking in the dark
among an un-seeable enemy.

Make me wise enough to know
when to bend, and when to stand
unmovable, against a just and unjust

Give me the strength and the courage,
That I will need to face and defeat
my enemy.

Lay it on my heart not to judge
but to treat fairly those who
would take my happiness from me.

Lord, when my eyes open to see
another sun... whatever
battles I fought, lost or won,
Let me not doubt, that your will
was done.
3:02pm November 13, 2013

What matters is not what was
What matters is what is....
What was tested our spirit
what is tests what we have
learned. jt

The moment
of truth......
draws nearer...
Fear clouds the
minds of men....
And all that is
will fade away
into the beauty
of nothingness
where all things
7:45am Nov. 2013

Time has no power over
the spirit...Only, on flesh
and bone.
The body will turn to dust
The spirit will live on.....
to nurture the spirits left
behind, as they journey on.
Seek not to process the
temporary that in time
will vanish away.....
Nurture the spirit with
a loving heart
let kindness and compassion
take the lead in each day.
7:33am November 12, 2013

We often search for truths
we already know, unaware......
Not to disprove but to compare
the truths of human existence.
We live- we die- searching
for what the world has
hidden from mortal eye.
This life is nothing more than
another door to enter in to,
live through and reap from its
Do in the day what your heart
leads you to do- seek truth and
righteousness, and to yourself
be truth.
For this life is a battle field,
that the living must all pass
9:46PM November 11, 2013

Lord, I carry a burden that, sometimes,
gets to heavy for me to bear.
I thank you for helping me and for
always being there...

While others may not believe in a god
they cannot see
I know your power. You have shown that
power to me.
For the many times, I have fallen and
you have helped me stand again.....

I want you to know that tho I still carry
my burden it is easier to do......because

In my weakest moments, I have no doubt
that I can always count on you.
9:18pm November 11, 2013

Every day I find
a little more understanding
of this world I call mine.
Oh, if only I had known
the importance of a day
before my world was shattered
and a piece of my heart
was taken away....
I would have said 'I love you"
more often, and spent more
time with you......
I would have made more memories
and filled them with you.....
I would have never took for granted
the time we shared in a day.....
before you were ,in the twinkling
of an eye, taken away.
9:01pm November 11, 2013

In the dawning of the moment
rests the fullness of our day.
Tomorrows hold the moments we
may never awaken too.
Yesterdays hold the moments we
have already lived through.
The present is the moment we
live in......
Once the moment is gone it will
never be our present again.
Life changes moment by moment
those changes can last forever.
The moment holds our destiny.
Time never stands still.
Tomorrows hold the moments we
may never awaken too.
Yesterdays hold the moments we
have already lived through.
The way you choose to live the
 moment, is up to you.
12:10pm November 9, 2013

My life would be far different
than it is today
If not for all the hearts
that touched my heart
Along life's highway.
It's easy for me to love others
because it was the love
of others that mended and, often,
held my world together.
9:57pm November 8, 2013

The greatest gift one can give
to another is love......
The kind of love that comforts
a heart in morning;
that stills a restless spirit;
and eases a troubled mind.
The kind of love that strengthens
the bond between two hearts
and never tries to force love to be
something that love is not.

The greatest gift one can give is love.
The kind of love that comes straight
from the heart.
9:46pm November 8, 2013

No matter where my life
has taken me
Life never took me
out of love's reach. jt

Nothing can rob you
of my love....
Always, it will be true
Always, it will abide
with you. jt

God is in control
Accept, His will
be done......

Let none doubt
and all believe
that all things work
to the good of
those who believe.
Keep faith
Keep your shield of faith
Never let doubt
get the upper hand
in the day.
7:43am November 7, 2013

Believe in your ability to succeed.
Trying and failing is its on kind
of victory. jt

With each passing day I am drawn
closer to the unknown.

I awaken in the morn in a world
filled with treasures that
none can own.

I lay down at night knowing I might
awaken and find some of the treasure

The treasures I seek to find
at the dawning of the day
don't always shine brightly
for others to see........

The treasure in my world is the
love of those who share my world
with me.

Love cannot be held in the hands
of selfishness-or heated and molded
like silver and gold into a form not
its own.

When the heart of love stops beating
Love lives on.
10:17pm November 3, 2013

Love never needs to love again
Love is forever and a day
Love has a beginning with no end.
There is love and- there is love
And there is love.......
Once you give your love away
A piece of your heart is gone.
You can love many but you can only
love once. jt

Everything in this life is only temporary
I entered the world naked and alone
Bringing with me nothing but my innocence
Which is now gone.
When I leave this world , I will leave alone
Clinging to my faith- I will journey on.
5:12am November 2, 2013

Life is more than what the eyes see.
More than what the hands touch
More than what the mind can conceive.
Life is more than flesh and bone.......
More than a heartbeat........
More than the air we breathe......
Life is more than the "me."
4:47am November 2, 2013

The day stands alone
hindered not by the future
or the past.....
All that's left is the moment
and it slips away so fast.
Let yesterdays bad memories
stay buried in the past..
Make good memories
that will last.
The certainty of the moment
is all we've got.
Be thankful for the day ....
Live your life with heart.
12:08pm November 1, 2013

Setting here
looking out my window
I witness the peace
moving through the trees
and hear the song of innocence
coming from the lips of a child
skipping through the moment's
10:21am November 1, 2013

Picture taken October 28, 2013
When you think you have gone
as far as you can go
and your face and body
are showing life's toll....

When your skin has lost its
youthful glow.........

When your knees get to hurting
and you start walking real slow..

When the years turn your dark
curls gray

And the lines on your face
increase in number each day.....

Try to remember you are not
growing old alone

That at every stage of our life,
there is a set toll; a price all
must pay
if our soul is to get safely
back home, one day.

Thank you God for every thing
that moves me closer to you....
I have faith I can endure
anything, as long as I have your
angels walking next to me-to
make sure I make it through
on my way back to you.
3:34pm October 28, 2013

My son's birthday is today
It's been thirty-five years
since I chose man over God
and made that mistake.
What a lesson it has been
I lowered my shield of faith
committing my son's fate
to the hands of men.
Only, by the grace of God,
My son is here today.
It breaks my heart ,still,
to know how much he's
suffered, because of my
Don't lower your shield of faith
if you ask God for a miracle
If your heart is heavy burdened
and a loved one's fate
depends on you......
Before you make a fatal mistake.
Ask yourself
"What would Jesus do?"
12:08pm October 28, 2013

Picture taken October 27,2013 ,about 3:15pm

I looked out my window
up into the sky
and many bridges to Heaven
suddenly caught my eye.
Never before had I seen
such a beautiful sight
an endless trail of steps, going upward
the color of the purest white .
4:09pm October 27, 2013

God, guide me to the place
You would have me be.....
Give me insight to see the
dangers that lay before me.
Give me the strength and
the courage-to face and
defeat the enemy.
Make me wiser than my foe
Wherever you want me to be
Let love lead me, and let
your angels not desert me,
In my time of need.
6:21pm October 20, 2013

Sometimes, I just want to run away,
Find an Island of my own
and live out the rest of my days
Watching the sun rise and set
Where sea and sky meet.

I can think of nothing more peaceful
To the ears than the sound of the sea's
heartbeat, while walking in the warm sand
with my bare feet.

Oh, just to find that kind of peace
That comes when one's spirit is free
to wander without worry.

Sometimes, I just want to run away
To a place I have never been,
leaving everyone to live their own lives,
And begin my life again.

But...The here and now is my reality
And in my heart I know, and accept, that
What will be , will be.
5:43pm October 20, 2013

Long have the innocent suffered
at the hands of greedy men
Families made homeless; spirits
bent but never broken. jt

The attack on my world has begin
but little do the attackers know
that truth is waiting at my door
to give there lies a deadly blow.
That their wounds shall be filled
with shame and their own houses
shall fall down around them.
8:41pm October 19, 2013

Lord, I stumbled today
And you caught me again
before I lost my sense of
right and wrong, you touched me
to remember the things
I fought to forget
for so long....
Here I set in a drunken state
no arms to draw me near
no one to hold me
and tell me things will
be alright. Alone, am I
To face the demons I create
if only in my mind.
4:48pm October 19, 2013

Two Americas
I once started writing a story called
"Two Americas".....
It was about a nation divided
much like during the Civil War
The country was split half in two
But only one's flag was Red, White
and Blue.

It was a story that never got finished
Its pages were tucked away.... with the
thought of writing an ending to the story
one day.

That was back in 1992......... The
beginning of two countries with only
one's flag of Red, White, and Blue.....

After writing the beginning of "Two Americas"
And now watching as the events
I told of ,in my story, today, unfold.........

There is no doubt that We, the American people,
are in a battle to save our country
from the things that would destroy our soul.
8:57pm October 15, 2013

When I worry about the little
things going wrong in my life....
I remind myself that there are
others going through bigger
and worse things in their lives. jt

Keep Faith
Faith has no room for the negative.
What one professes to believe in
is the sum of the man.

God does nothing in part.....
Everything that touches a man's life
must also touch his heart.

Faith has the power to overcome
the negative that life puts into the day.

Love has the power to create a bond
 between a miracle and ones faith.

For a miracle to materialize
Put the negative away , and truly
believe that God has the power
to perform the miracle-you are about
to receive.

Keep faith... Dry your tears..
for your prayers, through your faith,
like the sound of your beating heart,
has reached God's ears.
6:52pm October 15, 2013

Twenty -six years ago, today
Angels came for my mama
and took her away.

I know she is at peace now
but I still miss her everyday.

If you have a mama whose
smile graces your day
don't miss a chance to tell her
you love her before she goes away.

One can't imagine the heartache
that a mama's dying leaves behind
until the angels come and take her
in the twinkling of an eye, and all
that is left of mama is a memory,
as they wipe their tears away.

I still love and miss my mama
More than words can ever say.
I love you Mama and miss you
more with each passing day.
8;12am October 14, 2013

Lord, this day has found me
wanting in many areas of my life
I need to count my blessing
and stop feeling sorry for me...
I have so much to be thankful for.
I need to stop and remind myself,
that what one sows 0ne will reap.
And, no doubt, I need to give
more thanks to you, than I do,
for always stepping in
to offer a hand, when I needed help
to get me through. Thank You,....
4:35pm October 12, 2013

The saddest thing
my heart has ever known
is being denied by those
who never took the time
to know me... by any name
but mama.. jt

There is a thunder
off in the distance
I can hear-as another
storm in my life
draws near...

God, take my life in your arms
and spare me from another
of life's storms.

For you, and only you
can know what I go through.
No one sees the tears I cry
but you.

God, prepare me for the
pending storm----for I grow
weak from time to time-
and need to feel the safety of
your arms.

I am tired of hiding
from life's rains
and weary from enduring
life's pains.

God, can you please
take the reigns?
3:18pm October 12, 2013

Once there lived
a little girl.....who lived
in a make believe world.

Try as she may-Try as she
might-nothing in her life
seemed to turn out right.

One day the little girl
grew up, and could no longer
pretend it was a perfect
world she was living in...

All of her hopes -All of her dreams
were washed away by reality
as she realized ; tho she
had tried-and loved completely
not all things in life are meant to be.
2:53 pm October 12, 2013

May your life be filled
with love and happiness
May all your tomorrows
be void of sorrows.
May the years bring joy
to your life....
may God keep his
hands on you
through all of your strife.
May all of your tomorrows
from this day forward
be filled with the
togetherness you feel
this day ....and may
the love that is in your hearts
never fade away.
2:41pm October 12, 2013

Worry not! For the wings
of the angel, that was sent
to watch over you.......
cannot be penetrated by
anything but love..... jt

Which is stronger
love or faith?

Every day, that I awake
I ask God to guide me
through my life's maze.
For, many times I was
lost ,with only my tears
to keep me company
Until the Light of Love
appeared in the maze
dried my tears, and
from the darkness,
of my life's maze
I was saved.
9:30am October 10, 2013

Our day is not over
until death delivers
eternity to our door.
and our spirit is set free
among the stars
to soar.
9:20am October 10, 2013

There are those who create
beauty for eyes to see
and those who create illusions
of things they want one to believe.

We walk through a world
filled with truths mixed in with

Beware, of the evil that sometimes
appears as a sheep.
9:05am October 10, 2013

Life is a many changing thing
Those who seek a place
in the worldly follow blindly
worldly dreams.

Life only offers a way
we choose the direction
we walk in.....

Life, sweet life, you are
shared by many-
Still, at times you feel
so empty.

What is life, you say?
Life lay beneath the flesh
Life emerges as the outer
fades away.

Live life with heart
as the Light emerges
from the dark.
8:38am October 10, 2013

When one places earthy family
above God...he will weep
much sorrow.
For God, knows the heart of all
and if that heart be true....
The dead cannot rise up
and your memory of the dead
will die with you.
God gives but God takes back too
those we selfishly cling too.
I live my life one day at a time
Through losing those I love-
I have learned, as much as I love,
nothing is mine.
7:18am October 9, 2013

Not always will you find your
journey, through life, an
easy one...
Sometimes your heart will sing
other times your heart will morn.
Sometimes the path will be easy
other times the path will be
a hard one.......
Do in the day what your
heart would have you do......
Walk always the paths that
God places in front of you.
6:59am October 9, 2013

The sky is a little cloudy
The air is a little cold
as another day of my life
slowly unfolds.
Caught in the middle
of yesterdays gone
and tomorrows
that may never come,
I wonder at the things
that have brought me
to this day......
6:18am October 9, 2013

Tears can not bring back the dead
but love can not die.....and for
as long as love lives, I will carry
your memory inside. jt

When one can no long feel
for those whose lives
have been shattered by
injustice..... When one can
no longer shed a tear
for anyone but a chosen few,
lost is his humanity.....
When one stops caring
What is left to live for?
Without the ability to care
mankind would soon disappear
into the nothingness of the
black hole created by the
heartlessness that eats away at
the soul of mankind-
One heart at a time.
11:17pm Oct 5, 2013.

Mama Is Here
Thinking about the mama killed
in Washington D.C., my heart
Grasps her fear...

"Don't cry baby, everything
is okay, mama is here ."

I can feel the hand of the evil
reaching out for her, as men,
sworn to protect the innocent,
with guns in hand, draw near.

"It's ok baby. It's ok, mama
is here."

And my heart feels her pain, and
her fear.

My heart is heavy laden, as her death
draws near, and she whispers,
just loud enough for her baby to hear,
wiping away her tears:

"Don't cry baby....Mama loves you.
Mama is here."

Written in Memory of Miriam Carey. [R.I.P]
10:00am October 5, 2013

And when the time is near
certain things must come
to pass before eternity

Worry not; for angels shall
line the heavens and watch
over every good soul.
4:01pm October 4, 2013

When anger sets at the helm
unrest can be found
stirring the waters. jt

Egos At Play
My dad is bigger than your dad...
My mom is prettier than you mom..
My car is shinier than your car....
On and on-- goes ego's star.
Today, egos, in the world of politics,
are at play.
Like children bickering over who's
ball is the biggest---- childlessness
rules the day..
Oh, how needed is one with courage
enough to step in between
and, remind these adult-children----
That all the picking, and name calling
in the world won't change a thing.
The USA is in a mess today, and getting
worse day by day- as the President ,and Congress
of the greatest country on earth, let's ego dictate
what is and what is not the American way.
Lord, the USA and its people, those who
have long relied on you to put truth and right
back into play- truly, are in need of
your wisdom and guidance for all those
who let ego and bitterness rule in the day.

3:17pm October 4, 2013

May my loved ones rest in peace
and their angels continue on
to walk with me. jt

There may not be a place for me
to enter into another tomorrow...
Today I could come face to face
with my destiny.....
And what would matter yesterday's
Live in the day...Be thankful
For the moment.
There is no guarantee that
any of us will awake to another
12:44pm September 29, 2013

Long ago, God touched my life
Knowing in the flesh I was weak
God touched my soul and gave
me inner strength.
While, it would be nice to be
 loved just for being me - I accept
 the place in this life that God
created just for me to be.
12:31pm September 29, 2013

It's ok that you have shut me out of your life
I wish you peace in your time of strife.
It's ok that you feel I don't matter anymore,
I wish for only good things to enter at your door.
It's ok that you deny me before your chosen
friends and family.....
I wish for you and your house the Light of God
to always shine brightly.
It's ok for you to judge me, if it brings you peace.
12:10pm September 29, 2013

The Lessons Learned
Let not what is over and done
keep you from doing in the day
the things that you need to do
that will bring peace and happiness
to you.

Let not what can never be again
shadow the moment you live in
or haunt your dreams.

Life is unfolding, as it was meant too.
The way you choose to live life
is up to you...

You can let yesterdays eat your
spirit alive.....
Or you can lift up your shield of faith
and walk safely through life.

None but you have control of the choices
you make.....

We all are born to make mistakes.

It is the lessons that we learn
when we fall down and get up again
that controls our fate.
10:43am September 28, 2013

I awoke to a gentle falling rain
knocking on my roof.
A comforting rain, without thunder
or lightening strikes....So gentle,
the rain, that the leaves on the trees
sway with delight, as my eyes beheld
the splendor of earth's nature
and heaven's rain.......following the
9:16am September 28, 2013

A Letter to God
God, the sun is shinning today
and, tho the clouds in my heart
are filled with tears ,I want to thank you
for never deserting me through the years.

It hasn't been easy living under the shadow
of my past; there were times, I felt
I deserved all the bad things I
was going through....

And, tho my heart was breaking, I would
pretend not to feel the pain .

It didn't matter that people shut me out;
I figured, I deserved the loneliness, and the
tears I cried when no one was there.

Many times, I wanted someone to share my
burdens with me....many times that wasn't to be.

You God were the only one who saw my need
and at the lowest points in my lifetime
You sent your only begotten son to comfort me.

God, I never asked you why my life was like it was-
 both full and empty at the same time...

Or why my cup of life was filled with the bitter
and the sweet.

I never questioned your right to steer my life's

As a child, I grew to love you with all my
heart ..... and never doubted your love for me.

I want you to know, I'm not sorry I gave my heart
to you...

and, I know, no matter what lay ahead, I won't be
going through it alone;
I'll have your son Jesus to lean on and help me

Thank you God- for loving me and being there for me
Throughout my lifetime in my time of need.
10:40am September 27, 2013

Guardian Angels
When we are born
an angel is sent below
to cover our life with
angel wings and watch
over us as we grow.

We can't see our angel
following us around
during the day, or guarding
us while we sleep at night
wherever we lay.

We just have a knowing that
our angel is there protecting
us from bad things-
covering us with her angel
11:11pm September 26, 2013

Alone, I walked with Jesus
In the waters of my death
Not missing what I left behind
Longing for what lay ahead.
10:43pm September 26, 2013

The First Warning
The world is on a collision course
with its destiny........And the evil
tremble at the things they cannot

Wake, thy sleeping spirits, take up
your Shields of Faith.....For the day
draws near when choices must
be made.

And the few shall condemn the many
to times foretold long ago,
of the struggle between evil and good
to own the heart beat of every wondering

Cut off the voice of reason will be
as mankind struggles to hold back
the winds of destiny.

Oh, how blindly, the sheep to slaughter
follow after the worldly.

Left unguarded, their very soul
that cries out in its time of need-
as on the alter of eternity
it burns and bleeds.

Heed the cries ,oh, faithful ones
for their cries are the first warning
to take cover from this world
final storm.
5:49pm September 26, 2013

Note: I write what comes from within me,
for those with inner eyes to read and

Yesterday's life- pains can only hurt you today
if you let them.

This is a new day to be thankful for all things.
To open your heart and let Jesus take the helm.

Nothing is impossible for those who truly
believe in Him. jt

My home is where my god
would have me be
Regardless of what I want,
My god gives me what I need. jt
Note: From time to time I will make
a plaque from one of my thoughts.

Lord, I hear the cries of hate
mixed with despair......
And my eyes release a
stream of tears-for the pain
another must bear.

For the lost shall cry out
and curse their life giver
and the raft of God shall
strike their heart dead.

For, love don't live there
3:55pm September 24, 2013

Today I awoke to a gentle rain
washing the dust from everything.

The air that I breathe has been
washed clean, by God's gentle

And, through the clouds ,I see, the
Light from heaven, smiling down on
9:24AM September 24, 2013

What would you have me do, Lord?
My life belongs to you....

Open the doors here on earth
that you would have me walk

What would you have me do ,Lord,
What would you have me do?
8:49am September 24, 2013

Open Your Heart
So many times I have fallen
to depths of hell here on earth
that many have been spared.

I have walked through hell holding
my shield of faith, and always,
Jesus was there.

My journey through life has not
always been an easy one...

Much of my suffering and pain
I brought on myself.... because
I was lost in spirit, and my heart
was torn.

My spirit was beaten down, many times.
But never did Jesus give up on me
not even when I gave up on myself.

Never! No! Never!

Never did I awaken in a day and not find
the arms of forgiveness reaching out to me.

If you, too, are walking through hell
here on earth- you are not walking alone.

Jesus is walking next to you and
is always ready to take your hand
put out life's burning flames, and walk
through this world with you.

But.... You see, before Jesus can help you
you must open your heart and let him
12:36pm September 23, 2013

 An Uncross- Able Bridge

Long, I sought the path
that would take me to heaven's gate
where loved one wait, and
found the path hidden deep inside
of me........

Trust your heart to lead the way
to where loved ones wait to welcome
you in .

For, the world is but an empty place
we wonder through seeking what is
not in it.

The answers to all things rests inside
of you....
Always, to God and your faith be true.

The time shall come when the Gates of
Heaven shall open wide-----
The heart is the key to getting inside.

The heartless may rule in this world
but at Heaven's Gate-entrance-
shall be denied.

Wasted is a day without the kind of love
that builds an uncross- able bridge
to heaven above that, can only be crossed
by love.
9:24am September 23, 2013

Where Faith Lives
Faith is the key to all things
Where faith lives, God reigns.
Where God reigns - possible
are all things.

I live by faith, everyday..
When I rise up in the morn, my
faith is reborn.

When I lay down at night, with
my faith sharing my bed with me.
I sleep, peacefully.

Keep faith-and God will make
a way for you in the day.....

God has the power to bring us
to our knees or raise us up to
bigger and better things.

Faith is the key to all things
Where faith lives, God reigns.
Where God reigns - possible
are all things.
1:40pm September 22, 2013

The world can take it all from me
leave me nothing but my tears
and I will still stand proudly
Holding my shield of faith
for all, the rich and the poor, to see.
For many great things have come
to those who lost everything....
but their faith.
10:41am September22, 2013

The day has brought me
happy tears....
Tears that fall when
you find an old letter
that you tucked away
that says
"Mommy, I love you. You mean
the world to me."
My god always gives me
what I need-----at the time
I need it.
Thank you God for the little things
that means so much
to my heart.
10:22am September 22, 2013

None will walk through this life
untouched by its tears.
The most innocent will cry
at the happiest of times
while standing strong against
life's winds.

Be they tears of happiness or
Tears of sorrow,
the tears will fall from
every eye, until the last
9:09am September 22, 2013

Today the sun shine down on me
and I realized
I had strayed from the path that
I had been called to walk....
Instead of sharing my thoughts
I am guilty of pushing
my own beliefs.
Silent now my heart must be...
for I am unworthy of the gift
my god has given me.... jt
2:38pm September 21, 2013

The Birth of Unconditional Love

My Mama was there for me
at a time none other could be
When inside her womb she
carried me....

Her heart beat singing me to sleep
as I lay safe against her heart
She nurtured me with her life's blood,
and blanked me with her love.

When the time came for us to part......
into her waiting arms, her pain and
tears washed me out from beneath her

I love you Mama, with all my heart...
Thank you, for loving me unconditionally.
9:30am September 21, 2013

Thank you, Jesus
Jesus, I come to you today in prayer
to thank you for always being there
when my heart was breaking and none
other seemed to care.

Thank you, for the times that you
hurried to my side, and saved me
from myself....when I hurt so bad
I wanted to die.

Thank you for the many cups of
understanding you poured for me
in my time of need.

Thank you, for being there for me
to lean on when I was to weak
to make it on my own.

Thank you, for the many blessing
you continue to send my way....

And, Thank you, Jesus, for watching
over my loved ones every day.

You, my Lord and Savior, make life
bearable- when in this world's
darkness I sometimes lose my way.
9:50am September 20, 2013

We Are ~ Who We Are
We are who we are
No one can change
That fact.

You may not like:

Who I am
How I dress...
How I speak ...
How I think ...
Things I do ...

But, my life does
Not evolve around you.

I dress for me ...
I speak for me ...
I think for me ...
I do for me ...

We are ~ who we are.

No one can change
That fact.

Pretending to be
Who you are not
Will, eventually,
Kill your spirit
And break your
12:02pm September 19, 2013

If you are not fighting the devil every day
you must be doing something wrong.....
For, you see, the devil only attacks
good people, while leaving the sinner alone. jt

The saddest thing about life
is living it without all the
people you love being a part
of it.

Many choose to leave our side
As life would have it be.

Others choose to stay by our
side, and ,given a choice, would
never leave.

Some, not by choice, leave our
side to live imbedded in our
heart- as a cherished memory.

The dead leave all choices
behind....Things in
this life are left for the
living to decide.
1:56pm September 18, 2013

There is no one perfect
in this world.

No one who hasn't said
an unkind word in anger
or looked for the worst
in a stranger.

No one who hasn't told
a lie or caused another
to cry.

No one who hasn't turned
to their god, for help
and promised to sin no

There is no one perfect
Except he who knocks on
the heart's door.

No one perfect lives in
this world anymore.

Perfection hung on the
cross at Calvary....
When Jesus Christ died
for me, and all who
11:12pm September 17, 2013

By The Road Side
A bit of my heart rests
by the roadside....where
you took your first step
on the staircase, that took
you to Heaven 's Gate.
I want you to know, my
angel daughter, having you
as my child, for a little while,
was a blessing, I shall always
be thankful for.
When you took your first step
up the staircase, I could picture
the smile on my mother's face...
As you entered heaven's gate..
Oh, how happy, the angels
must have been ,at the site
of you, walking up heaven's
staircase-with that beautiful
smile on your face.
If you look out heaven's window
and see me crying down here
below-from time to time ....
It's tears of happiness- remembering
the time, on earth-When I called
an angel mine...
8:33pm September 16, 2013

There is a storm standing off
in the distance,
Held back only by the loving
arms of Jesus, that threatens
to pour its thunder and raging
waters over my very heart beat.

Lord, thank you, for living and
dying on the cross for me....

Thank you for the love and the
many times you sheltered me from
life's storms....

And thank you, Lord, for the peace
and comfort, I -always- find inside
your loving arms.

If the storm seeks to destroy my soul,
I will not fear.
I will put my faith in thee,
Who has the power to save my soul and
wipe away all my tears.
3:13pm September 16, 2013

Life is not always as prefect as I
would like life to be...
And, sometimes, life's imperfections
take a toll on the heart inside of me.
These are the times that test my soul,
and if my faith in my god
is true.
These are the times that I kneel
 in prayer-in spirit, and ask my friend Jesus
to hold me up-until I make it through.
The world is not perfect, nor can it be-
as long as imperfection lives
inside of me.
Seek and yea shall find in your time
of outer need that, through Jesus Christ,
One can find inner peace.
1:14pm September 15, 2013

Age is as much a matter of heart ,
as it is a matter of time. jt

Would you still love God today-if
he decided to take your child away?
My life does not evolve around family
and/or friends.
God is number one in my life.
God's son ,Jesus, is my dearest friend...
God gives and God takes away
someone's much loved child every day.
Make peace with yourself and God-and
all else will fall into place.
11:55am September 14, 2013

Worry not about what others
think of you....

Just live the best you can
Try not to bend to the whims
of others~ but, never refuse
to give another a helping

This world is full of lost
souls, who stand at the crossing
of the roads......

Worry not about the direction
they will take or the choices in
life that they will make.

Hold high your shield of faith
and choose, wisely, the road that
you will take.
2:45pm September 13, 2013

Every day is a test of ones faith
Sometimes a day brings, with it,
lots of pain and heartache; and
when the day is done, things we
often wish we could fall asleep
and forget.....
Sometimes a day brings , with it,
peace and happiness; and
when the day comes to its end,
we lay our head on our pillow,
give thanks, and wish we could
live the day again.
Sometimes a day seems to drag by
Other days, days just seem to fly by.
This day is all we've got, and it
holds no promise of a tomorrow...
Hold tightly to your faith, and
live each day with heart.
2:54am September 13, 2013

The night is still, and the silence
is filled with my thoughts.....

Thoughts about life, and how
fast life flies by......

Thoughts about love and how love
affects my life....

Thoughts about death, and those who
have taken the journey home;

and how their lives affected my life,
and how their leaving still affects
my life.

In the silence, alone with my thoughts,
many things come to mind that moves
my eyes to tears, and my heart to
remember both
~the full and empty years.
2:26am September 13, 2013

We enter the world, alone.
We leave the world, alone. jt

May yesterday's tears wash away
all of your sorrows, in all of your

May yesterday's heartaches mend
safely in the arms of love today.

May your cup of happiness be always
filled with peace and love

And, may you find a peaceful sleep,
waiting for you, wherever your head
lay ~ at the end of your day.
12:07 pm September 10, 2013

Walk through life
one day at a time
wasting not the
For, the day holds
your hopes and
but in the moment
in your hands
rests your
7:46am September 10, 2013

God, it seems, here lately,
I'm been asking you ,quit a lot,
if you would help me make it
through something that was
burdening my heart....

I know my heart would have
broken in two, if it had not
been for you...
And your never-ending love,
 giving me the strength
 and the courage, to rise
above my heartache, and do
 the things I needed to do.
Thank you, God, I want you
to know, my life is made so much
brighter, because in each day,
I know, I can find you.
6:23pm September 9, 2013

The roads of life are unpredictable
Sometimes they take us down a
road we don't want to go..........

Sometimes, the road takes us to
places where demons take a toll;
and angels walk with us to save
our soul.

The roads of life for some are few
For others the roads are many.

Whichever road life takes you down
be prepared to stumble and fall
for on life's roads, good and bad
experiences--- happens to us all.
12:33am September 8, 2013

The maple tree stands gracefully
as a gentle breeze, playfully,
moves in and out
threading itself, invisibly
into the branches of its green leaves.
10:12am September 8, 2013

I looked outside today
and saw the weeds
smothering out the

The vine that for so long
gave me privacy
from the outside world
laying, rail and all,
on the ground......

Birds and butterflies
happily Playing
all around.....

Found hope in the day
among the weeds and the
wood's decay.....

Sought my god's ear
and gave thanks for the
things in my day.
10:50am September 7, 2013

I may not know where I will be
tomorrow but I know where
I stand this day. jt

As I set here thinking about
those who were for so long
apart of my life; but who are
now gone.....

I pray, they overcome the past
and are thankful for the things
in their day.

That they give thought to life,
considering all things, with
their hearts.

I will always love each of you.

No matter where your lives
take you.....

remember that, living in this life
you need more than friends and
family- to get you to heaven's gate,
where your loved ones wait.

My god comes second to none
in this life time.

I would sacrifice all for Him
who gives me the strength to endue
this life, when my heart pours out
its tears.

I wish each of you love, understanding
and happiness....

For, you see, even in the worst of times,
I know, without a doubt, my life is blessed.
8:26pm September 6, 2013

A mother doesn't stop being
the mother because her children
grows up.

For every things she does
the same rule applies...
"I'm the mama that's why."
7:52pm September 6, 2013

When your mind is troubled
your heart is heavy
and it's hard to hold back
the tears...
Do what you can, with
what you have, then, let
things be.
For, the smallest trouble
can get mighty heavy
when worry is allow
to run free.
9:39pm September 5, 2013
Today, my soul was tested
and my god, reached out
to me-in my thoughts, and
memory and filled my every

For, through my tears
I sought understanding
with all my heart;

Through my pain I sought
comfort and reassurance
that things would be alright

And felt love and comfort,
once more, filling my world
to its brim.

I am weak, in this world
standing alone.....
My god is my strength, and
my courage, when I can't
make it on my own.
8:46pm September 5, 2013

 May my sorrow bring you joy
and my memory flee far from
your door..... For, when you
are old, it is sweet memories
that you shall turn to for
comfort.... or bitter memories
you shall seek to forget, that
shall torment your soul.
If my tears be your cup of joy
and my pain the manner you seek
Come Sup at my table-and let
your appetite be satisfied.
For, only then can you know
that my tears are not for me;
they are shed -for those who
 betray a mother's heart.
8:13 pm September 5, 2013

Lord, I know your power
you have been with me
my whole life through...
I ask you Lord to reach
out your hand to those
who have turned their
backs on you.....
Touch the hearts of
the broken hearted.....
The way you once
touched mine .......
My Lord and my Dearest Friend,
Give them understanding
and the strength
to raise their shield of
faith again
10:58pm September 4, 2013

I cannot change my past
or would I if I could.
I followed my heart
in all things-and it brought
me to this day.
10:32pm September 4, 2013

Every thing has its place in life
Its time-its purpose for touching
our life.....
A tear falling from the eye, a star
falls from the sky, are as natural
as rain falling from heaven
and love pouring our from ones heart.
10:19pm September 4, 2013

I used to cry about a lot of things
Still do cry, about some things....
The things I stopped crying over
are the things in my life, I cannot
The things I do cry over
are the things that deserve my tears.
9:58pm September 4, 2013

Today, the sun touched my world
with its warmth......and peace
replaced the threatening storm.
9:50pm September 4, 2013

Those who survive the tides of life
~will swim in peaceful seas. jt

Release the tears and let them flow
into the river of faith and hope.- jt

I was lost and losing control
tho, none knew, but me.....

I was in a spiritual war
to save my soul..........

And those things that meant
the world to me.....

It was hard just getting by.
Only I could see the evil
in my life ... seeking to
destroy me.

That had so many times made
me cry.

Time and time again, my faith
was tested.....and bits and piece
of my world slipped away......

never to return - or - be replaced.
4:02pm September 1, 2013

Beneath my bosom, I carried you next to my heart
We shared all that I am-before you were born.
How can it be, now, that you have forgotten my
heart beating next to yours?
3:43pm September 1, 2013

The eyes that sleep
see not, that
they are dead. jt

Like sheep to slaughter
men follow..... jt

Today, I found unrest in my spirit
that I did not understand.
My heart was heavy burdened
and worry lay ten-fold on my mind.
Then, I was reminded, by a memory,
of the importance of taking one
day at a time.
Each day is a beginning and
an end ,in itself.
Nurture the best things in a day
and tomorrow shall feed on your faith.
3:15pm September 1, 2013

We Won't Forget 911
Let every American give thought to America's
First look at blood, smoke, and tears mingling
together on It's streets . . .and the feeling
 of horror, which changed into a picture
 of strength.

In accordance with the promise made by
the first Americans, to always stand ready
to defend our homeland, to fight, and to die,
if need be, to keep America free.

Let us as Americans, with American hearted blood
running through our veins; give rise to the American

As, together, we proclaim, to the rest of the
world, and to the families that have wept
since ....
"We Won't Forget!"
12:04 September 1, 2013

Name one thought
that has never been thought.

One word that has never
been spoken......

One heart that's never been

Name one time there wasn't
poor living among the wealthy...

Or, bad traits abiding with the good
in one.......

Name one who entered this world
without being born......

We entered this world through
a woman's womb and were given
free will----

From the moment our flesh was born
It was destined to decay and fade away,
or, to be returned-sometimes, much to soon,
to where the journey of life begin.

Name one who has never wept over the
grave of a loved one.....

Life's journey takes one from beginning
to end, back to where life begin.
4:51pm August 31, 2013

I shall weather life's storms
whatever they may be.....
and give thanks always
for whatever portion of life,
my god sends to me.
4:20pm August 31, 2013

Looking out my window
at the weeds over taking
Everything....I see flowers
in full bloom....and,
off in a distance,
a storm brewing.
4:08pm August 31, 2013

When your heart is breaking
and you think nothing
will ever bring joy to your
heart again; When you think
you've come to your end.....
Remember back to the time
arms , waiting to hold you,
were easy to find.
When you think pretending not to
 feel will take away your pain....
Remember back, to when
it was easier just to be who
you were...... because, in
your heart you knew you
were loved.
Don't let life break and mold you
into who you are not....
Remember back, to when your
life was filled with meaning
and with so much heart.
Don't let life destroy the best
part of you.....
Cling, tightly, to the memories
of those good days, when life
was easier to get through....
Remember back, to when
 loving self and others was
 a natural part of you.
1:19am August 29, 2013

Never take life for granted
When you wakeup in
the morning
take time to ,just look around.
and count your blessings.
If, you have someone who's there
for you-when your heart needs
a taste of love.... That's one...
But, 0nly, if that love is true.
If, you can find a reason to smile
at the beginning of a day
That's a blessing.............
That's number two.
And, if you awaken to the day
and find your faith, in your god,
is getting stronger -and there is
nothing you need in the day
This is the blessing where all
other blessings lay.
4:52am August 27, 2013

Do not judge ,to quickly,
the stranger. jt

I know my life may not be what many
would consider normal
but what they view as un-normal is
a way of life for me.....

I choose not to live my life for
others ...

I will always be here when I am needed
but I will not venture out to be apart of
worlds I no longer fit into.

I survived my life because strangers
helped my wounds to heal.....

I no longer pretend everything is perfect
in my life-pretending carries a high
price tag......

I pretended to be strong, for so long
that people really thought that I didn't
need anyone.

It's a horrible feeling to be judged
by those who should know you better than

I accept, that I am different
in many ways...but during everything in
my life, I managed to hold on to my
ability to care beyond myself.

And, I owe that, to never losing my faith
in my god.
1:01am August 25, 2013

The butterflies have returned
to drink from the flowers outside
to create peaceful scenes for me
to gaze on......
Have you ever watched a butterfly
during a gentle rain, setting on
a green leaf, waiting for the rain
to pass?
Their wings are folded together
much like hands fold in prayer.
12:27am August 25, 2013

Tho this day has moved me to tears
after I said I would cry no more.
I realize that tears will always
be apart of my life; that there will
always be a tugging on my heart; and
an empty feeling inside....
and more tears will fall
.that I won't be able to hide.

God, you alone make my life bearable
And, I thank you, for the lessons
you teach me ....
Every time I start feeling sorry for
myself, and trip over a hurtful
9:59pm August 24, 2013

May your day be filled
with good friends who
love you for being you.

May your day be filled
with happiness and cheer
as the day passes and
nighttime grows near.

May your day and night
be filled with God's love
as angels watch over you
from Heaven's window
up above.
8:53am August 24, 2013

Everything has its season
its purpose ..and its
reason. jt

God, gave me many blessings
in the form of the babies
he placed in my care....

I took care of them for
as long as I thought
they wanted me there.

When my god called
the first baby home
I just knew my heart
would break in two;

I survived, only because
God was there for me
to lean on.....

When my god called
in his second loan....

I couldn't cry -it hurt me so,
to have to let her go...

I felt so empty
and alone....
and again my god
wrapped his arms around me

and called to my remembrance
All the reason I had left
to journey on.

It took all I could do to
 be strong-and pretend
for the sake of the other babies
that things would be alright-

when the truth was, in my heart
I knew- if not for my God
holding me up, I'd
never make it through.

It is the hardest thing I've
ever had to do.
10:10pm August 23, 2013

The thunder is roaring
like a hungry lion
stalking its pray.
As I set here safe inside
hidden away.

Roar thunder, roar
as loud as you can
create your lightening
bolts too.....

For I am safe inside my
house, and my shield of faith
stands between me and you.
Roar thunder, Roar.....!
12:56pm August 23, 2013

Love is the, only, weapon
that can defeat hate. jt

Each day holds miracles unfolding
right before our eyes;
Wishes that flower into reality
Wishes asked for, not yet received.
Endless love circling around
In a world where love shines
tho, love for some is never found.
Each day contains the reflection
of a past; that pulls us back
to toy with our heart; before
revealing to the eyes, that
can see, traces of blood and
tears....... staining the glass
of reality.
8:23am August 23, 2013

I feel so lost and all alone
But I know things will
get better, if I can just
find the strength to go on,
And, weather the storm
until its gone.
1:19am August 23, 2013

I am a stranger passing through
a world gone astray..... yet, my
heart often weeps, for those
I do not know- because they
are blinded by the worldly-
and in their own darkness....
are so easily being deceived.
7:16pm August 22, 2013

If you were born
you were born
to, at times,
feel like you have
the weigh of the world
on your shoulders.

Then, at some point
in your life you realize
your tears had been few,
compared to the tears,
that others, have cried.

With each new day
somewhere someone is drying
 their tears away...

Someone some where's cup of life
is full; and somewhere someone's
cup of life is almost gone.

Many have gotten lost
on their way back home
and have forgotten- or,
just never learned, that

The one who seems to have lest
of everything . . .
is-oftentimes- the one in
procession of, the most
important thing: faith .
6:40pm August 22, 2013

Hold close to your heart
the sweetest memories of
yesteryears . . .
For, tomorrow, they may be
all you have to comfort your soul
 and dry your tears.
Give thanks, always,
for the things in your day..
For, tomorrow may bring
life - storms that takes
everything away
4:45pm August 22, 2013

Today, I searched for answers
and found insight into a world
of tears.

I pray that my god will guide
me down the path of righteousness
and truth; and

That for every tear that falls
from the eyes of the helpless,

That by the hands of justice
evil shall be chained-up, with
the lies from its own lips...

And the eyes of the faithful
shall be forever dried.

Guide me, my god, to see where
the evil does hide.

Bless those who sacrifice
for your higher good.

And , my god, please, give me the
courage I need- to stand against
the tide.
1:33pm August 21, 2013

Today the sun outshine
the clouds that hung
over my heart.
And my god reminded me,
through one I love dearly,
That what comes tomorrow,
whatever it maybe,
Does not affect this day.
Live and love, before the time,
you have, slips-silently- away.
One can do no more,
than do the best they can
day by day.
12:10am August 21, 2013

Let silent lay words of anger
Let ,unmoving, rest the hand
of disobedience . . .
Let words of love fall from
lips of understanding;
and good things rise up
from busy hands.
11:57am August 20, 2013

Believe with your heart
what the eyes cannot see
for the heart is the gateway
to the soul - and - eternity.
Wipe away your tears
This day
With the hand towel
of your faith.
11:46am August 19, 2013

You Are Special
Anyone can be a copycat
but only one can be you.
The thing about being who you are
is that nobody can be you but you.
10:52am August 19, 2013

No one knows, but me and my god,
the thoughts that go through my head;
Who the love in my heart belongs too;
The price I've paid in life to survive
one day at a time . . .
Just too make it through.
10:42 am August 19, 2013

My days are not always easy
the sun doesn't shine in my life
all the time.....
And, sometimes, I feel lost and
lonely ,too.

But, deep down inside of me
I know my god knows my heart
and that He'll always see me

In my lifetime, I've cried a million
tears, and my god has lifted the
covers of confusion from me, more
times than I can count.

I know, a million times over,
if I ask him ;
Because He knows my heart,
He'd lift the cover of confusion
from me again.
12:31am August 19, 2013

Sometimes, life takes an unexpected turn
And for awhile a blanket of confusion
covers the days, and brings sleepless

Sometimes, one's faith is tested so, that
life itself seems to have lost it's glow.

These are the times that test the soul.

If your life takes an unexpected turn
and a blanket of confusion covers your
days and robs you of your sleep at night;
Don't given in to fear and worry
Wipe away your tears. . .

Reach down deep inside of you; reclaim
your Shield of Faith, and ask your god
to guide you through the dark time-
and take the blanket of confusion off
of you.

God has the power to heal you
and brighten your days again.
All He asks for, in return,
is that you put you faith and trust
in Him..
12:01am August 19, 2013

Without a cause there is no solution. jt

Things come together
when you put them
in order. jt

Add to world peace by adding to the peace
that is in your part of the world. jt

One can no more control the heart-
than they can the rain. jt

In lonely times
draw from a memory
of better times.
In times when the heart
is breaking....
Draw from A memory
of when love was yours
for the taking.
In times of total despair
When you need help to
see you through,
Draw from the well
of living water
that nurtures
the soul inside of you.
11:42am August 17, 2013

Wise is he who opens
his inner eyes to see
the things in the world
around him.

For the beauty of being
is in the seeing.

To really see, one must
see through the eyes of
the blind man.
11:28am August 17, 2013

How does one
make their heart known
When those known
to the heart
are gone? jt

There are worse things than being poor....
There are worse things than struggling through
this world alone..........
There are worse things than never having your
dream come true...
There are worse things than loving some one
who don't love you-
One can rise above poverty- If he handles his
affairs wisely.
One can find someone to walk with If they seek
friendship earnestly.
One can dream other dreams when one dream don't
come true.
Loving beyond oneself is the natural thing to do.
What is worse than living away each day as if the
day belonged to only you.
or having money you can never spend-but are to
selfish to give some away?
I would not trade my poor life for all the world's
silver and gold
If it meant, in exchange, I had to surrender my heart
and lose my soul.
3:50pm August 15, 2013

My faith is tested this day
Lord, raise me above
my weaknesses...
Make me stronger than
I am ...
Put your hands around
my world, and all that is
dear to my heart.
If I fail, on my journey
home - let it be at
your hands alone.
For, all that I am
All that I could be
all that I was,
could not be, without
your mercy and love
to sustain me.
Forgive me, Lord,
if I am found guilty
of having
too little faith.
I try, so hard, to live
by my faith every
Make me stronger
through my weakness
 Help me ,in my struggles,
the rest of the way.
12:02pm August 14, 2013

When darkness opens its door
close it with your faith. jt

No one can know your thoughts
your feelings, your dreams
Anything of your inner feelings
that makes you who you are.
Many hide from the world
those things that bring them pain.
Don't cry - be who you are
trust in your inner god
and find your inner peace.
10:39am August 11, 2013

May this day bring sunshine your way
May your heart sing a happy song
May you find rest at the end of your day.
And, may your sleep be filled with peaceful
dreams and you awaken to bigger and
better things.
10:25am August 11, 2013

We are given free will-
to chose right from wrong

While I believe in life
after death- I believe
its a sin for mortals to
force a spirit home.

I believe that those who
judge another on quality
of life are lacking in
their own spirit, and that
eternal darkness will
one day be their home.

I believe the things I do
because all my life
my god has showed me proof
that he has his hands always
on the faithful.
Who are spiritually whole.
11:35am August 7, 2013

My god is no ones
but my own
I cannot choose him
for another....
To each his own. jt

I believe in angels
I believe that those
who loves me best
are appointed to watch
over me.
I believe in my god
His mercy,
His goodness and
His Light of Love
~sight unseen.
11:23am August 7, 2013

Life is like a treasure chest
we decorate to suit our self
We fill is with heart that we,
from time to time, give to another.

We add to it lots of daily faith ,
that we take out in our time of need
and share, by example, with our
worldly sisters and brothers.

To insure our treasure chest will last
forever, we make room for God-and invite
his son Jesus in......

Our treasure chest is never locked. . .
tho at times its hidden from mortal eyes
who would kill the soul inside.
11:14am August 7, 2013

Never let the things of the day
get you down when you
are sad at heart.
Out of hurt, many have said
unkind words
that shattered their world,
and broke another's heart.

Once a word in anger is said
no matter how unintended
the hurt caused.....
you can't unsay the words
or wish away the pain
your words caused.
10:49am August 7, 2013

The sky is a little dark today
it looks like it's gonna rain
May the storm pass you by
and the sun come out again..
For in the midst of a storm
many a tear has dampened
the ground.
10:44am August 7, 2013

Remember, when loneliness
knocks at your door
that Somewhere in the world
Someone loves you;
That none are alone ;
That we are all travelers who
sometimes gets lonely and lost
in a world that we are only
passing through.
9:31am August 6, 2013

When times are hard
and nothing is going
your way;
When your heart is troubled
in the day;
When you feel so down
that you want to cry
take out your shield of faith
and hold it high.
For, nothing befalls you
in the day
that cannot be over come
as long as in your
soul and heart
you cling to your faith.
9:19am August 6, 2013

When one tries to hard
even the easiest thing
can become hard to

Do the best you can
with what you have at hand.

Trying and failing
is better than never having
the satisfaction of knowing
you tried.

Bitter driven is he
whose ego is the driving
force in his life.

Never let hate determine
your fate.

Love once hung on a cross.

A religious man forgives those
who hate him;
and embraces his enemy
with kindness.

Love cannot be killed.

Even through death love

For, while a man takes his
love with him to the grave
The love he gave remains
in the hearts of those he
gave his love too.

The flesh dies but not
what is inside.

Love is never wasted...
Love like hate
has a place and time
as determined by ones fate.
2:02 pm August 4, 2013

Forgiving one's self opens the way
to forgiving others. jt

 If yesterdays tears finds
their way into the day...
It's time to wipe them away.

Hurt can hurt a long long time.

Overcoming heartache takes a toll
on the heart and mind ...

Overcoming the bitterness, and
all the hurting feelings that
hate builds up inside, often takes
no mercy and can last a life time.

If you must hate hate without pretense.

Between love and hate there is a thin line.

It is a mistake to cut someone from
your life and still blame them for your
inability to accept your part of the blame.

Perfection wears wings.

Time will pass for all things.
11:53am August 4, 2013

Life don't always treat all the same
but life gives all the chance to advance. jt

When the sounds of the evening
reach my inner ears,
night is not far away, darkness
is drawing near.

Setting here with the fading sun
kissing the paper I hold in my hand,
Watching the sky darken to the sound of
of birds singing , sweetly, in the trees,

I wonder how many people take the time
to let their spirit roam free,
While setting in the silence of nature's
natural peace.
Take time to nurture a peaceful spirit
Listen with your heart to the singing
of a gentle breeze.
6:15 pm August 3, 2013

Silence finds voice in a heart
full of memories. jt

The past is echoing throughout
the day....
As waves of heartache prepare
to flood a world gone astray.

No one sees the un-seeable flood
of evil drinking innocence's

To deny the spirit of goodness,
is to deny the goodness of soul.

One does not disprove the existence
of God, merely, by choosing
not to believe.

Evil takes no prisoners..

Evil eats away at the flesh
to kill the spirit within.......

Think not, that the day of doom
is far off in tomorrow;
prepare thy heart and thy house
for the pending flood of sorrow.
1:45 pm August 1, 2013

Life is the testing ground
for what is to be.....
We stand this day in
the footprints of time
that leads to the grave
and eternity.
Follow, wisely, the path
that lays before thee.
For, wise is he who gives
thought to what lays
ahead-lest, he stumble
over his own heart.
6:55am July 31, 2013.

The right thing
is sometimes
the hardest thing
to do. jt

I went beyond my world today.....
Which I rarely ever do....
and found a church door locked
To keep evil from coming through.......

Standing outside the locked church door
I wondered, if those inside knew
Satan created the lock for the door
to keep God's lost sheep from coming

Is this what Jesus had them do?

Would He put a lock on the door
or would he trust His Heavenly Father
to protect his house of worship
from harm.....?

Don't those who turn the key
that locks the church door know....
that through the blood of Jesus Christ
through our faith we are safe
in our Heavenly Father's arms?

The worldly fear for the things
of the world, tho this is only a
temporary home.....they lock out the
good with the bad- to satisfy their
need to feel safe inside.

Oh, yea of little faith, how worthy
are yea to unlock the door to
eternal life?

The believer does not lock the door
to his house or his heart-He puts his
trust in God everyday-knowing in his heart
that his Shield of faith will keep
him safe.
1:44pm July 30, 2013

Today is all that matters.
Today is all we got.
Do not worry about tomorrow
Live today with heart....
For, it is in this day
where all that matters lay.
Reach not into tomorrow
Draw near to your heart
those dearest to you
 in the day
that whatever trouble -
whatever sorrow -comes
 your way
that as long
 as faith lives in your life
in your heart, and in
your day,
 that no matter
 what happens to you
You can always count on God
to lighten your burden and
 help you through.
12:56pm July 29, 2013

I let the worldly
draw me to the worldly
and forget for awhile
the need inside of me
to live, to love
and live in peace.
12:26pm July 29, 2013

We do not get to choose
whether or not we want to be
We do not get to choose
the length of our life or if we
want to die or not.

We are born free spirits to
grasp from life all the knowledge
that with time
will make us who we are
and determine if we have
a heart or not.

We do not get to choose
for others the way their
life is to be lived ...
We were given free will at birth
and as hard as life can be at times
we ,by our choices, give
or take away from our
life's worth.
6:58pm July27, 2013

As the new day is being born.
The darkness of the night melts
into a misty morn.
2:00am July 22, 2013

My thoughts are my own
None can think them for me
Life plants and nurtures
the thoughts inside of me.
My thoughts are my own
I can keep my thoughts to
myself ...
or I can set my thoughts
No one thinks my thoughts
but me.
12:56pm July 21, 2013

Today, I stand in awe
at my god's wondrous
ability to raise me above
troubling times.
If not for my god's blessings
in my life, I could not speak
of his endless power
and the miracles
that He performed
in my time of need.
12:48pm July 21, 2013

I sing
praises to my god
A never ending song
of thanks giving.
Night and day, I sing
my song....
to a god who is
my everything.
12:36pm July 21, 2013

 Life, I have traveled
the roads you have taken
me down.
I have walked through the shadows
of uncertainty
stumbled in your darkness,
fell on my face ,and prayed
on bended knee.
I have lived in your spring time
and loved continuously
all the days of my life.
Now, winter time is upon me
and spring time is but a memory
as I sip from my life's cup
the bitter, with the sweet.
1:27am July 21, 2013

Let lay those things
buried in the past
For what is left behind
is not flesh and bone.
Yesterday is gone
into the shadow of
what was.
And from yesterday's
 shadow emerges what is.
From yesterdays
our memories are created.
Let lay those things
buried in the past
For nothing in this world
is made to last.
12:59am July 21, 2013

True faith weakens not
in the face of trial
and tribulation.......
The faithful know that
the closer they walk to
their god..... the more
heartache they are destined
to endue.
Stand in the light of truth
as your heart knows truth to be.
Never hide a lie the liar told.
Tested, always, is the strength
of ones faith.
If the darkness of evil things
knock on your door- let your faith
rise up and answer the knock.
9:57pm July 19, 2013

Lay down your hate
lift love high.
For all share this life
until the day we die.
Let your faith overcome
the anger and let God
be the judge of us all.
For the faithful hold true
to their belief; and the
unbeliever will
be quick to judge.
Calm the rages of hate
with love.
1:37pm July 18, 2013

A life is only wasted
when it serves no good
thing. jt

What matter is a tomorrow
that is empty today?
What matter is a yesterday
one cannot enter again?
What matters is not what is
not here; or what has been;
what matters is the day I
am living in.
1:25pm July 18, 2013

None can see through my eyes
The things my eyes take in;
None can feel with their love
the things my heart touches.
1:17pm July 18, 2013

Pondering the stillness of the moment
I find an emptiness; a space void
in my life; that can never be filled
again with yesterdays joys.
And in the midst of the emptiness
my spirit weeps; as my heart grasps
for what is no more.
I am the center of my void; for it is
I who carved the emptiness; that I
created for myself.
1:12pm July 18, 2013

Hate cannot survive
where love lives. jt

My faith in my god
fills the empty in my life
with peace.
My god is my strength. jt

Lord, I awakened to the birds
singing right outside my window
then I heard their warning-for the
song that they sing was followed
by silence, that took away my
Lord, help me not to cling so hard
to those closest to my heart.....
Let me not forget that we all
are living on borrowed time
that as much as I love those
closest to my heart -there comes
a time for flesh and spirit to part.
10:27am July 17, 2013

Heartsong's Thoughts
The anger in the world
can deafen commonsense.
Do not take up another
man's fight blindly.
Justice is not to be found
in the tip of a bloody sword.
Those who seek to cause
strife among the innocent
brings hell fire down on
A broken heart will mend
but a heart filled with hate
causes other hearts to break.
Lost among the mob of destruction
is the high ideas that civilizes
and nurtures the better part of man.
When one is blinded to the better
side of others-his worst side
12:27pm July 16, 2013

One can only pretend
to be who they are not.
In the end
they will come face to face
with a face in the mirror
they do not recognize
as their own.
Age does not decrease
when the curtain is drawn.
1:41pm July 15, 2013

To My Angel Brother
You were my big brother
non-other can ever take
your place......
I did not bid you farewell at your
grave site-I bid you welcome
to a forever place in my heart.
I was not among those who
stood over your grave and
wept together.......
I was alone holding on
to every memory my heart
contained of you, my angel
I was not there at the gathering
where stories of you were being told
I had only you, my angel brother,
to listen to my crying, and only your
 memory to dry away my tears.......
Happy Birthday My Angel Brother
12:55PM July 15, 2013

Your memory brought you
near enough for me to touch
Tho I know you are an angel
with no worry or no woe.......
Your memory brought you
near enough for me to feel
the warmth of your angel glow.
I could not help but shed a tear
knowing you , precious angel,
are so far but yet so near.
Your memory brought you
back to me long enough
to feel the joy of having you
in my life-and the pain of
wishing that you were here.
Oh, selfish me ,
how cruel that would be
to strip you of your angel wings
just to have you here with me.
written for my angels
10:56 am July 15, 2013

Let the heart give answer
to matters of the heart. jt

Why does the sun shine so brightly
then disappear when we sleep?
Why does the sea divide humanity
Why does the baby cry when he's born?
Why do flowers grow among the weeds?

The sun shines in the day that we may see
and goes down at night that we may sleep.
The sea divides humanity that ship captains may
explore the sea......
The baby cries at birth to make his voice heard
before he learns to speak.
Flowers grow among the weeds to multiply in number
and scatter God's good seeds.
11:02am July 14, 2013

I cannot find words
for the feel of the night
that engulfs my mind
with the sound of
birds singing as I listen
to the peaceful songs
that nighttime brings.
Sweet is the feel of peace
this night has created for me.
Birds that sing in the night
that I can hear but cannot
3:09am July 11, 2013

Growing older does not
make one wiser...... jt

There's no going back
No turning back time
No mending of hearts
No more time to hope
for the better to step out
from among bitter words
and yesterday's pain.
For, where understanding
is not allowed in
anger and self-pity
will not let the heart mend.
Many a soul has died
wanting what was wasted
away in a lifetime.
Unlike, hate that rejoices
at another's pain-
weeps always for the
broken hearted whose
life is shut off from love
they chose
not to let understanding in.
1:18pm July 5, 2013

My life did not make me
who I am today......The
way I chose too live my life
did. jt

One does not have to love
to put out the flames
of desire.
But such an act leaves the
heart wanting. jt

I searched for happiness
where misery lived
and found heartache.....
I searched for understanding
where confusion grew wild
and flowers died in the Spring
and found the hand of peace
reaching out to me-in my
time of need.
I searched for a place in life
where love reigned supreme
and found an empty place
to fill with the love from
inside of me.
From heartache and misery
from walking among
the flowers and weeds
I found that understanding
comes in the form of many things
that one cannot understand
what one has not lived.....
Life takes from us many things
But, in return-- living, understanding
3:25pm July 3, 2013

Heart Vows
I will love you today
I will love you tomorrow
I will love you for all eternity.
Not until my heart loved you
was I complete in every way...
You are the star that sparkles
in my night
You are the sunshine that lights
up my day . . .
You are my true love
You are my heart beat
You are my everything.
You are the other part of me
The part that makes my life
I vow to love you, my whole life
To seal my vows~ I give my
heart to you.
by Heartsong
1:24pm July 3, 2013

Weep not for things
that are no more......
Shed not a tear for lost
treasures of yesterday....
For there is nothing taken
away before its time
nothing that is no more
that we don't carry in our
memory .....
The greatest treasure is love
Love may wear many faces
but love never dies
Love is never lost
Love is life's treasure we carry
in our heart, safe inside.
Weep not.... for what has
always been yours to keep.
9:32am July 3, 2013

There's a storm brewing
far across the sea
and its gusty winds are thick
with deceit and trickery.
The eagle's eyes are on the storm
As America's dead raise up
from their graves to protect
the land of the free.
Sleep not good soldiers
guard well the skies and liberty
until truth and righteousness stills the
 storm brewing across the sea.....
For if the storm reaches our shores
many shall die and many shall weep.
Sleep not good soldiers
until once more the storm is overcome
by death's sweet peace.
8:58am July 3, 2013

One flicker of life's flame
One star among the many
Still. Some think themselves
Forgotten is the journey
that begin inside the womb
and will begin again
when this life comes to its end.
8:55pm July 2, 2013

Let not the day rob you of your faith
or cause you unnecessary strife....
Hold fast to what it is you believe
as you travel the paths of life....
There is but one god- be not deceived
in a world of many beliefs.
In the end all will come face to face
with the one true god-until then
keep faith-seeking always
to be found worthy of the glow
that stems from your soul.
1:43 pm July 2, 2013

We were born sisters
but, with the passing
of the years, we grew apart.
It is now to late to turn back
the hands of time to better times
for you and I
This world has robbed you of your
I pray
that somehow, deep inside of you,
you kept alive a bit of our sister time.
11:08am July 2, 2013

The leaves on the maple trees
move just enough to let me know
there is a gentle breeze
making its way through my day.
Tho one cannot see the wind
One can feel the breath of the wind
and see the leaves move
as the wind dances through the trees.
10:48am July 2, 2013

Lord, sometimes it's hard to believe
how fast things change; how quickly
days turn into years . . .
how fast a lifetime of happiness can
turn into a stream of tears. . .
Like all do, I once took life for granted
living in the day.
I never gave much thought to the time
that's constantly slipping away.
Until I looked in the mirror
and saw the lines the years
had left on my face . . .
Lord, now, that my eyes can see
beneath the lines left by time
there no longer is a need to pretend
that time is on my side.
All that is will wither and pass away
all things new will grow old
eternal beauty is not found in the world
The fountain of youth and Eternal beauty
resides in the depth of ones own soul.
8:59am July 1, 2013

My god needs no marble or stone
as testimony of his presence in my life
My god's strength comes not from the thoughts
formed inside of me......
My god was, is, and will always be
my god-and my inner peace.
Let all seeking god find the strength
to endure in their time of need
for tested always is the faith of all
who cling to belief in a god
sight unseen.
Walk upright
Love always
and in your search to find God
- follow your heart in all things.
8:14am June 29, 2013

We are not put on earth
to ponder another's worth
We are put here to prove
our own worthiness.... jt

When I open my eyes to a new day
I know I have been given another chance
to set things right in my world.
While, I cannot undo what has been done
bring back time passed away
change the un-changeable in any way
I can try to
change the things that are changeable
use time more wisely
and no matter the out come
be thankful for the chance
to awaken to a better day.
10:56am June 28, 2013

Not always do my words
paint the clearest word pictures
For it is not easy
for words to capture things of
the heart.....
While love is a thing of the heart
the emotions created by love
cannot be defined.......for hurt,
and loneliness too can also stem from
One can write of love, life, and ones
understanding of love and life
but there are no words that can
transfer the reality of ones truest
feelings to another....
Tho I write of love-I know not
the feelings of love in another's
I can only write of the love
my heart has given to another
and the love the hearts of others
 have given to me.
The love we carry in our hearts
defines who we are and if
we have been found worthy of
another's love.
11:28pm June 26, 2013

One need only to open their heart
to make a difference in the world. jt

Somewhere the seeds of love
we planted in the hearts of others
is nurturing the very heart of humanity.
The love one plants in a lifetime
grows on and on-- long after one is
For, what heart can the touched by love
and not be moved?
What heart can be embraced by love
and forget being loved?
10:32pm June 26, 2013

Once I saw only what
I wanted to see......
and what I chose to see
was my reality.
I did not see the things
that shook my world
until my reality
caved in on me
Leaving my world
a shell of what
I once thought it to be.
Today I live
my eyes always fixed
on life's reality......
No rose colored glasses
no make believe
Just reality.......
Just reality.......
that begins and ends
with me.
7:50pm June 26, 2013

I am but one lowly-soul
Holding on to everything
and nothing.......
carried by life's breath
drifting on life's wings.
Engulfed by life's reality
A part of nothing
and everything.
11:20am June 26, 2013

Today the sun shines down on me
and with its glow warms my very soul;
Yet. Still. There is a chill that my heart feels.
God, raise me above the things
that seek to cause me pain; place your
mighty hand on those drifting on life's winds
take the chill away, and give them reason
to hope again.
11:00am June 26, 2013

My god knows my reasoning
for the things I do........
He knows where every speck of
my love resides,
My god asks nothing of me
but that I try.
When all in this world is no more
and my heart beats no more
I pray I'm worthy to walk inside
when I knock on heaven's door.
8:58am June 23, 2013

As meek as a lamb
as fierce as a lion
Every trait in man
has its own time.
All, each and everyone,
have an inner strength
that rises to defend
things closest to their heart
with the strength of a lion and
 the weakness of the lamb
that succumbs to fear
from time to time.
8:42am June 22, 2013

Life is a never ending journey
Life's doors open and close
We choose the doors
we travel through
We choose the doors
we open and close
Life's doors only
open one way
choose wisely the door
you enter in this day.
7:40am June 21, 2013

Walk life's crooked mile
Drink from life's springs
Swim life's seas
Wade through life's
unending fields of flowers
and weeds.
Discard those things
that burden your spirit
Hold close to your heart
those who touch your life
with unrest and peace...
Cling not to life's past
that is over and gone
Live life the best you can
Give thanks for all things
and when time comes
to leave
Close your eyes
and rest in peace.
7:23am June 21, 2013

Life is far to short
to live life being
who you are not...
Pretending to be
who you are not
in the end will
break your heart.
No one else can
cry your tears
feel or think the
way you do.....
No one else
can live your life
or dream your
dreams for you.
11:42pm June 19, 2013

I used to dream of growing up
and living happy ever after....
Then I grew up and found that
not every dream comes true.
Like wishing on a falling star
And other things in innocence
we do..........
when we seek good luck
or a wish come true
or a dream come true.
Then I grew up and realized
while I may not understand
why things turn out the way they do

That life is a reality
and like unanswered prayers-----
wishes that don't come true
have a purpose, too.
11:22pm June 19, 2013

As I lay on the sandy beach
gathering shells for my sand garden
and the flowers that the shells
would create......
I watched my loved ones
wadding the waters edge.. and I
thanked my god for all the beauty
he had put in my day.
9:58pm June 19, 2013

My son Billy Ray ,his wife Tonya with their daughter Taylor,
Billy Jr., Michael, Justin, Austin, Tyler, and Wyatt.

My daughter Katie and her husband Josh....

My son Billy Ray's seventh son...Christian.

Me with my daughter Katie....

Ribbons of life are many
colorful are they
holding ones life together
going in so many ways.
Life is a rainbow of colors
fading a little each day.
O how beautiful the colors
of each rainbow
giving each life its wondrous glow.
8:59am June 19, 2013

Tomorrow the sun may not shine
I do not know for sure
But if the morning brings dark times
my faith will help me endure.
Tomorrow , tomorrow
so near yet so far away
Worry not what tomorrow may bring
for we never live in a tomorrow
we only live in today.
1:36am June 19, 2013

Wisdom, knowledge,
and understanding
are obtained at a price
and life's the teacher that
makes one wise. jt

Once more you crossed my mind
And I gave a moment of thought
to you, and felt a tugging at my
heart.... to know you longer than
the fleeing moment that always
leaves me feeling empty, tho
you have never filled the void
and know not......
that from time to time you cross
my mind and for a moment, you
somehow find away to touch
my heart.
1:17am June 17, 2013

The day is long turned to night
and in the nights stillness
I set once more, coffee cup in hand
Thinking on the things the day left behind
that will still find away into my thoughts
when the sun rises again.
Let me find rest in the night and awaken
to a clear mind in the morn.
Let me never forget, under life's
pressures of the day.... that my god will
never put on me more than my spirit
can take....
12:56am June 17, 2013

I walk in the flesh alone.
Alone I travelled into this world
and alone I will one day depart this
In the flesh I am shunned by the worldly
In the spirit I am comforted by the angels
who watch over me.
This world is not my home....I am a
stranger to those who claim to know me
who stand off in the distance and judge me
because I will not accept their guilt as my own.
If I am to be judged rightly-I have no choice
but to walk alone-or stop being me.
The worldly is only temporary - and I'm just
a stranger walking through, on my way home.
6:44pm June 16, 2013

Have you heard the call
that bids you "Come. Follow me
take nothing with you
I will provide for your every need"?
Do you know Jesus' gentle touch
in the morn
as His arms encircles your spirit
to guide you through the day
and keep you safe from harm?
I know the feel !
As a child, Jesus took my hand
every waking day.....
When something frightened me
the feel of Jesus' powerful hand
holding on to mine, took my fear away.
As the days turned into years
and my eyes were opened to sin
I tripped time after time
Many times I prayed to feel
Jesus' hand, once more,
holding on to mine.
Never has my god failed me
When I reach out for guidance
and strength in troubling times
I always find the god I love
standing there with outreached arms
to take me in, heal my wounds, and
keep me safe from harm.
3:35pm June 16, 2013

The worthiness of the spirit in me
who among those my spirit has touched
is worthy to judge my spirit?
I seek not wealth above that needed
in the day.......
What I have, I would
gladly share with friend or foe- if he be
in need.....I seek nothing, because, like
my god promised, He meets my every need.
Who among those my spirit has tarried with
is more worthy than my god to judge the
spirit in me?
I have no need to judge another- for
the world is over flowing with those who
judge harshly those their very own existence in
this life helped nurture into being.
The years have shown me many things....
and made me a stranger to many
for having seen in the spirit things they
strive to hide- from mortal eyes.
I have left many a friend behind who
was a special part of my life- who have
long forgotten our friendship.....
I do not
live my life for worldly gain ......
I have no
desire to explain my reality to any; for
what is one's version of reality depends
on the space one occupies .
My reality is in this moment.
As for the spirit in me............
All men,
having kindred spirits, share
gentle and not so gentle spiritual qualities
according to the paths in life one's reality
takes him down.
1:56am June 16, 2013

The sky showers the earth
with its crystal clear tears as
those below seek shelter
from the rain.
The water falls an endless stream
on lake and desert the same.
As I marvel at the sound of the raindrops
falling against the windowpanes
the sun from time to time
Peeks through the tears of rain.
12:35pm June 14, 2013

None know tomorrow
until they pass though it. jt

It is a day of weariness
and bliss
love surrounded by
fullness and emptiness
A day quite and still
where a child laughter
is sealed, and echoes
in every chamber
of my heart.
It is a day to reach
down deep inside
and grasp life's oneness
and touch upon my place
among millions of twinkling stars
that masks the darkness
in which my spirit terries
in the moonlight-under the spell
of life's sweet kiss..
12:15pm June 12, 2013

The breath of the wind
is damp this morn
and my soul is weary
from the night's
restless sleep.... but..
still I feel the warmth
waiting in the day
to dry the dampness
and give peace to my soul.
8:08am June 11, 2013

Let a miracle unfold
among the tears of
hurt and sorrow.....give
peace to those who knows not
that one can reap what another
sows. jt

Take it all! And, I still
process the love of my god
who lives through me. jt

Let the light unveil
the darkness; let the heart
empty out onto the hands
of the enemy; and let he
who thinks himself equal
to his god-bend on hand
and knee.
For, into the darkness
we are born to endue
to overcome
the enemy.
Give thanks this day
that evil has not
overtaken thee.......
Give thanks for the
 angels who guide you
in the day-
and watch over you
while you sleep.
8:41am June 5, 2013

My journey has been a long one
with many accomplishments and
failures, since the day I was born.
My greatest accomplishment
was the children I held in my arms
My greatest failure: loving them
too much.
For, now my arms are empty and
their arms, so full, are emptying
1:56pm June 4, 2013

In a lifetime many things
are faced; many decisions
are made..... We run ,we walk
we swim or bog down in the things
of the day.... we make right turns
we make wrong turns; we do many
things in a lifetime that adds
or takes away from who we are today.
In a lifetime many things
find their way into our heart
and our mind.
4:42pm June 3, 2013

When something is not in tune
with your life ---it's out of tune.
When inner self gives warning
of something that appears harmless
heed the warning- evil takes on many
forms -with the intent to do one harm...
2:39pm June 3, 2013

Today, I taste life's
fullness . . .
and life's emptiness
and find both mingled
with sweetness and
bitterness. jt

Like an eagle's eye
the inner eye sees
and knows all things. jt

Feel the peace that
feeds on your heart
feel the peace within
feel the warmth of peace
as it passes through
and embraces your
 very soul.
Worry not of things
out of your control....
feel the peace nurturing
your spirit
and feeding your soul..
Worry not.....
of things gone or things to come
feel the peace in the moment
as peace intertwines with your heart.
12:05am June 3, 2013

For everything there is a reason
for every tear there is a reason
to cry....

For every heartache there is
a reason for the heart to break.

For every knee that bends
there is a reason to pray.

For everything past there
was a reason for the time

For every breath we take
a reason to be alive.

For everything there is a reason
a reason to be born and a reason
to die.

A reason for living and reason
 for awaking each day-to ponder
ones reason for being.

There is a reason why some die
young and a reason why some
die old.....

why some lead the
way and others stay behind.
11:39pm June2, 2013

The peace one seeks
rests within..... it is
as natural to the
spirit as the air is to
the wind. jt

It has been a warm sunny day
but my spirit is tired
and I spent to much time
doing things- that just
gave me something to dao .

Strange how things just
appear out of the blue.
I often think about life and
the paths I have travelled
the ways I have wondered
the courses I have set
the whys- the hows of things
the magic of words and
the methods that are used
to harness knowledge,
wisdom and understanding.
dao is a Chinese word
I had never seen or ever heard
until it found a way to harness
my thought and teach me
its meaning..
The dao is set--- it moves not
one must seek his way
with his heart.
9:12pm June 2, 2013

They who look only at the worldly
never see fully with their inner
Life is the oneness of all
and alls oneness with nothing
and everything.
Even a tree is a living thing.
To truly feel life is to set
quietly at peace
and feel your own
heart beating, beneath
your own hand.
A lifetime is measured in
One chooses his destiny
but not his path.
8:56am June 2, 2013

One need not ask "do you love me?"
If such arises then where is thy love?
I would lay down my life for thee.
Doubt not my love .. betray not
thy own heart.... jt

If one does not know the heart
of another-one cannot know
the love in that heart. jt

Each day is a day closer to eternity....jt

Never try to be
someone that you're not
Awaken to the day being
who you are
Strive to do the best you can do
and live the day with heart.
Never pretend to be someone
you are not-----
5:38 am June 1, 2013

Today I felt the sun on my skin
and the wind's breath on my neck
As I wiped from my forehead
the salty sweat......
Close, always, are those cherished
moments to feel one with everything
when to tired to rest and too weary to
work God sends a little blessing
 disguised as a gentle breeze.
12:48am May 31, 2013

The Other Box
 We live in a box
some live on the bottom
some live on the top.
The box has two ends
Heaven and earth
We live in between
and in the middle
of four sides....
We can't climb up
we can't climb down
We travel round and round.
Standing on earth reaching
for the sun ,moon, and stars
We live in a box inside of a box.
With no where to go
but inside out.
We are the box inside of the box
the height, width, depth and size
of a man.
A man has two ends
A bottom and a top
four sides has he
tho not equal in size
the spirit is encaged
inside of the box.
Those who seek
to open the box inside the box
can only succeed in destroying
the self he believes
himself to be......
For none has
the power of his creator--
who took the earth from beneath
his own feet and molded man in his
own image, planted his feet
on earth at the bottom of the
box inside of the box....
Then gave him free will to choose
to live on the bottom or live on the top.
11:26pm May 30, 2013

Growing up means letting go
of those who kept you safe
for so many years. jt

A Childhood Memory
Way back then, the sun rose and set
on days that seemed to have no end.
And the nights were short and sweet
blanketing me with the moon and stars
as in the darkness I dozed off to sleep
holding onto my guardian angel's hand
with my dreams laying next to me.
7:33AM May 30, 2013

One cannot find inner peace
when their outer world
is turned upside down. jt


Self-hate destroys everything
good in ones life...
and replaces it with bitterness
blindness, and feelings of being

Self hate uses self inflicted
mental pain to push those
who love them away.
Their happiness is an illusion
they cling to everyday.

Hate not yourself or another
For, none can hate ones self
and truly love another.

Self hate creates a world
filled with a few - that leaves
ones world half full and ones
heart half empty.

They cannot see that their life
glass is not full or the love
wasting away on the outside of
the glass.
11:37am May 28, 2013

Sometimes in life
we all must come
face to face with
Whether or not
we like what we see
depends on
many things.
The most important one
is love....
Did you love enough
when things were bad?
Did you lose your faith
and let go of your
What one sees is
not always the reality
one wants to see.
Never let go of
your dreams
without love
life is empty.
11:14am May 28, 2013

Rocking Chair Years
I read the saddest words today
that really touched my heart
They were written by someone
who had lost her dearest friend
and had written a letter to him.

This friendship begin soon
after they were born
And ended here on earth
soon after her best friend
turned twenty one.

You see, this was a very special
friendship, between an aunt and
Who were born a few months
apart...and grew to love each
other with all of their heart.

They grew up together...

They played together.....
They ate together.....
They took naps together....

They set in their rocking
chairs- together....

They talked about things and
shared their dreams..

Two friends who loved each other
with all of their heart....
and were there for each other,
day or night, until it came
their time to part.

Twice her heart was broken in one day:
When her nephew and closest
friend went away.....
and when those who should have
held her close to their hearts
pushed her away.

As the mother ,and the grandmother
of these two best friends:
I watched them grow up together
and am so proud of both of them.

They neither forgot the meaning of family
or that they were (always) each other's
closest friend.
3:44pm May 27, 2013

Leave yesterday's failures
Look forward to what
tomorrow may bring.

Worrying about what's
over and done
won't change anything.
11:44pm May 26, 2013

I feel your aching heart
as if your pain were my own
Tho we are apart, you will always
be a part of me.....I can not
wipe away your tears
like I used to do...but time
and distance cannot mar
the memories of a time
When I used too.
8:17pm May 26, 2013

I hear a beautiful tune
and see beauty beneath
the ugliest thing
for even a thunderstorm
can turn into a peaceful,
 gentle rain.
9:53am May 26, 2013

I was outside pulling weeds
from my flowers when this
thought entered my mind:
"It's better to be
silent in peace
than to be loud
causing unrest
in the world."
11:13am May 24, 2013

 What can I find to say today
that will lighten anther's heavy
that will comfort a heart that
has broken
that will dry a tear or two?

There are millions of words
to choose from-but only
the right words will do.
2:48pm May 23, 2013

The Way to My God
I found my god long ago
standing at a cross road
Exactly where I do not know.

It was at the crossroads of life
that I first met my friend Jesus
and he told me the only way
to get to my god was to make
the journey with him.

I was bent and broken
when Jesus' arms reached out
to draw me in; and he told me
things would be alright that
the sun would shine again.

That was many years ago and
I still stumble every now and then
and can still feel Jesus' arms
around me gently drawing me in,
and hear him say:
'Everything will be alright. The sun
will shine again.'

Oh...how I love Jesus
my Savior and my dearest friend.

8:28am May 23, 2013

I pray, when it comes my time
to die that my god will have mercy
and not leave my life hanging by a thread
at the mercy of heartless men. jt

 Hospice Hell-hole
Fear lay next to him at night
Fear wakened with him in the morn
Fear set with him and held
his hand, as he cried himself to sleep.
He asked his god to spare him
from another day of loneliness and misery
in the cold place -he waited to die
so his family could live worry free.
He never wanted to be a burden, you
see, so he lived in fear every day-
In a place he didn't want to be...
Asking his god to strike him dead
that he might find peace in the grave
and be free of the fear of dying
alone-In the hell hole where he didn't
want to be..
4:25pm May 22, 2013
In memory of Uncle Gene. I'm sorry you were made to suffer
before your life was intentionally shortened. [R.I.P.]

 We all seek, for the un-findable.
And in our search we lose sight
of those things and places that
once meant so much.
As we age, worldly things become less
important, as we strive to survive
in a world where all are born to die.
I know not what waits for me at
my journey's end-but I knew not
what lay before me when this
life's journey begin.
We all seek, for the un-findable.
For, what we seek is not of this world.
We are born ;we die and are reborn into
God's appointed world..
10:19pm May 21, 2013

I love you more than
you will ever know
I'm sorry you never
got to know me
we could have become
life long friends.
I hope in time
you will understand
why I do things
the way I do.......
If I could make a wish
knowing it would come true
I would wish
you truly knew the love
on this day, and every day
that I have for you.
10:43am May 21, 2013

It's raining and the rain clinging
to the window pane
against the dark sky outside
is sparkling like tiny stars,
as the sounds of the rain falling
does its drum roll,
rapidly and continuously,
for the listening souls.
9:10pm May 20, 2013

A closer walk with Jesus
is what I need this day
to brighten up my world
and hold evil at bay.
A little time with my
closest friend and all my fears
will fade a way- and
whatever needs mending
will mend.
8:53am May 20, 2013

Many hearts have been broken
that love could have easily mended
had love not been chained
O foolish heart, that has been
broken, why not accept love, let
love mend your heart-and, from
another's love, learn to love again.
6:36pm May 19, 2013

If you seek answers
to questions of love
let the heart be the

For many have said
"I love you" and
given pieces of their
heart away . . .
only to proclaim to another
"You are my first true love.
I will love you until
my dying day."

The first love always lasts
longer than all others.
12:38pm May 19, 2013

I touched a red rose with my
fingertips today and pricked
my finger on a thorn.

O sweet rose your beauty
has captured my heart and my blood
has been drawn by your thorn
Yet, still, your sweetest scent
you give for me to breathe.

11:57am May 19, 2013

Life Is

Life is a never ending journey
filled with mountains to climb
or fall off of.....
Oceans to swim or drown in...
Flowers to pick or watch die
on their stem...
Hearts to break or hearts to
help mend...
Life is a never ending journey
of happiness or sorrow
filled with memories of yesterday
that gives one reason to give up
or to hope for a better tomorrow.

By Heartsong
9:50am May 18, 2013

Those who seek to overpower
the weak shall fall by their
own hands.

For the least amongst us
has the might of truth
and righteousness to guard
the path he walks.
A wise man uses his wisdom
to better the world for all
knowing that sooner or later
the worst things in life have
the potential to touch us all. jt

A Tribute to Motherhood

Motherhood is a battlefield
In a moral war that a mother
must fight in every day
to keep the child of her womb
from total moral decay..
and better the future
in some small way.

From the moment nature
drafts her for motherhood
She plans for the future
of the child put in her care
Every day.

On the battlefield of motherhood
many a prayer has gone up
and many a tear has been spilled
in the trenches of undying love.
A mother knows if she loses
one battle she has not lost
the war.

A mother will sacrifice all
she will go that extra hard mile
She will endue pain and heartache
to win the moral war for her child
Motherhood is a battlefield
In a moral war that a mother
must fight in every day
to keep the child of her womb
from total moral decay..
and better their future
in some small way.

Many a good mother has withered
away; been slain on the battlefields
of moral decay . . .
To make us who we are this day.
1:00pm May 17, 2013

Day light has caught me
without sleep......
I gaze out the window
at the stillness of morn, and
see white flowers blooming
atop the green thorns.
6:34am May 17, 2013

The song of love
a love filled heart sings
naturally. jt

Dancing With You

I was just a country girl
In a faded shirt and a pair
of old blue jeans
when we first met
But you made me feel like
a queen.

I knew when you touched
my hand the first time
and my country girl heart
skipped a beat or two
that there was something
different about you.

The way you looked at me
made me blush.....
I was speechless- and all
I wanted to do was get
closer to you.

You asked me to dance,
took me by the hand
and gently pulled my
trembling body closer to

I was just a country girl
In a faded shirt and a pair
of old blue jeans
when we first met
But you made me feel like
a queen.

Darling, you are still
this country girl's everything.

'I love you'
By Heartsong
3:36am May 17, 2013

Our Love

Our love is the first
speck of light
after a love filled

The first ray of
sunlight in my day.

Our love is music
to my ears, and
manner to my heart

My footstool of
strength that keeps
my world from falling

Our love is the lasting
You gave me your love
I gave you mine.

Our love is our day's
and our night's ending.

Our love is the kind
of love many only
find in their dreams

and seek with their
heart all their days

Our love begins and
ends with me and you.

'I love you'
By Heartsong

11:37am May 16, 2013
Written for those who fell in love forever.

.Above all else my god
reigns...... in my day
in my night
in my life. jt

The dark covers
the daytime things
outside flaws are
covered by the night
and in amongst the
twinkling stars shines
beams of streaming
9:01pm May 15, 2013

Our Love Will Last Forever

When we met so long ago
it never crossed our minds
that we would fall in love

We were two lonely people
living in our own little world
When we met for the first time
and love took our hearts for
a twirl.

We laughed and we joked
and pretended it was just a
fling-then love took control
and we became each other's

When times gets hard the
love in our hearts helps us
make it through....
Your love is there for me
and my love is there for you.

Our love will last forever
Like true loves do.
Thank you, my Darling,
For the love you give to me.
I love you. . .

By Heartsong
10:50am May 15, 2013

If I cry for what is gone
I lose sight of what I have in the
here and now.......jt

As the day begins
I look out my window
And feel the eyes of angels
looking below.

In the wind's stillness
I hear the angels singing
 feel the love from the breathe
of their wings.

And listen to the peace that
the thought of the angels bring.

Angels have a certain warmth
that makes one just know they
 are there watching over things.

A special kind of love angels
carry for those they leave below

As they watch over their lives
with that special angel glow......

and cover them with their wings,
wherever on earth they live or go.
9:02am May 15, 2013
My heart has loved many
and loved many always.
I cannot deny my heart
its due...... or others
the love my heart gave away. jt

One can love with all of their heart
They can love so hard that it hurts
And still love is not enough
to make others love you in return.
That don't mean you are not worthy
of being loved.... It just means
you have not found one
worthy of your love.
12:12am May 15, 2013

Life goes by so quickly
and in its fleeing
moments, so many
waste valuable time
thinking of yesterdays.
We have no power
beyond what is in the
moment; we cannot
live in a day we have
already lived in,
or live in a tomorrow
we haven't lived in.
We cannot relive
our life again.
Waste not the moment
on what is not here or on
 what has already been.
10:20pm May 14, 2013

Pretending that something
wrong is right ... only
prolongs the wrong. jt

The sun is shinning
through the cloud that
is blanketing my heart. jt

My heart morns
for the children of my womb
who are no more
It did not happen yesterday
or the year before.....Each
made the choice to close
my heart's door.....

When they judged me unworthy
to be a part of their life
and left me to wonder what
I done wrong...

when they pulled loose
from my apron strings
and left me to endue
in this world alone.

They took away that motherly
feeling that made my house
their home.

I give thanks everyday
to my Father up above
for the child now in Heaven
and for the two children
I have this day who love me
unconditionally; and choose not
to break their mother's heart.

I know that God has a plan
for every life that's born
that a mother will always
be a mother- but not always
a perfect one.

Some may think I have no heart
or am immune to life's pain
Oh, how I wish that that were true
and all my children were small and
innocent again.

They shut me out and now I too
close the door.

9:50am May 14, 2013

The war with evil spirits
cannot be won in the dark
Evil must be brought to the Light
and fought with heart. jt

A heart that's shattered
knows the importance
of love.....
A spirit that's broken
knows the importance
of God....
I was broken- in need
of repair
God nurtured my wounds
with love and with care.
May God's love
reach out in your
darkest time
to heal your spirit
and ease your mind.
10:09am May 13, 2013

Lord, I am so weary
and my soul is so tired
Give me the strength
to walk another mile..
Use me for whatever
you will.....
test me with fire, and
heartache, if it serves
your purpose Lord,
empty my life's plate
that your cup of
eternal life might fill..
For, none Lord are greater
than thee.......
Where you lead me
I will follow; Where you bid
me go- I will go.
For, what good is a life
without a soul?
12:15am May 13, 2013

My Mama
My Mama's an angel in Heaven today
I miss the time she shared this world
with me....
I miss her sweet voice
and the love for me in her eyes
I could always see.
I miss my mama's understanding ways
when life handed me the bad days...
I could turn to my mama for anything
she would have given me the world
if it had been hers to give.......
I miss my mama's strength
that just her presents in my life
seemed to give to me..... So, many things
I miss in my life, that mama took with her
to the grave.
I'm glad I took the time to share some
'getting to know you' time with my mama.
Cause, I know, without a doubt,
in my life she was number one
as a person and a mama..........
She was the best part of me
from the moment I was born.
1:22pm May 12, 2013 (Mother's Day)

Love is the key to all
Without love the heart
would turn to stone. jt

I was a flower in my mother's bouquet
she nourished and watered my spirit
everyday.....until she spread her
angel wings, flew away,
and left me holding my own bouquet.
It is with faith in my heart I throw
the flowers of my womb into the wind.
May the spirit that nurtured them
as children watch over and guide them
all of their days........for if my mother's
bouquet must rot -let it not be in my
Blind is a child who know not
his mother's heart.
The heart that he once slept beneath.
The heart that once beat the tune of love
for only his ears to hear.
To the wind of time, that robbed me
of your love on this Mother's Day,
I release the flowers of my womb
to carry in life their own bouquet.
4:40pm May 10, 2013

Let the only true judge
declare judgment in the day
for non-other is worthy
of judging his brother. jt

Bitter-sweet the taste
of accomplishment
and failure. jt

Under the shield of faith
hope is born. jt

It's hard to write of life
when so much innocence
is dying. So much blood
is being spilled out into
the world.. How does
a heart not feel the empty
spaces made void by fear?
There are no answers
to this evilness that eats
away at humanity's heart
and soul. None that the
eyes can read......The
blood runs in the streets, and
my heart morns for the
innocent waiting to be born.
God, hear their screams
as each in turn is returned to
you, and forgive the blind
caught up in a world
where they cannot see.
Open the eyes of those
blinded by the worldly....
let them see the blood
on their hands that stain
the air that we all must
Have mercy on your
lost sheep.
let your judgment
overtake the evil
that reigns
while many sleep.
8:34am May 9, 2013

When it rains
and my roof
lets the rain through
I put down pots
to catch the water.
When my yard
needs mowing
and I have no mower
to cut the grass
I use my hands
to pull the biggest
When my world
feels like its
coming apart
at the seams,
I turn to my god
and He takes
care of me.
When another's
world is falling apart
and there's nothing
I can do
I leave it in my god's
hands-and just ask him
to help us all
make it through.
10:59am May 7, 2013

I have felt the darkness that
thrives on overtaking the
I have walked among the
dead spirits and
heard their screams......
I have passed through
this world's hell on earth
and been burnt by delusion
and disappointment.......
I have been where many
shall never walk and found
peace walking beside me
in the flames.
2:06pm May 6, 2013

The evil lurks behind the shadows, clothed in innocence........
Waiting for the moment to pounce upon the unsuspecting
whose eyes are turned toward obtaining the worldly
and whose hands are tied together by greed.
Let he who has focused his inner-eyes on the lurking evil
see beyond the shadow of what mortal eyes can see.
1:57pm May 6, 2013

Man's only weakness
is his heart. jt

Each day brings a new chance...
Today, I have wiped my tears away
with a loving heart ,and faithful
hands, I seek only guidance
in those things meant for me
to understand.
12:25PM May 5, 2013

Every life has a purpose for being. jt

Today a storm arose
from deep within
and I found human weakness again.
I cried for things I cannot change
I cried where no one could
see my tears.
I knew no one could see
my pain and hear my
I had cried so many time before
with only the silence to
comfort my breaking heart.
I know it is just the human
part of me getting to
close to the worldly.
Lord, so many times I've
reached out in total
and found myself alone
again I ask you to dry my tears
and make me strong; I can take
the loneliness- I been alone
so long.
I'm really feeling sorry for myself tonight
and that's just not right.
Lord, This only happens once a year
About this time
I think about one of your angels
and the time you let me
call her mine.
I know her smile brightens Heaven today
but I sure do miss that precious angel
since she went away.
4:03am May 5, 2013

There was a time when trusting
came easy
When the judgmental stage
took the back stage
and life ,liberty and justice for all
was on the front page.....
When the old were respected
for the good they passed on
When all babies were cared about
before they were born.
There was a time when
Justice and right went hand in hand
When life's hard times were shared
by people who cared.....
A time when the majority really
stood for something besides self.
The blood of the innocent cries out
but none, but the few can hear.
There was a time when
more people listened
with their heart.
1:54pm May 4, 2013

Don't Forget

Don't Forget to say
"I love you"
As someone you love
exits the door.

You never know
if they are exiting it
for the last time- and
you won't see them
any more.

Don't forget to say
"I love you"
every chance you get
to those closest to your
For, many have missed
the chance
and today live with regret.

Don't forget to say
"I love you"
Every chance you get.


11:25 May 1, 2013

Justice for the innocent
will be when right
shows its might. jt

I felt the evil behind the words
driven by defeat ....
And I realized the wondrous power
of my god.
Worry not in days of trial
and tribulation
for none is greater than
man's creator.
12:02am April 30, 2013

The sun shows through the clouds today
as I count my blessings and watch the storm
in the distance drawing nearer to me.
Lord, make me strong when I ask you to
help me, when I am weak.
When I seek reasons to drift from the
course you have set for me-show me, Lord,
all the reasons you've given me to
hold to the path that lay before me.
When anger threatens to rock my world
Lord, calm me, and turn my anger to
fight Heaven's enemy.
April 29, 2013

Forty-two years ago today
I gave birth to a baby girl.
Almost Twenty years ago today
her spirit left her body and
she went away.
I remember the feel of her
inside my womb
and her touch upon my heart.
Though the years divide us
we- as mother-child -
will never be apart.

Happy Birthday Sonya.
I love you.
11:38am April 29, 2013

I am filled with hope,
faith, and love
the things none can see
because the dreams
touched by my faith,
in the things I cannot see,
are created inside of me.
11:28am April 29, 2013

 Without trust
there is nothing
just an empty life-cup
that will never fill up. jt

Today, I worked outside
Under God's beautiful sky
The feel of the Sun's warmth
filled me with peace inside.
As I pushed the lawn mower
through the grass and weeds
with no shoes on
just my bare feet.....I was
taken in by the colorful flowers
that grew from wild seeds..
Then, I thought about life
and how God's children are like
the flowers growing among
the weeds.

It was a day of feeling
one with everything.
8:20pm April 27, 2013

There are no words
to cast a magical spell
and create peace
among all men......
for if there is to be peace
that peace must reach out
from within.
1:20pm April 26, 2013

Lord, I find it hard
to believe that so
many reach out
and grasp the air;
hold to things that
are not there....
while neglecting
to fill the void
in their own soul,
which for the worldly
 is placed on hold.
Life is more than
the eye can see;
the hand can feel
more than dreams.
Life is life's own
1:11pm April 26, 2013

There's not a word
of wisdom
written or spoken
that eyes have not read
and voices have not said.
The wisest of words
must find root in the
heart of love.
Alone words are empty
and meaningless
until the author gives them
life and heart.
9:58am April 26, 2013

It is the wee hours of the
morning ...
And I still feel a need to
open my heart and bare
my soul.
But, the darkness
that's surrounds me
bids me to rest my weary soul
covered with nighttime's peace.
1:31am April 26, 2013

Today, I felt the heartache
that losing a child leaves,
all over again......
I felt it in another mother's
It brought tears to my eyes
Reading about her child
who died, I remembered my own
child who walked the staircase
to heaven, when God
called in His loan.......
Setting here amongst
the memories and mother's tears
I am thankful for the time
I called my daughter mine
before God called in His loan
and she walked Heaven's
Staircase home.
11:31am April 25, 2013

I feel the dark outside
and the peace within.
No words can I find
tho thoughts are many.
Do not look for answers
where none can be found,
Let me remember when
I struggle to find words
to say what's in my heart
that even silence has a
purpose for being.
1:21am April 25, 2013

This day the sun shines
on broken hearts
and troubled minds.
So many lost souls
gone a stray
blindly stumbling through
the tears of the day.
Lord, they are your
lost sheep drowning
in the dark pits
they create.
11:17am April 24, 2013

My heart reaches out
to touch others seeking
to understand the things
at hand.
It is hard to explain
reasoning to the wind;
when distances separates
the hearts. . . and hands.
Good must reign
or all shall parish
by their own hand.
From the moment
we are born
good and evil war
for our soul.
Everyday, more,
and more
is revealed ....
What was once
done in the dark
moves into the light
and wears a veil
to mask lies
and make truth
the liar.
10:40pm April 22, 2013

Love is the greatest gift of all
but only when love encompasses all
I'd like to find words to write
what's in my heart today
but if the words come at a time
I have a troubled mind
silence is a blessing
until the words
my heart can find.
For, it is better to ride
the wind
than to create a storm.
It is better to first listen
than to chance
saying the wrong words...
11:58 am April 21, 2013

My heart aches for those
so lost in this world
that they would kill
a part of themselves.
I do not set in judgment
of them
but I set in judgment
of the evil that
has touched their lives.
11:44am April 21, 2013

Time has tarnished the shine
of the old with the youth
of today who were taught not
that a wise man
is honest , kind and
lives life with heart.
4:45am April 20, 2013

The innocence of a child
none can deny
yet, my soul is moved
at the sound of
innocence's cry. jt

Do not blindly judge another
When fear drives your
judgment. . .
For, evil uses the innocent
caught in its snares.
Stand against evil times
for they are at hand....
filtering through the
hearts and minds that dwell
in every land.

Look deep, beneath the pictures
your eyes have framed,
and seek guidance from your god
as you ask in Jesus' name.

For wars and rumors of war
now boldly stand at your door.

12:10pm April 19, 2013

I feel the deafness
of closed minds
and my heart
fails to understand
the blindness.

If the world is to survive
a world of people
must raise the blinds
of their heart.
I am but one soul
wandering in life's
6:04pm April 18, 2013

Not always does one find
inspiration from another's
life experiences.
Be inspired by your own
self-worth. jt

In the wake of the storm
A lonely soul lays broken
and crying
among shattered dreams,
and scattered reality.
The dying of a betrayed
soul -no hope left
to bring comfort
only misery at the
hands that once
served love.
May this lonely soul
be spared
and he find peace
when his soul is bared.
For none can see
his torment
in the wake of
the storm.
12:18pm April 17, 2013

Tonight many things
run through my mind
I think about the bad
things that are done in the
name of someone's god
and how horrible it must be
to hold to a belief so blindly
that one loses his ability
to see what is happening
to his own soul......
My god teaches me
to love the stranger as I
love myself
that there is a time for
everything under the sun
that each of us will face
trials and tribulations
before our work on earth
is done.
What benefit to a man's
heaven is a man's
11:17pm April 16, 2013

In order to conquer a world
it's inhabitants must be divided
against themselves. . . Evil
marches day and night.
In minds and hearts evil cultivates
When a people lose all trust
they war among themselves.
When a world of people lose
all trust they war nation
against nation.
Enter the enemy of darkness
to destroy the Light of the world.
Love is the key that joins
hearts and nurtures
1:43am April 16, 2013

Today blood stained Boston streets
and screams filled the air
as evil watched from a window
the explosion that shattered dreams
with two blasts below..
7:04pm April 15, 2013

When things look bad it's hard to remember
That life has a purpose beyond the 'me'
That even at its worst life is as it's should be.
For, we reap what we sow and sow what we reap. jt

Today brought sunshine
with a dark cloud behind.

Lord, I thank you for this day
and welcome life's storm
knowing all that I love
is safe in your arms.

If tears fall you will dry them
If my heart breaks you will mend it
If I get lost in the rain you will
shield me from life's storm:
guide me and lead me
and keep me from harm.

Thank you, Lord, for this day, and for
keeping me safe in your loving arms.
11:10am April 15, 2013

My heart is the place where I can touch
the better part of me . . .
My god who lives in every heartbeat. jt

There is a price for self-centeredness
in a world that depends on caring souls
for care and guidance. jt

Like babies at play
Sheep wandering away
All is getting darker day by day
none can see the storm
that's already here
like babies at play
sheep wandering away
in their darkness they stray.
When the storm hits home
their screams will make deaf
the hearer's ears...
and silent will all things lay
in a pool of bloody tears.
11:41am April 14, 2013

What one does in life
determines how one
meets death when
he takes his last breath.
So quickly life does pass.
Waste not the day
for it could be the last.
There is no promise
of a tomorrow.
3:56am April 14, 2013.

What we do or do not do
to stop the suffering of
innocent souls will not
go unseen.
Turn not away from
eyes that tear
hands that tremble
an shake in fear ....
If it touches your eyes
or falls on your ear
you become apart
of the problem
or a part of the cure.
11:37am April 13, 2013

I once was lost
in the bottomless pit of
emptiness and the half
filled cup called life;
Then I was found and
by my Lord
and Savior
Jesus Christ.
11:12am April 13, 2013.

Today, my faith is strong
as my heart aches.....
I have saw my god's power
felt my god's love
and come to understand
that all special to my heart
rests in my god's hands.
God, I turned my life over to you
and placed my loved ones in your care
Tho I see dark things coming
I know in my heart that
you won't put on me more than
I can bear. . . .
As always my shield of faith
is raised.
1:29pm April 12, 2013

Where peace reigns
love guides. jt

Lord, help me in this day
to push bad memories away.
Help me understand why
innocence is many times
struck down by evil's hand.
Long ago, my heart was
shattered into a million peaces
all in the same day . . .
and still- evil finds ways
to remind me of the evil
things done on that heartbreaking day.
I try so hard not to remember
the life and innocence stripped away
on my life's darkest day.
I need you to calm my spirit's rage
to once more send understanding
to my door.
11:04am April 11, 2013

Let not worry mar the moment
with misgivings and woe
for wasted is the moment
where worry flows.
If something changeable
needs changing-change it
If something unchangeable
worries you
because it cannot be changed
accept it . . . all the worry in the
world won't change it.
1:27am April 11, 2013

Alone I set with my thoughts and memories
sorting through the past; putting each memory
in its place; and wondering why I still have
trouble putting some memories away.
11:36pm April 10, 2013

Some times we push those we love away
to spare them our pain;
Sometimes life pulls those we love away
to spare us their pain;
Some times people grow together and
pull away from their god
other times they grow apart
in life but stay together in their hearts.
9:33am April 10, 2013

I awoke to the feel of love
In a world where love never sleeps. jt

If I could take away heartache
and replace it with love
my love in your heart would lay.
If I could mend broken hearts
with my love
broken hearts would not
exist in this day.
If I could change the world
with love or make a difference
in another's time of need
in that life I would
plant love's seed.
Love cannot grow without
a caring heart.
9:06am April 10, 2013

May this day bring peace
into every life, and love
into every heart. jt

I once stood at the beginning
of my life time
with nothing but the future before me.
Then my future turned in to yesterdays
and the dreams that once were mine
no longer visit me when I sleep.
I stand at the end of my life's journey
and wait for life's end.
Let me remember in old age
the paths that brought me to my today
For, what good is living a life time
if all the memories, with time,
fade away . . .?
6:14pm April 9, 2013

The beauty of the soul
cannot be marred by the years
or destroyed by the hands of time.
For what rests inside is of its own. jt

 Love does not always
leave behind happy times
but even in the coldest heart
love leaves its mark behind.
If you say "I love you"
mean it, or else keep
the promise of love
for another.
To many hearts have been
broken and to many
promises un-kept.
10:11am April 9, 2013

The world awaits its fate
while man wrestles with
his demons. jt

There is not a path that lay before me
I haven't travelled before
no song my heart hasn't already sing .
There is nothing that lay ahead of me
that supersedes things of the past
except death's presents casting
a shadow over everything.
9:58am April 9, 2013

The answer to the end of time
all seek but none shall find. jt

Guard the things closest to your heart
for those are the things worthy of the
love that lives there. jt

There is a feel of trouble coming
I feel it with my soul
but many heed not the warning
their insides have grown cold.
I hear the silence shouting
to be heard
the warning is not clear
for silent fall each word
and dead the inner ear.
I know not what lay before me
Faith be my shield
and my god be
my strength.
11:55am April 8, 2013

Another night has passed by
the day is breaking
in the sky. . .
and sleep will have to wait
until another day passes by. jt

A long time ago I learned
to stand for the first time
holding onto my mama's hands.
A long time ago I learned
to walk, talk and love
for the first time
under the watchful eyes
of my mama
who was loving and kind.
One step at a time
I learned to walk. . .
One word at a time
I learned to talk . . .
And from one mama's love
 I learned to love
with all of my heart.
2:00am April 7, 2013

I feel the trembling beneath
my feet made by the sound of
I feel the unrest where the
sleeping man lay....
and in wonder I watch
the foretold unfold
6:42am April 6, 2013.

There comes a time in every life
when certain choices must be made
reality cannot be changed
and peace of mind is engaged
with that double-edged sword
called "why."
Why was I born to live and die?
Why was I born innocent only
to die a sinner?
Lord you knew me before I was born
you know my heart better than anyone
You have shared in my joy and my woe
patiently nurtured my spirit
down every road... and still I find
there is so much left I do not know.
4:19PM April 5, 2013

"When one forgets the good memories
all they have left is the bad ones. "jt

I awoke to find the sun
hiding behind the clouds
rain threatening to fall
and felt the peace
reaching out to me
mingling with it all.
10:33am April 5, 2013

I thank my god for this day
I thank my god for this night
I thank my god for his love
I thank my god for always
being there for me when
my life needed a little
more light. jt

Daddy, It's been a long time
Since, you crossed over to the
other side..... I will never forget
the way you cried.
As you lay in your casket
all dressed up to go away
Your love for family and friends
showed on your face that day...
 You stayed with us as long as you could
tho you had moved on to a much
better place.
Thirty-seven years have passed
and I can still feel your love;
and see the tears on your face.
Mamas are special but daddies are too
To my angel daddy in Heaven
"I love and miss you."
12:03pm April 4, 2013
Happy Birthday Daddy

Always, one can find reason
to doubt
Rarely, one can find reason
to believe in something
sight unseen. jt

To defeat the enemy of the outer world
one must chain the enemy within. jt

To each a calling
from his heart
to seek out man's
greater good
Blind is the eyes
that sees with the
eyes in his head only
and not
with the eyes
of his heart..
10:12am April 4, 2013

This world so full
so empty
to the seer's eyes
beneath it all
the heart beats. jt

The magic in the day
is the love that finds away
to touch hearts . . .and
change lives. jt

Lord, There is a lot of bad things
going on in this old world
A lot of needless suffering
A lot of broken hearts that
need mending; a lot of
lost souls searching for you
among the rot of the world
they're wandering through.
Lord, there is nothing I can do
will you help me understand
why so many turn their back on you
do they truly not believe
are they so foolish Lord
to think that on judgment day
you will over look the times
they turned away from you
believing no matter how many times
they turned -Lord, you
would find it in your heart to forgive
them for everything they do.......
Lord, put your hand on these lost souls
bring them to their knees.....for that's
the only way to save the souls
of those who truly believe.
2:01pm April 3, 2013\

I fear nothing except my god
who's hands have long shield
me from harm....... I have walked
among the thorns and picked
the sweetest roses...... I have
stood at the cross roads, leaning
on my god's arm. I have looked
into the eyes of death, felt
death's breath on my spirit and
stood where time stood still. I
need not search for my god
my god lives through me.....my god
is all my soul will ever need.
11:58pm April 2, 2013

So quickly can love turn to a shadow
of what love once was
Where once love comforted and stood
a pillow of strength that no hatred
could penetrate , only, love's ghost
resides..... walking through my memory
sands of love that my heart won't throw
into the winds of time....and my heart
won't let die.
10:18pm April 2, 2013

Not every day will bring sunshine
Happiness and peace of mind
Some days will bring storms
of tears, doubts, and heartaches
But were there not other days
when after the storm
the sun did shine....?
If in the day a storm
you find ----look ahead
to better times.....
For, my god is good
and leaves none alone
to suffer in life's rains.
11:15am April 2, 2013

All search the world for answers
some will find
others will not
When unanswered questions
be your lot
look for the answers
in your heart.
11:02am April 2, 2013

There is peace to be found
when one no longer allows
doubt to push the positive away.
May peace, sweet, sweet peace
find its way into every troubled
Take time to feel the
power of the spirit
Let none steal from you
what is rightfully yours
through the spirit
that gives value to all living things.
10:24pm April 1, 2013

I am setting here
with tears in my eyes
because I cannot find
words to say what
lays heavy on my mind.
I have lived a long time
and laid to rest
peaces of my heart
in many a grave.
In a lot of ways
I am more dead
than I am alive.
But I'll live, and I'll strive
and I'll do the best I can
until it comes my time
to die.
God, calm my heart
give me peace
and strengthen me
according to how hard I try.
10:04pm March 30, 2013

When human compassion
no longer thrives in the heart
of men- all hope for a better
tomorrow ceases to exist....
For, cold and empty is the soul
of men who have no love
for his fellowman in his heart.
Before I was despised
I was loved ;
After I was loved
I was hated
but because of love
I endure.
1:22pm March 30, 2013

I find it hard to understand why
so many get lost in the darkness
they create-when they hold the
Light of the world in the palms
of their hands. jt

Justices prevails when truth sets in the judge's chair...
Few see the dangers in the coming.... or will admit
their failures in the past.
A heart that seeks to understand finds it easier
to love...
The fires in life are many but they all burn the same. jt

 There is a story behind every life.
No one likes loneliness-
We all search the outer world
for purpose ,reason for being
and excuses for being the way we are.
How many would truly lay down
their life for a stranger.?
It is easier to talk the talk
than it is to walk the walk.
We all need purpose in life
to feel needed is a human trait.
I can take the loneliness
and the silence interrupted only
by the voice in me. .. for where
silence rest peace be.
12:03am March 29, 2013

Lord, I turn to you for comfort
and guidance
in a world that leaves my spirit
I have a burden I must carry
that no one can carry but me.
I do not ask you to lighten my burden
I ask you to give me the strength to
carry what needs to be.
I know I don't praise you enough
but you see into the heart of me
and know the weight of the
burden I carry.
Lord, make me strong, and
unbendable, when self-pity becomes
my crutch put more weight on my shoulder
and bring me to my knees.
Lord, I do not ask you to lighten my burden
I ask you to give me the strength to
carry what needs to be.
2:45am March 29, 2013

Another day to ponder
the meaning of life
and remember life is
unfolding according to
nature's god's plan.
That regardless of
who we are, where we are
what we feel about life
we might be the captain
at the helm of our life's ship
But, Nature's God charts the
course of the sea.
3:08 pm March 28, 2013

God, you have brought me to a new day
As I enter in, provide me with a shield of faith
give me your candle light to help me find my way
And send your angels to walk with me
Incase I get the urge to stray.
For God, you see, in the flesh I am weak
and often tempted in the day
to seek things that I don't need.
When these times befall me ,God, please,
have mercy on me, and take the lead.
For, in your hands I know, I always want to be.
Take mercy on this sinner God...I love you
and I need you so to help me through
this day and this world gone astray. Amen
11:06 am March 27, 2013

The coldness of this moment
warms under heaven's sky.
Feel the warmth of love as
in the cold you stand
with heart in hand
10:43am March 27, 2013

My heart has emptied out
into the world . . .My soul
now waits for the branches
to bear fruit.
I planted my heart
in the world and give to my god
my soul.
May my labor not be in vain
and the fruit of my labor not
rot on the vine.
For it has been with love
I planted loves seed
to bear fruit for those in need.
10:19am March 27, 2013.

Child of my womb
listen always with
your heart for the things
that will bring you peace.
This life is only temporary
and it serves only to test
heaven's seed.
Put none before your god
lest the heart be torn from thee
and thee wander through life
questioning that which is
and always will be.
I loved you before you were born
when I carried you beneath my heart
and, for a time we lived as one.
Put none before your god
for it was my god who placed
your life inside of me.
10:51am March 25, 2013

I find in the day what I look for
Available always are the memories I cherish.
At hand in my heart visions of happier times
stand pieces of shiny silver to pay for the
moments of peace I find.
In the depth of my soul I carry my god
In the depth of my heart my god resides
What more is there to life than carrying
inside ones god who is ones everything?
10:42am March 25, 2013

My yesterdays are no more
I am free to fly in my today
unchained from memories of old
that sought to destroy my soul.
I am released from all heartache
and my feet stand on my faith
as my god breaks unbreakable
11:32 am March 24, 2013

I once saw the world through a haze
and my heart beat widely in those days.
I was a spirit bound to the world of fancy
where through the haze I saw
only what I wanted to see.
Through the years the haze drifted away
and my heart was broken into a million pieces
laying before me......
I was a spirit bound to the world's reality.
Now, I see the world of many
with the eyes of the spirit that
lives in me.
11:16 am March 24, 2013

Today the rain is falling
and from time to time
thunder roars and
lightening strikes.
And I compare them all
to a heart that's breaking.
11:02am March 24, 2013

You know not the ways of a man's heart
except that it loves.
Those who would hate another because
of who they are -are not worthy of
anything but pity. jt

The thunder that reaches my ears
moves my heart to stand against the storm...jt

The roads in life are long and many
choose wisely the path you will go
for it is down the road of life you take
you meet your destiny.......and come
face to face with your fate.
1:59pm March 23, 2013

Sisters of Mine
Every night I search the heavens above
for the three sister stars
that are always together, and
never drift apart.
To me, the three sister stars represent
peace, harmony and unselfish love, each
star has for the other.
I cannot imagine gazing up into the sky and
not seeing those three sister stars
To me the three sister stars represent
endurance, tolerance and respect of each
star for the other
Watching the three sister stars
making their way across the sky together,
surrounded by millions of stars drifting apart......
I give thanks for the two sister stars of mine,
who always comes to mind and heart
when I see the three sister stars, together
Sharing the bond of sisterhood
unmarred by the dark..
6:53am March 23, 3013

I would rather struggle in life
to get by, than live in luxury
while others barely survive. jt

The man who searches the world
for purpose of being
neglects the inner purpose
for his existence. jt

Today I ponder future and past
Remembering those gone away
Thinking of those left in my today
and how fast life slips away. jt
11:15 March 22, 2013

Wasted are the moments spent
filled with resentment and woe
for both are stealers of the soul. jt

 I'd like to write my heart out
and get rid of all its emptiness.

If it were possible I would explain
what it is that sets me a part from you.

But, as life would have it, the journey we
are on takes us in different directions.

Silently, I shall watch, from across
the fields, the parting of our way.
11:08am March 21, 2013

I live in a world where my god is king
Where angels visit and children play and sing.
In my world I awake, and I fall asleep alone
except for Jesus~ who reigns in my humble home.
1:34PM March 20, 2013

God, there are people hurting today
who got lost somewhere along the way
and needs your help today.

They lost sight of their place
in your day to day plan.....and need
you to knock at their door again
and give them a hand.

I feel the tears and the pain
in their heart . . .
and their tears become my tears.

Hold them in your arms today and
give them each a candle of hope
to help them through the day.
10:52am March 19, 2013

I use to cry a lot and feel sorry for me
until I awoke one day and realized
there was no one to dry my tears but me.
No one could look down inside my heart
see the scares, and wear my pain, but me.
I hardly cry anymore, not since my god
saw fit to heal my spirit. And when I do cry
it is no longer tear of self-pity.
2:03am March 19, 2013

I am who I am today
because of my yesterdays
It was the past that taught me
that tears will dry in time
that heartache is part of life
and that hurt and pain is a
part of living.
I am who I am today
because of the lessons
learned yesterday
at the price of loved ones
gone away.
1:54am March 19, 2013

The god I know does not need me to
prove his existence- just as, I have no need
to prove to the world that my god exist. jt

There's is a time set
for death to capture
man's last breath . . .

A time when
all that moves
shall lay still . . .

And all that
is to be will be.
1:25am March 19, 2013

Today is a new beginning
to the rest of ones life.
Marred only by yesterdays
memories of happiness and strife.
Let go of yesterday's pain
Hold onto yesterday's
happy memories......
Cling to your faith as a hungry child
 as you strive in the day to walk life's
crooked mile....
10:17am March 18, 2013

Those we love the most
often think they're loved the least. jt

When our lives cross, in passing ,
we soon forget the meeting.
When our spirits touch, in passing,
long remembered the touch.
10:31am March 17, 2013

Today the air has a cold feel about it
and I set alone once more
chilled to the bone . . .
wondering at the warmth of the spirits
that touch mine and leave me feeling
alive inside.
10:23am March 17, 2013.

None but my god can satisfy my soul. jt

Today I set thinking about those
who made a difference in my life
and the word "strangers" came
to mind. jt

The coming together of hearts
Awakens the spirits that touch.
Love moves more than the man.
Touch a life with love and you've
made a difference in the world.
One cannot fully comprehend
the meaning of life without first
understanding the ways of the heart.
Nurture love with heart and
love will grow stronger.
Love is never misplaced.......
Love and hate cannot
share the same heart.
9:21am March 16, 2013

If I had known then what I know now
I would have done nothing any differently
I lived in the past as I live today.
I got up each morning clinging to my faith.
When times were hard I asked my god
to give me the strength to face whatever
came my way.
And when I laid down at night, sometimes
in tears, and with a broken heart,
I thanked my god for the day.
I would have done nothing differently
I followed my heart , not always sure
where it would take me.
1:19am March 15, 2013

Each moment is a blessing
come in it what may
God don't make our choices
He only gives us the moment we live in
in the day.
Take to heart the moment
for in the moment
our past and present lay.
In the moment we are born
and in a moment
the things we think are ours
can suddenly be taken away.
Live in tomorrow not . . .
In this moment beats the heart
What matters a tomorrow
we may not see . . .
Waste not the moment
Live in the moment
Love in the moment
Find peace in the moment
and Keep faith in the moment
in whatever it is that you believe.
11:12pm March 14 , 2013

He who walks alone walks closest to God.

I look beyond the things my eyes are fixed upon
I hear the sounds of yesterday as today I listen
to the silence of tomorrow.
1:12am March 14, 2013

 In the quietness of the night
my heart beats to life's silence.
A tear falls but never leaves my eye.
A whisper in agony can be heard above
the thunder.
Blind is he who can find no self-fault.
The worst fault a man can have
is self-deceit.
What is as it should be
cannot be otherwise.
The world is over crowded with lost souls
bumping into each other.
As long as heart leads, good things
will follow.
9:16PM March 12, 2013

I awoke to find things unchanged
waiting to be rearranged
None but me can touch
my inner life
None but me can feel
what I alone feel
None but me can take
the next step in my life.
9:46am March 11, 2013

God, thank you for all the second chances
you have given to me.
Thank you for teaching me the importance
of just being me.
Thank you for your forgiveness
When I was lost in the worldly
and could not see.....
God, most of all, thank you
for all the love you have seen fit to give
to me.
12:00am March 11, 2013

Poured Out My Memories
11:00PM March 9, 2013

I needed time for me
the silence came from
my need.
One gets closer to understanding
self when they are their only company.
Be thankful for the silence
in silence can be found many things.
8:55am March 8, 2013

A Mother's Walk

It doesn't take courage
to accept the unacceptable
or to set silent and watch
ignorance destroy the moral
values that have long
been faithful servants
to those drawn to wonder
from the path of right.
It does not take courage
to straddle life's fence
to never take a stand
on a just cause....
It takes forgetting
the importance of
setting the best examples
for future generations.
It takes courage to stand
against freedom's foe
alone, if need be,
in defense of the
high idea that
all men are created
equally, and possess
a god given right
to live and die free.
12:25pm March 6, 2013

Each day, after opening my eyes
my first thought is on the beauty
of the skies . . .
and how blessed I am to be alive.
12:05pm March 6, 2013

A day that begins with love ends with love.

Each day is a new beginning and you
are in control of how it will end.

If I try and fail-let me be inspired by my failure
to keep on trying.

May the words that come from my heart
inspire others to allow their hearts to sing.
March 5, 2013

Today, the warmth of the sun stung the winter's cold
filled my world with sunshine, and lovingly
touched my soul.
7:34pm March 5, 2013

The evil that engulfs the world
embraces everyone in it.
Not one thing left untouched
moral values are in decay
commonsense overshadowed
by selfishness and common
decency fading away.
Many wonder at the happening
in a day....but none move toward
all move away.
And the evil that works through man
continues to make a mess of things.....
and those who refuse to take a stand
remain puppets embraced
by evil's hands.
7:28am March 4, 2013

Lord, I have raised my children
and released them out into the world.
But. Still, sometimes I wish I could
put my arms around them
and be a part of their world again.
These are the times, Lord, when
I forget, I ,too, caused a mother
to wonder through an empty nest.
I hope my mother knew, before
she went away that, tho we were
apart.....she lived with me,
 every day, inside my heart.
5:26pm March 3, 2013

The air is cold that I breathe in
and my thought are frozen inside my mind
I wish for the warmth of a memory, of a time
when the sun shine-even in the wintertime.
5:04pm March 3, 2013

I want to share something my youngest daughter, Katie,
posted on FaceBook :
People always say
I have a laugh
Like my mother does
Guess that makes sense
She taught me how to smile
When things get rough

I've got her spirit
She's always got my back
When I look at her
I think, I want to be just like that

(love you mommy)
I love you, Kate.
Note: Katie, told me the words are from a song she heard....
And the song made her think of me.

The first step in life is but the first of many
as unsure as the first step may be
with time we get sturdier on our feet.
We all fall, in the beginning of our life.
We all stumble when learning to walk.
In life's time, we walk-we run,
we stumble, and sometimes we fall.....
Life is a race we are all called upon to run,
God don't penalize us when we fall
all He asks of us is that we
put our heart into life's race, and
while running the race, we give it our all.
8:20am March 1, 2013

There is nothing more important
than you and the years you've
traveled through.
Before all else, everything in
your world, begins with you.
No one can see through your eyes
or hear what your ears hear....
No one can take your steps but you
No one can dream your dreams
when you sleep....
No one can lift for you your spirit
or raise for you your shield of faith....
that is why you were born
into life to take your own place.
8:01am March 1, 2013

One who will not stand for the right
becomes the weakest link
in the chain of humanity.
While it is true mankind
processes enough knowledge
to do great things
in the name of science
mankind cannot survive
without a heart.
Like a snake he will
crawl on his belly
into the fires of hell.
For nothing done in the
name of science comes
from man's mind
The knowledge was placed there
to create havoc among mankind.
Worry not ,O faithful ones.
11:04am February 28, 2013

I was born to live and die
to wash away someone's pain
with my tears.
May the day bring you Comfort,
Love, and Peace.
May the night swallow up
your fears.
May God shine His Light on you
And- May all your dreams come true.
10:40am February 27, 2013

I live in this world alone
and feel the emptiness
left behind by yesterdays
come and gone .
Yet, my faith helps me
to fill the empty
with hopes and dreams
of better things to come.
10:12am February 27, 2013

I thought today
how blessed my life has been
And I wondered
if I had the chance
would I live my life again.
The answer came, quickly,
to mind; To go back only
to be, again where I am today
how foolish that would be
Yesterdays are gone
never to be relived,
except in dreams
and memories . . .
While there be life in me
let me draw from
yesterday's pain
a little wisdom
From yesterday's
a little understanding
From yesterday's
happy times
a little faith
to help through
Let the stars in heaven shine
Let night find me sleeping
and morning find me
thankful for the day
Knowing as I enter in
I will never enter this day
8:31pm February 26, 2013

My memory keeps alive inside
my heart those cherished moments
faded by the hands of time- the
visions of hope, and loss
that lay behind.
7:56am February 26, 2013

The rain is washing clean the morning
as I set inside and watch the stillness
of the leaves on the trees.
7:49am February 26, 2013

Always, there will be found
enough faith in my world
to go around.
One need only knock on
my door, to enter my heart.
12:06PM February 15, 2013

Loneliness is a part of life.
Some choose to be alone
and, sometimes, life choose
our loneliness for us.

When words fall from the heart
Tears fall from their author's eyes.
One heart felt word is of more
value then a book of meaningless
words strung together by a heartless
What we say today another
may hear but not grasp the true
meaning of the words.
Some times the heart refuses
to be moved by the thoughts.
11:00pm February 14,2013

Not a day goes by
that God don't
in some way
touch my day.
I feel his touch
in the smallest of things
and worry not
what tomorrow may bring.
For, today the sun shines
and all I love are safe.

10:44pm February 14, 2013

I am just a traveler
journeying through this

There are none, permanent
visitors here.

Tho there be those who seek

We are but specks of dust
blowing in life's wind.

Eventually, falling
into the sands of time.

Forgotten the dust that
once moved the world

As together the pasts
of all, become the presents
of many.

5:04pm February 13, 2013

All life stems
from the roots of life.
Each life is judged
on its actions
all life is judged on
its strengths and
For, you see,
the worldly
lessens the value
of every life....
It's meant to be so
The best one can hope for
upon exiting this life,
is too walk
as an innocent child.....
into the hereafter's
sweet glow
Where all good
souls go..
7:01pm February 11, 2013

Alone we are born
into a mother's arms
and into a mother's heart.
And all our life it is the
mother's arms we seek
when our heart gets
broken in two, and we
need comfort, and words
of wisdom
to help us through.
8:36pm February 10, 2013

I once looked at life
through the eyes of innocents
and never saw danger
where danger lay,
in wait, to take
my innocents away.
8:25pm February 10, 2013

How many tears would
be dried today
If there was someone
near enough
to wipe the tears away?
I know not
For the answer is in
another's heart.
8:18pm February 10, 2013

A stranger
is one we never get
the chance to know.

Today, the sun
shine down on me
and as its warmth
touched my skin
I felt life's peace.
8:10am February 10, 2013

A million tears I have cried
A million tears that were dried ....
Tears no one seen..... because, I hid
my tears inside.
I showed the world what
it wanted to see but never once
let it show, the emotions stored
inside of me......the need just to
be released from the chains inside
that spared the world my inner grief.
A million heartache strong
Not one tear did I waste or
dry in vain. Not one regret for the
times I cried alone
and put my trust
In a god who
knew my emptiness
and filled
the void inside
of me.
10:36pm February 9, 2013

I was thinking, just now
about each of you, my children
and how much we've grown a part
And tho I miss the times we were
together.....I would change nothing.
For, you see, it is those good and bad times
we shared that ciphered down to make us who
we are today.
By now you have learned the lesson that
every child learns in time . , , There is a time
to learn and grow- that prepares us for
the times we have to let go.
A time for being a child, and a time to
watch your own child grow.
I have no doubt that the years spent
was worth every tear.
10:20pm February 8, 2013

I spend a lot of time alone
pondering what lay before me
And questioning why I journey,
still, in the same direction
my life has already gone.
Why is it laid on my heart
to reach out in a world
filled with selfishness ,
self-centeredness- and
unending greed?
Why should I care
when the very ones I care about
would crucify me- knowing not
the gift, for them I have long
carried inside my heart.
I know there are answers to my
questions that I may never know
So, I shall continue to trust my
god to show me the way that
He would have me to go.
5:19am February 8, 2013

 How can I describe
an emotion inside
when smiles and tears
can deceive the eye
when the eyes see only
what they want to see?
5:01pm February 8, 2013

If I could
take your pain away
put back together
your breaking heart;
hold you close
wrap you in love's arms
spare you the pain
of a grieving heart
I would in a heart beat
but your pain is to great
and your loss the kind
that comes from
losing a part of one's self.
A mother cannot be
replaced once she is gone
but through her child
she can ,even after death, she
can lives on........her memory
untarnished by time. Safe
inside the child she once
carried beneath her heart.

5:49pm February 7, 2013
For you Julie. Love you.

Today, I re-learned a valuable lesson
that I won't soon again forget......We
cannot lose those we love with our heart
If that be true that love can die
why cry the tears that we cry. . .
when another breaks our heart----
why question death when
loved ones part? Death has no power
over love...... the grave cannot
chain love to the dust of time.
5:18pm February 7, 2013

When I'm feeling lonely
feeling down and feeling blue
I think about the worst of times
and what it was that
helped me through.
It was the thing
I carry deep in side
called " faith"
that lifts
the clouds away,
and makes me feel happy
as I strive to
make it through each day.
11:00am February 6, 2013

Each life is of value and purpose
Tho some would claim
that life's number decreases the value
of us all.
How blind is he who foolishly believes
one life out shines another
when in reality we are particles of life's whole
beneath the polish and the shine
underneath the raggedy clothes
to the nakedness of the soul
we share but a breathe of life
as together we live each day
and watch the humanness fade away.
2:19pm February 5, 2013

As the years come and go
I am amazed at thoughts
of how those early years
that carved into me the worth of
myself and others, seemed to pass
so slow..
And how the middle years dragged by
to get to the later years, when memory
starts to fade and the years start to fly
From youth to being years old
takes its toll on one's soul.
And it is from the depth of the soul
I have learned to accept that
it is the fate of the flesh to blossom
and grow ,graciously, old.
1:59pm February 2013

I let the worldly tempt me
with promises
meant only to deceive.
But, before I fall captive
to a world of heartache
and certain despair
I remember what I seek
does not live there.
I seek a place where
God is King
where love abides
and intertwines
into the breadth and
width of everything.
A place where night
never enters in
and peace will be
my spirit's friend.
7:14pm February 4, 2013

The things that touch my heart touch my memory.

 God's little miracles happen every day
I awake to find things still in their place
The sun shining down on me
the wind blowing peacefully
The birds singing in the trees
flowers blooming in the winter time
and the Spring
The gaps in my life filled
with sweetest memories
and love still flowing
from the heart inside of me.
6:27pm February 4, 2013

Not a day goes by
that I don't feel loved.
Again, I give thanks to my god above
for His patience with me and His
untiring love.
11:42am January 25, 2013

The days fly by so quickly
and so many tomorrows have turned
to yesterday...... but left
untouched by time is my
love...the love I gave away
that my heart gives again
and again with each passing
We live so fast sometimes
we forget we are but
travelers on life's highway.
12:30am January 25, 2013

Today the sun shines to warm me
as the morning air chills me to the bone.
Let this day pass peacefully
Tho I be alone, without my foe's
company........ evil strives to enter in.
Let none who visit me, and leave, find
anything but love and peace.
8:59am January 19, 2013

God, gives me a miracle
every time I open my eyes
to a new day
and that day contains
those closest to my heart.
Life is a miracle that man
cannot create from a non- living
As man strives to learn
life's secret
He can only dream of being God.
All things shall pass away but the
Spirit which moved the flesh
shall return to its home that no
mortal eyes shall ever gaze upon.
9:15 pm January 18, 2013

Sometimes what I look for
is right in front of me
and being so close
it takes me longer to find it.
1:41pm January 17, 2013

I threw temptation out the door
For to keep it within arms reach
does nothing but tempt me
There are things one has
no control over and there
are things that come to be
because my will to do
or refrain from doing
Is set free.
6:33 P.M. January 16, 2013

Each day brings its own joys and woes
Sometimes only joy touches our day
while woes wait in another tomorrow
 to bring us heartache and sorrow.
9:52p.m. January 15, 2013

Thank you Lord for this day
and for watching over me each step
I made. You are my truest friend
Thank you once more for paving
the way..... to a beautiful and
blessed day.
8:31p.m. January 14, 2013

Today, I got a small reminder
of love's enduring power.
When hearts gathered at my house
and made themselves right
at home.
8:20p.m. January 13, 2013

The day has been a day filled
with loved ones far, and loved
ones near.
While the sun always shines
there is still a cloud hanging over
this world of mine.
For a mother's heart knows
her child's heart better
sometimes, than they.....
Not until I am no more
will I shine more brightly
than before.
6:18P.M. January 12, 2013

I am once more cut off from all but a few
and my thoughts remain un -scattered
as I now wait for the next move; for
nothing happens on its own..... all things
exist for a reason; nothing
is where it don't belong.
6:09p.m. January 12, 2013

The night is still; no sounds to rise
above my thoughts.
As silence screams for a voice.
11:45pm January 9, 2013

The Times That Tested My Soul

Lord, I was just thinking today
about my life and how things
have changed...... and how many
times its been shattered and

Those were the times I clung
too tightly to those I loved so
and I had to learn the hard way
sometimes I have to let go.

Those were the times that tested
my soul, and the faith I have in you.
If not for you, I know my world would
have shattered, and I wouldn't have
made it through.

Lord, when I was weak you loaned
me your strength; when I thought
I could not make it another day
You took me by the hand and pointed
out the way.

When I lost those closest to my heart
and life felt so empty, and I felt so alone
You never failed to remind me that
those I clung too were only mine on loan.

And I came to understand it's because
you are a good Father that, from time to
time, you send your angel to collect
your loan and take another loved
one home.

Those were the times that tested
my soul, and the faith I have in you.
If not for you, I know my world would
have shattered, and I wouldn't have
made it through.
10:20pm January 9, 2013
By Heartsong

Everyday we awaken
to a new beginning.
A day resting between yesterday
and tomorrow ~
A present caught between
the past and the future ~
and in the moment we breathe
in our destiny.
We live but one lifetime.
Take life one step at a time.
Live life the way life is given to us all
One breath at a time.
Find peace in the moment
And the hours of a day
will take care of themselves.
8:20pm January 8, 2013

We all have our memories
of good times and woe;
We all have experienced life
life's darkness and life's glow.
We all have been given choices
to make in our everyday life
some make life easier other's
cause strife in our life.
We all have our reality
that we live in each day
that we would change something in
If we could have life our way.
We all have our destiny
a beginning and an end.....
places in life we've been
 places in life we will never be again.
1:56pm January 8, 2013

The air I breathe is peaceful and cool
And I must seek the warmth of my bed.
There's words that I could write
and feelings I could release ...
but none could understand the depth
of their meaning but me.
11:08pm January 7, 2013

O Child of My Womb
Wipe away your tears ,O child of mine
For in life we are to move in tune with
life, too the beat of our heart's song.
Not always in life are things as they seem;
I loved you for the first time, O child of mine
before you entered this world of trial and turmoil
to have your innocent heart broken ... O child
of my womb, that love has never lessened or
gone a stray....I love you, beyond the breath I take.
O child of mine, know this, from the moment
I awake, I love you; not a day has passed
that my heart has not beat a love tune. . .
for each child of my womb.
O child of my womb, live and be happy
knowing that God watches over you
every moment , as you move through life
to your heart's tune. For, my love embraces you
from afar, sight unseen, child of my womb.
7:16 pm January 6, 2013

Everyone needs to know
that someone cares . . .
I care.

It is now raining
after a day of sunshine.
As the raindrops
hit the wall out side
I ponder how my god
has taken control of
my life . . .
And with his goodness
engulfed my soul.
At the end of this day
I would have it no
other way.
Where he leads me
I will go.
6:45pm January 6, 2013

In 1987, God called my mama to heaven
When I found out she had died I cried;
When I found out how she died - my
heart went out to the one who had to
live with what he had accidently done. . .
It could not have been less than shocking
to his heart and to his soul -to find out the
woman he had killed -had just stopped
to talk to her son, when he fell asleep
at the wheel . . .They said at the scene
he fell apart - the scene had shattered
his young life and his heart.
My mama was a good mama, and I
know God took her straight to heaven
my mama had a good heart
if she could have she would have
gave comfort to the young man
life had just fallen a part.
To this man, I say today
I hope life shines brightly for you
and that my mama's angel found a way
to help you understand
it wasn't your fault that God chose
to call her home that day.
11:56am January 6, 2013

[His name is Keith Miller, the accident
happened on Oct 14, 1987, on I-10,in
Baker County Florida.}

When words do not come easily
and thoughts prevail over words
none are meant to be heard.
8:33pm January 5, 2013

I Miss My Mama Every Day

I thought about my mama today
And how she made life seem
so much easier before she went

When my mama was alive
I never wanted for anything
for very long; mama watched over
her children until she moved on.

Tho I was married and had
children of my own, mama would
drop in every now and then . . .
She was more than my mama she
was now my best friend.

It broke my heart when my mama
suddenly went away . . .
For a long time, I watched for my
mama every day . . . It was hard
to accept, all I had left of my mama
was her love and her memory.

When times get hard for me, I think
about all the things that my mama
went through and how though it all
she held to her faith and came out
much stronger.

I treasure the time I had with my
mama; I just wish it could have been so
much longer.
By Heartsong
January 4, 2013

There are those who cross our path but once
who find a place in our heart forever.
And those we see every day and forget
as soon as they walk away.
Some in passing just touch our life
while others in passing touch our heart .
10:10pm January 3, 2013

The power of faith is ni to none
When faith is weak in any degree.
Faith is not a part-time thing
not if one truly believes.
12:27pm January 3, 2013

I believe in miracles
because my eyes have seen
My hands have felt
and my life has been touched
by miracles that many
would not believe.
I have felt death in my arms
and love and faith
created a miracle for me
as I watched life restored.
My god is an awesome god
He performs miracles
but forces none to believe.

January 2, 2013 4:38pm

I looked out my window to where
once butterflies danced around the
red hanging flowers with joy and glee
and saw a red bird walking around
on a pile of dry, brown leaves.
January 2, 2013 4:26PM

Today, I am free
Free to be
Free to breathe
Free to dream.
Free of fear
Free of worry

Free in life
to reach out
and touch
my destiny.

I choose to live
 My life being
January 2, 2013 4:08pm

I cannot find words to express
how thankful I am that Jesus
reached out his hand . . .
long, long ago,
at a time when my spirit
was so low.
I cannot describe the shine
The beautiful glow... that
stood over me, with an outreached
hand so long ago.
January 2, 2013 3:59pm

The silence surrounds me
as I set here thinking about life
and how everything is intertwined
even emotions in every heart and mind.
Who has not felt love, anger, need,
desire, happiness, sadness-hunger,
All are joined together by the
fiber of our being.....
January 2, 2013 12:47am


I long for the day when I awaken to find
I don't feel so alone . . . When I don't
feel like running away ; going inside
myself where I feel safe.
I long to stand in a crowded room
and say "Here I am . . . Look at me"
And not feel like I gotta hide inside
of me. . .
Because I'm so afraid I won't fit in
and if I try to be apart of the crowd
and find I'm alone in a room filled
with people again . . .
I might not
ever again get the courage to show me,
the me I am inside..... the one in the crowded
room I try to hide.
I long for the day when I awaken to find
I don't feel so alone . . . When I don't
feel like running away ; going inside
myself where I feel safe.
January 1, 2013 11:20pm






The heart that listens can hear the quite
above the noise.
10:34pm December 31, 2012

Everyone is born with a special gift
all wrapped up inside of him.
As the years flow quietly by
the gift unwraps a little at a time
when we've lived long enough
the gift inside we will find.
10:27pm December 31, 2012

May the sun rise in the morning
May love set at the head of every table
May peace reign in the hearts of everyone
And May all find rest when the day is done.
10:19pm December 31, 2012

Farewell to a year
that tested my soul
and tried my faith.

May I forget not
in the coming year
to fill each day
with love and
with lots of heart.
December 31, 2012 6:01pm

Blind is he who cannot see
the prince of darkness
moving in the waters
surrounding his soul.
9:55pm December 30, 2012

Each country has contributed
to the rising monster which
will soon be released on the
world..... Look within for the
answer does not lay beyond
the sea.
Those you think to be
are not your enemy.
9:45pm December 30, 2012

If I knew this day my life would end
that there would be no tomorrow for me
I would pray that those I love
would find comfort in knowing that
Jesus walked all the way with me.
7:08pm December 30, 2012

I no longer live in yesterdays
and let memories have their way
I no longer worry about what will
happen in the day.
I live in the moment thankful for
all things . . .
Satisfied just to breathe in the
peace that the moment brings.
6:49pm December 30, 2012

Today, I felt the sadness in my child's heart
I wanted so to ,once more, spare her from
life's reality; I wanted so to draw her nearer to me.
But I could not; I must now watch from afar as
she learns on her own , unhindered by my love
I must set her free to fly; to be and to become
all in this life that she can be..... satisfied
knowing she will always be a part of my heart
and a part of me.
6:33pm December 30, 2012.

If I fail to give thanks to my god
than I am not worthy of His
presence in my life . . .
For it was in the darkness
of my life that my god
reached out His hand to me
with a lit candle of hope
for me to see more clearly
the path back home
that lay at my feet.
10:47pm December 29, 2012

The wind is howling outside
as it rocks my world with its
gusty breeze ... and I set here
listening to the song it sings.
9:05pm December 29, 2012

I was just thinking
soon it will be a new year
and there is so much in my
yesteryears that still tug
at my heart- and on the
sunniest day can still
bring a tear.

Yes, every new year is but
a reminder of how quickly
some things come to an end.

A reminder that years have no
power over the memories that
I carry in my heart.

A reminder . . .
that a new year begins with a day
and before its ends, a year can
take so much away.
12:06am December 29 2012

There is peace to be found
in the eye of the storm......
There is hope to be found
in desperation's arms
when one's faith is stronger
than his fear.
11:45pm December 28, 2012

Today was peaceful
filled with everyday things
that catch my eye, and
people who touch my heart.
Let the outside world pass
me by, and leave my world
11:29pm December 28, 2012

May your day be filled with happiness
The New Year filled with love and kindness
and your cup of life be filled with God.
12:13pm December 27, 2012

One endangers his spirit's well being
by keeping anger inside.....

The world has no need of words; words
flow everyday....most meaningless to a
man's soul.

It is not the words alone that makes one wise.

Being human is a weakness in itself.
11:41 am December 27, 2012

O, God, my god, what would you have me do
I have lived long but still I need you to take my
hand , show me the way, and walk me through.

There is a darkness in this world that blinds the
hearts of men; that seeks out their weakness, eats
away at their spirit; takes away their goodness; and
kills them from within.

God, take my hand this day; feed my heart with
your love; and when I'm face to face with the foe,
walk me in the direction that you would have me go.
10:47am December 27, 2012

Let those who seek find what they seek
Let those who love love unconditionally
And if their be those who must hate
let them hate in earnest the evil things
that corrupt the soul of man..
10:34am December 27, 2012

Light a candle for your brother
Light a candle in your heart
and in your life; let your candle shine
through the things you do
let it shine through the darkness
in you; that others might see it and
find their inner Light, too.
10:36pm December 26, 2012

Faith the size of a mustard seed
if one processes it in time of need
will lift the spirit to bigger and
better things.
I once walked in dark places
with only my faith to shield me
from harms; and in the darkness
I slept safely wrapped in faith, in my
Father's arms.
10:17pm December 26, 2012

The lessons learnt are worth the pain
to the truth seeker.
Walk softly among the flowers where the
thorns grow.
None caught up in the outer world can
survive his inner war.
Would one but feel with his heart
the truth would be known; and the liar
would be overcome by the love.
11:40am December 26, 2012

My thoughts are on those
who fail to understand
their part in nature's god's
plan.; on those who do not realize
what is taking place right before
their very eyes; Their lives
are out of tune with the warning
of a pending doom. Would but
they count the steps that evil
has taken in the last one hundred years
they would tremble in fear; they would
flee beyond the reach of decay.

12:50am December 26, 2012

note: I sometimes write things and wonder why I would
write something about that. About one-hundred years ago world war l
was fought for four years, leaving in its wake a toll
of death and destruction such as the world had never seen.
December 26, 2012 10:44am

Blind is the deceiver who deceives no
one but himself.
He who loses his spirit loses his soul.
Truth can be twisted until it resembles
a lie.
Truth will always shine through the
An open heart can see into the heart of another.

8:08pm December 25, 2012

Merry Christmas!
Everyday is a gift.
Everyday filled with loved ones
is a blessing.
December 25, 2012 12:09 am

I know that as dark
as times can get
I am not forgotten;
tho my tears would
have me believe
11:56pm December 24,2012

Everything has its time
everything has its place
tho at times I feel so
out of place .... .
11:49pm December 24, 2012

May tomorrow bring happiness back
into the lives of those saddened by life;
put love on the table of the lonely; put
remembrance into the minds of
those who have forgotten the meaning
of the day; and put understanding
in the heart and minds of those who
morn the empty chair at their table
as they bow their heads to pray.
9:13pm December 24, 2012

The dark has fell and again I am alone
with my thoughts; Today is almost
tomorrow; and more precious time
Was spent untouched by yesterday's
Many nights I have set alone and
watched the stars from my window
and thought about my life and all
the things it did sow; I thought about
the times when all my children were small
and how their laughter and their innocent smiles
set my heart aglow; I often think about the
brighter spots in my life; and the children
I still love so ; and ask myself, setting
here alone; what happened to all that innocence?
Where have those happy children gone.
8:57 pm December 24, 2012

Life's sweetest moments are those spent with a child.
December 24, 2012 6:15pm

Some people use the past
to lock out things in the day
and blame their short comings
on some event that happened yesterday.
The truth is, it is easier for some to blame
others for their mistakes than it is too
blame themselves for their bad choices.
6:58pm December 23, 2012

All are but one breathe
away from death.
Before we could be heard
we had to take our first breathe.
Before we in death lay silent
our last breathe we will take.
6:51pm December 23, 2012

To hope is good to keep faith is better.

Friendship is either friendship or its not.

Walk upright in the day to see above
those who stumble and fall.

The key to the heart is the key to life.

A wise man knows the importance of
the inner man.

Judge not blindly the ways of the stranger.

A child is innocent of his parents sins.

What tastes bitter today
will taste bitter tomorrow.

The size of a man's heart
is determined by the love
it carries inside.

One who seeks to know all
will know little.

Love is not casual love is eternal.

12:51pm December 23, 2012

"Respect for ".......Let me see
Once every small child learned
the importance of showing respect
to the old; because they earned it for
their individual contribution to society; to those in the
military for striving to keep us free; to Judges, for
filling justice's seat; to preachers for spreading
the light of God in churches ,and on streets; Children
were taught the importance of showing respect
in their every day encounters with their elders.

But then, again, children were protected from
the evils of society......way back then....Way
back then when women were women and men
were men---

Today is but the shadow of a
time when people were not afraid to fight tooth,
nail, or any other way-when good things
were threatened by the bad in the day.
10:16pm December 22, 2012

For every bad thing
good things follow
Behind every Winter
comes the Spring.
9:50pm December22, 2012

Today, my thoughts are many
going many different ways.
Still. I live in the moment
I breathe in the moment
and I do in the moment
of my today.
2:01pm December 21, 2012

Moments come one at a time...and
we seem to always get through life
one moment at a time----
Even when the moment is robbed
by thoughts of future time.

Life gets shorter the longer we live.....
Be happy in each moment and the future
will be bright with little thought.

I am never to busy .....I just create
things to do.

What our hearts touch in life
we can touch with our dreams.

One cannot command one's feelings
on matters of the heart.
The heart will have its own way.
December 21, 2012 1:25pm

What is age but a set of numbers
that some use to label others.
I do not count the years
I count only the moment I am in.
5:41pm December 20, 2012

Why do some fear other peoples' religion?
Is it because they doubt their own beliefs?
My god I reach through Jesus, and I care
not what another chooses to think.
I live my day the best I can and make no
excuse for what I believe; I have found
the god in my life who asks only that
I follow , faithfully, where he leads me.
I worry not about who's god is the biggest
and the best, I just follow my god and pray
I pass His test.

O yea of little faith; take up the cross of your
fathers; carry the burdens and the woe; for
none shall find easy the answers, of things,
not meant for them to know.
2:58pm December 20, 2012

Lord, You walked with me in my lonely time
and when I reached the crossroads
in my life; You turned me down the road
that you wanted me go....I will always be
thankful for the many times you helped me
carry my heavy load.
I ask, before I lay me down to sleep, that
in the morn .......
you place my feet back on the right road.

It's cold, and night calls me to sleep.
Thank you Lord for the day passed
and for the night of rest that awaits me.

Thank you for the cold, and for the
warmth I shall find beneath the sheets.

1:21am December 20, 2012

Love will never bow down to hate.

May the sun shine down on us all
and together may we endure the
evil rains that are sure to fall.. For,
in this world we share and divide
many things; the sunrise; the nightfall
and what the new day brings.
9:39am December 19, 2012

People who despise those they do not know
unleash hate into the world....for no other
reason than lack of understanding.
9:32am December 19, 2012

The word was before all things were created.

One can learn from an opposing view
Things he otherwise would never know.
When one seeks to know another
he must accept that no two people
are alike; and it is their differences
that make them worthy of our attention.
9:20pm December 19, 2012

The day went by
unhindered; no bad news to
give me the blues; nothing
to mar the joy in my heart;
nothing but sunshine
in this world of mine.
Lord, thank you for this day
and the love that filled
each moment . . .
and thank you for never
leaving my side in all the days
come and went.
9:08pm December 18, 2012

I am human; I am a living soul
In the flesh I am made weak
In the spirit I am made whole
In the flesh I sometimes get lost
but my soul can always be found in me;
In the flesh my eyes see the worldly
In the spirit I see things the eyes
cannot see.
12:49pm December 18, 2012

Sometimes in a day I find pieces of yesterday
hidden away.... And a piece out of my life time
falls back into place.
12:25pm December 18, 2012

My life has passed by as if it wore a pair of wings
Yesterday I hurried into each tomorrow
and longed to find what tomorrow would bring.
Today as I look around me at all the worldly things
I long for nothing in my tomorrow and I
give thanks for what each day brings.
7:07PM December 17, 2012

Today I found again the peace that lives
in my world
It was hidden behind yesterday's worries.
6:59pm December 17, 2012

I have nothing to give but the love in my heart
for some, even love is not enough to satisfy
their greed.

For love, as priceless as love is, is not
what a greedy man seeks.
2:35pm December 17, 2012

If a day is easy lived be thankful; for there
are those who strive just to survive.

When we take for granted the air we breathe
the sky we see; the earth beneath our feet; and
the love we receive ~of none we are worthy.
2:32pm December 17, 2012

Trickery, evil uses
to tear families apart
Next time before I judge
I will judge first with
my heart..

I judged wrongly today
the words I cannot
erase; God, help me
overcome whatever
hidden anger rest inside
that I not
use my hidden anger to
break another's heart.
3:15pm December 16, 2012

Mistakes are made everyday
Some are correctable
Some are not
I thank my god with all my heart
That my sister is safe
where she's always been
It wasn't my sister dying
It was another's next of kin.
My prayers and thoughts
are now with them.
3:06pm December 16, 2012

My god is my strength ....
Lord, help me to not be bitter
as I ponder in this day
the lifetime I call mine; help me
to hold back the tears
as another mountain I must climb; and
Lord, bless those who hate me ; and
strive to break me....if you don't mind.
For once they showed me love
In another day and time.
8:59am December 16, 2012

There is a ragging storm all around me
and all the storm's rage touches me
and I ponder what does it mean; as I ask
my god once more to give me strength.
Why has so many turned a deaf ear
to my cries for them to make me
understand why my sins are any greater
than theirs.......why do they seek to be
only my foes, when I have done nothing
but love them; I devoted my life to
them at great price; and for their happiness
they expect me to live with a man I have
grown to hate; a man they call daddy; what
about me; am I less worthy than he. Am I to
exist that others might be happy? Is that
all a mother's worth? I think not! Today, I
weep because I was told my sister is
dying; be proud of yourselves my children
you did not destroy one family; you destroyed two;
8:47am December 16, 2012

To my sister:
I was just told that you are dying
as I write these words to you; Sister
I know that you are tired and I may never
get the chance to see you again in this life;
I hope that you can see into my heart and
see the love I have for you. I don't know
why this life pulled us a part; but it did....
and for whatever reason we lost the
closeness we once had. I have asked
my god to watch over you, and no matter
which way you go-to your earthly home
or to heaven- to always walk with you.

There is nothing I can do, as much as
I would love to kiss you my sister
and tell you I love you I can only stand off in
the distance and say a prayer for you.

God, you know my sister's heart; you know
the dividing line where I stand today; comfort
her loved ones; if her work on earth is done
and she ask to go into the light please don't
refuse to let her in......take her hand as you
once held mine so long ago and let her touch
your light's glow. But please God tell my
sister that I love her and ask her to hug my
brother who will be waiting to embrace her
if you let her in-----cause you know I
was not there for him.

It truly hurts to be shut
off from family and watch the devil have
his way........but I know there is a purpose
for everything...... if you see fit to take my
sister and she is never again to see the morning
sun---I will understand the emptiness; my god,
let your will be done.
6:21am December 16, 2012

The seeds of love
that we plant in our lifetime
will multiply in kind
Given time.
12:16AM December 16, 2012

What about our children's tomorrows
What will we leave to them?
Will we leave the bitter taste of our sorrows
for them to reap?
Will we leave them the turmoil we nurtured
with hate, wars, and unkind deeds?
Are we to expect their futures to be bright
and their lives to be happily lived
when we take so much from life and never
think to give?
12:10am December 16, 2012

Tonight peace surrounds me
my heart is filled with the kind of
contentment that can only come from
having a sleeping child near enough
to hear the child breathing.
11:54pm December 15, 2012

My god is my strength in my time of weakness
My god is my pillow of hope in my time of hopelessness
My god is my sunshine on my darkest and cloudiest day
My god is the crutch I lean on when life's burdens
cause me to sway......
My god was with me in my youth
My god lives through me in my old age.....
I make no excuse for loving my god; to each his own
My god is worthy of my love; He never deserted me
He has kept every promise, and he has never left me
to suffer alone.
1:51pm December 15, 2012

Man cannot know life's secrets
for there are to many to know;
still some strive to unlock the
secrets of life..... knowing not
they are robbing from their very soul
and unwinding each secret in part..
For none holds the key to the
book of life but He who blew
life into the nostrils of man.
What God created He can destroy
by taking the breath he gave away
When man thinks himself equal to his
creator......Mankind will enter
Judgment Day.
1:17pm December 15, 2012

The heart is the doorway to the soul; the eyes the window.
1:01pm December 15, 2012

Those who seek answers to questions of life
are not always willing to accept the answers
life gives.
12:57pm December 15, 2012

May the morning bring with it
A greater understanding to those
who ask "why?"

Tonight my thoughts are on those poor souls
whose very faith is being tested by their lose.
There are no words that can ease their pain;
and nothing that can fill the void left in their lives.

Faith cannot die.......tho the believer's faith
is tested every day; we must never stop believing in
the god who never walks with us just half way.
2:05am December 15, 2012

There is an evil let loose
in the minds of men
and in their madness they
kill the innocent; and the mad
cannot stop their madness
for they know not that they
are mad.

God, only you process the
power to put light into the
darkness inside the minds
of men ...only you, my god,
can give understanding to those
hearts that morn for the innocent
caught up in the evil unleashed by
tormented spirits upon the world.

Evil again moves against the waters
and the wind waits for night to fall.
1:24am December 15, 2012

I have cried my morning tears
I am now ready for the day
Let life's storm if there is to be one
find me waiting stronger than before
For, through my tears I have once more
found the place my faith is stored.
I will endue because my god stands
in battle with me.
O how I love my god
that only my eyes have seen
when a sinner my god reached out
his hand to me.
11:12am December 14, 2012

I thought my tears had ended
I thought I was strong enough
to endure life with eyes
dried and clear.........but
one thought of another's pain
has brought me to tears again.
11:00am December 14, 2012

Lord, today, I come to you in prayer
to ask you to guide me in this day
I know you are always there
to lighten my burdens along life's way.
I don't have to tell you what's
going on here down below
You are looking out your window
you already know......I just want to
ask you if you will shine your light
a little brighter; because the darkness in
this world is closing in on me ;I don't
have to tell you things are a little shaky
so many innocent lives depend on me;
God look into my heart and if you
find me worthy please help me
to stand strong against the winds
in my time of need.
10:50am December 14, 2012

I set here in the cold of night
alone with my thoughts
thinking about life, and
those I love more than life; what
shall I leave them when I am gone
that will help them
when they find themselves alone?
If I tell them that even loneliness
has its purpose in this life; that
love does not end when the heart
gets broken; will it help to
dry their tears? Will they find
comfort in my memory if they
know I shall stand guard over
their lives; just as my mother
who has never left my side?
We none live forever
some shall become a memory
and other shall be forgotten
once our circle of life is complete
We shall from this world leave
taking only a fading memory
of the last breath we breathe.
11:08pm December 13, 2012

When my brother died
I did not go to his funeral
He came to live in my heart.
3:37pm December 13, 2012

A man who will not stand faithfully
behind his god or his religious belief
whether he believes in a god or not
is no better than the liar who he
professes to despise.
Let he who believes in something
stand faithfully behind what he believes;
for weak is he who would sell out his god
for peace.
3:35pm December 13, 2012

Today I thought about the time when time
stood still for me; and how lonely it was
being caught up in time that held me
a prisoner of my own thoughts.
A time when every thing my heart held dear
stood off in the distance; and I set gazing
out into the emptiness of space and time;
comforted only by the presence of my god
who shared the time and emptiness with me.
3:25pm December 13, 2012

Reach down deep inside for the courage to over
come the obstacles life places in front of you
For there you will find the strength to endure
the burdens that tempt your soul not to believe.
9:38am December 12, 2012

Sometimes life is like a mountain
to high to climb; a ragging sea emptying out
its waters on me, as I try to swim
in waters not too deep.

Sometimes life is like the wind changing directions
unexpectedly after the course has been set........
Sometime life seems to have a life of its own
as I walk each path set before me on my way home.
9:20am December 12, 2012

Today the rain is falling
as it did during the night
and the sun is hiding
behind the clouds.
And I'm gazing out my window
giving thanks for everything,
that is and the day
will bring.

For it matters not
what the day holds
as long as my god
holds in his merciful hands
my tired and weary soul.
8:58am December12, 2012

I would write of the love in my heart
I have for you
But what good are words when
distance in life keeps us apart.....

What good are heart felt words
when one seeks not
to know what's in another's heart?

I thought about you this morning
as the sun entered the day
of how long it has been since
in anger you went away.

If only you knew how much it broke my heart
to tell you to leave- maybe you would
find a sense of peace.... and consider
not letting your hate for me
rot the insides of your children
in their time of need......

Children are gifts from God
born with pure hearts
it is in our children we sow
life's seed.

I would ask your forgiven but I cannot
I did what I had to do, while
loving you with a mother's heart.
10:40am December 11, 2012

If more people would talk
More hearts would intertwine
and understanding
would be the food of fools.
6:49pm December 10, 2012

Sometimes life seems to
burden some more than others...

I like to think of my burdens as
miracles in disguise.....
Tho they never appear as such
to my eyes.....

Would I be the person I am today
If I had lived life the easy way?

No.... Tho my life has seen its share
of hard times; my eyes have cried
their share of tears; and my heart
has many times been broken......

The hard times-every time I made it
through one, made me, sometimes,
have to be stronger than I felt I was.

The tears I cried, time and time again,
brought me to an understanding of
things in my life that feed my memory
with pain.

And my heart that endured
the lose of love and loved ones, learned
as I lay each burden down, the importance
of putting love in to each day.

My burdens are my own
I will gladly carry them every day
and share my burdens with none
before I would lighten my load
at the expense of going astray.
6:31pm December 10, 2012

Incase I am gone for a while
think not I have deserted you
Things come in life to us all
that we have to get through.
Wherever you are
my heart will be there too.
5:22pm December 10, 2012

There are puddles of rain
just outside my window.
As the rain drops ripple
the water.....
a calm washes over me
and my house is filled
with peace.
3:39pm December 10, 2012

Feeling sorry for yourself
adds negative to life
If the eyes can see it
the heart can touch it
If the mind can think it
It can be done . . .
to the heart's satisfaction.
Positive thoughts
reaps positive rewards.
9:50 am December 10, 2012

The sun shines
and my heart gives thanks
for everything ...
For he who controls my world
also sees into my heart
and knows my deepest dreams
He who controls my life
controls my destiny. . .
The sun shines, another day
for me.
9:40am December 10, 2012

Some of the loneliest souls
are those who allow the worldly
to rob them of human compassion
When one closes his heart to
the suffering of others ;we all suffer.

Life belongs to no one; a life is
but the extension of other lives.
I am but the extension of my
mother and father; In me
rests bit and pieces of them.
I do not exist on my own
From two lives, into this world
I was born, to live and die alone.
8:53pm December 9, 2012

I spent so much times alone
while raising my children
that being by myself today
is easier for me
than allowing my identity
to be taken away.

I didn't really realize
that the many years
I worried about giving
my children a happy childhood
was time spent nurturing
my own soul....
until much of my happiness was
taken away

Until, I awakened one day to the
reality that if not for the time
I spent alone just my god and me
watching my children grow

I would not know the importance
of living my life with heart;

Being alone I had time to get to
know my god who lives through me.

Living alone has long been away
of life for me ;
even when my world was full
my life was empty-and my god many
times was the only one there for me.

7:20pm December 9, 2012

The day was filled
with the laughter
of children at play; and
my heart was warmed
by the innocence
I held, next to my heart
In my arms.
6:52pm December 9, 2012

Everyday I wake
my heart takes in
the love that
surrounds me in the

I set and ponder life
before the sun rises
to touch me with its

Everyday I give thanks
to my god; for only I
know his greatness
in my life.

Everyday I stand ready
to accept that my god's
will will be done.

Every morn I ask my god
to please stay with me
until my race run.
Help me to be strong
until my work on earth
is done.

8:53am December 8, 2012

The storm has touched my day
I have raised my sail toward heaven
and asked my god to protect me
and my house......

For whatever winds may blow away
I know in my heart I am not alone.
There is nothing worldly that can't
be replaced ....

There is nothing that can be taken
from me that my god can't give back.

Let the winds blow; let hell fire fall
as long as my faith does not weaken
I will endue it all.
8:28AM December 8, 2012

If I die tomorrow
only a few would cry;
for only a few
have chosen to know me
for who I am inside.
10:55pm December 7, 2012

I now await the storm
that life will surely
send my way . . .
For blessing are
many times
followed by heartache
10:43pm December 7, 2012.

It's not easy accepting
that not everyone I meet
will be worthy of my trust
my respect, or my love;
There was a time in my life
I couldn't see the evil
that eats away at hearts and souls
A time when I looked outward
let outer appearance fool my eyes
and saw only what my heart wanted
to see.
10:20pm December 6, 2012

If we must part
never again
our spirits
to meet
and never again
to touch each other
with our heart....
May your life
gain from
the parting..
a greater understanding
of what it means
to be a part of everything..
12:29pm December 6, 2012

As I set here
my tears are dried
there are no more tears left
for me to cry.
For so long I opened my eyes
in the morning and saw
the world through teary eyes;
For so long-I thought my tears
would never dry.
My tears are dried
there's no more tears for me to cry.
12:22pm December 6, 2012

I cling to my shield of faith
for safety
In my heart I believe
that's all my god expects
from me.
is to do the best I can
and with all of my heart
truly believe.
12:14pm December 6, 2012

Today has a strange feel about it
a lot of unrest is in the air
and as much as my heart longs
to heal a world in turmoil
and hearts led astray; this is
life's way- ...
12:00pm December 6, 2012

My friend has a heart
like few I have ever seen.
I am so thankful
God sent this friend to me.
She's always there
to lend a helping hand
tho we live miles a part
She's became like
a sister to my heart.
Happy Birthday Jan !!!!!!

11:45pm December 5, 2012

The moment I am in
is my life's beginning
and its end.
For in the moment I live
and in a moment my life
could end.

It's not the number of days
one lives that determines ones
fate in the end

It's how one chooses to live
the moments in the days, my friend.
11:46am December 5, 2012

I don't say things to impress people
I say things because they need to be said.
So many are caught up in the worldly
and don't take the time
to think beyond themselves.
11:39am December 5, 2012

The downfall of humanity is the greed in the world
and the weakness in man.
Blindly, do the rich create a needy world; Blindly,
do the rich serve the rich and neglect the hungry.
The sadness created by the good intentions of the rich
is felt in the lives of those not so rich
and not so poor as we stand against life's storms
created by greed; every worldly thing we own
safe only by the grace of our god..
9:06am December 5, 2012

Life is full of heartache
for those innocent at heart.
Life is full of heartache
for those misguided in their
Never try to be like others
strive each day to bring out
only the good that lives in you.
7:33am December 4, 2012

Walk tall no matter where you are
don't try to change you, for others
just be who you are....
Don't let the bad in others
smother out the good in you.
Just be who you are...
knowing wherever you are
my love is too.
Just be who you are
God will help you through.
7:26am December 4, 2012

We are all in a battle for our very soul
and none shall be spared the price
for living in this world......
Talk of me all you will
but say not that you were not warned.
For my days have been many
and I have seen the ways of the world; I
have touched evil with both hands
and felt the tug on my soul......
My god I cannot give to another
My faith I cannot place
inside of you..... I can only
tell of the things in my life
and how Jesus was always there
to help me through.
2:10pm December 3, 2012.

There are no words
only a yearning to
share my thoughts.
11:46pm December 2, 2012

Tomorrow may bring unbearable things
that may shake my world and shatter
my dreams;
Tomorrow may bring heartache and pain;
Tomorrow may bring many things
but tomorrow is not here
tomorrow is still in the making.
Show me where I can go tomorrow
that I won't be traveling this day.
Nothing matters to me what a tomorrow may bring
why worry about tears that have not fallen yet
or a day that tomorrow may not bring?
Teach me my god to take each day
one day at a time and to do in the day
what I am called on to do;
for what matter is another tomorrow
if I couldn't share my today with you.
8:32am December 1, 2012

God today my heart is warmed by life's fire;
Let the hearts touched by my life's glow feel the warmth
as it flows .
Wipe away the tears of humanity, of those who believe
and those who believe not; heal the shattered
and broken hearts.
8:12am December 1, 2012

Nothing is impossible to achieve
To achieve one most believe
in his ability to achieve..
10:54am November 30, 2012

Today my heart leaves me once more
to rest with those I love; and my thoughts
are many as I sort through the things
I can change; and those things
I cannot.

God, help me in this day to touch
the world with the love I release from my heart.
The road has been a long one; my faith still rests with you.
Show me in this day what you would have me do.
10:45am November 30, 2012

Friendship~ like Love~ is a heart thing.
12:15pm November 29, 2012

I am at a loss for words
as I set here in this cold room alone
Thinking of all those whose hearts
are breaking ; and how alone in
their pain they must feel .
I know loss and heartache
but so do so many others.
9:58pm November 28, 2012

Having seen the brilliance of my god's light
and standing next to the one
who had walked me through the
valley of the shadow of death;
after experiencing an uncontrollable
yearning to walk into that light
and begging the one with me to let me go
and become a part of the glow
that pulled my spirit before letting
my spirit go ----- I can understand
why there is this tugging at my heart.
Like many I was so close to death
that past memory was gone
There was no fear just a yearning
for the one who stood next to me
to let me go home.
11:44am November 28, 2012

Only love can heal a broken heart
but in order for love to heal a heart
The heart must let Love in.
10:58pm November 27, 2012

Today I thought about a lot of things that brought
me to laughter and to tears; and I wondered
why anyone would rather live in yesterday
and go through their losses again

People grow apart that's the way life has
always been.......
As much heart as I have left behind
in my lifetime
I would never want to live my life over again
10:29pm November 27, 2012

The beauty of togetherness
comes to my mind every time
I see two butterflies....
Dancing in tune together
above the red flowers
beneath the clear blue skies.
9:39pm November 27, 2012

When another touches my life they also touch my heart .
I once begged my god not to take from me my ability to care
I told my god that without caring there would be no reason for me to live.
My god answered my plea and has never allowed the door to caring to
close on me.

Let the uncaring rich keep their fortunes; and the heartless enjoy
what they can steal -for nothing in this world will they take with them to the
grave but their greed.

If in this life I have nothing but the ability to care for others in their
time of need my heart shall be satisfied with what I take with me to the grave......
and in the hands of my god my soul shall find eternal peace
For love is my god's greatest gift to me.
7:02am November 27, 2012

When truth finds its way into the light
evil withdraws back into the darkness.
6:21am November 27, 2012

One must have heart to survive this life.....

May this day open the eyes of the blind
that they be able to see even in the darkness;
May this day lift the spirit of those crippled in the flesh
to understand that many who walk upright are
crippled too ;that as long as the spirit leads in the worldly
even they who cannot walk on their feet can walk in their
spirit whole.
May this day bring understanding to those who have
lost their way; and peace to those who will face heartache
and sorrow immeasurable in this day.
9:49am November 26, 2012

When I write with my heart
often time I am overtaken by the tears
and my thoughts buried in memories
don't always turn out so clear.

The sun now shines on my dried tears
and in it's warmth I am touched by
the love from those long passed from
this life.
Let the day bring what it will . ..
9:17am November 26, 2012

My life in this life belongs to me
I strive every day to overcome
the evil which seeks to destroy
my soul; I know as long as I stay
strong in my spirit; the evil can
rip the heart from me and
never touch the one thing
that it seeks to destroy: The
soul that lives through me.
9:03am November 26, 2012

God, I have felt the coldness
of love, holding to my child's hands
both in life and in death; When
I touched the hands of my child
that death took ; the hands were
cold to my touch and the love
my dead child has for me engulfs me
until this day.

No greater pain can be inflicted
on a mother's heart than to feel
the coldness in the hand she is holding
when the hand belongs to the child
walking next to her.
8:56am November 26, 2012

When you were each born
my life was blessed;
Now that time has passed
with all of life's heartache
I love each of you none the less.

Each of you were born
under the wings of motherly love.

I question not why my god
saw fit to remove you from under my wings
and just leave my love for each of you
snuggled together inside my heart.

May each day bring you closer to understanding
Why, now that each are older
life would have us drift so far apart.
8:44am November 26, 2012

After I was born I knew nothing
except a child's world
not until I entered into the real world
did I learn that life is not perfect
and that just as surely as the sun shines
both good and bad will have
its own time.

It is in the bad times that
I am taught not to expect life's sun
to always shine
It is in the bad times I reach down
deep inside of me and find the calm.
9:42am November 25, 2012

Forty-four years ago today
my first child was born; and my first experience
with motherhood begun; vividly, even today
I remember the pain I endured
that after she was born so quickly went away.
That baby girl grew up, way to fast; and entered
the world of motherhood too. But as life would
have it her joy ended much to soon; as mothers we
each lost a child; and weep the bitterest tears a mother
can ever be called upon to cry.
I pray that the time will come that my child can
forgive me for not preparing her for the emptiness
she ,like me, enters into with each day.
Happy Birthday, Sabra
I will always love you-try not to be so cold hearted
hate me if you must-but always care about you.
9:12am November 25, 2012

Life does not come in part
life is not flesh and bone
life is more than a beating heart
Life is more than what is on the outside;
Life is more than the first breath I took in
and the last breath I will breathe out again ...
Life is more than me.....
In this life I may get physically broken
and cry a lot from a broken heart
and think life will never be the same again
but in truth I can testify
On the inside all that makes me me
goes untouched by the worldly
Safe is my soul in my god's hands
and as long as that be so
my spirit will live inside my flesh
strong and always whole.
7:17am November 24, 2012

I will face this day like each other day
that have come and gone
The best I can
and when I am faced with defeat
I will seek reasons for my failure
not for another chance at winning
but a chance to understand
my weakness when another
day comes and I am challenged
to fight the same battle again.
6:50am November 24, 3012

Today the thunder roars and the sound is unending
My shield of faith I raise against each lightening strike.
God you know what is in my heart
judge me accordingly.
11:36am November 23, 2012

The silence of the night fills the air I breathe
as I set alone listening to the world's heartbeat.
11:49pm November 22, 2012

With age all things change;
As a child the day seemed to never end
A year felt like forever
A stranger was an unmet friend.
Everyone who had a garden would share
their crop with their neighbors;
When someone needed help ,it didn't
matter what it was, neighbors hurried
over to see what they could do.
Once, neighbors were considered a part
of ones family.........
With time age changes ones views on life
to the point that some lose sight of what
it is in life that gives things their value.
They want to change things for the better
while forgetting; life will never be better
than life has already been--- We can
never go back to the good times; but all
should try harder to recapture the
moral lessons that people taught their children
and practiced , by setting the best of examples
way back then.
The older I get the more it seems
like everything I was touched by in my youth
was ground is some moral truth.
11:46 pm November 22, 2012

Give me a day alone with my memories
and I could so easily get lost in what was and used to be.
9:38am November 22, 2012

The blue rose
reminds me of life's
ever changing hue.
A touch of green
splashes of blue
full of thorns
and beauty too.
9:24am November 22, 2012

There will be empty chairs at my table
but not an empty place in my heart....
for love fills my heart when the chairs are empty
and hold only the ghost of those who once set
and dined on life with me.
8:45am November 22, 2012

Today is Thanksgiving day 2012
and the beauty of life still lurks
outside my window for me
to awaken to.

On this day, like every day
I give thanks to my god
for the day he gives to me
and for those who share this day
with me.

I give thanks to my god for the
food he provides
when my selves are empty
and for each sip of knowledge
that he pours for me
to quench my thirst and fill me
with his majesty.

And with all my heart, I give thanks
to my god on this Thanksgiving Day
for the lamp of light that burns
inside of me . . .
for the blind in this old world to see.
8:22am November 22, 2012

Life is not always
the way we want life to be
and we don't always get through the day
untouched by heartache
Life is just not that way.
Life never changes
The changes are made in the day.

Some have never known anything
but heartache and pain
and still they find the courage
to overcome what life brings.
Still, they stand against life's
bitter winds....faithfully, they reap
what is given them in the day
and savor the bitter with the sweet.
11:33pm November 21, 2012

Like a candle burning
in the wind
The flames of life flicker
and grow dim.
11:06pm November 21, 2012

Today I left my safe little world
and found that people still cling
more to the worldly than
to spiritual things.
I looked into the faces
of those who age had striped
of youth . . .
None knew I could feel their
None, knew not, that in passing
I had touched them with my heart .
10:51pm November 21, 2012

Each day I give thanks to my god
for everything
Knowing with the day I enter into
my god awaits to help me through.
11:06am November 21, 2012

If I complete the day
safe in my faith
Let me not terry long
in the feeling of safety;
for there will always
await me
days when nothing is safe
until I meet and defeat
the evil that lurks ready
to devour my shield of faith
and me.

10:59am November 21, 2012.

Seek with your heart and you will find your god.

The moment is not very long
Its like the twinkling of an eye
one blink and the moment 's
12:09 November 21, 2012

All my life I have searched for my purpose for being
and find today, that I am no nearer than I was
when my search begin.; because my purpose for being
comes from within.
2:13pm November 20, 2012

God you have given me a task to do
now give me the insight to see clearly
as I set among the lies filtered out as truths.
10:01am November 20, 2012

I awaken to find peace in my day
and the sight of children outside at play.
What is there left to want
when one has every thing
in one's day
that gives life meaning?

There is no sound
that can match the peace
found in the sound of innocent laughter;
on a bright sunny day
or no sight so soul - calming
as setting at one's window
watching innocence at play.
9:27am November 20, 2012

The sun shining through the window
feels warm to my cheek
as flesh and sky meet.
9:14am November 20, 2012

It's not the things that lay ahead
that makes us who we are
It's the things that lay behind.
10:51am November 19, 2012

Remembering Grandma and Grandpa

I have come to realize
how truly blessed my life has been
as I remember all those who loved me
way back then ....

My biggest regret
is all that wasted time
spent on thinking about me
during my growing years

That I could have spent with
grandma and grandpa
helping them in
their needy years.

How many times
they must have wondered
if their children, or their
grandchildren really cared

as they set alone together
holding on to each other
wiping away each other's tears.

My grandma and grandpa ~
were very special people
in my growing years.
10:22 am November 19, 2012

Years ago, when I was young
My life was perfect in every way
I just didn't know it until today
When I faced one truth
of how innocently blind I was
in all those years of my youth.
10:07am November 19, 2012

With each teardrop
my pain washes away
and I see differently
the things that
made me cry.
2:55am November 18, 2012

One day at a time
I enter in too
One step at a time
the day I walk through.

My god does not promise
me a tomorrow
He gives me the day
with no promise
it'll be void of sorrow.

My god only promises me
He will meet my every need
as long as I walk in faith
and follow where he leads.
2:37am November 18, 2012
Losing a child to life
is far worse on my heart
than losing a child to death.
2:03am November 18, 2012

Anger causes one to lash out
without thought to the long time consequences
of the words and deeds done and said in anger.
Many times we unthinkingly strike out at those
closest to our heart,
And it's not easy to say I'm sorry
when you weren't angry with them at the start;
When you were hurting and no one seem
to care you were suffering from a broken heart;
aren't the ones who truly love you suppose to
to understand; aren't they suppose to care
when someone they love
is carrying a load to heavy for them to bear.....
Maybe I am wrong to have expected
those I love to understand; or even to care.
1:46am November 18, 2012

May this day bring comfort
to all within love's reach
who serve their god and creator
May this day bring closer to their god
all lost sheep who feed on the worldly
while their soul weeps.
May this day bring a needy world
everything it truly needs.
11:41am November 17, 2012

One can find darkness in anything
they touch; even in the flowers one
picks with unclean hands.
11:29am November 17, 2012.

If I am left with nothing
in this life
and my fate be to leave
before I reach my dream
little does it matter
to the soul inside of me.
For, I do not live for self
but to serve.
11:18am November 17, 2012

There are a lots of things
going on in this old world
that the human eye cannot see;
that is only seen by the inner eye
that sees through darkness, and dreams.
11:10am November 17, 2012

Someone challenged me
to write a bit of poetry
About living with someone
and still feeling empty...

I tried to write of
the loneliness the
challenge touched upon
inside of me....

The time spent
not being in love
just trying hard to please;

And wrote this poem
from a memory
of sharing life with one
who always made me
feel so empty.
12:57am November 17, 2012

To touch the heavens
I have only
to think of you.
12:18am November 17, 2012

Nothing Worldly Belongs to Me

I believe that my faith has the power
to overcome the worldly; because the things
I lay claim to don't really belong to me.

I once took things for granted: until my god
taught me not to cling so tightly to loved ones
and to worldly things; that I couldn't bear the pain
of one day not having them again.

We come into the world innocent of our nakedness
we own nothing but the life we carry inside the body
that nature's god provides; and in the mind, the memory
of what was is left behind.

During our lifetime we touch many sides of life
collect and give up many things; we find somewhere
in our lifetime people, and things that we feel are ours alone;
we cannot imagine a life with any of our treasures gone.

Then one day our heart gets broken into so many pieces
when life or death strips our world of a loved one; that we
questioned how life ,and even our god, could be so heartless
and so cruel.

By now, long forgotten is our beginning of entering this life
alone; destined to endure; and carrying an invisible shield
of faith meant to shield us from the worldly; until we once
more remember; this life is only temporary; we were born
to leave this life we now call home- the way we entered into it
with nothing, and all alone.

I can lose nothing in this life but my soul!

Everything else is only mine on loan.
12:32pm November 16, 2012

Life's Pot of Gold

The road has been a long one
filled with twists and turns
now I can see the rainbow that
waits for me at the end of life's road.

The rainbow's colors are many, wrapped
in a brilliant shine.

There are two buckets at the end of life's rainbow
one belongs to a distant traveler; and the other one
is mine........

Until I reach the end of my road
I do not know what I will find.

11:47am November 16, 2012

The worst thing one can do in this life is to let his soul go wanting....
2:04pm November 15, 2012

I fear not the evil that seeks to destroy me
for nothing can prevail against the love
my god has for me.
I may weaken and tears may fall
but I know my creator watches over all.
2:00pm November 2012

My god don't need help from me
My god is all that I will ever need.
When my heart reaches out to comfort
or to touch another's heart with understanding
I know everything I do my god sees-I also know
the evil eyes watch for my weakness for the
chance to destroy me.
1:55pm November 15, 2012

God, I need your help the devil's moving toward me; ;please, calm my spirit down; I
know you are watching over me-but right now I feel so weak.
12:49pm November 15, 2012

Like many I carry memories; some that I want to forget; Others
that I want never to forget. Good memories makes the bad memories bearable;
Lord, thank you for the memories I carry in this day; for each memory
good or bad was created by me. To change what was would be to change
my past ,my future, and me. I'm not perfect Lord, and never can be-I am
who I am- I am more than my memory.
11:06am November 15, 2012

What need have I to leave where I am this day?
There are those who would strip me of everything
and take everything I love away.....
I live in the world my life created ;where I can set and
look out my window and see tiny sparks of life's
wondrous glow.

What need have I to go beyond the distance my eyes can see,
when my god has filled my world with a walking miracle,
and beauty for my eyes too see.
10:44am November 15, 2012

Everything has a reason; Every word has a purpose
for being heard... Every beginning has its own ending.
Every heart its own love.
1:56am November 15, 2012

I believe that when I die and go to sleep
my spirit will live on; unseen I will stand
guard over those I love
just as surely as my loved ones, who now
sleep, from their graves watch over me;

And if this be nothing more than wishful
thinking on my part, when I die and go to sleep
I ask the Lord my soul to keep.. and to please send
an angel to watch over my loved ones for me..
1:38am November 15, 2012

I have had more than my share of love;
Enough love to keep me going forward
in life; the kind of love not measured by degree
or time; Yesterdays' love unyielding to those who
would have me return love as if it was never given.
The love that was given to me in exchange for my
love belongs to my heart alone; Those I love may
choose not to love me today-but the love they gave
I can't give it back, and they can't take it away.
12:46am November 15, 2012

What does not come from the heart comes from outside in.
Take things to heart before you let them out again
that the truth of your words mend, and not cause
another's faith to bend.
10:45am November 14, 2012

God today I count my blessings, and think on
how close you have always stayed by me;
No matter what I did, you were always
within my reach;
10:22am November 14, 2012

God after years of following after you
calling you my father and my savior too
I have learned no matter what one calls you
you answer their prayers, and love them too.
10:17am November 14, 2012

Today, a flood of tears have touched me; and I cry because
another's heart is broken so needlessly; if only I could send my child
a picture of the love inside of me;

Never again would doubt cross my child's mind;
and my child would know " mama loves her child all the time."

As a mama, I can not cancel out the love my heart gave
to you the moment you were born; I love you with the same
heart we shared when I carried you and we were one.

My love for you is the forever kind of love; the kind of love
that even today still has the power to take my sunshine away.
10:12am November 13, 2012

As I set here thinking about life
and the many ways it changes
over time; and how fast a lifetime
slips away; it saddens my heart to
realize that with each passing moment
time divides farther hearts that
have already grown a part.
12:11am November 13, 2012

The way to survive the memories
you want to forget
is to accept their place in reality
Live in the day and let yesterday
rest in peace.
4:14pm November 12, 20012

At times I think about
when life had a glow
about it that even shine
in the nighttime.

Loneliness as I know it
Is caused by remembering
not to forget......

It is easy to remember
the things I want to forget
The things that shattered my
life as it once was...... before
I sentenced myself to exist
in a world that knows not
the heart of one trying to forget
something they have not learned
to cope with yet.
12:10pm November 12, 2012

There are many hearts seeking love
There are many hearts shutting love out
People search for that special someone
to give their heart to . . .
Someone too love forevermore.
I search for love in its purest form
A love that I have never known
since the day before I was born..
11:44am November 12, 2012

God, thank you for the day
I just passed through
and for the love I found there;
I owe so much to you.
12:15am November 12, 2012

God, I woke this morning with a heavy heart
and tears of self-pity; Put my life back on track;
Please, forgive my weakness and give me the
strength I need to do in this day the things you
would have me do; wipe away my selfish tears
that my eyes might focus more clearly on the
things closest to your heart--- that I ,My God,
might be worthy, in my heart and mind- to
follow in the footsteps others, who faithfully
have followed after you, left behind.
9:27am November 11, 2012

Today, clouds cast their shadow over everything
as far as my eyes can see.....and there is a sadness
in my heart ; for I cannot control the tears or the past
that caused my tears to flow.
I am helpless to change what was, what is, and what will be;
I must faithfully follow the paths that my god places
in front of me; for nothing I love is truly lost; for now
just placed beyond my reach.
9:05am November 11, 2012


I know not what tomorrow will bring
It could bring sunshine or might bring rain
It could bring peace and harmony
or might bring heartache and pain.

I know not what waits for me
beyond the moment I live in
It could be the beginning of of
something-or might be the beginning
of the end.

Live each moment to its fullest
for once the moment has been
lived, it can't be lived again.

There is no going back to time spent
and no promise life is longer than
the moment I live in.
7:51pm November 10, 2012

Listen to the song of life that I sing
When I was born life lit a lamp for me
to follow in its light my whole life through
from beginning to end--In the beginning
life's lamp shine brightly for me;
Then one day the light in the lamp grew dim
and I stumbled in life's darkness, not seeing
the evil that lay within waiting for me to lay down
my innocence in exchange for a taste of sin.
Beware, of the enemy's trickery, when the light
in life's lamp grows dim.......keep faith, when evil
comes to tempt your soul; for no man gets through
this world untouched by sin...
3:55pm November10, 2012

If I had the power to touch the hearts of all mankind
with wisdom, knowledge, understanding, or love
which would I choose?
Would I choose to make all wise ,when wisdom in and of
itself ends when the wise man dies?
Would I choose to make the mind of all blind leading all
to believe all knowledge begins and ends with them?
Would I choose to give understanding to all and leave
them nothing to think on, to wonder about, or dream of?
Unless all three I could give to all - I would fill the hearts
of all with love never ending-and let each find his own
degree of wisdom, knowledge, and understanding
in the songs of life his heart sings.
10:32am November 9, 2012

Today, the sunlight shines through the blanket of cold
Mr. Wintertime left during the night as I lay sleeping
beneath my covers; even the air inside is cold as I
breathe it in ~ and breathe out the warmth, that just
being alive brings to my very soul.
8:19am November 9, 2012

In life there are no escapes from inner thoughts
no getting away from the mental anguish caused
from a breaking heart . . . No way to erase those
things in life that cause sleepless nights.

Thoughts connect me to reality,
as imperfect as it may be . . .

Just as thoughts can hurt ~ thoughts can heal.
12:20PM November 8, 2012

As my heart beats out each word
from deep inside of me---- I, at
their exit, feel a sense of peace and
For many have kept hidden their
deepest thoughts and paid highly
for the secrets they keep.
11:58 am November 8, 2012

I try not to feel sorry for myself
anymore-not like I did before
when the loss of my child
took me by surprise
and my whole world shattered
right before my tear filled eyes.
When all I wanted was to hear
my child's voice , to feel my
child's touch, and to be wrapped
in the arms of the child I loved so much.
It was not easy letting go of the child
I carried beneath my heart; until I
realized my child now touches my
life every day with her angel wings;
she lives in my heart and watches
over me while I look for her in my dreams.
9:01pm November 7, 2012

With each day I face reality
that life is not always as perfect
as I would have it be....

That there are times for loving
and times for setting free.

That there are times my heart
will weep for those I lose in life

and times that I must accept
that nothing in this life
is mine to keep.

God, If I abuse another's heart
knowingly -and cause another tears
knowing how much it hurts
when a loved one turns away
remind me to be more understanding
of human weakness
as you walk with me through this day.

7:12 am November 6, 2012

God, this day starts out with tears
after a night of peaceful sleep
help me as I step into whatever
awaits me with the morn
send yours angels closer
to those I hold dear to my heart
too watch over them and keep
them safe from harm.
6:56am November 6, 2012

I am just a lonely soul on a journey
that begin the day that I was born
my travels in life have taken me
down many roads of twists and turns
where illusions and temporary happiness
were the norms. I grasped for the love
that presented itself to me at every
bend in the road; I wanted so to fill the
void in my life; and I needed
only the promise of love to find
reason to stay in places I did not belong.
8:46pm November 5, 2012

Lord, you walked through another day with me
and held me up when I got weak; I want to thank you
for lending me your strength; and tell you if not for your
love for me, I don't know where I would be. I keep you
close to my heart everyday knowing that if the whole
world turned on me; that you Lord would still be there
for me-that you Lord would never leave me alone to carry
life's burdens on my own.
1:19am November 5, 2012

I walk into this day with my shield of faith raised high
knowing that the only thing that can cause me to stray
is not the things of the world- but the things I carry inside.
10:16am November 4, 2012

Whether my needs be many
or few.........

I carry my burdens alone
because I choose to do so
no one can help me in this life
if I choose not to let them know.
10:08am November 4, 2012

I started to write a poem today
I didn't finish it;
Because it wasn't really what
I wanted to say.

It was a poem about need
and how my god filled
my needs everyday.

I went as far as to put the
time and date at the end.

Then I realized not a word
that I wrote would have any
meaning for those who read it.

So I decided I would write
another poem that all who read
will understand.

There is a longing for someone
to share the emptiness in life
with me;

a need for more than a

a need to share my inner
most thoughts with my god,
and my dearest friend.

When I fall in the day
as I sometimes do and
my weaknesses come to the

I feel so alone that
the emptiness is almost
more than I can bear...

Then just as
my weaknesses move in to
torment my soul-

I reach down deep inside
and retrieve the faith that for
a little while

my weakness had put on hold.
9:53am November 4, 2012

I do not let yesterday dictate my today
I awaken to the morning, accepting
that I have just awaken to the first day
of the rest of my life; a new day to
do the best I can; a new day to be thankful
for all things; a new day for remembering
my god who watches over everything.

If I lived my life remembering only yesterdays,
I would have learned nothing from my past
heartaches and pains; and would chance everyday
making the same mistakes again.
11:50pm November 2, 2012

If in my lifetime I have made a difference in another's life
let it be for the better. 11:21 November 2, 2012

Only my god knows why my life
has been as it was, and how it
is today.
I do no question my god's
plan for me.
All I ask of my god
Is that He show me the right
way . . .
2:50am November 2, 2012

Use Your Inner Eyes

Never under estimate evil
Evil has been around since
day one....
Evil has had its eyes on you
Since the moment you were born.

Take care when you feel evil near
prepare for some hard times,
and get ready for the tears.....

Never try to live beyond
the moment you live in . . .
Never take life for granted
Watch always for evil with your
Inner eyes

And, don't think that bad things
only happen to others
or you may get caught off guard
and get handed an evil card.
2:14am November 2, 2012

Nothing New

There is nothing that I can say
that someone else hasn't already said
There is nothing I can dream about
that hasn't already been in another's dream
There is nothing I can cry about that hasn't
already moved another to tears....
Nothing my ears can hear that hasn't been
heard by another's ears.....
Nothing my hands can touch that another's
hands hasn't already touched....
There is no taste bitter or sweet
that hasn't already passed another's lips.
There is nothing new under the sun
even the paths life takes one down
others have already walked or run.
11:01pm October 31, 2012

I wish I had the power
to create for everyone a perfect day
without outside interference trying
to take the peace in their everyday life away;
I would dissolve every tear with sunshine
polish all the fading love that I could find
mend every broken heart; touch every life
with kindness; join every hand in friendship
and fill every home with faith and love.
12:15pm October 31, 2012

I can always tell when I am doing something right
The devil don't give me rest day or night....
He pulls every dirty trick he can to destroy my faith
and pull me down...
It looks like by now he would leave me alone
but I guess he will have to learn the hard way
He only gets one shot a day
to take me down
and me and my house are protected by special
angels -who are always ready to go another round.
6:09pm October 30, 2012

I have lived my life....
with all its strife,
it has been a life filled
with its peaceful times too.

I am sharing my writing with you ,
because of my heart felt desire
to touch lonely souls, and let them
know "no one is ever truly alone."
2:55pm October 30, 2012

It Takes Courage

It takes more courage to stand alone
than it does to stand in the middle of a crowd.
It takes more courage to defend
the right than it takes to defend a wrong....
It take more courage to be who you are
than it does to pretend to be who you are not.
It takes more courage to walk upright in this world
where every day is filled with trials and tribulations
than it does to close one's eyes to all the injustice
being done under the sky....And, It takes more courage
to live than it takes just to give up and die.
1:54pm October 30, 2012
note: This poem is for healthy human beings who have choices about their life.

God Is In Control

I have made it through another day
And begin a new day.
It is a few minutes after mid-night
and I survived a lot of things
yesterday that troubled my heart;
I survived the doubt that caused me
to worry; I overcome the fear that
managed to draw an occasional tear;
I survived another day of unexpected
negatives; and I survived all the other
human weaknesses that played havoc
with my day; by raising my shield of Faith
and pushing the negative away.
12:25am October 30, 2012

Nothing to Say

When I search for words
and find them not to be
from the heart of me
I know that the words
mean nothing; they are
just words put together
by symbols... meaningless
and empty.

When I search for words
and the only words I find
are those locked away inside
my mind. I stare out in to
the heavens knowing
I'll have to wait until my heart
kicks in again....

Some times I just have to much
on my heart and mind, and try as I will
I can't find words worthy of
the feelings that live in the deepest
part of me

Where the heart and mind collide

and feelings stay locked
away inside.

4:58am October 29, 2012

It is still night outside
and the blackness of the night
stares at me through the curtain less
part of the window where I set alone
remembering times come and gone.

I have much time alone to think a head
remember back; and to think about
where in life my life is at.

How wasted, the time one spends on
looking back; when nothing can change
what lays in the past.

I cry a lot when I think about the
things closest to my heart.

But these are the times, when I let
myself forget who's setting at the
helm ;who charts the course; and
who it is that provides for my needs
on land or sea.... without hesitation
or remorse .....

I may set my course in life but God
controls the sea.
4:12am October 29, 2012

Each A Blessing

This Mother's blessings have been many
they far exceed any of the bad things
with all their hurts and pains;

My blessings take on many faces,
sizes, and forms;
My special blessings come at a time
in my life when I needed one.

I count my blessings every day
Some times the memory of a blessing
brings a tear

for my blessings are blessings that keep
on giving to my heart
whether my blessing is far or near.

Each of my children is a special blessing
that God gave to me at just the right time----

A Blessing that in my heart will never lose
its luster or its shine......
A Blessing that may not truly realize
that it's a special blessing in this
mother's eyes.

3:15 am October 29, 2012

Me with my son Billy Ray, and my daughter Katie, on my son's 34th Birthday October

Today is your Birthday, My Dear Son
I remember your birth as if it
were only yesterday; For many years
I have watched you grow from a baby
to the man you are today.

May God continue to bless you with
wisdom and understanding; May He
guide you through life's journey; and
watch over you night and day; when
trouble times befall you; may God
give you a special angel , who will
wrap you in angel wings and
carry you the rest of the way.

I love you, my precious son
Happy Thirty-Fourth Birthday.
12:43am October 28, 2012

I have made mistakes in my life
and it's only by the grace of God
that I survived life's many storms.
and can say without a doubt today
The storms were many and took
no mercy on my life or soul; evil
touched my life and brought me
shame; evil dressed in innocence
more than once took me for a ride;
many times over, evil waged its war
many times I touched death and
was spared my judgment day;
and my agony prolonged, as I
laughed in the face of death; tormented
to my very soul I wanted to die; Then
my god sent his son to me in a vision
and my life was touched by the Light
I remembered; and my soul cried out
for forgiveness- and Jesus in my vision
reached out to me and bid me "come."
I am a sinner forgiven.
2:24pm October 27, 2012

One day all things in my life will come together
under one heart; but until that tomorrow is entered in
I ask my god for enough courage to fight life's daily
battles; enough insight to see into the products of
yesterdays' tears; enough heart to stand for what
I believe in-even when doing so hurts; enough love
to forgive those who turn from me, and stand
beyond my touch; and enough understanding to
accept that love is the gift that keeps on giving-
even when I can't keep the ones I love.
1:15pm October 27, 2012

The babies I'm watching are sleeping
beneath angel wings
as I watch the clouds thanking God for
the simplest things
from inside my humble home....
as beyond the scene
the outside world moves hurriedly along.

I would not trade a moment of my life this day
for a million yesterdays past away........
or a life time of tomorrows, without the peace
I find in this today.
12:55pm October 27, 2012

As the wind blows against the window
I set here in the wee hours of the morning
with a heavy heart; waiting for the sun to
shine; tired but sleep does not come; always
faithful that the new day will find me worthy
to enter in.....and night will fall gently on me

I know there is a god in heaven; who watches
over me; Long ago I claimed him for my own;
and when the day begins-tho I can't see my god,
I know in my heart that I am never alone.

God, lift this weight from my heart as the new
day unfolds; help me to see the silver lining
weaved in with life's storms; as I again place
my life in your loving arms.
4:50am October 26, 2012

I walk down life's lonely highways
carrying my shield of faith always before me
A lonely soul in search of peace
where peace was never meant to be.
Searching the winds of nothingness
to find my heart's everything.
My heart seeks love and my soul
seeks forgiveness.
Long I have searched~ long I have
waited, for what-I do not know.
May my god fill the nothingness
as I continue my walk down life's lonely
highway......and may he help me find peace
in the emptiness I find in the day.
3:46pm October 25, 2012

God, If I fell to reach out and take
the hand of someone in need- let the hand
touch the heart inside of me and
move me to see the need more clearly.
For oftentimes my own needs blinds me to
the hands reaching out to me.

I am far from being perfect and may make
a few mistakes along life's way.
Please, point my mistakes out to me and
show me how to correct the errors that I've
10:34am October 24, 2012

May peace reign in your
life night and day
and may love reign in your
heart always.
9:49am October 24, 2012

Many times I have raised
my Shield of Faith
In times of danger and strife
and my god sent his angels
to spare my life....

Many times I struggled to
bring life into this world
Many times I sink in my sin
and wanted to die

Many times I lost sight
of the light before me and
wondered in life aimlessly.

Many times I sought comfort
in my faith on a stormy day
and my god took mercy on me
and spared me from life's misery.

I alone know the power of the faith
That allows my god to work his
miracles in my life through me.

Their is no faith unless one
truly believes.

Many times I have raised
my Shield of Faith
and asked my god
to help me be strong
enough to
complete the task before me
Never once did my god
not answer my plea..
9:04am October 24, 2012

Sometimes it is better to build a barrier
between love and destiny......
For it is better to release a loved one
than to place them in the middle of life's
Out of sight-but safe in the heart's arms.
3:26pm October 23, 2012

Let this day bring what it will
as I awaken to the morning
for there is nothing in it I fear
except the creator of all things.

I once worried about whether
people liked me or not
lived my life trying to fit in
with other peoples' way of living.

Then one day, I could fit in no more;
to other peoples' reality.
I had to have my own hopes
and dreams-I could not satisfy
everyone-If I was to be true
to me.

Always, there will be this urge in me
to be a part of what is gone
a desire to find a sense of being
in the right place at the right time.

Tho my life is unfolding a part of me
will always sleep in the creases of
the past I leave behind.
8:49AM October 23, 2012

There is nothing more I can say
I set again at the end of the day
looking out at the night
thankful for the day, wondering
what tomorrow will bring-
feeling a sense of peace knowing
my god is watching over everything.

May the world find the same peace
that embraces me.
11:02pm October 22, 2012

There's only a fence between me and my memories
It's hard to leave the past behind
when it lives next door to me
It's hard not to cry looking over the fence
and seeing everything I once cared for
covered with weeds.

There's only a fence between me and my memories
It's hard to think about a tomorrow
When I'm living next door to the place that use
to be my home....when all the good memories are
lost among memories of heartache and sorrow.

It's not easy letting yesterday rest in the past
looking over the fence at the weeds and uncut grass.
But I try to remember that nothing lasts forever
Things change-children grow up---and I'm not the
only one living with yesterday's memories.

There's only a fence between me and my memories
The fence separates yesterday's good and bad times
from today's realities.
It's hard at times just living next door to
where my memories were born.....but the sun don't
shine as often there, and my heart don't live
there anymore.
12:32pm October 22, 2012

What makes a heart care?
Is it the love that is found there?
Can one not love but still care?
The ability to care comes from
deep down inside
It's a heart felt emotion
impossible to hide.
12:11AM October 22, 2012

Wisdom does not come from books
Wisdom comes from what one learns
from experiencing life.

Knowledge does not come from reading
about another's experiences in life
Knowledge comes from living through

Understanding does not come from listening
to other's tell about what their experiences
taught them......
Understanding comes from what one has been
taught from experience.

Wisdom, Knowledge, and understanding
I use to pray for those three things.

All three are obtainable in life
by living every side of life
and paying a very high price.

Wise is he that is wise enough
to see his capability to err.

12:00am October 22, 2012

At times my own words
refreshes my memory
of past things; and I
find myself reliving
forgotten pains.

God, touch my heart
and calm the sea of tears
Let me not forget to always
walk straight ahead
never looking behind
for if I seek out painful
memories-those memories
I will find.

Teach me God to live one
day at a time
And help me leave all my painful
memories far behind.
7:19 PM October 21, 2012

The sun is going done on my tears
night time has found me crying
and there is a sadness in my soul
for someone to tell me everything will
be alright.....

My tears shall dry before morning
and the sun shall rise again
on my faith.
6:49pm October 21, 2012

How many set and ponder life,
while looking out across the sky
and wasting the precious moments
the time, to do and try?

No one has the power to kill your
spirit but you......
No one can make your dreams come true
but you......
No one can live your life for you
but you.

There's beauty to be found
if one will but look at the things
we take for granted every day...
A yellow butterfly sipping nectar
from a red flower on a sunny day...
A child at play...there are so many
beautiful sights one takes for granted
in one's day.

3:07pm October 21, 2012

If not for the tears
I would know not
how to be thankful
for the love that I
carry in my heart....
For, it is through the
tears that I
have the chance
to learn and see life
10:39am October 21 , 2012

Let this day bring what it may
For there is nothing I fear but
my god who's will will be done
long after man's race is run.

In God's hands my life rests
He asks nothing of me but That
I follow my heart in all things
and give life my best.
10:34 am October 21, 2012

A Wintertime Flower

I am a flower that blooms in the wintertime
for lost souls freezing in life's snow
wandering where warmth can be found
wondering which way to go.......

I am a flower destined to the cold; standing
on a snowy hill side where nothing grows.

I am a wintertime flower blooming just for you-
to warm you in your wintertime with love's glow
When your heart is growing cold, and you seek
shelter from life's snow.

10:16am October 21, 2012

I give to you a piece of my heart
The love inside of it belongs to you;
When life threatens to tear you a part
may my love help you through.

For, love is the greatest gift of all
and it takes only a little love to
change a life forever.
2:42pm October 20, 2012

I live with a walking miracle around
me everyday---
And I thank God everyday for the
miracle I call my son.
Never lower your Shield of faith
not even for a day--- because
any time any place ----It all can
be taken away.
2:24pm October 20, 2012

It's time to close the door to my heart
Time to lay down my pen-and stop
living my life in part....... Life goes
by faster than one can dream.......
after awhile one must run to keep up
with life....before its over- and what
was thought to be the beginning was
really only the end.....
2:19pm October 20, 2012

May my dried tears not stain the
hearts of others as they follow
on life's sometime long and
empty road.....

May my heartaches not add an ounce
to another's already burdensome load.

May my life be remembered kindly
by others who seek to understand there

And, may the love I leave behind help
to ease the loneliness that all must
endure if they are to make it safely home.
9:25am October 20, 2012

Every day my life unfolds
as the sun shines down on me
I can see just a little more
clearly-the things drawing
me onward to meet my destiny.
And what I see is bits and
pieces of me resting comfortably
in the hands of lonely souls
traveling aimlessly in search
of love and peace.....
9:14 am October 20, 20121

God, give me the courage to walk
the path that you have set before me;

The insight to see into the things that
you would have me see;

The wisdom to find understanding When
my cup of understanding is empty

God, fill my heart with enough
love to share with others on Life's
And, please, God, always keep your loving
hands firmly on me.
6:23pm October 19, 2012

There are times
I think about
things of yesterday
and cry a tear or two;
Times I long for
happier times
when my life
was overflowing
with good things;
and I had not
known the feel
of a heart broken
in two.

There are times
When I would
give anything
for another chance
to kiss my angel
before God called
her home.....But
these are times
I cannot return to
things I cannot
undo; pieces of
my life that I cannot
put back together
and still find you.

There are times
That try my soul
that tempt me
to stray.....
Times I beg my
god to take
the memory of
losing you away.

Times when I forget
the angel God sent
for you was only
collecting God's loan
and just taking another
angel back home.
5:56pm October 19, 2012

Who will walk this path
called life with me?
Is there not one to hold
my hand when I am
Has my sins been so
great as to adjudge
me unworthy
of one to stand
in the flesh
next to me ....as
I make the journey
My spirit is not alone
still, there is an
emptiness inside
of me...Still ,there is
a yearning to have
someone share
my journey with me.
Still, I am flesh and bone
making the journey alone.
4:37pm October 19, 2012

Feel the stillness in the air
as each breath you take
expels a gentle breeze
called life....

Feel life
in every breath
you take.
10:12am October 19, 2012

What matters to me
may not matter to you
The dreams I dream
you cannot sleep in;
My footsteps are my own
you can not take my steps
You can only follow
in my tracks
After I am gone.
10:08am October 19, 2012

It 's better
The heart be stilled
Than to beat
Out of tune with love.

For, the heart feeds
The soul;

Love feeds the heart;

And empty is he
Who loves not.
12:49am October 19, 2012

If my tears fall far from
where I am;
Let the receiver gently
embrace my tears
with his heart;
and know that my tears
are not to be any
thing more than
a sweet memory of
two lonely souls
who touched upon
life's sweetest treasure
that got carried away
by life's gentle wind.
7:44pm October 18, 2012

Another, no matter the heart
can touch upon my reason for
being. .
Every day, I take a step forward
in life; still, I advance not beyond
the here and now.
7:34pm October 18, 2012

The eye that never tears
has never been touched
by life's reality.
Not all will journey through
life untouched
by heartache and pain
Not all will fall
and not rise again.
Life has many sides
not all will reach
every dead-end.......
Where misery keeps
one company and life
keeps one blind.
Not all shall witness
God's miracles or
find Jesus, their
dearest friend.
For life has twists
and turns that
only the angels
can make straight.
Not all will take the
same path
tho ,which ever way they take
It will take them to the same end.
1:57pm October 18,2012

Life is like a beam of light
shinning brightly
A sparkle in the night.
9:20am October 18, 2012

Today I awoke to a foggy morn
with a sunshine lining;
Tho the morning was dark
There were sunbeams of
heart and love
touching everything.
9:17am October 18, 2012

The little things in life
bring joy to my soul
A bird singing outside
my window-a baby to hold.

It is the little things
I value more than money,
silver or gold.
It is the little things
that put the joy in my soul.

My treasures do not include
things I shall temporarily
hold-----My treasures in life
are those beautiful jewels
those wondering souls
who in passing touch my
life with sunshine on a stormy
day---and give me a part of
their heart to care for and to

It is not things of the
world I seek to find-its the
key to unlock my soul- I shall
find in the heart and not
in treasures of silver and gold.

I live not for the worldly but
for the godly things
the world holds.
12:30pm October 17, 2012

When I was a child I lived
as a child ~
I had a child's dreams ~ and
I loved with a child's pure

As I grew older I took each
step in life more bolder;
And begin to dream of life
of how ,if I could, I would
change life and do away with
all heartache and strife.

Then I loved for the first time
and the child in me that was
was no more.
4:34am October 17, 2012

We live only to die
We smile only to cry
We love only to feel
the loss..
10:16am October 16, 2012

The decision has been made
now I must prepare
my heart for the pain that
is sure to follow
for still those I love
cannot see me
in the light of who I am;
a soul put on earth
to wonder aimlessly
on a course that destiny
prepared for me; a person
in my own right to be; a heart
broken because those I love
look at me through worldly eyes
and think of me as a failure not
deserving of the love I once
carried inside my womb; but
no more will I be ignored by those
who have many time wantonly
whipped my spirit; I will raise
above my pain and take an
unsure step into tomorrow.
8:32am October 16, 2012

I am a heart writer
nothing I write belongs
to me
Tho I write me in every word.

Let those who would use my words
for profit and self gain
know that you rob from
your very soul
and that can not be rewrote

For this life is the testing field
we journey through but once
and in the end

we each shall write our own
ending to our life's song.
7:19am October 16, 2012

Follow your heart; always
follow your heart and love
will follow after you.
6:41am October 16, 2012

Yesterday I faced the enemy
and stood strong against its winds
Today I must stand unmovable
in that wind; that will never seize
to blow against me as long
as I live.
God, give me courage this day
to keep evil at bay; Open
my eyes to your light and send
me on my way....with my shield of
faith raised high
to shield me from another
windy day.
6:37 am October 16, 2012

When the day begins anew
and yesterday has slipped away
with my dreams
May the sun rise and set
on my faith.
May darkness find my lamp still lit
and love still thriving inside
of me;
And may I sleep again in the
presence of the angels who walked
through another day with me.

6:11am October 16, 2012

Life, how many have sought
your secrets to know?
How many tempted souls
have sought to control
your glow?
I seek nothing more than
to make the journey through
this world; and have no need
to steal your secrets
and leave this world
in more darkness
then when I entered in;
For, your secrets must
remain so
that other travelers
might follow the
ways of the few
who fueled your glow
with the light
from their soul.
11:01pm October 15, 2012

Today, I was struck in the heart
by an arrow of hate; from a child
of my womb's own hand. The arrow
was tipped with my child's hate
for me; no deadlier potion could
there be----because it was that
hate that threatened to rip the
heart from me;

If it were your
intention child to let me know
to what degree you hate me---
then I'm burning in my soul; for
I pray that God not let the devil
have you; that he will release
you from the evil's chain; because
no matter how much you hate me;
I love you and would bear your
misery; If my blood is what will
make you happy drain the blood
from me; for, never would my heart
hurt you knowingly.
11:22am October 15, 2012

God, the evil stood at my door clothed inside my child
and my heart was ripped out of me once more.
Please, put your hand on my trembling soul
and send peace back into my world.
9:55am October 15, 2012

There is not a moment
that my heart stops caring;
not a moment
that I do not feel
The tugging on my heart.
6:03am October 15, 2012

Lord, You walk with me
Every day
and I have no doubt
that you will walk with me
the rest of the way.
Long ago ,as a child,
I met you beneath the
waters that had
swallowed` me up
You spoke with me
and the waters
spit me back up . . .
I have never forgotten
that day...when I got
close to Heaven's Light
you gave me a mission-
then turned me away.
You said when the
time come
I would know what
you would have
me do . . .
As I have traveled
in life-there
has not been a day
you haven't sent your
angels to walk me through.
I know the Light still
draws my soul
as it did so long ago
beneath the waters
as I walked through
the valley of death
safely because of you.
Many times my mind
has thought back to
that day; many times
since then I try to
remember what it is
you would have me do.
5:45 am October 15, 2012

How many times O Lord
must I hunger and thirst
in my faith?
I have oftentimes fail to do
the little things in a day
that might lighten
the burdens of another
but Lord always
those little things were
in my heart....I just did not
hear the silent pleas
of my brother.
Give me the inner ear
to hear the longing
in another...Then O Lord
give me the means
to wipe away another's tears.
For, Lord it is not because
my heart's love is void of
caring ;Years have taught me
it is the caring in hearts
that leads lost souls
to a closer walk with thee.
Strengthen me Lord for
I am weak
teach me to reach out
with more love in my
heart; as I struggle
down my own path
to get back to thee.
8:16am October 14, 2012

If you are going to love me
love me not
for who you believe me to be
Love me for being brave enough
to be who I am. . .
11:08pm October 13, 2012

There are no words
that my heart can share
for my mind is wondering
Back to a place in time
I questioned the motives
of others whose
beliefs were different than mine.
I believe that a life some say
is not worth living- has as
much value as mine;
I believe that self determination
is non transferable; that if life
choices are to be made that
only the giver of life has a right
to decide if one lives or dies.
2:42pm October 13, 2012

If I happen upon some
poor soul who needs
a helping hand today
let me give him a little
comfort, by reminding
him that God will always
make a way. . .
That being poor is not
a sin......that many a poor man
has been a rich man's friend.
[2:47 am October 13, 2012]

The night is almost over
as the sounds of quietness
speak out in the dark
and I wait patiently for dawn
to greet me through the
[2:34am October 13, 2012]

When you hold a child in your arms
you hold the future.
1:30pm October 12, 2012

God, help those who seek
understanding to find
that there are some things
that are not meant to be

If we knew everything-would
we our self not be equal to God?
12:32pm October 12, 2012

The tears seem endless
as I strive to make it through
the emptiness.
Where will the river of tears
seize to be; no one can feel the
emptiness but the heart
inside of me.
For God I will endure
For God I will stand alone
in my misery; knowing
that I have peace
through the shield of faith
standing within my reach
10:36am October 12, 2012

The First Ride Without Me

May God's angels build a net of safety
around you as you travel through this day;
and peace rise up to meet you every inch
of the way.

May you look straight into the eyes of
tomorrow--and never look back to today
as the winds of life gently carries you

far from me; beyond my reach; in my heart
I hold you dear child in the hands
of peace and hominy.

Look straight ahead--never look back
knowing always the spirit of my love
travels with you.

My love will always be with you; watching
over you from a far; my love will always
be close enough to touch you night or day
wherever you are.

Never look back to the day life's
journey took you away ..Always look
foreword to the future as you journey safely
through the day.

May God never be far from your side
as you journey on in life.

For, my love will always be by your side
as you travel through life
with the wings of angels around you
on life's long and tiresome ride.
8:31am October 12, 2012

I cannot undo yesterday's mistakes
I cannot erase one day from my life
I cannot take back hurtful words
that were created out of my heart's
pain; and my heart cannot choose
who it will love over again.

Yesterday I did not understand
the importance of the day, until
it was over; and I thought about
the things I should have done and

There were so many hugs I could
have got-so many more I love yous
I could have heard~ if I had only
listened closer to my heart.
3:15am October 12, 2012

When the morning comes
I will enter into a new day;
God, help me not make
the same mistakes twice.
Let the first mistake, if there
is to be one, teach me the
importance of the time that
was wasted on error.
3:03am October 12, 2012

The lessons in life are many
The loads one is sometimes
called on to carry oftentimes
burden the body, soul, and mind.

It is from the weight one
carries in life that
the body stays fit
the soul stays safe
and the mind remains clear
in life's wintertime years.
6:37pm October 11, 2012

This day hearts are breaking
unstoppable tears are falling
which would not be
if only the heart had taken
time to entertain understanding.
[6:14pm October 11, 2012]

If not for my shield of faith
evil's arrows would pierce
my heart beyond repair
and I would fall an empty
vessel of failure in the day
among the vessels used to
destroy my soul.
[8:45am October 11, 2012]

It is those closest to my heart,
my love watches over; for it is from
among these-the enemy will choose
his deadliest weapon ~ against me.
[8:40am October 11, 2012]

I feel the unsettledness in the
air I breathe; I feel the reaching
out of something unseen; I see and
prepare me-for the evil at work-I
feel but cannot see.
[8:27AM October 11, 2012]

My inner thoughts are at war
with outer things; and my heart
morns over what it has found in
the day.
[8:23am October 11, 2012]

It is not the things we cling too
The things we try to hold on too
That give meaning to life
It is those things we let go
amide the tears
knowing something good has
touched our life.
[4:19pm October 10, 2012]

I need not your sympathy ;I have it within my power
to over come any short coming I may have.
God, is not only my god he is all that I am.
[3:51pm October 10, 2012]

You cannot judge me any worse than I have judged myself.
One cannot be certain of many things but one thing's for sure
we are all born to lay the flesh down.
If you judge me, sight unseen
how much better are you than me?
Never judge another~ expecting not to be judged.
[3:40pm October 10, 2012]

Blindly, they hate what they
do not understand; condemn what
does, to them, not fit in; all the while
sleeping under a blanket of ignorance
as innocent, of their wrong doing; as a
mischievous child.
[1:41pm October 10, 20112]

It has always been,
God's Words will stand,
a message bound in love;
Words so simple yet
so great...that none but God
knows when life's sentence begin;
where heaven and hell meet; and
what moment one's life will end.
We strive in life to be
what we choose to be
only one day to awaken
face to face with destiny.
[1:37pm October 10, 2012]

I live by faith in the only god
my soul has ever known
I cling to my faith in my god
as a child clings to a father,
mother, sister, or brother.
I put my god above all else
God is the very air that I breathe.
[11:22am October 10, 2012]

The unwillingness to believe
is the safety key one turns
when they get to close to God.
It is easier for a fool not
to see- than to admit that
God is always in control
of all life's very soul.
[11:16am October 10, 2012]

I have love blindly
with my heart... and
weep my just reward.

One cannot place love into
another's heart-and tell
the heart who to love.

Love passes us by everyday
waiting to be claimed.

[9:59am October 10, 2012]

To understand love
one must understand
one's own heart-And
how is it possible
to grasp the width
and depth of love
provoked emotion?
[9:55am October 10, 2012]

I once sought to find the perfect life
filled with only love
void of heartache and strife
I searched for love and found that
love has two sides;
Love is calm until the heart gets
broken .......Then, love becomes
the center of misery....As it strikes
out at all who would rob it of love's
right to be.
[9:51am October 10, 2012]

When our life is touched by another
it is long remembered
after parting ways.
There is a kindred- ship that we all share;
as different as we are;
we are like minded in so many ways.
Each day holds things many will not see
and others will take for granted.
[9:37am October 10, 2012]

The loneliest times are those days
I think about my life, and realize
that the strangers who played the biggest
part in helping me to reach this point
in my life will never know the part
they had in nourishing my heart.
I'm sure that Heaven has a special
place for those who take the time
to care about those in need of a
caring soul in their life.
I was hurting and you eased my pain
I was a stranger and you treated me
like an old friend . . .
My heart was breaking and
you helped it to mend.
[8:18pm October 9, 2012]

Believe always with thine heart
for even faith has its trickery.
[9:01am October 9, 2012]

all things must meet their end
The word will not be silent
even in the darkness it will
find voice in the shadows of
what once was.

Judge me O world
for I find fault
with thee.
[8:59am October 9, 2012]

Taste the sweetness of the day
for not always will
bitterness fill your plate.
[8:52am October 9, 2012]

The real world rises
in the shadow of yesterday.

One can search the world
and never find happiness
One can search everyday
for someone who can
bring them happiness. . .
And not touch the love
in another's heart.

I search for things with
my heart; things the eyes
cannot see.

[8:43am October 9, 2012]

Each time I triumph over self-pity
I am a step closer to understanding
the cause of my self-created misery.

Reality I can deal with----It's the
memories that are hardest to cope with.

A memory can do more damage than a slap in the face.

It's hard not to judge self-when
we are our own biggest disappointment.

God, I have a tugging at my heart
and I need you to help me endure
the rest of this day.
I can feel the tears pushing against
my eye-lids...Please, God, do not
let the first tear drop fall.

I try so hard to do what's right
but sometimes, I cannot understand
how it can be right if is gonna
break my heart.

No one can see into my heart but you
so I'm asking you God, to give me
the strength to pretend my heart's
not breaking in two.

It just gets lonely sometimes
and all I need is a little more strength
to get me through.
[6:39pm October 8, 2012]

There is nowhere that God is not.
I carry Him always inside my heart.

He has been with me on every journey
Short and long-
It is through His presence in my life
that I am made strong.

There is nowhere that God is not.
I carry Him always inside my heart.
He sets at my table; lays in my bed

He is my food; my pillow of strength;
My candle light; my soul's closest

God was by beginning- God will be my end.

He is my everything - My life belongs to Him.
[9:34am October 8, 2012]

I am not a perfect person, therefore,
not everything I do in life will be done to perfection.
[8:30am October 8, 2012]

My Wonderland

When I was a wee child
all happy and gay
I would laugh and smile
Every single day.

I had my own house
I made from pine straw
I rode my pine tree horse
til my bottom end was raw.

No thief would come around
to bother me
I was prepared, you see,
my trusty wood sword
protected me.

Many a day I played in my
that I built with my own
two hands.

I had everything my young
mind could dream up
even invented a pine cone pup.

Then I out grew my make
believe horse and pup
As time would have it
I grew up!

Things were more simpler
way back then....if something
was missing from my wonderland
I would picture it in my world
and create it from nothing
with my own two little hands.
[1:15am October 8, 2012]

Let me not fall when I stumble
If I fall, let me rise up stronger
for having endured the fall.
Let me not tarry to long in my misery
Let me put those things behind me.
Let me not forget the importance of
others-Let me take all to heart
who pass my way.
Let me not forget the past that
nurtured me-but the bitterness
Let me leave behind.
[11:17pm October 7, 2012]

The air is thick with thoughts my heart tries
to capture in words, as the thunder outside
calls my attention to the pending storm
that is making its way to my door... For now, the words
must wait to be found-until after the rain.
[10:59pm October 7, 2012]

The heart of one encompasses the hearts of all.....
For there is but one heart beat that moves the world.
One love the soul seeks to return too.
One breath that blew life into one and is shared by me and you.

[11:51am October 7, 2012]

Judge Not

It hurts when strangers
judge blindly one they
don't care to know . . .

It hurts to be shut out
because of how you look
what you can't afford
how you choose to live
the day.

But those who would judge
another on looks, manner,
style- have no class and
God's test will never pass.

Those who would judge you
by your ability to fit in
their circle of things will
never earn their angel wings.

Those who would judge you
because you don't fit their
worthy person mold are
in danger of losing their very soul.

God gives us the choice
of who our heart chooses to
accept as foe or friend
then lets us decide which gate
we will enter in.

[9:45am October 7, 2012]

Be still my heart . . .

Tonight, I found no words to share,
and I knew- silence needed time.
[12:10am October 7, 2012]

I was lost and God found me
I was in mortal pain and God
healed me.
I needed a friend and God sent
His son to tarry with me.
When I could see nothing but darkness
Jesus lit His light for me.
[6:58am October 6, 2012]

As I step into my today, God,
give me your lantern of understanding
to light my way.
Place love in my heart; strength in my
hands; and enough courage in my spirit
to face any evil that comes my way.
[6:48am October 6, 2012]

The stillness touches me with its peace
and lets me know all is well in my world.
[6:41am October 6, 2012]

I reached out my hand
and could not reach you
I reached out my heart and
drew you closer to me.
[9:42AM October 5, 2012]

Hold high your Shield of Faith

Only God be the judge that deserves
my love, respect and fear
Tho this world finds me unworthy
my faith rest with Him.

For the world is the courtroom
I enter every day.
And God is the judge who will have
the final say.
[8:06 October 5, 2012]

My life is nothing more than an
illusion of yesterday's dream
that I nurture with my heart everyday.
[7:52am October 5, 2012]

Our souls are tested every day

As the cloudy morn blankets my path with
morning dew-and I give thought to the
silence outside - the feel of a presences
greater than the spirit in me
reached out and engulfed the very air
that I breathe~ and opened th things
of the day for me.
[7:44am October 5, 2012]

I awoke to the new day to find yesterday's
reality still here with me
and wiped a tear from my eye . . .
[7:37 am October 5, 2012]

We are the essences of everything
and nothing-We are but we are not
creatures of the day- creatures of dark.

The night has covered the day
and all things of yesterday.

And another day in my life has met
its end, as into tomorrow
I enter in.
[9:56pm October 4, 2012]


God I walk again through your day
looking beyond the clouds of my destiny
to where eternal peace lay.

Guide me God to do your will
in everything I do~ let it be for you.

If pain is to be my lot
let me endure whatever life inflicts on my heart
For I know you have never left me to endure
the pain alone.

And, life shall tempt my heart and soul
to stray as ~ I travel the long journey home.

God, give me in this day the tools that I need
as I, after a peaceful night's rest, journey on my way.
[7:52am October 3, 2012]

Take Nothing for Granted

I do not know what tomorrow
will bring
When I awaken in the morn
Or if I shall see another light of day
But yesterday's sorrow
tho faded, remains a reminder
that the important things in the day
may not be in my tomorrow.
For, once I took for granted
the love that lived in my today
and in the twinkling of an eye
a piece of my heart was taken away.
[2:17am October 1, 2012]

How can one not see
with the heart, the very breath
of life?
Some see with the eyes
others see with their hearts
few see with both at the same
[10:53am September 30, 2012]

My Life
I die a little every day
engulfed by yesterday's
life sentence on me.....
While my life has been
so full-
today that fullness was only
a dream.
I lived the life that I
was given ...only
to awaken and find
all that I thought was living
was nothing more than
illusions that I formed
with my mind.
What we are deep inside
we can hide, from
all but God.
I will live the day that
God has given to me
but no longer will
I base my life on
yesterday's dream.
12:37pm September 29, 2012

There are loneliness everywhere
everywhere a heart is breaking
and someone thinks 'no one cares.'
Everywhere a life is spent. No time
left, except for the tears.
[12:22pm September 29, 2012]


God, on this day give me the strength and wisdom
to know and walk the right way.

When I come face to face with confusion and strife
give me the understanding that I need to move on
with my life . . .

When I find in my day a situation that brings tears
to my eyes, and cry out in silence- let me find the
courage in my heart to remember that love has the
power to overcome all things.

God, After I have made it safely through the day
Let me not for get as I lay me down to sleep, that
Just as you are my day's light; you are my guardian
and comforter in my night. Amen

[written 9:30am September 29,2012]

I emptied out
my heart again
reaching out
while trying to
hang on to the
wrong thing --

That wrong thing
was a heart
that would
know me not
Tho we touched
so gently-

A heart
that tasted
my love
before so
passing me

A heart - a
searching heart
that knew not
what it had found.
[7:59am, September 28, 2012]

Time has a way
of slipping away
and leaving
those we loved
so dearly
[8:03 am September 2012]

God, come and walk with me
another mile or two
Life's clouds abound
and my day again
depends so much on you.

Tho the sun is shining
in my world today
I feel a threat somewhere
in it- waiting to take my
sunshine away.
[8:06 am September 28, 2012]

No one can see what lay
beneath the clouds of life
except those in the midst
of the storm....

Take my life in your hands
O LORD, keep me safe once
more from life's storms.
[8:25am September 28, 2012]

My flesh craves to know flesh
my spirit yearns to know only
you LORD. [8:27AM September 28, 2012]

There are no words left
inside my heart...........
I have poured out my heart
drained it of its memories
the ones that for so long
were locked away
inside of me.
and your glass be filled
with love and happiness always
7:53am September 25, 2012

I have known many sides of life
met every kind of person
from every walk of life
and found that each were
searching for the something
but in different directions.

I lost my way for a little while
among dreams of music, song,
and allusions of flowers and

The Same Journey

We are all born to live and die ...
To face life head on fearlessly
or to give up and seize to try. . .

To dream of a life that could be
or strive to make a dream a reality.

To feel only the pains that living brings
or to taste the sweetness in life that
we can find in so many things.

We are all born innocent only to die with
our sins

We are all born to love and be loved
time and time again.

We are all born into a world-where one day we
will part
taking with us only the memories of those
we love -imbedded deep inside of our stilled - heart.

There is a time for everything under the sun
We are only running life's race that others
have already run.
[written 10:02am September 21, 2012]

Hurtful Words

I used the words 'hate
and 'feel sorry for'
in describing my feelings

I hate no one; not those
who have ever hurt me
or those who may choose to
be my enemy.

Sometimes others do not
realize the many ways
they've touched another's

They never allow themselves
to get caught up in another's
pain....or to see the tears
that some wipe away time
and time again.

After saying those things
I took the matter to heart:

It's easy to say things
in the wrong way
when you allow the past
to dictate what you say
in the day.
[written 9:03 am, September 21, 2012]

Life's Stormy Seas

My heart has been touched
by the hearts of many a
drifting soul ,while
struggling to survive
the raging storms of life.

if not for the caring hearts
of the strangers sent my way
- I would have surely
lost my very soul- in life's
stormy seas of heartache and
worldly strife.

I have swam life's oceans
tasted Life's seas
walked on life's lonely
beaches and drifted down
life's gentle streams
and am here today
because of the love others
found in their hearts for me.

[written 7:55pm September 20, 2012]

Love is Never Wasted

We each have our needs, our hopes, and a burning
desire to warm by love's burning fire. . .
We each have things we want to forget that burns
away at us from the inside.....things that cause
us to choose wrongly-because we have been our own
worst judge.

We each have our own roads in life to journey down
There are no short cuts or turning around
Often times our lonely souls in passing are drawn
together, long enough for us to feel the warmth
from the heart of the other.

I know not what is in another heart but many
times while stumbling down life's road, I have
felt the warmth of human compassion from many
a heart.

Love is never wasted-regardless of who we give our
love too....and you never know, one day ,in passing,
someone may return that love to you.
[written 12:10am September 20, 2012]

Never give up on finding love

When we are young and know
love for the first time
We just know our heart will
never love another.

When we are semi-young
and have given our heart away
a time or two.....
We just know that love is not
enough to keep two people

When we are semi-old, caught
up in dreams of love more
than loves reality....
We just know love, how love
was, how love is not
suppose to be, and how

love might have been..

When we are old and have
loved for the last time
We just know we will never
love again.

Never give up on finding love
the kind of love that knows
no end.

for only when a lifetime ends
has there been a heart
that can never love again.

[written 12:33pm September 19, 2012]

A Mending Heart

I set here knowing God's angels
are watching over me
With heaviness in my heart . . .
I did not know
way back then, in yesterdays
gone by, that today I would be
alone, gazing out my window
at clouds drifting slowly
across the sky ....
Feeling so lonely............
Feeling so blue, because my
heart would have it this way
For all the love my heart has
known, so little left. the rest
is gone. Passed with another day.

I did not know the touch of
love could leave a heart so sad
I did never think, I would see
such a lonely day again.

I thought my heart was above
being hurt by love, because I
have always believed love to be a healer
of hearts, a mender of those broken
hearts who believed they would never
love again.

Looking outside at my world today
with eyes to see beyond what lay
outside my own self created world
I feel the need in the world for love.

And, the helplessness in me, to meet
loves ever wanting need.

My heart reaches out through the
window pane but none can touch me
through the glass.
[written 11:42 am September 19, 2012]

"Never doubt your own worth.
If you doubt your self
others will too."

Letting Go

Some say that love can
over come anything
If two people love each other,
They should be together.
This isn't always true
Love cannot turn back time
erase from ones face
years of hard earned lines . . .
Love cannot change the hand
that fate dealt, change destiny
or control that which was
never meant to be.
[written 7:07 pm September 18, 20112

Dream On

It never hurts to dream
of the way you want things
to be ... as long as you
realize, some dreams are
not meant to come true.

Hang on to those childhood
dreams never give them up
never let them go -keep on
searching for the pot of
gold at the end of the

It never hurts to wish
upon a shooting star
or carry a four leaf clover
in your pocket, as long
as you don't forget
life is what you make
of it.
[written 3:40 pm September 17, 2012]

I Know, Now

God, the time is slipping away
and I feel the fullness and
the emptiness in the day.

There are so many little things
I have a yearning in my heart
to do but everything in my life
comes second to you.

When I was a child, innocent
in the ways of life, you appointed
me an angel to shield me from
harm and strife.

As I grew older a lots of mistakes
were made, on my part-
I really had no excuse, except,
I was only following my heart.

I would like to think I have
served you well, but that's
wishful thinking on my part
I took life as you gave it to me
straight to heart.

Now, that you have showed me
sides of life that many lives
have been blessed never to see,
and given me the strength to endue
the hardships that have befallen me,
I want you to know, I understand now
why my life is so full, and yet
so empty.

It had to be filled and emptied out
There was no living half way
Because of the good and the bad in my
life-I am who I am today.

[11:05am September 17, 2012]

Oh, to set on a hillside among the wildflowers
put aside the outside world and breathe in
the fragrances of nature ,with no thoughts
of where life might take me, or flashing memories
of where in life I have already been.

To release all the built up negative emotions inside
of me out into the gentle breeze, and replace those
feelings with life's more positive feeling that being
one with nature brings . . .

If, only, I could find the flower covered hill, and fall
asleep where butterflies play, with daisies surrounding
the spot where two lovers lay. . .holding in my
hand wildflowers of every kind and hue; singing in my
heart a love song just for you.

[written 10:24am September 16, 2012]


The moments are all that matter
The moments are all that count...
For life comes with no promise
of a next breath beyond
the moment we are in.

Yesterdays are moments gone
left behind the things that might have been
for the things in the moment
that we are living in . . .

Waste not the moments in the day
on pondering what was and what
might be in a tomorrow
that might be taken away.

Be thankful for the moments
as they are the only
promise life has made.
[written 1:37pm September 14, 2012]

Childhood Memories

Today, I got to thinking about my life
and all the days that have come and went
and I tried to figure out where
all my time was spent.

I begin when I was a child
before I knew evil
and everything to me was heaven sent.

I thought about my family:
my mama, my daddy, my brothers and sisters;
all those who shared my childhood with me,
and I took those memories to heart . . .

For, you see, it has been many years since
I was a child and many family members
have died and others have just drifted apart.

As happy as those days were for me way back then,
I wouldn't want to live it over,
because I couldn't take losing my family again.

God, I know that everything has a purpose;
I know I'm not the only one who
has lost loved ones to death ,and life.
I know that tears do not belong to me alone
but sometime memories over power my heart to no end
and it really makes me feel like
all those wonderful people from my childhood
have touched my heart
with the warmth of their memories
and left me all over again.

[written 1:19am September 14, 2012]

Why share your tears with others -
when they have enough of their own?

"I sought to reach the stars and moon
only to get caught up in night's darkness.
I looked to find what was not lost
only to lose what I had.
I felt for love inside my heart
and found my love resides with you."
- Heartsong 8-28-2012

True Friendship

A friend is one who
sees beyond the
outer you.

hears beyond the
things you say.

tastes the spirit
of your heart's love
every day.

smells friendship
with each breath
he draws in . . .

Touches your heart
with love

And just knows
without you telling
him . . .
That you are hurting
and need a friend.

10:36am June 6, 2012

An Angel With New Legs

God, Did you see the Angel at your Gate
yesterday . . .
I want to make sure he got there on
both legs and nothing happened to
him on the way.
For you see God this is a special angel
in so many ways.....

Down here he lost both of his legs
and lived out his life hooked to invisible
chains....of which he never complained.

It's because of the special place
this angel holds in my heart
that I write this message to you
with faith that he made it through your
gate and is enjoying his new legs today.

He lay long here on earth and watched
others play.....
When he stands before you
Could you just let him know I am happy that
he made it through and I pray,
I will get to walk and talk with him
in heaven one day.

You know God, maybe if I let you know
he's really missed down here below-
from time to time you'll let him
walk through our hearts so we will know
that he's ok and can feel the warmth
of his angel glow.

10:46 am June12, 2012

A Look At Me
God, I need a friend today to help me understand
Why my life is this way . . .

I awaken everyday alone, except for you, and
take up my shield of faith to carry me through

but today you lay it on my heart
to let the world take a closer look at me.

You know my every thought-but strangers
only see what I want them to see......

They do not see me struggling in the day
just to survive hard times
or the hurtful thoughts that enter and
leave my mind;

that's because it has
always been hard for me to show the weak
side of me.

No one is perfect-No one is good all the time
I cannot control another's world
but I have long controlled mine.

I seek not to ease my pain; I seek only
to ease the pain of another---- for my pain
is one of loss and emptiness; a void- un-fill-able.
And only God has the power my pain to ease.

We all have our loves and our losses- my losses
allows me to understand another's need.

As I drink my beer, and open my heart to a world
so full of need- I pray that my god will see into the heart of me,
as I beg my god to place understanding within my reach.
[October 6, 2012]

There Will always be a Void
in my life
For a mother's job
does not end
When her child's
life begins.....

A mother don't just
She is part of
God's great plan.

My daughter's dying was
the ultimate test of the faith
that I had lived- by long

before it came my child's
time to die.

God, gave me a blessing
when he
made me a mother

He made me someone
special in my child's eyes
and gave me a lot of
wonderful years
I would not have had
if I had never felt the tiny
heart beat,
that beat inside.

When she was inside of me
she brought my
heart joy.....

when she walked
next to me
my child always
made me
feel special . . .

When she left me
in this life
she left me
with her precious

[written 3:30pm September 23, 2012]

Door of Separation

There are many kinds
of people in the world.

None are good all the
time and none are bad
all the time . . .

Some cry while others
smile . . .
Some lead seemingly
full lives . . .
While other lives are
empty . . .
Some dream of things to
come . . .
Others morn for things
come and gone.

There are many kinds
of heartache . . .
Heartache inflicted by
others and heartache
we help to make.

As different as we are
on the outside
Inside us all is a beating
heart and the desire
to be all that we can be
in a world of conflict where
strangers are thought to be
the enemy.

When you close your door
to a stranger you add a brick
to the wall of separation
that has long plagued humanity.
9:37am August 10, 2012

The Inner Spirit

I live day by day as best as I can
When hardships get in my way
I ask God to help me understand.

Clinging to my shield of faith,
I pull myself out of the pit of
heartache and sorrow
Knowing God will be waiting,
As he was yesterday and today,
to help me through another

I can bear the unbearable
because there is nothing impossible
to obtain, overcome or be
as long as I keep my glass of life
filled with faith in my god
who watches over and
walks through this life with me.

Our Time

Thank you, for the times
and the moments you
touched my heart.

You will never know
the place you
will always
hold in my heart.

Were you real
or just a passing dream.
I may never know.

But during those

precious moments
lives touched
and hearts
opened wide to let
love inside

I felt in my heart
that our love was real
and not for
just a moment
but for a life time
I would be your love
and you-
would always be mine.

Wherever you are
in dream or reality
I want to thank you
for those loved filled

Thank you for the
moments you
touched my heart.

Tho, much to soon
We had to part
Let me say,
one last time

"I love you"
and I cherish the time
that was yours
and mine.


The Waiting Would End

Tonight as I lay sleeping
dreaming of places I have
never been...
You visited me in my dreams

And you held me close to
your heart....
And I cling to you never
wanting to let you go
again. Never wanting again
to be apart.

It was so real the feel of
you next to me.....If I had
power over my dreams, I would
have lived in my dream with you
for all eternity....
the wait for you my
love would come to and end
And I would never have to
search for you again.

10:51pm 4-20-2012

Meet My Mama

My 'Mama' was nineteen when
she first held me in her arms
When things placed me in danger
It was Mama who kept me from

My Mama had a hard life, yet she
never complained . . . She always
looked for the sunshine, even
in the rain.

My Mama spent her lifetime
watching over her children- even
from afar she kept track of them.

My Mama lost her one true love
When he was only fifty-two
A lot of hearts got broken but Mama
was there to help us through.

Twelve years after I lost my daddy
I lost my Mama too.

The driver went to sleep at the wheel
what else can I say.......
Heaven gained another angel but
I lost my Mama that day.

(written 12:25pm 5-11-2012)

'If you have a mama, and she is living
today, let her know you appreciate her
for always being there for you . . . So
quickly, she can be taken away.'

Happy Mother's Day!

My Heart Chose You

My Love for you lingers
like the scent of the rose

But how can this be when
you have not been close
enough for my arms to
embrace . . .
Or my lips to kiss?

How can one miss
the lover one has
never known?

My hearts loves you
as surely as I breathe
Dare I think you
to be more than just
a dream?

Can a lover who
is not
put such chains
around my heart?

Dare I to believe
that soon you will come
to me
And my need for a
taste of your love
be satisfied . . . in

My Love for you lingers
like the scent of the rose
Wherever you are my
love . . .You are the one
my heart has chose.

8:14pm 5-7-2012

If In The Day

If in the day I meet
a hungry man
and share my food
not with him

Let it be only because
I have none.

If in the day I meet
one in need of a place
to rest his head
and offer him not a
place to sleep

Let it because I have
no bed.

If in the day I meet
a stranger in need of
a friend
and do not offer my
self as his friend

Let it be because
I am blind and did not
see him.

6:09pm 5/4/2012

The Doorway to Heaven

When I reach the doorway
that leads to eternity
May my last thoughts be
of the first time
Jesus walked with me.

For in His presents
There was peace
There was hope
There was love
Unending . . .
There was
Forgiveness . . .

And His promise
That he would
Walk with me.

8:48am May 1, 2012

The Young Girl's Dream

A young girl once dreamt of how perfect her life would be if when she grew up she would
fall in love, marry and have a dozen children. Though not from a rich family the one
she had was rich in love. For many years the young girl dreamt of how perfect her life
would be . . .

Then the girl of sixteen changed into a woman who tried to fulfill her dream. She
married her neighbor's son. Both much too young. After spending too much time alone
with only herself, the marriage fell into dismay. Reality wandered in. After years of
being together, their close lives came to an end. Torn up inside at her failure to make
her dream come true, the woman chose to settle for the dreams of others. She was
willing to settle for a part of her dream. The children she birthed became her dream
her everything.

Hard years changed the young girl into a woman . She raised the children she loved and
adored; left the part of her dream that had never come true; and then found herself
alone. Alone on many a day and many a long night. Now her childhood dream lay in ashes
at her feet, the woman came face-to-face with her life's realities. She was to blame.

Then, by the grace of God, the woman's life begin to change. She looked around her and
started counting all the blessings that remained part of her daily life and knew that
part of her childhood dream had come true. Children's laughter could still be heard in
her day.

Moral of the story: Stops feeling sorry for yourself and count your blessings.
12:01pm April 29, 2012

Live Life With Heart

Today I took a look at me
and decided to write the
scene in poetry......

Growing old sure is rough
to survive the process
One must be tough.

Thank God he taught me
years ago that ones
truest beauty rests down
deep inside ones soul.

That when lines appear
with the years
that life is not coming
to an end-its only preparing
itself to be born again.

That being old is something
the inner spirit will never know
and the outer flesh when faded
-will remember not.

We are never alone in pain,
sorrow, loneliness and misery
what one experiences in life
others have experienced...

Be proud of who you are
regardless of your age and
forget not:

The way to survive marks of time
is to live life with heart.

11:29am 4-17-2012

Dear God

Dear God,
All my life through I have lived
life in search of the mission
you picked out for me.....
Sure, I know I made a lot of
stops on life's highway.....
And always left a stop with enough
love to carry me on....
I left pieces of my heart in every
place I've ever been, knowing
my love could never be reclaimed
again.....Knowing with every bit of
love I left behind...I had left for
another to find...I left a part of

God, I have always accepted my
fate in life as some part of your
great plan...I lived in the day.. and
loved those who shared the day
with me...but always God there was
a tugging at my heart, I somehow
always knew you had left me in
this world because you had something
for me to do. But when will this ever
end....God, I know there are a lot
of of lonely souls-who just a little
love could really brightness their
worlds, and I wish that I could light
a fire in their lives for you....But I
live in the worldly, and get pretty
weak at times, and without some
directions from you...I'm not sure
I'm worthy of the trust you give to me,
or even fit to swim in the Light of You.

So, God, I hope you see fit to once
more give me the tools I so desperately
need to continue in this world to
plant your love's seed......because
I know I can do anything as long as I
have You to help me through. Amen

4-12-2012 (9:27am)

In my life God is King

I get up in the morning
look around me
and say 'thank you God
for the day. thank you
for everything.'
I rise up in the morn
knowing all that faces
me in the day
are the things that were
prepared for me.

And when the day is done
I know when I lay down
at night God's angels
sleep with me.

For my god I live and
I shall die.

For my god is my day
My god is my everything.
My Lord, my Savior
and my King.

Our Time

Thank you, for the times
and the moments you
touched my heart.

You will never know
the place you
will always
hold in my heart.

Were you real
or just a passing dream.
I may never know.

But during those
precious moments
lives touched
and hearts
opened wide to let
love inside

I felt in my heart
that our love was real
and not for
just a moment
but for a life time
I would be your love
and you-
would always be mine.

Wherever you are
in dream or reality
I want to thank you

For those loved filled

Thank you for the
moments you
touched my heart.

Tho, much to soon
We had to part
Let me say,
one last time

'I love you'

And I cherish the time
that was yours
and mine.

What Drives A Hurting Heart?

When your life is touched by
another's tears
another's fears
another's hurting
that evolved in
their passing years...

Try not to judge them
to harshly
Sometimes the passing
of two opposites
is a blessing wrapped
in another's humanness.

Sometimes God uses
the least among men
to teach others
that it is not
money and fame
that moves the world

It is one's ability
to see beyond one's
pain, with
an understanding heart.

For, a person who
has judged self - to a life
of loneliness
Cannot weaken in
that judgment
as long as he can find
to keep locked
the chains around
his heart.

A Special Kind of Love

If I am willing to love
you the stranger
as my Jesus
instructs me to do

Than you must
understand the kind
of love that I offer you.
My Jesus died on the
Cross for me.

It took a special kind
of love For Jesus to hang
up there and bear the pain
inflicted on him
at Calvary.

So the love I show
toward you dear stranger
is so little amount
compared to the love
My Lord Jesus
passed on to me.




My God Who

My god who is in heaven
How wise and forgiving you are:
From your throne, hidden by
The stars at night and the sun
In the day; you still find the
Time to light my way.

My god who lives and
Works through me
How loving and forgiving you are
Through my heart, hidden by
The flesh and worldly, you
Nurture my soul, and gently
Move me closer to my star.

My god who holds the keys
To life and death in his hands
And the keys to all good things
How barren my life would be
How empty my soul would be
Without you who sent your son
to live and die for me ~

My God! My God! Who knew me
before I was born, I give thanks
to thee... for sending your son
Jesus to walk through life with me.

[8:35 am, January 15, 2011]

That's Americans

A bit of good and bad thrown together
in the melting pot of this great land...
That's Americans......

A mixture of blood representing every land...
That's Americans......

A mixture of yesterdays high ideas
mixed in with tomorrow's dreams....
That's Americans...

A peace loving people, one and all
united we stand divided we fall...
That's Americans.......

Over the years that have come on gone
Many have left country and home
to fight wars in foreign lands...to plant
seeds of liberty with their American hands.

'Give me liberty or give me death' is now
another's cry from across the sea......


For as long as an American breathes
there will be a champion of his liberty.

[Written by Janice Sanford- August 8, 2011]

A Day

A day is what surrounds
the moment I am in
A day has within it moments past
and moments that have not been.

A day contains memories of old
and hopes anew.
A day gives to me a moment at a time
to get through.

The day is tomorrow's moments
except for the moment I enter in
and leave behind
never to enter again.....

By JanSanford61
© 2011 JanSanford61 (All rights reserved)

Precious Loans

There comes a time in every life
when the death of a loved one
leaves the heart broken.....

Some say in time ones heart
will mend.... the loss will get
easier to bear......

I am here to tell you my friend
that the death of a loved one
leaves its own kind of pain...

and its the kind that time can't

One can learn to look at the
empty chair ...
without bursting into tears....

..and with the passing years
one can learn to smile
while walking life's lonely miles.

But losing someone dear can
teach us to treasure the loved
ones standing next to us-

if we can only grasp, and believe
with all our heart.... that

None will be left behind-

None live forever

We are all passing through
on our way back to heaven

Where our loved ones will
gather at the gates to heaven
with outreached arms-to welcome
us in.....

At heaven's gate you wait for me
Angels of my own
To hug and squeeze me tight
and welcome me home....

Until we meet again, with faith,
in the shadows of your memories
I shall never cease to thank God
for His precious loans.
By JanSanford61
© 2011 JanSanford61 (All rights reserved)

Jan's Thoughts on Friendship

When every man learns the value
of life, friendship and honesty
When every heart is filled with
love anew.......
When every thought turns toward
the right and leaves the wrong behind

When every human learns to value
humanity-liars will cease to be and
will flee ...
in the face of truth and honesty.

For even the liar seeks truth
Just as the loveless seek to know love
in the face of defeat.

Why add to life a lie to cloud ones way
when honesty and truth in others
is what one seeks.

There is something about a lie that eats
away at the soul of the liar....

If one seeks honesty with an honest heart
from honesty his lips will not depart.

My biggest disappointments in life came
from the lips of deceit ......

The best way to make a friend is to be a friend.
The best way to keep a friend is to stay a friend....

Friendship is a product of the heart.

By JanSanford61
© 2011 JanSanford61 (All rights reserved)

A Minute of Silence

The United States of America's mother
Country had its own kings and queens.......
And from the country on the other side of the
sea came the American dream.

The King and Queen of Norway wept openly today,
as an Americans I must ask myself
When the tributes was held where was the USA?

It cost nothing to show the rest of the world
that Americans,

A nation of people who lost thousands from a terrorist attack
from within,

Still processes enough heart to feel shock and compassion
for the tragedy that struck Norway

And a nation of people thousands of miles away..

A minute of silence......................

from an American.

By JanSanford61
© 2011 JanSanford61 (All rights reserved)

Don't Look Back

Don't look back to yesterdays
that caused you hurt and pain
be thankful for the day
and the wisdom gained.

Don't look back to yesterday's
trying times; those times that tested your
faith beyond some's comprehension;
those times that broke your heart; and
those times that tested you deep down
in your soul.

Don't look back to yesterdays
that caused you hurt and pain
be thankful for the day
and the wisdom gained.

Don't look back to yesterdays, with sorrow
Look ahead to the better times
that await you in tomorrow.

By JanSanford61
© 2011 JanSanford61 (All rights reserved)

Memories of You

My Dearest Love, as I sit here alone
thinking of you, and years long gone,
I turn out the light and turn memories
of you on.

I remember the way you looked
at me when you thought I wasn't looking
I remember the love I saw in your eyes.

I remember your feel as you reached
out to touch me just to tell me how much
you loved me...and how your touch burned
into the heart of me.

I remember everything about you that in
the night time of my life lit up my world.

Your smile, knowing I wanted you so
Your laughter still rings in my ear.

I remember, above all else , our love
and what it felt like having you as the
other half of me.

My Dearest Love, as I sit here alone
thinking of you, and years long gone,
I turn out the light and turn memories
of you on.

And watching a candle burn, I can still
see your face looking at me through its
flame, and my heart aches for you, knowing,
when the candle burns out, I will be alone
with just your memory again.

By JanSanford61
© 2011 JanSanford61 (All rights reserved)

The Circle of my Life

From my mother's womb
I begin my journey around
the circle of life...

I rolled with the falls
enduring life's strife...

I stumbled on the little
things life placed in my way
to cause me tears
on the sunniest day.

Blindly I walked the path
my faith lay for me...
Often alone except for
Jesus who walked the path
with me.

The circle of life that
belongs to me
begin in heaven the
moment I came to be.

When my circle of life
is complete
I will stand at the gates
to Heaven, where yesterdays
and tomorrows meet.
By JanSanford61
© 2011 JanSanford61 (All rights reserved)

Some Things

Some things are not meant to be
tho we would have things our way
Life is a mystery
that unfolds day by day.

Some things are meant to be
like the birth of a child
who gives us all the love
in their heart one day,
and on another day
takes some of that love
away to give to another.

Some things just happen
when life gets out of control
and we lose our way
that leaves us in wonder
at what can happen in just
one day.

Some things just happen
along life's way
but nothing happens without
purpose they say.

Some things that happen
along life's way
just serve to make us stronger
so we can survive another day.

Some things are not meant to be
tho we would have things our way
Life is a mystery
that unfolds day by day.

By JanSanford61
© 2011 JanSanford61 (All rights reserved)

My Regrets

I regret every precious moment wasted in self-pity
I regret every unkind word that ever left me
I regret not using my life time more unselfishly
I regret the times I could have held a loved one
close but did not......
I regret not living my life with more heart
I regret many things done and said in yesteryear
I regret causing my loved ones' tears.

But most of all, I regret that I cannot go back
and make a lifetime of mistakes disappear.
By JanSanford61
© 2011 JanSanford61 (All rights reserved)

Rose of My Dreams

When I lay down at night
in my empty bed alone
I sleep with you in my
dreams until the night
is gone.

The peace I seek
comes from thee
The one who shares
this dream with me...

Tho we have never
spoken; nor have
our eyes ever met.....

I know you crave
the beauty that
lays with love just
beyond your reach

And yearn for the dream
to soon come true
Just as I do...my love
Just as I do.

Until we are together
I shall dream of you
and how beautiful life
would be...if our dreams
came true and you shared
true love with me.

You are the rose of my
dreams that drinks in the
rain of my unfulfilled love.

My love, I wait for you
to make my dream come
true, in life's river of dreams,
I share my love with you.

By JanSanford61
© 2011 JanSanford61 (All rights reserved)

USA Has My Heart

The USA has my heart
of all nations here on earth

Born from the dreams of men
whose deeds and actions
gave her worth....

Born from the sweat of
the first Americans

Nurtured with the blood
of the pioneers who toiled
that future Americans might
prosper in the coming years.

Made stronger by the grace
of the first Americans' god who
shined his light on the USA
That all Americans might
worship in his or her own way.

The USA has my heart
of all nations here on earth

Born from the dreams of men
whose deeds and actions
gave her worth....

One nation under God
was the USA's beginning
And this American has no doubt
One nation under God is destined
to be America's end.

Long may her colors fly!

By JanSanford61
© 2011 JanSanford61 (All rights reserved)

In My Heart

When the years
finds me gray and old
I will still love you and
remember a love more
precious than silver and

My heart still belongs to
only you
Tho the years fade into
And in life we parted ways
I still love you for loving me
when I needed love to
help me through the days.

There is a place in my heart
that belongs to only you.....
Together or apart
the love we shared lives on
in my heart.

I love you more today than
yesterday....and there is no
doubt in my heart or mind
that I shall love you
more every day, until the
end of time.

By JanSanford61
© 2011 JanSanford61 (All rights reserved)

Less Time Left

There are so many yesterdays
and a little less left of tomorrow.
So many memories
filled with happiness and sorrow, and
a little less time left to reach for your

Worry not, of what will be tomorrow
Live the day with heart
live to the fullest the day....Savor the
moments that ,much to soon, fade into
memories of yesterday.

Once time is gone from your life-its
gone....There is no going back ...
And once you have lived your life,
there will be no more time left for you
to borrow.
By JanSanford61
© 2011 JanSanford61 (All rights reserved)

Enemy of Liberty

The time has come
for Americans to stand
against aggression
that stems from within....

Time to weed out the
freedom suckers
who drain the life from
the principals and the
idea of 'equality among men'
Americans have fought so
hard to defend......

Wake up America
the enemies of liberty for all
are no longer knockin on
your door....
they are now
working from within..

What started out innocent
enough and made itself
appear it was made of the
right stuff...is nothing
like we thought it to be
it stands today the biggest threat
to our liberty.
and if we don't get out from
under its threat
It will suck the life from
the liberty tree...

The United Nations is not an event,
The United Nations didn't just occur.
The United Nations is an organization
that was put into operation
to suck liberty from every freedom
loving nation.

Get us out of the UN
the take over of the world
has already begin.

No longer can we set back and
enjoy liberty without putting
safeguards in place to protect
the liberty tree.....

No longer can our soldiers fight
aggression on their own
they need some help from home..
or the day will come my fellow
Americans we will all be thrown
into a war in which we are forced
to fight our own, again.

Wake up America
the enemies of liberty for all
are no longer knockin on
your door....
They are now
working from within..

Get us out of the UN!
The take over of the world
has already begin.

By JanSanford61
© 2011 JanSanford61 (All rights reserved)

My Dear Country

My dear Country...
For two hundred thirty five years you
have led the way to liberty's door
and welcomed millions to your shore.

You have stood a beacon of hope
A land where dreams come true
For millions and millions more

Since the First Americans proclaimed
Their independence over two hundred
Years ago.

You have nurtured the hearts and
Souls of Americans young and old
And your splendor in a world gone
A stray- has never lost its glow.

Your spacious sky, purple mountains,
And shining seas are still there to
Remind us of those brave Americans
Who put the cause of liberty and justice

My dear country......
Under your banner of red, white, and
Blue, slaves were set free.
And women gained equal rights to liberty.

In the light of Lady Liberty strangers
Have adopted you as their own country
And swore to defend you at any cost
To die for you if need be.

Tho you my dear country are not
Perfect in every way you are still the land
Of our Forefathers; the land Americans
Poured their blood, sweat, tears, and
Prayers into, to build you up so grand.

Americans cherish the liberty we
Possess every night and day....
And in out American hearts we know
There is no other country in the world
Like the USA.

Let every American stand to honor this
Great land this fourth of July,
As old Glory ripples in the sky
And once more determine ourselves to
Keep America free....
As we gather together to stand proudly
In remembrance of those who gave so
Much to grow for us the Liberty Tree.

By JanSanford61
© 2011 JanSanford61 (All rights reserved)

Living Alone With You

Lord, It is another one of those days
my heart turns to you, to light my way.

There are so many things I think on
everyday...... most of the time the
things I think on are of time that have
come and gone.

Well, Lord, You know I have lived alone
except for your presents in my life...
For almost a year......don't get me wrong

If I had to choose between supping with
you and going back to where I was in life
I would still choose you and living alone.

But. To say I don't miss having someone
to hold me when I cry, would be a lie.

Some of my loneliest times has been when
I cry.......

And I have cried a lot in my life
time...you and me both know that...

If not for you Lord, life would be unbearable
when I lay down at night ,it is your promise
never to leave me alone that I cling to...so

I have given up much in this world, following
you.... but you have always been there to help
me understand, and help me through.

Lord Jesus, you are my calm times; my peaceful

It is my faith in God, through you [my friend and
savior] when I am alone......
that gives me the strength and the courage to
journey on.

By JanSanford61
© 2011 JanSanford61 (All rights reserved)

My Heart

Like the day
that needs the sun
to light its way.......

My heart needs to feel
your love every day...

Like the moon that
needs the night to
shine in.......

My heart needs your
love to bathe in.

Like the rainbow
after the rain

My heart needs your
love to make me whole

By JanSanford61
© 2011 JanSanford61 (All rights reserved)

Laughter is Good for the Soul

Laughter is good for the soul
Laughter is good for the young and the old

Laughter is good anytime night or day
a good laugh has the power to put
a smile on the saddest face..........

Take, for instance, the kitty eating
the watermelon
who could look at such a sight
and not be moved to laughter
and sheer delight?

By JanSanford61
© 2011 JanSanford61 (All rights reserved)


'T' went over to shake the hand of 'O'
'M' held 'Y' by the toe
'S' saw 'T' flirting with 'A'
'R' stole 'L' from ''I
and made 'T' cry
just as 'E' passed by

'F' told 'R' not to go to far
'I' wanted to catch up with 'E'
To see if 'N' could help 'D'
find 'S' who was lost as could be.

May the sun dry the tears
that fall your way,
and may love and friends
be plentiful throughout your day.

By JanSanford61
© 2011 JanSanford61 (All rights reserved)


When the final good bye
brings tears to the eye...
there is no easy way to
surrender to heaven,
the love of one's life.

Only through faith can
the heart survive,
And love possess the
power to remind the
morning heart........ that
ones love never dies.

By JanSanford61
© 2011 JanSanford61 (All rights reserved)

The Future's Foundation

Be thankful for the
day for it contains
what we carry into
our tomorrow.
be it happiness or
be it sorrow.

Today is what the
future is built upon..
fill the moment with love
before the day is gone.

Reach out to those
closest to your heart
before the day is but
a memory of what
might have been.

cherish each moment
you are in
fill each moment
with those you
that in tomorrow
you might again
find them.

What lay in the past
are the things of

If you are to truly
be happy in the new day
fill the moments with love
be thankful ,and let them lay
as the moments fade into

By JanSanford61
© 2011 JanSanford61 (All rights reserved)

T'is Fear

T'is fear that keeps
a broken heart from

T'is fear that Keeps
happier times at bay.....

T'is fear that keeps
pushing love away.

Fear of loving and losing

Fear of the heart going
to where it has already

Fear of reaching
out and being pushed
away again.

T'is fear of another
broken heart
That keeps old
lovers far apart.
By JanSanford61
© 2011 JanSanford61 (All rights reserved)

God's Will

I have followed the path God lay before me
And in his hands many times fallen asleep.

I have reached up to heaven in my time of need
And ate manner from God's golden streets.

I have cried tears of anguish and total despair
And felt the love of God everywhere.

I have eaten from life's tree
Tasted the bitter with the sweet....

I have saw the night and felt the sun
Knowing ,always in my heart, that
God's will will be done.
By JanSanford61
© 2011 JanSanford61 (All rights reserved)

Keep Your Shield of Faith Raised High

Faith that fails one is not faith...

To have faith is to have no doubt...

To lose faith is impossible...

One cannot lose faith.

I will take faith over medicine
any day.

A lesson I learnt along life's

Once I lowered my shield of faith
instead of trusting in God
I placed my trust men.....

And have paid for my misplaced trust
Time and time again.

I put the care of my newborn son
in doctors' hands.

Now, over thirty years later
I live with what I done
over and over again.

I lowered my shield of faith just
low enough to let the devil in.

The things they done to
my baby in the name of
medicine was and continues
to be a sin.

I put my son's life
back in God's hands
and he awakens there

I can't undo, what my
choices led too,
I have no power to take
the thirty cysts from his brain,
I cannot heal the damaged lungs
or mend the hole in his heart..

But. I can accept the blame
for lowering my shield of faith
just enough to let the devil in,

And I can ask God to have his way....
Knowing now how many
miracles have been done in his

And I can promise God
I will keep my shield of faith
high enough to let him in.

My son is a walking miracle today
because my son never lost faith in God
And God never lost sight of him.
By JanSanford61
© 2011 JanSanford61 (All rights reserved)

The Unwanted Letter
They sat there on the doorstep reading a letter. It was a letter and they were reading about the death of their son. It was the most heartbreaking letter they had ever read. They had prayed that this letter would never come. They looked at each other with sadness and tears in their eyes. They had looked forward to their son coming home alive. Now he was dead. And they sat there, holding each other, crying over the loss of their son the soldier who in death as in life continued to make them proud.

God Bless America!

By JanSanford61
© 2011 JanSanford61 (All rights reserved)


Soldier standing Tall
one and all

From morning to dusk
from dusk to dawn
A soldier's job goes on
and on.

Doing what a soldier must do
to insure peace for me
and you.

Called names by those
who don't understand
what it takes to keep
Freedom in this great

Soldier standing tall
on land, on sea
In the air, unselfishly.

Soldier standing tall
for all eternity

In the hearts
of all touched by the
soldier's efforts in the
name of world peace.

In the memory
of Americans who know
Our freedom was not free.

By JanSanford61
© 2011 JanSanford61 (All rights reserved)

Just some thoughts

Once a thing is changed
It can never be the same.

It is not love that hurts
It is weaknesses within
ones own self.

Mistakes are made by choice.

A problem won't get solved
by denying it exists.

The trick to being happy
is learning to be happy
in the day.

Yesterday's tears belong
to yesterday.

Strive not to be happy
for the sake of others....
strive first to be happy for

Forgiveness is a double
edged sword.

Life always comes to full circle.

Someone who will hurt one once
is already capable of hurting them twice.

Follow your heart in all things
and love will make a way.

By JanSanford61
© 2011 JanSanford61 (All rights reserved)


To light the way for another
is to brighten the glow
in ones own world.

By JanSanford61
© 2011 JanSanford61 (All rights reserved)

Thank You, Starlite Friends

I am not good at
letting friends know
the part they play
in my life's glow.

I often forget to reply
when I owe a thank you

And sometimes I don't get
around to doing things
I should do.

Since, I owe a thank you
to so many, I want to
take a moment or two
to let each of you know:

You are very special
always in my heart
adding to my life's glow.

For this I truly thank you,
and wish you each love
and happiness.....
your whole life through.

By JanSanford61
© 2011 JanSanford61 (All rights reserved)

Inscribed Upon My Heart

Inscribed upon the heart of me
In bright letters, the name of my love;
My heart's master piece;
Blessed from heaven above.

My love, is the answer to my prayer
When I am down and out
My love is always there:

To take away my doubt...
To handle my heart with care...
To hold my fainting spirit up...
And, to sweetens life's bitter cup.

By JanSanford61
© 2011 JanSanford61 (All rights reserved)

From the Deepest Part of my Heart

My love comes from the deepest part of my heart
To dwell with you...

Like water adrift in the depths of the sea....
My love runs deep and true.

Like the stars on a stormy night when
the rain washes over everything- brightly
shinning ~sight unseen.

By JanSanford61
© 2011 JanSanford61 (All rights reserved)

Restless Heart

Oh, my soul, my mind, my heart
Why must Tears be my lot?

Oh, my soul, how long you
have wondered
in the darkness of this world;
on your journey to eternity...
Where all things the heart
knows and sees.

Oh, my mind, how long you
have strive just to be
so burdened has been your
lot.....over powered by the

And Heart, what of you?
Was it not you that caused
the wounds you bear?
Did you not over rule the mind
that beg you not to thread
the water's of love?

Shameful, be you!

You have put the very soul of me
in danger of hell's fire
with your hunger to be loved
and your greedy desire....

Heart, have you no shame? Do you not
know that love is not to be

Has living taught you naught?

Heart you cannot overrule the
better part of a me ,least you pay
dearly for your deed....

The mind and soul have suffered
greatly for need to be a part of
all the things that you are....

Heart, do not thread
where angels dare not go
for emptiness shall your lot be
for all eternity.

Heart, turn not a deaf ear to the
minds eye and the soul's understanding,
least you be forever broken; never
to know love;

and never to touch upon the blessings
heaven has in store for you.

Think not, that the better part of both
worlds would have you suffer in the
name of love...

Heaven forbid!

Oh, my soul, my mind, my heart
Why must Tears be my lot?

Why must I suffer so for love
When love suffers not, and only reigns
to break my heart?

Oh, my soul, my mind, my heart
All equally a part of me, all a part
of me in my suffering and my shame
in love's name.

Heart, be still inside of me
that my mind and my soul
might find peace.

By JanSanford61
© 2011 JanSanford61 (All rights reserved)


She crawled to my feet
Looked up into my eyes
with a smile so sweet
turned and crawled away
and from a short distance
her innocence filled the air
as she set observing me
without a care.

By JanSanford61
© 2011 JanSanford61 (All rights reserved)

My Miracle

God, I have seen miracles,
And I have seen some
Waiting for a miracle
That they were sure would
Never come.

God, I have witnessed
Your power and I do not
Doubt your love.....

I know that beyond this
World there is a world
Filled with you......

God, give me the strength
To endue, and the faith
To keep on believing

That no matter how bad
Things get you are always
There to help me through.

God, touch me in this moment
With your love, and mercy too

Wrap your arms around me
And help me not forget,
As again you help me through

That my miracle is in knowing
That every step I take takes
Me a step closer to being with

God, wrap your arms around me
until the pain is gone...
And when you are ready for me
God, I'm ready to go home.

By JanSanford61
© 2011 JanSanford61 (All rights reserved)

Words are Only Words

I search for words
to write to the heart
of some I do not know.

And try as I may
the words I cannot find
to describe my inner
feelings, and say what's
on my mind...

For there is a part of me
that knows....
words are only words
if they are only used for show.

Words are only words
feelings in part
If written more to please,
than to say what's in ones

By JanSanford61
© 2011 JanSanford61 (All rights reserved)

Happy Birthday to You

Birthdays are celebrated every year
from the moment we are born.....
Time being time and doing what it does
makes us each year a little more worn.

Birthdays are fun to attend
especially if they're not your own....
and its not you pondering
all the birthdays come and gone.....

Birthdays are a child's biggest thrill
until enough birthdays mount
and the rest spend with failing health
speeding ,non-stop, down hill.

Happy Birthday, my friend.... This is
my birthday wish for you:

May this day find you happy
and your next birthday find
none of your happiness taken away.

Smile, I tried to write a poem
on this your birthday.......
To assure you ,while you are getting older
you are getting more beautiful in
every way.

Happy Birthday, to you!!!!!

By JanSanford61
© 2011 JanSanford61 (All rights reserved)

Caught In The Middle

Mama, where is daddy
I miss him so......
Mama, I miss my daddy
Why did you make him go...

Daddy, where is mama
I miss her so......
Daddy, I miss my mama
Why did you make her go...

Mama, you love me
I love you
and you are with
me everyday.....but
I love my daddy too
why couldn't he stay..
Mama, please, tell me
why did you send my daddy

Daddy, you love me
I love you
and together we stay...
but I love my mommy too
Why couldn't she stay
Daddy, please, tell me
Why did you send my mommy

Mama, you seem so happy
since daddy's been gone....
but without the other part of me
I feel half empty
I don't like living together
in our broken home.

Daddy, you laugh and smile more
Since mommy's been gone
I feel half full
I don't like living together
and feeling so alone.

Mommy, Daddy, I love you
both-you both are a part of me.
Please, help me understand....
Why our home got broken
did I do something bad?
Is that what made mommy cry
and made my daddy sad?

Please, Mommy...Please, Daddy
Take my hand
And help me understand..

Why you haven't spoken
since you been apart
and how my once happy home
got so broken.

I feel so unhappy and alone.

did I do something bad?
is that what made mommy cry
and made my daddy sad?

By JanSanford61
© 2011 JanSanford61 (All rights reserved)

Heart Writers

Some writers
so perfectly
so flawlessly

They dot
every 'i'
and cross
every 't'

Some writers
with the
mind's eye
and capture

Other writers
with the

and touch
us all.

as it may be
to those who
style and

and not the
the poetry.

Heart writers
profess to
write for the

They write
from their
for the

By JanSanford61
© 2011 JanSanford61 (All rights reserved)

A Part of my heart

So sweet were the night's dreams
So peaceful as night blanketed
me in its darkness.....

So quickly lost the peace
Succumbing to my screams.........

As I held you in my hands
you seemed to be trying to
hold on to my heart
as if you never wanted
me to let you go......

And I could only cry, and
scream...for the piece of life
that slipped right through my

As I helplessly, unwillingly
watched your tiny form
so filled with life......
struggling to live,
A part of me dying , before
it was time for you to be born.

So sweet were the night's dreams
So peaceful as night blanketed
me in its darkness.....

So quickly lost the peace
Succumbing to my screams..

So quickly lost the life that lived
inside of me.

You my precious baby
both lived and died in my hands
as I screamed and asked God
to help me understand.

Many a time those precious
moments with you have
crossed my mind.....
And over and over I have
to remind myself it wasn't
your time.

By JanSanford61
© 2011 JanSanford61 (All rights reserved)

Defenders of Liberty

There's no need
For crying
I don't want your

No need to morn
My passing...
I died for my belief.

I chose to be a soldier
It was my childhood
To grow up to be a
Defender of our liberty.

To carry Lady Liberty's flame,
High for the world to see...
And in the name of equality,
To the world proclaim:

'I am an American soldier
Nurtured on the high idea
That all men have a God given
Right to live and die free.

I am an American soldier..
I will fight oppression, that
Others may eat from liberty's tree,
Like my forefather did for me....

If dying be my prize
For what I chose to be....
Then die I will gladly do
For my death will not have been
In vain...

For my memory will cause
Other soldiers to rise up and
Take my place....

And if they too die Soldiers
On blood stained battle fields
They will join me and the
Legion standing proudly
Next to me....

Who for God, country,
And fellow countrymen
Became American soldiers
Fighting for the inalienable
Right of all men to liberty'

There's no need for crying
For me. I don't want your
Sympathy .

No need to morn my leavin.
If I had too ,I would in the
name of 'Liberty'
Die ~proudly ~all over again.'

By JanSanford61
© 2011 JanSanford61 (All rights reserved)

The Rose of Life

Life is like a white rose
laying in a sea of water
that unendingly flows...

The rose drinking in
the water of life as much
as it can sustain
until it is polluted by
life's muddy rain.
Never again to be
the same........

The rose of purity
represents the birth
of a man's life...

The flowing water
the end of life's

For the rose
like a man dies
in its own time
and fades away
on life's sea
along with its purity.

The rose ,polluted by
life's muddy rain.
Never again to be
the same........

By JanSanford61
© 2011 JanSanford61 (All rights reserved)

Bless The Soldier

Bless the American soldier standing guard
somewhere beyond the sea ....

To insure that war never reaches
America's shore and threatens her liberty.

Bless him for his courage and willingness
to stand for his beliefs......

Bless him for his high regard for freedom,
and his love and devotion for his country.....

Bless the soldier! Bless the soldier!

Bless the soldiers one and all
Who take the stand everyday
never to let old Glory fall.

By JanSanford61
© 2011 JanSanford61 (All rights reserved)

Some Gave Their All

When the call to arms
reached our ears
We wiped away
our loved ones tears
We told them
we would get the job done
and be back home..
in a little while.

We dressed the
way soldiers do
and hesitated not
to defend liberty
with gut and heart.....

The guns they fired
The bombs they dropped
the blood it flowed
the line was drawn
Some of us learned in
a moments time
we would not be
going home.

We have but one request
for those we left behind
Love the country that
we fought and died for
as much as the soldier
who sacrifices in the
name of liberty

Do it for you-
in remembrance of me

The soldier who fought
and died to keep
America free.

By JanSanford61
© 2011 JanSanford61 (All rights reserved)


In time of peace
as friends
work and

In time of war
the blood
the sweat
the tears
the dreams
of going home
bond together
not as friends
but as brothers.

By JanSanford61
© 2011 JanSanford61 (All rights reserved)

Over Land and Sea

Over the land of the free
The Eagle flies every day
Ready in a moments time
to keep America's enemies
at bay.....

Above Lady liberty's Flame
burning brightly for the world
to see....
The eagle flies proudly over
the raging sea....

Untiringly, the Eagle flies
vowing never again to sleep
never again to forget
that freedom is never free.

Fly American eagle.... fly free
The symbol of unchained liberty.
The symbol of hope to all
who seek cover beneath your
out stretched wings.

By JanSanford61
© 2011 JanSanford61 (All rights reserved)

Remember the American Soldier

Memorial Day, is the day Americans set aside
to remember America's champions of liberty
Those who sacrificed and died
that people might live free.....

A day to remember those whose deeds
done in the name of liberty
ensured that Liberty's flame would continue
to burn just as brightly for you and me.

A day to remember, as we kneel beside
the soldier's gave, or shake a soldier's hand
that there is one thing an American soldier is
always willing to do- to keeps America free.

A day to remember the soldier in the coffin, the
soldier in the grave, and the soldier beyond
the sea.....

Whose love of country out weigh his love of self
proved by his determination-in peace and war,
to keep America free.

May Americans long remember the American
Soldier and his unselfish deeds........
For the American Soldier is the defender
of our right to live the American dream.

Thank you, American Soldier for a job well done!

By JanSanford61
© 2011 JanSanford61 (All rights reserved)

Hate Me If You Must

I am an American
Hate me if you must
for like you
I was a slave first...

No freedom of choice
others chose for me
before the idea
of living free
in some
the need
to create a land
a country
where a many
blooded people
could live in liberty.

I am an American by birth
my ancestors roamed
the land, and some
journeyed here by sea.

Together, through their
many trials and tribulations
they poured the foundation
of this great nation.

I am an American
I seek no longer liberty
and the only thing I have to
offer, as a show of friendship...

to those who hate me...
is a taste of freedom
from Liberty's Tree.

By JanSanford61
© 2011 JanSanford61 (All rights reserved)

The Invite Home

I was lost among the barriers
and thorns
lost in a maze of darkness
wondering alone
When I met Jesus
and he invited me home.

I told Jesus I would follow Him
And confessed that my life had been
touched by many a sin....

It was then, the very same day
That I asked Jesus if he would be
my friend and lead the way;

That Jesus took me in his arms
held me close to his heart......
That I accepted Jesus into
my life ... never to part.

That I acknowledged Jesus
as my truest and dearest friend,
through thick and thin.

Since that moment,
Jesus has been beside me
and I have never been alone
Not since Jesus took me in his arms
and Invited me to come home....

'Come Home......'

By JanSanford61
© 2011 JanSanford61 (All rights reserved)