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The quickly fleeing rain
came long enough to bring
and leave behind a sense
of being,a sense of peace
a sense of being a part of

The light of the sun on a drop of rain
is much grander than any sparkling star
that the darkest night could bring.

The feel of rain on the hottest day
changes many things.

The rain washes the outer man but
cannot touch ones inner side.

Many thirst for things rain cannot
satisfy...t'is the way of things.

If rain drops were drops of gold
many would still go wanting.
-Jan Tetstone
August 31, 2020 1:25pm


Morals it has been said
time and time again
evolve from the values
that stem from within.

Life is its own teacher.
To follow another's values
one must devalue personal
beliefs, in favor of another's

In my world, opinion has no
power over common sense
or good judgement.

Never let another's doubts
and beliefs dictate how you
should live-what you should
think-and what you should

Is God real? For me, my god is
as real as the air I breathe.

My life is mine, my thoughts
are mine and my faith belongs
to only me. -Jan Tetstone

12:32pm August 26, 2020

Sleeping Souls Of Humanity

Hidden beneath time's ghostly past
layers and layers of deceit
nurtured by the worst in men.

O pasts gone by, release their memory
to the grave; let lay the evil deeds
done in the name of want and need;
bring an end to what once moved through life,
carried by deep rooted greed.
For, no man is worthy to be remembered
who causes his country grief.
Shake free O time from the ghostly
hands of greed.

Let rest the souls who paid the price
for another's life of luxury..
For all are equals in death and process
no power over the living, except their evil
desires left on earth, that continue
to breed the image that somehow the worth
of the living is based on the blood
that runs through ones veins.

Awaken O sleeping souls of humanity
Let sleep the souls of the dead; for just
as one is remembered for their deeds of
kindness ;let us not forget, the evil that
spring up, and was left behind by darker side.

Let the past reap the rewards for its own deeds
Let the living carry the torch of light,
according to the light inside each.

The evil that consumes worldly things in not to
be found in the world, but inside each of us.
-Jan Tetstone
10:20am August 8, 2020

Patriot's Heart

We will bury you from within and never
lay hand on you
was the Nazi threat to the American people
living under the Red, White and blue.

Socialist/communist have proven to be
the greatest threat to life and liberty
Long have Americans who love living free
fought the communist to save liberty.

The weeds of communism thrive on plucking
away at the legal safeguards put in place
to protect freedom press, freedom speech,
and religious liberty.

Where are the safeguards now!?

The safe guards rests safely inside the
patriot's heart...

The threat to bury the American people
from within can only happen when Americans
stop rearing patriot women and men.

God Bless America and all who struggle
against the deranged part of humanity
in the name of life and liberty.
-Jan Tetstone
9:43am July 23, 2020

Today, I thought back to a time
much different than the one
I awoke to...
A time when the average person
wasn't so easy to fool.
Yet, I know in my heart
that the spirits of those
dear souls lingers on
and their spirits walk this land
with me
ready to defend those things
dearest to their hearts
that only the angels
can know and see.
Be not fooled into
giving your soul away
It matters : ones beliefs and
and how one chooses
to live in a day.
8:43am June 29, 2020

For 45 years, I have walked through this world missing you
You were more than my were my hero.
I'm sorry I took you for granted, but I thought you would live
forever, and I'd never have to let you go.

The passing of forty-five Father's Days without you
proves I was wrong.
I want you to know I've never stopped loving you
my daddy and my hero... I miss you so.
Happy Father's Day.
6:04pm June 21, 2020

Ninety years ago, today, you were born
to one day give birth to me
and I was born to look back, as I'm
doing now; to the time you made my
world safe, watched me grow and nurtured
the spirit in me to know the importance
of love and family.

I thank God every day for the time we
spent together before you went away.
Because of you Mama, I have managed
to pull myself up from the pitfalls
in my life....
Because of you Mama, I know the
meaning of 'a mother's love.'

You were only fifty-seven
when God's angel handed you
your angel wing.......
My heart was broken in two
a part of my heart I sent
with you.

Because of you Mama
I am who I grew to be
Knowing every day
You will always be
a part of me.
Happy Birthday Mama
I love you always.

Alone I set with sights and
sounds of things going on around me
Thinking on, and remembering the
way things use to be.

Yet, I am not alone
as I am reminded of the one who
shares my burdens with me.

Ten babies entered this world
through my womb
Two left much to soon...

The others left me, each in turn,
as they grew older, day by day
And their childhoods faded away.

I've had my share of heartache
and often did go astray, but
no matter what, Jesus was with me
every step of the way.

Though those of this world may
wipe me from their day, and I may
appear to be all alone
Jesus is my dearest friend
and will guide me the rest of
the way home.

1:00pm June 14, 2020

Happy 40th Birthday daughter

It seems like only yesterday

you were born and placed

in my arms......

I did not see you on your

special day but want you to know

My thoughts and love are with you

wherever in life you go.

I love you more than words can say.


June 13, 2020


My baby son turned 34 today....
I don't see him anymore so I will
write this Birthday wish anyway.
I wish you a happy life-
and may each day be filled
with as much love and joy
you once put in to my days
I love you always- forever
and a day.
Happy Birthday.

11:28 pm June 9, 2020

Sitting beneath heaven's sky
I caught a glance of reality
with my inner eye.
To fast life slips away
and the chances to make
happy memories fade.
There's peace to be found
in a  world gone astray---
if ones life is guided by
inner faith.

1:40 pm June 3, 2020

RIP Michael

There are no words to describe
the empty space you left behind
a void no other could ever fill
I missed you the moment
God called you home,
I miss you still sweet angel
I love you and always will.
10:22 pm May 29, 2020

We all have a path to follow and a journey to make
The journey's end is shortened with every breath
we take.
When our paths cross we share everything but
the space we occupy...
When our lives intertwine, for a time, we share
our thoughts, dreams, and life.
If, in passing, we fall in love, and give our hearts
to each other, blinded by love, 
we forget there will always be some loves that break
our heart-not for lack of love, but because some
people are destined to grow apart.

We all have a time to live, love and be happy 
before we die-just as true-We all have a time to cry
and question 'why?'
6:19 pm May 26, 2020

As I set here looking out the window I see my work's
reward; where once only grass and weeds grew, grows
squash, cucumbers, okra,  and corn.
Every day, my table shall be blessed ...and
I shall be thankful for the blessings, I reap every day.

Faith, and hard work have their rewards.
6:34 pm May 26, 2020

Tho  I did not see you on your
43rd Birthday
My Birthday wish for you
comes from my heart

May you remember on this day 
the sound of my heartbeat, 
and  feel my love in the breeze
touching your face.

I love you my first son, 
not less, but more 

Happy Birthday... 
Love you always.

7:47 pm May 21, 2020

Today,I found unrest
in everything around me
that once brought me peace
Then I realized it was
just the negative in me.
God, I need your help
this day putting the negative
Touch my heart with your
loving hand, and ,once more,
make me stronger than I am.
8:55 pm May 15, 2020

Never let yesterdays tears
Wash away your happiness
today or in the coming

Wasted time robs the heart

Linger not, with your mind,
with those things left behind.

Don't let the world rob you
of the most important things,
that are not of this world.

Walk up-right always facing
head on what comes your way.

8:31pm May 14, 2020

I tried to teach the children of my womb
to value each other, in their lives and
in their hearts.
To remember as the years fly by that
ones brothers or sisters are worthy
of being loved, whether together or a part,
That words said in anger will never hurt
as long as the pain of losing a brother
or sister to the grave will....
It matters not your relationship with me,
here on earth, for not everything will
be as it seems.
Now, each of you must strive to steer
your own children toward their heart felt
dreams.....many times your heart shall be broken.
Many times you will question whether or not
you chose rightly for each child...Then your
children will, much to soon, grow up and away...
And it will be the things taught to you
in your own childhood that will often come to mind
the many times your heart gets broken, and
looking back, to when your children were small,
you know in your heart it was all worth it; and
you, like me, would happily, spend your life
raising your children, again.

6:44 pm May 11, 2020

Happy Mother's Day-

My mother pictured with 5 of my children .In the 1970s

Today, there are no words
beyond those rooted inside
my heart that have no voice.
Thoughts of yesterday, tomorrow
today,and the moment I am in.

Thoughts of life's beginning
and life's end.
Thoughts of eternity and
thoughts of the world I'm
living in.

Thoughts I carry with me every day
some never to be given voice
Thoughts I shall carry to the grave.
9:36 pm May 8, 2020

I love you with a mother's heart
whether we're together or apart.
Once I could follow the path your
feet took with my eye sand if I saw
danger, take your hand and guide
you another way.

I love you with a mother's heart
whether we're together or apart
Today you are grown and out on your
own and your feet go the way you want
them to... I 'm no longer with you
to help you choose.

From afar I keep my eyes on you
From a distance I see, with my heart's
eye, angels walking next to you.
I love you with a mother's heart
whether we're together or apart.

Thou the path you take may lead you
further from me, my mother's love
will follow you into eternity.

9:16 am May 8, 2020

Faith in God is a
powerful thing
Waste not - want not
Faith is not faith
unless its stems
from the heart. jt

Twenty-seven years ago today
I touched your flesh
Your small hand
that if you had stayed
would be wearing a wedding band
today... for all to see.
But,that was not to be
The mortician forced the wedding band
on your took it with you
into eternity.
To say I don't miss the sight
of you walking toward me,I WILL
For, my angel, though you were
only on loan- while you walked
this earth-you were mine.
6:16 pm May 6, 2020

Never take for granted
those dearest to your heart
For, unexpectedly, things
can happen,that makes your
world feel like its coming apart.

Keep your shield of faith
over all that you love
all that you hold dear.

Never take the love and peace
around you for granted....
for many a happy moments
has been over shadowed by,
unexpected, heartache and tears.

Accept, not defeat in trying times
hold to your faith, believe with your
heart, that God will calm the storm
and keep loved ones safe.

Never doubt, the power of heart felt

11:23 pm May 3, 2020

This moment is the beginning
of all that is to come.
Be thankful for the moment
in this day
For it is the the moments
all that we are, shows
through our faith. jt
11:17 am April 29, 2020

Who would I be if not for where I've been
I would be the innocence of my youth
Untarnished by time travels
I would be the whole of me
unmarred , filled with love, hope
and peace.
Yet, to need understanding,
for in my innocence
I was a part of everything.
9:21 pm April 18, 2020

Being disconnected from the outside
world give one a clearer picture
of life...
With nothing to distract from a far
the web of life unfolds from the essence
of who we are.
No stranger to distract from
the view ones eyes gazes on
no pretending-just
the nakedness of being alone.
9:02 pm April 18, 2020

As I watch the unfolding
of deceit on human kind
It's hard to believe how
many closed minds
are willing to let others

Death is a by product of life
Eternity rests on what we believe.

Awaken from sleep....

Today is not
the thief of yesterday's dreams
Hopes and dreams stem from within
one must build on their dream
until the dream becomes a reality.

This world has no power over the
spirit of man...
Raise high your shield of faith
Tho there be many religious beliefs
There be only one god at the helm
of every thing.

A religion that teaches
hate and division is
worldly created; from the
beliefs and teachings of

Peace and love cannot be
created in the world; Peace
and love stem from the
hearts of men.

Walk not the path of fear
Walk the path the faithful
are called to follow.
12:18 pm April 8, 2020

A man without a heart
is a shell of a man...
Empty of emotions
that make one human.

Builders build
dreamers dream
doers do.

Good needs no excuse
for kind deeds done.

The rich are the worst
kind of thieves...

Greed is a bottomless pit.

Truth doesn't stop being the truth,
when told in a different language.

10:56 pm April 7, 2020

It's never to late to
reach out a helping hand,
for the right of a matter,
to take a stand.

There are to many self
appointed judges ,who judge
blindly the degree of good
in others; and another's sin,
Forgetting there will be only
one judge setting on the bench
in the end.

If people knew the effect
heartlessness played in the lives
and hearts of the best of men....
Love would weed out the heartless
And those without hope
would find reason to hope again.
12:22 pm April 7, 2020

As I set here
In the stillness
of the night,
my heart has a need
to put voice to the
feelings I have inside.

God has let me live long
and in living my life,
I have met friends and foes
at the crossing of the roads.

I learned much in 71 years
much more than I would have
chosen to know.

But it is from living and
surviving I learned to value
the knowledge life holds.

No one can understand what
one has not experienced...
Without having freedom taken
away ,one cannot truly
treasure the freedom one has.

Without losing a child, one
cannot truly know the void
and loss, one who has, endures.

There are so many things some
take for granted ...

Life is a gift. Don't take life or
liberty for granted.. Many have
fought and died for the right to
live free.

There's a reason why survivors
survive...When the time comes
you'll know why.

The world created survivors
God created the world.
2:23 am April 7, 2020

Daddy was my hero
He unknowingly
by his mere existence
in my life, nurtured
the fighting spirit
in me.
Today is my Daddy's 97th
He was only 52 when he
went away.
I will never forget the tears
that fell from his closed eyes
as his spirit crossed over
into his eternal day.

Happy Birthday Daddy
I love you today
and always...It seems
like only yesterday
that you went away.
10:13 pm April 5, 2020

I woke to the sound of rain
and fell to sleep again
I woke to the sound of birds
singing in the morning, and
lay thinking about the day.

I raised up from my bed, put
my feet on the floor, thanked
God for another day, and asked
Him to prepare my heart and soul
for whatever life sent my way.

Let me not forget the lessons
life tested me on, that brought
me to this day; the dark times
I traveled through :the many times
pieces of my heart were left behind
on my way back to you...

Let me remember always to be thankful
for the smallest of things as I continue
my journey through... and let me not
in my time of need- lose my faith in you.
11:55 am April 5,2020

Lord, I need not put voice
to what I feel in my heart.
It's not the first time
I've wiped tears away....
Will I never learn to accept
there are those such as I
who are different from the norm
Who care -because if we stop
caring, life would be meaningless?

As you can see my heart has
once more opened self-pity's door.

Help me accept the imperfections
in myself and those I love.
Give me understanding and make
me wise enough to see beyond
my own tears - for I'm not in
this world alone, we all have
a burden to carry; we each seek
to be loved, and to find inner
10:26 pm April 4, 2020

If one has God in their life
everything in that life is
engulfed in love, and mercy.

When times get dark, and evil
abounds the faithful's lives
are covered by angel wings,
and the Light of God can be
seen filling the lives and homes
of the faithful with blessings
that no man with an evil spirit
can destroy or take away.

Lack of faith has hindered many
from receiving the Light of faith
that holds the power to miracles
and all good things.

The evil in this world thrives on fear
Fear not! For, evil has no power over
a faithful man's life, unless, a man lowers
his shield of faith, and evil catches him

Fear not things of this world for the spirit
is not of this world; follow faithfully the paths
of old--for this world is filled with trickery
intertwining with just enough truth to deceive
even a wise man.

Walk in faith; never doubting God's power to save
you from the evil seeking to destroy your soul
every moment of every day.
12:50 pm March 29, 2020

Today is almost gone and tomorrow
is drawing near...
The labor of the day remains in
the day...The sweat on my brow
has dried in the sun now
faded away.

Now, it's time to rest the aches
and pains of my labor...
and think on what I will plant
in the turned soil...
As tired as I am ..
I have the satisfaction of knowing
I have created a place where
after the seeds have been sow
food soon will be growing.
8:25 pm March 27, 2020

I give thanks for this day
and all the blessings sent my way...jt

Today, like every day before,
I ask my god to guide me
to wherever He would have me be
to show me what He would have me do
to give me the wisdom, knowledge,
understanding and strength to stand and walk
the path of truth...
to send me an angel to watch over me
as I strive to be worthy of the love
He has always shown to me...
to open my heart, mind and eyes to
the things in this world that He would
have me see, as faithfully, I carry my
Shield of Faith, ready to meet my destiny.
3:14 pm March 23,2020

Don't let fear rob you of your commonsense
There is a truth for every lie, and a liar behind every lie. jt

Today the sky is cloudy-gray
waiting for the sun to shine
The world gone astray
collides with reckoning time.

For everything under the sun
there is a darker side
even silver and gold have a
darker side.

What lay hidden can no longer
hide, from the all seeing eye.
Not one speck of darkness
can escape truth's light.

For all now come face to
face with their inner demons
let loose out into the

Fear not the demons that belong to another
for your own demons have the power
to destroy your soul.

When the innocent cry for mercy
God's ears notes each cry, and His eyes
witness every tear that falls.

Wipe away the tears from another's
eyes, to keep thy own eyes dry.

Many soulless creatures wear the face
of innocence to betray moral eyes
but there is no light in a soulless
creatures eyes.
8:41 am March 18, 2020

When silent lay the moment
Listen to the beating of
your heart...
For only when the heart
is stilled by death
will hope for tomorrow
be put to rest.
Listen to the wind
and be faithful
to the belief that
love is the healer
of hearts
Faith is the key
to miracles
Jesus is the doorway
to God
and home is where rests

Waste not one moment
of life morning for things
that were never meant to be.

Let the light in your eyes
shine and the love in your
heart show.

None can take from you your
soul unless you betray it
for worldly things-and the
love in your heart grows cold.

God watches, and for a short time
you [and I] decide the destiny
of our souls.

Think not to out smart the god
that created you...for the eyes
that watches over us belongs to
the life giver-betray not your
soul. Let love lead you always
as you follower the path before
you; fear nothings of the world
For nothing in this world can
rob the faithful of the treasures
that awaits them after this world
fades away.

Live patiently, and faithfully
believing with your whole heart
that He who is in you is stronger
than he who is in the world.

May peace and comfort fill your
life, knowing, as you make the
journey home- with each
step you take-you are not walking
11:26 March 14, 2020 jt

I have never ate from a silver plate
Cannot imagine what it would be like
to dress in a beautiful gown and dance
on a ballroom floor...
But I have ate from paper plates with
plastic forks and spoons with the best of souls
and danced heart to heart, from time to time
- with love's arms around me.
11:57 am March 9, 2020

Reach out to what is in the moment
morn not for what is not there
grasp the love that is in the moment
for one moment can change everything
there is but a moment between life
and death-be thankful for each moment
that breathe life back into you...
12:05 pm March 9, 2020

I set here in my moment
giving thanks for all the moments
God has helped me through.
Knowing in my heart -without a doubt-
Jesus is in my moments too.
12:12 pm March 9, 2020

Life is like wind
A gentle breeze
carrying peace and
A stormy wind of
destruction that
reminds us of our
darker side ,like
our brighter side,
unseen by the
human eyes, yet,
moving and alive.
8:34 am March 3, 2020

Lord, help me through
another day
Let my hands do your
work, according to
your plan.
Let my feet follow in
the path you laid for
Let not my mind linger
in the past...
Let my spirit rise
above the worldly
Let not my memories
blind my eyes to the
needs of another
Let my heart not loose
its ability to care
And, Let me remember,
Lord, when darkness
fills my day-You will
never put on me more
than I can bear.
8:45 am March 3, 2020

Never compare your life with
another's broken life,
broken health or broken heart.
Grasp the moments given to you
Be thankful for all things

and who you grew to be.

Let your heart sing its own song
Blame not another for what was
or for the sun that did not shine
Mistakes comes from choices made
Put to rest things gone
that have the power to deprive
you of your happiness in the day.

Love ,given, remains, sometime
hidden beneath ones inner pain.

Be happy, not for others, but for
Then those who truly love you
will be happy too.
1:36 pm February 29, 2020

There's clouds in the sky today
that have turned the whole of
the sky to gray.
There's a stillness in the air
that allows me to see more clearly
the things setting there.
There's but the moment I am in
that allows the whole of me to begin
10:04 am February 26, 2020

I morn not for the dead but for the
living-who cling to the memories of
the dead, as a child clings to life,
and all in it for guidance.
The dead need not your tears for
their time in this life has been spent.

Love does not end at the graves where
loved ones lay; Love remains behind to
bring comfort to those who forget, the
soul rests not in the grave.

From dust, to dust, all who enter in,
must go.

It's never easy letting go of a loved
one-to late ,many think of the things
they'd change, if only they had the chance

Little do they realize, God's will will be
done, after our life on earth begins, and
when our life on earth comes to its end.

Remember, when tears threaten to tear the
heart out of you, that this world is a
testing field the living journey through.

10:25 am February 26, 2020

The rain drops hitting the roof above my head
muffle the thoughts in my head- and, at least for now,
call my attention back to reality.

If only, the rain could wash away the lingering
memories, that come out of hiding, every
now and then, and leave the most negative of them
washed clean.

Thank you, Lord, for the rain, and the time to gaze
out my window-while your love washes over me.

I have a need, to breath in the peace of you
for, you are the very air I breathe.
3:34 pm February 25, 2020

Some people thrive on fake and phoniness
while others struggle to understand what
is real and what is not.

Life is more than the world I and you
live in ;its more than a desire to obtain
things that create the look of having
more than an equal share of all that this
world has to offer.

Life does not always appear fair, between the
haves and the have nots ... the ones who have
silver and gold and the ones who process hearts
of gold.

Far richer is he who suffers in the flesh in
God's name than is he who never sheds a tear...

Let not the appearance of any deceive you, even
the flesh of ones flesh, was born to test ones help the spirit grow.
12:05 pm February 25, 2020

Lord, it's not easy, starting over
When everything seems distorted
and nothing is as it once appeared
to be.

I know that nothing that has happened
or will happen to me, is without purpose
Guide me Lord to do your will...I accept
the price for believing in you...whatever
it be.

Watch over your faithful followers
answer each prayer according to God's will.
For, many have yet to be tested, and know
not, what waits to devour their faith and
draw the life's blood from their heart.
5:39 am February 25, 2020

I kept my word, and silent lay
in the grave, the whole of the

Tho it pains my heart to give
up what once was dearest to my
heart...I no longer feel the
need to pretend to be who I am

I no longer live my life for
the innocent who now must live
their own life, and follow the
paths of parenthood for themselves.

So much, I could say, that is
better left unsaid.
Live for the living
Let the dead bury the dead.

I would not change one bitter
word said in anger; or erase one
line of hate sent my way..
For, I no longer can feel the pain.

Life makes no promise the sun
will always shine in a day;
that every word spoken will be kind;
That the ending of life will be better
than the beginning of ones life.

You are each grown now-smile.....
You make the choices......You pay
the prices.

Love never turns to hate-love linger
waiting to be recognized.

Tho it may never be in this lifetime.

3:37 pm February 23, 2020

Pain that stems from a broken heart
is hard enough to bear-without
the hate, created by the pain, one
inflicts on one's self...
12:21 am February 21, 2020

Me on my 71st Birthday. With Billy (my son), and three of my daughters: Renee, Sharea, and my youngest daughter Katie. I'm holding my Grandson Mason Storm (Billy's son who underwent open heart surgery on Jan 21, 2020) God is good all the time.

It's a new day
the birds are singing,
happily, loud enough
for me to hear.
Yesterday, in the past
lay, with the darkness
of its time...

The things
that once broke my heart
are left behind.

Lord, You have always held
my hand; You have never let
me fall below who I am.

Thank you Lord for staying near
enough to my heart, that all
I have to do is turn to you,
in faithful prayer, to always see
you standing there to help me
through the things that's hard for
my heart to bear.
9:07 am February 20, 2020

As I journey on in life
let me not with sadness in my
heart look back on yesterday's
tear; for what is passed has
no substance in my today, but
what I give to it.

Life has many faces, many dreams
many failures, but life does not
end with these things.

Lord, let me see beneath the
shadow of bigger and
better things.
9:16 am February 20, 2020

Camo Wings

Your life you lived
to the fullest
doing the things
you loved to do...

It was hard on your
children, when
your life in this world
was through.

You and I grew a part
tied together by the
children we both claim, in
our lives and in our hearts.

How could they possibly
understand, the pak we
made so long ago...
to stay together out of love
for each of them, and be their
for them- to watch them grow.

You and I knew, when the last
child left home, it was my time
to go.

I kept my promise, that's all
they need to know: we were both
there to watch them grow.

On Valentine's Day, God called
you away
Your children's tears could not
keep you here, Because
it was your time and you could
not stay.

Heaven needed another angel, and
God knew only the best would do
That's why He ordered a pair of
camo colored angel wings- designed
just for you.


11:35 am February 17, 2020

Each day is a blessing
Tho some may think
it a curse-
Never taking the time
to consider-
Things, as bad as they
maybe, could be a lot

Loved ones die every day
If you have been spared
the pain and loss
of having a loved one
Taken away...
Be thankful, but remember
At any moment-any day, in the
twinkling of an eye, any
of your loved ones
could be taken away.

Cling not so tightly
to a loved one
That you curse God
for calling in His loan.

Remember, we enter this
world alone, and leave
it the same way, when
it comes our time to be
called home..

11:28 am February 16, 2020

When things in life become a burden,
Turn to God and breathe peace in.
Not all who do you harm mean to,
Like you, they too are on a journey
in this world, we are all just passing

While people part at the crossing
of the roads...what love was shared
there lingers, long after people fade
from our life.

Bitterness has but one excuse for
being; often times love's sting leaves
a heart wanting more of the sweet.

There are those in life drawn through
life, their whole life through, who pay
a price for the happiness of others.
Who faithfully accept, that true happiness
waits in the past of all things.

I'm thankful, for the life I have lived
for each moment, I grasp, with each breath
I breathe in.

Thank you God for the tears that was used
to mold me into who I am this day.
12:11 pm February 15, 2020

The roads in life are many
The stops in life may be many
or few...
We travel the roads unaware
of the things we may
be called on to endure and do
It's not always clear where a
road ends-where we stop
could very well be,a delay,
where another road begins.

Often times one travels
blindly the paths in life,
and stumbles passed the places
where unconditional love waits.

Be careful, when traveling
Life's roads- Every step
one takes in life, lightens or
adds weigh to the burdens one
already bears.

If by chance you stumble over
another's heart, linger not
For hearts that break when
paths cross will mend...but
hearts that cling together
Out of duty,suffer long.
And are left empty
when the last road ends.
7:31pm February 14, 2020

I wonder, many times, why
my destiny pulls me away
from the worldly, to inner
places my heart once lived
Places that no longer exist,
yet, once did.

Lord, give me insight into
what was that I might brave
what is to be.

Keep your hands above those
who carry my heart with them
and guard their souls, as they
wade through life's seas.

The world has chained many to
the worldly, where my heart
no longer lives.

Today, is all there is Lord,
one breath the whole of me.
Let me not waste another moment's
thought on what was or what
will be..

Let me face head on, my destiny.

If I weaken on my journey
give me the strength I need
For, none but you know me
from the depth of my heart
None but you, understand the
things hidden from the worldly
None but you can calm the
raging sea-and fill my world
with peace and fill my every

Thank you for always being
there for me.

The world has blocked the
ears of many, from the songs
of life that many sing.

But the faithful hear, and
understand, there is but one
god over everything.

Be quiet, O soul of mine, let
each put voice to his own song
for each have a song to sing.
12:22 pm February 12, 2020

A rooster crows
An airplane in
the open sky.

The roar of the
plane fades away
Replaced by
a gentle breeze.

Lord, this day
I owe to you
For none but you
can create such
a soothing peace.

When you seek answers
Turn inward...
Ones faith does not
come from the worldly
Neither does the answers
to life's woes one seeks.

Ask God for guidance
concerning things
that trouble your heart
and mind...
seek knowledge and
In your troubling times.

In times that tempt your
soul to stray-let your faith
show you the way, in your
time of need, put your faith
in God, and let love lead.

The faithful are flicker of light
burning brightly from the same
Flame of life.
12:21 pm February 11, 2020

Another can hear a story told
and not comprehend the amount
of heartache and tears that
went into its writing.

Be not so quick to judge another
for life has many pages yet to turn
and more chapters to be written.

I choose not to be a part of those
things I know wait to break my heart.

I don't need more in this life
than I need...sunshine, birds singing,
flowers and, now that I am older, the
sweetest memories.

Only when one reaches the winter time
of their life, will they understand, why
life, like the year, has its seasons.

As much as I am hated, and misunderstood,
by some I poured my life and heart into,
I would not dare change anything, that
brought me to this day...and chance being
someone I am not...for others' sake.

Life is short enough..don't waste it
thinking about things in the past you
would change ,if you had it to live
over again.

Love can stand alone-and it often does.
2:14 pm February 11, 2020

The warmth of the sun beams coming through the glass
engulfs the tiny what's inside
struggles to make itself known in its new world.

The trials and tribulations of life can wait
innocence prevails this day.

8:23 am February 9, 2020

Unseen presence
the feel of
something strong
enough to move
my heart,
surrounds me.
A baby sleeps
a few feet away
People passing
the glass windows
voices soothing
the woes of small
What unseen presence
brings you here today?

Hoover not so closely
to the places where
innocence lay... take
mercy on the babies
whose lives you
touch this today.
1:37 pm February 8, 2020

Each day we inner into
is the testing field
for our faith.

Hold to your faith
with your heart and soul.

The hardest tests are the
ones that test our faith
and our love for our god.
12:28 pm February 8, 2020

My heart is so happy
as I put my thoughts
to words...

Gentle the wind that
touches my world
with endless love and
wondrous peace.

Answered prayers
touching my heart
like a gentle breeze
Reminding me that
God is a god of love
and endless mercy
for all who believe.

Thank you, God, for
answered prayers and
the sense of peace
I feel in the passing
of the gentle breeze.
10:43 am February 6, 2020

One day at a time, knowing not
what the day holds for me
I carry my shield of Faith
unafraid of what I know not,
and cannot see.

For, God knows my heart
and my every need
When I am lost in life, God
sends His angels to find,
and guide me.

when I feel I can't take another
step God lifts my spirit up
and strengthens me.

When hard times break my heart
God gives me the understanding
my heart needs to mend.

When I cry, feel deserted, and
all alone...I know down deep
inside, that my tears will dry
if I lift my Shield of Faith high
and journey on.
9:23 pm February 5, 2020

I was born, to live and die
like all born are born to do.
I was raised to believe good
out weighs the bad, regardless
of what one goes through.

With loving hands to guide me
in my growing years, it still
took a lot of falling down,
heartache and tears, to teach
me "to myself I must be true."

There will always be memories
of tear filled years...but
there will always be memories
without tears, too.
11:26 pm February 4, 2020

Precious Child

I have loved you
longer than you
have lived in this

Before your first breath
Before your first tear
Before you became a part of
the worldly -you were
a part of me.

I have loved you, holding
you in my arms...just as I
loved you when you woke
and slept beneath my heart.

Now, that we have grown apart
I want you to know, sometimes
in life distance and time
Teaches us that just as we
entered this world alone
and we will leave this world alone,
there will come times in our
life , that we will travel
through life alone.

Remember, precious child, I loved
you before you were born- when
together- we lived as one.

- Jan Tetstone
9:33pm February 3, 2020

It is the beginning of a new day
as cold as it is, under the light
from Heaven, it's filled with
peace, and much hope, for the
warmth the day will send my way.

9:26am February 2, 2020

Yesterday, a piece of my heart
flew away, void of its rightful
place, my heart smiled at
the thought of what awaits at
the end of my heart's journey.

You can use my love to hurt me,
just as, no doubt, my love has
hurt you, else you would not
hate me so.

God, take my hand this day
Put understanding in my heart
for the road I journey down
is filled with unknown dark.

From my yesterday's
I enter my tomorrow
after passing through
the day.
Guide me ,Lord, the
rest of the way.
9:39am February 2, 2020

I alone control my destiny
be not quick to judge me...
My tears have bear witness
to my trials and tribulations
No less human than you
am I...
I have gained from life
and given back to heaven
my share of loved ones
and friends...
I have nurtured the future
and left yesterdays behind
I live one day at a time
Giving thanks for all
things....I love and
call 'mine."
11:52 pm February 1, 2020

With the years comes
of the things that
once seemed strange...
How could family desert
one of its own?
How is it excusable
for turning one out
into a world-and putting
them at the mercy
of a world gone a stray?
Today, I understand...
When life calls one
it is not always a journey
down the same path we
travel on...for, none travel
the same roads back home.
Love doesn't die it just moves on
Leaving memories of times
gone....for the lone find comfort,
in what once was, regardless
of what awaits tomorrow...
If love were so easily
destroyed, at the parting of
the roads ...where would love
go but back into one's heart
to nurture their memory?
10:01 pm February 1, 2020

A cow moo not far from my window
A bird tweets as if the song has
been forgotten.
A tweet here a tweet there but no
happy tune can I hear....
It must be the gloom of the day
A rooster crows
A car passes on the old dirt road.

3:01 pm January 31, 2020

There is no worse feeling
than blaming ones self
for the short comings and
failures of another.

That's where my mind is today
Lord, I have tried to mend
the un-mendable,,,,
I choose this day to journey on
and leave the un-mendable pieces
where they lay.

Give to me Lord the strength
to endure what has been broken
To take up my cross and move
forward beyond what was to where
you, Lord, would have me be.
2:12 pm January 31, 2020

I need not fear what my god
lays before me...for each step
brings me closer to my destiny.
3:15 pm January 31, 2020

Today, I thought
about family...
I thought about
and realized
strangers met in
passing are
potential friends
Family members
who grow apart
potential enemies.
After pondering
these thoughts
with a sad heart
I accepted that
my place in
other peoples'
that never was
never would be
if in exchange
I , again, must
become a stranger
to me.
8:42 pm January 30, 2020

My Thoughts Today

I am me
I am not you
I have walked
fires that you
may never walk

Oh, little child
where have you gone
you are no longer
your purity has gone
replaced by a shadow;
you wander through
life bitter, for you
cannot replace what
once was so full of
innocence... with the
nothingness, meaningless
emotions you keep trying
to hide, from the
eyes that can see.
9:57 am

Lord, let me not be fooled
by the cunning- ness that resides

None know what is hidden
in the brightness of day
waiting its time.

Judge me according to what
your heart tells you.

I choose to live alone
to be closer to my god.

Hate cannot hide from the
eyes of the hated.

Love cannot be killed
but love can be pushed away.

12:30 pm January 30, 2020
-Jan Tetstone

Lord, I know I've strayed
from the path you laid for me
time and time again.....
And after I've cried over the
mistakes I made
You have given me chances
time and time again.
I have learned much
while in your care....
it's so much harder to find
inner peace
without you being there.
7:40 pm January 15, 2020

Freedom Wasn't Free

The United States of America
What does that mean to you
Is it a capitalist country?
or a place where the dreams
of a poor man can come true.

The Revolutionary War
What was it fought for
For freedom of religion, or
so the haves could have more?

What does the Declaration of
Independence say, do you even
know, the mindset of America's
Forefathers who lived so long

Do you know, or even care, about
the price of freedom that the
first true Americans had to pay
for the liberty you enjoy today?

The Revolutionary war was fought
for freedom of people who
had created their own country,
free from the interference
of Kings and Queens...

The Declaration of Independence
Out ranks the US Constitution
because it recognizes all peoples
inalienable right to religious freedom,
life and liberty.

The Declaration of Independence
Did not conceive, in the blood,
sweat and tears of freedom loving
Americans, a country devoted to
the idea that Americans have a
duty to be "world policemen"

The First American cut free from

the bonds of living under the reign
of Kings and Queens.

I am proud to be an American
raised on what it means to live
on the soil, that so many Americans
died to keep free. -Jan Tetstone

12:34 pm January 3, 2020

No words are better than meaningless words said
just to be saying something. jt