today I made a decision
that caused tears to fall and broke my heart;
As much as my arms ache to feel your embrace;
and I long so to be laying next to you listening
to the beating of your heart ~ I must
release your memory , and try to forget
that you ever touched my life .
When we met for the first time,
my heart reached out to your heart .
I tried not to love you~ but your
gentleness in speech and manner
cast a magical spell ,that your very presence
emitted . . . without ever touching each other,
strangers, yet, there was an undeniable
sense of having met before.
I pulled away, having sensed what was happening,
between you and me, wasn't supposed to be.
It was hard pushing you away with my words,
when my heart longed only to love you and
feel your heart beating next to my own.
For years I dream of you; danced with you, and
loved you in my dreams.
If only time were on our side! If only we had
the chance to do all the things we talked of ~
I have never been out dancing; my life
never had occasion to learn ballroom dancing~
But, my Love, if time had not saw fit to send us
onward in life~ in different directions~
my heart and I would have waltzed with you
forever, and a day.
We did not have a chance to do all the things
our hearts would have us do~
But, I want you to know that our love was as real
as the magical feelings we shared together.
Tonight, when you lay your head on your pillow -
share one last dream with me.
October 1, 2012]