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If I could- I would
gather all the lonely
and broken hearted
up in my arms and
share my love with
each and every one.
I would explain to
them, as best as my
heart would let me..
That the lonely
time is a blessing

Another day has come and gone
Leaving night for me to dream in.
Another tomorrow waits for me
Beyond the what is to what will be.
1:58am December 15, 2016

It's quite time of the night
for a restless soul
wandering through time
Lord, touch me
with your healing hand
comfort me in the darkness
help me understand.
None but you Lord
can still the restlessness
I feel inside
as the world sleeps
and I set
Listening to the silence.
Touch my world Lord
calm life's ragging sea
that's threatening to ripe
the heart from me.
For, in quite times I find
It hard to keep from
being weak.
2:09am Dec 14, 2016

The Breeze from Angel Wings

Thank God for his angels.....
Who watches over me, like
a continuing breeze.....
I know is there but I can not
Blow gentle wind, cover me
with your warmth and your
Blow in the darkest of places
that all may feel your gentle
-Jan Tetstone

10:51pm Dec 12, 2016

He who would keep the light
from shining on the hands of evil men...
Is not worthy of a pair of angel wings.
In his silence ,his hands have stripped
away another's dreams.

The power of evil men, over the many,
rests not with them.
The power rests in the hands of those
who call themselves 'honorable men.'

An oath keeper is only as good as his
willingness to stand and face
the enemy that created his silence.

Then and only then, is one truly
an honorable man.

How many must die- before the veil is lifted.
How many must suffer for another's honor......

4:35pm Dec 11, 2016

I Am A Survivor

After circumstances created change
I survived heartache and pain,
Feeling broken and knowing my life
Would never be the same.

I wake in the morning, give thanks
For the new day
And ask God if He will, please,
Help me the rest of the way.

Everyday,I survive the memories of old
And the hard times that tested my very

I am a survivor, I will survive what
Life sends my way
Knowing in my heart, I'm being
Tested everyday.

With my Shield of faith to protect me,
And God's angels guiding my way...

I will stand strong in the day
And when I have met my destiny,
There will be no more waking sun
And I will sleep in peace, knowing,
In my heart, that my work on earth
Has been done.
-Jan Tetstone

10:04pm November 27, 2016

You Choose the Road

To know where one is going
One must know where one has been.
Noting every mistake, so as not
to make the same mistakes again.

The bumpy roads one journeys down
are filled with heartache and sorrow.
Be careful not to blame yesterdays
mistakes for the bad roads you choose
to travel tomorrow.

It's not where one has been in life
that has the final say on how one lives
in life today....

It's the number of lessons learnt, and
the amount of heart one has left behind,
after traveling through life's yesterdays.

No one can keep you going down a lonely
Road-but you.
-Jan Tetstone

3:51pm 11-17, 2016

The Courage to Stand

Let me not fail to stand firm
Against my soul's enemy....
Teach me to walk more cautiously
Among the thorns of humanity.

Give me a heart filled with enough
Love to share with others in the day.
Let not my cup of love go empty and
My love fade away.

Give me insight to see truth's blade
Shinning in the day.
Then, give me the courage to stand
When others walk away.
-Jan Tetstone

6:10pm Nov 3, 2016


We none are perfect
though we'd like to be
We say things, and do things
with motives others cannot
see; That sometimes leads
them to misunderstand the
meaning of things we said and
done, innocently.

Not always does the best of
intentions- turn out right...
Sometimes, we forget strangers
have no way of knowing who
we are inside.

We are judged, and react...
And our reaction, in the end
could have cost us-a would be
-Jan Tetstone

10:52am Oct.17, 2016

Beyond The Worldly
Walk me through the day, Lord,
Let me not lose sight of what
can only be seen with the heart.
When I stray from the path you
would have me take- and things
in my life become more important
to me- open the eyes of my heart
and grant me the gift of inner sight,
that I might see beyond the worldly,
to those sight that only the heart
can see.
2:08pm Oct 13, 2016

I Doubt Not
Lord, for many years
You have walked me
through the day-and
Slept in my heart at
Many times you have
 listened to my prayers.
and answered them in
due time.
My faith in you is great...
I doubt not your power
to make change in my life .
I doubt not your love
I feel it with me every day.
I doubt not your forgiveness
but its so hard sometimes
to find it inside me to forgive
Lord, please, help me under-
stand a little better, when I'm
being hard on me...
That life is not always easy

Then from my haunting memories
Set my spirit free.
Take mercy on my weary soul
and let me finish my journey
with understanding, and in peace.
12:52pm October 12, 2016

 Dreams That Don't Come True
If all I do, to reach my dream
Is wish upon a falling star
without making any effort
to make my dream come true
I have no right to blame heaven
for things I failed to do.
12:17pm October 12, 2016

Things Fade Away

If nothing comes as
as you want it to
And things you want
seem unattainable...
And the wish you wished
on ,that falling star-didn't
come true......
Take heart in knowing
not all things are attainable
that what one gets from
life, is temporary, and
with time will fade away.
Worry not about the things
you don't have.......
For the things you have
Give thanks everyday.
10:15pm Oct 11, 2016


Pieces Of My Broken Heart
Where are the words when
I need to pour out my heart!?
What place are they hiding
inside of me....... Oh, but
to find them, before my
feelings hide themselves
and pieces of my broken heart
cuts the life from me.
10:01pm October 11, 2016

Live In The Moment
I do not know what tomorrow holds
or if there will a tomorrow be.....
I live not in the day but in the moment.
Beyond the moment that engulfs me
is time spent and time that may not be.
3:15pm October 11, 2016

Thoughts of the Morning

Don't let life get you down
when you get to the point
of thinking 'no one cares'
That's a part of living,
Falling down and finding there,
really, are people who care.

It's not what others say and do
Your words and actions are what
defines you.

If things get rough and your
heart gets broken....
Cry your tears----dry your tears
and put your life back together, again.

If it wasn't for the hard times
that keeps one human......We would not
be able to understand that experience,
makes one wiser....than a book taught

10:33am October 11, 2016

We only live once and the
foot prints we leave behind
will be all of us that
another can find.

Leave love in word and
in deed, for the stranger
in another time, in their time
of need.

That they too might learn
the importance of planting
love's seed-----for
those of the future to find-
in their troubling times.

10:33pm October 10, 2016

Peace comes to those with a loving heart
who wait on tomorrow and hastens not
the things beyond their control...
That lurk in the shadows ,of what is nothing
more than a thought, in the here and
now, of things one cannot know.
Peace rests in the things in the moment
With those persons and things our eyes
Can rest upon in this day.
Love is its own perfections.... when love
fills ones heart and life with peace ...
What more does one's heart need.
One cannot know love without knowing
the great joy of sharing love
with that special someone that fills
their every day life with love and peace.
When the day is darkest, and the night
is a welcoming sight....... remember,
the one laying next to you.
Who's loving arms waits to draw you
nearer to their heart.....
[The one you gave your heart to]
For love does not bend with time.
Draw near in old age the one laying
next to you-who your heart chose
to love in your youth.
May your memories not be tarnished
by time- and your heart not be broken
by the passing years.
Peace is in knowing your true love
has always loved you and been there
to hold you, and wipe away your bitter
There are many degrees of love as
your youth can testify........
But the only love that lasts forever
is the love that's with you when you die.

-Jan Tetstone

2:30pm Sept 25, 2016

Life's way

Life is more than being born to die
More than the sun in the day
that lights up a dark sky
Before night steals it away.
Life is more than the air we breathe
More than our hopes dreams
that are not yet a reality.
Life is so much more than owning
 bits and pieces of the world.
Life is more than the' me '
Life is heart and soul.......
Things the eye cannot see.

-Jan Tetstone

7:00pm Sept. 24, 2016

What Words can be spoken
that can touch another
with sincerity...........

That have the power to
give understanding, where
understanding is blocked
by a broken heart....

What words are there for
those who choose to hear not
Because in the twinkling of
an eye, they lost a part
of their heart.

There are no words that can
be spoken, that can
lessen the pain or mend a
heart that has been broken.

Only time can dull the pain,
and memories can fill the void
that an angel's leaving leaves

Only LOVE can keep us together
when we are a part, comfort us and
help to mend our broken heart.
-Jan Tetstone

8:42pm Sept 24, 2016

Love has no one definition
because love takes on many
forms, and is known by many
names: Mother, Father, sister,
brother, son, daughter, grandmother,
Grandfather, husband, wife, friend,
and many others.
Love can't be seen but can be felt
by the two hearts love holds together.
Love does not break hearts
people do........
Once your life has been touched by love
you carry that love inside of you.

-Jan Tetstone

9:01pm Sept. 24,2016


I'm not a citizen
of the world
I'm an American
born in the USA.

I'm not a part
of man's
one world order
I'm a part of God's
great plan.

Don't get me wrong
I believe in equality
among men......

I believe that all
people's of the world
have a God given right
to live and die free.

I believe that God's Plan
is unfolding
and all men have a right
to believe or not believe.

I don't need people setting
in high places~ defining what
freedom means to me.

Down with one world order
Up with God and Liberty.

12:45pm Aug 7, 2016

Only Reflections

My heart knows not how to stop
loving.....Oh, if only my heart
could forget.

Lord, you know I have these days
when my heart takes me back in
time....To when life went peace-
fully by, and tears never got in
the way or filled my eyes.

I don't mind being kept at a
Distance by those my heart will for-
ever love......family.
It just saddens my heart to think
how quickly some forgot about me.

My heart is sad but not broken
All that my heart holds dear
rests in the arms of my love..
All that once drew near, now
stand off in the distance.....
and are only reflections in my
5:29pm August 6, 2016

Lord, I wait for thee to move my heart
Let not they raft unloosen in this world
gone astray.....not this day, Lord....not
this day.

From within I see the evil looming over
innocent souls.....
I see the lost souls struggling to get back
to thee......
And, I see the storm moving in......

Lord, I see the raft unfolding-I see it in the
heavens....I see it in the works of men.......
Those who seek to find life's secrets
know not the evil they have loosened in the wind.

Lord, I am but one lowly soul...standing between
heaven and earth....... yet, I m a part of all things.
Guide me through the storm- that I might bear
witness of your coming....that those struggling
to get back to you..... might find the strength to raise
high the shield of faith-they need to make it through
the final storm.....unharmed. Amen

12:12pm August 6, 2016

Holes In Life

While traveling through the world
Be careful not to fall into the deep
dark hole dug to bury your soul.

The hole of sorrow and woe.
The hole of denial and hate.
The hole of tears where sorrow
and denial wait.

For one step of bitterness takes away
from sweeter things...the sunshine in
ones day that loving brings.

The hole of self pity is lonely and deep
many a lonely soul has fallen in and
been covered by their mounting sin.

Heartbreak is the result one gets when
they trip and fall on their own needs
and desires.....In time heartbreak will

But when one falls into the trap of self pity
no one can release him from the deep
dark hole-until the light of truth emerges
from the darkness and inner peace is
savored deep within his soul.

Strive to be happy..... guard well your soul
For this life is filled with deep dark holes
dug to entrap misguided souls.

9:03am Aug 5, 2016

Prayer for Understanding

Lord, you know my heart
my love for humanity...
You know the path I walk
You walk it with me.

Today, I don't understand
a lot of things...
I need you to help me see
beyond my loses in the day
to what it is you ask of me.

Forgive me for my weakness
but today I really need your

I need to turn my lose into
a bigger win, for those I
love....I need not to feel
I have failed..

I need more insight into
what lays ahead...

I need to do your work....
walk your walk-talk your talk
and not beat up on me.

Heal my battle wounds, Oh Lord,
turn my lose into a bigger win
Teach me winning but one race
Really matters in the end.

10:10am August 3, 2016

What was yesterday
was lessons to be
Those things that
broke your heart
cannot be undone.

What is today
is nothing but the
moment we live in
the meeting of where
yesterday was and
tomorrow begins.

What is tomorrow
nothing more than the
hopes and dreams
of the moment we live in.

11:32am July 24, 2016

Sometimes it's better
to move on than stay behind
and chance letting life
make you bitter.

Not always does the crossing
of two spirits prepare one
for their parting.

It's sometimes better to
cling to memories that
might have been-- than grasp
for things that never were.

The roads back are the same
roads that brought me to
where I am today....

Not all will love without

Many are prepared for everything
except love....

What the heart has touched
The heart does not forget...

10:35am July 24, 2016

I will ride the waves of life
endure what comes my way
defeat the deceitful demons
in this day.

For. God is my strength
when I am weak......
Truth the blade I carry
with me.
12:04pm July 22, 2016

I thought I'd write
my heart out tonight
reach down to the
depths of my silent
and sooth my soul.
I set here with my
thoughts and wonder
what does the silence
Why is it I cannot
capture my pain
and change it to
bits of sunshine
to sooth my soul?
 1:11am June 28, 2016

Today the dark sky turned into
a gentle rain
and yesterday's tears turned
into rays of sunshine...
mingling with old memories
renewed faith entwining
with yesterday's promise
of better times.
Hope and faith belong to me
Along with love and God's
promise of everlasting peace.
4:20pm May 17, 2016

Lord, why am I so weak
what is it my heart seeks
Why, with a life so full
does my heart feel so empty?
Why Lord do I seek love
When there is so much love
all around me.......
Lord, please, take self pity
from me....and replace it with
understanding......Teach me
Lord, to be thankful for all
things and, please, give my heart
voice to sing.
11:03pm May 16, 2016

I find it hard to write what's in my heart
in the midst of troubling times.....
For it is in such times my faith
is greatest- and words are wasted
trying to explain what my heart feels.

I am made stronger in my time of grief
when silence be my sword and I carry
my Shield of Faith always before me.
10:42pm May 16, 2016

I have been set adrift on live stormy sea
To search for my destiny.
Through life's waters I walk in the darkness
of uncharted sea.
Where will my journey end-What will my
future hold for me.
This world is filled with emptiness
No sweet voice to calm my fears
would there be, if not for the sweet
voice that through my faith comforts me
in my time of need.

No loving arms to hold me gently............
Except for the arms of Jesus that comforts me
and brings me peace.
10:27pm May 16, 2016

If not for the lonely times
I would not know the value
of the time I spend with those
I love.
I thought that time had taken
from me my place in life
where I was needed.....
Until, I heard the loneliness
 in the voice of my child ,
in her time of need.
Then I realized
I will always be needed
as long as I am loved.
Thank you Lord for showing me
what being lonely truly means.
10:25pm April 28, 2016

Lord, I come to you this day
I feel so out of control....
Please, Lord, watch over
my soul. jt

On the journey to meet my destiny
I am a float on life's raging sea.
Desert me not Heavenly Father
for without you I am weak....
Give me strength to swim life's sea.
Give me courage to walk through
the darkness that's closing in on me.
Give me wisdom in my time of need
to know the face of my enemy......
I am weak....Lord, Give me strength
to swim life's raging sea.
6:42pm April 27, 2016

Let the light in your eyes
brighten the light in
the eyes of another
on your journey home.
Let the love in your heart
reach out and touch
a loveless soul....
Let your spirit shine
and your joys be told.
Let loose of the worldly,
Cling to your faith
As you face in each day
your destiny.
6:58pm April 26, 2016

Everyday is a blessing
Tho the world be a curse
and I the cursed.
Oh, the happy times
that once were mine.
A child was I
with a child's innocent
Drenched in love
and sunshine.
The days found me
happy......the nighttime
found me thankful for
all my heart called mine.
Then a storm came
my innocence was gone
never again mine to claim.
It mattered not what
comes my way....part of
my heart stays locked and
 I carry the key to my destiny
Beneath the darkest memory
of what once was and
what was never meant to be.
6:31pm April 26, 2016

As I set on the floor of the place
where the physical pieces of my
memories are stored, With my feet
planted firmly on the green grass
in front of me.......

A lot of things go through my mind
and I'm caught up in what was, and
what it is -I seek to find.

Once I felt loved and needed
Life was full of hope- and purpose
for me.......

Until I awoke one day and my own needs
were all that I could find......

Now, as full as my life is -its empty
and there's a part of me longing,
to be loved and needed By someone
my heart truly loves, who
loves me, and can see the need in me.

Closing the door to my memories , I accept,
faithfully, that God knows my heart and
knows all my needs.
7:33pm April 18, 2016

The life that I've lived
has left its footprints on
this heart of mine.....
looking back I can find
good times or bad times.
I can find among my memories
what my heart seeks to find.
6:54pm April 18, 2016

 If tomorrow never comes
and what is to be will be
why worry in the day
over things you cannot
know or see?

Yesterdays put nothing
in a day but good or bad

Fill the day with love,
friends and family
that tomorrow may bring
a day filled with love and
12:12pm April 3, 2016

When the tides of life turn
we are not always prepared
for what is to be.
Fear not the height of the waves
nor the depth of the sea.
For in life
one must learn to take
the bitter with the sweet....
10:42pm March 17, 2016

It is not the things on the outside
that can destroy me....
It is not what the eyes can see
It is not the flesh that makes me
What makes me who I am
is not the worldly
It's the spirit inside of me.
Tho my paths have often taken me
to places I never chose to be....
It was in the darkest pits
I found bits and pieces of me.
2:51pm Feb 24, 2016

I stand strong against
life's strong winds
because of my faith

I am a wandering soul
looking for peace
in a world
where peace is
within reach
but never touched.
Still, I wander
filled with a hunger
for tomorrow's peace
That rests
just within my reach.
1:15pm Feb 9, 2016

Today, I looked out
beyond the here and now
to the things of tomorrow
which have not came.
And in the darkness
of my hopes and dreams
I found the end
to all things.
1:00pm Feb 9, 2016

I have searched long
for the answer
as a child
whispered to me
at the edge of eternity.
An answer hidden
deep inside of me.
A child with the
eyes to see
the seed from which
the flower grows
decaying beneath my feet.
May the Light of Love
renew all good things
and may the flowers
reaped be free of weeds
and filled with the
aroma of peace.
Feb 5, 2016 8:06am

 Today, the earth beneath my feet
is no longer a comfort
to stand upon........
The warm feel of the ground
is gone......
O weary, the soul inside of me.
It is only in the spirit of my being
I can find peace.
Where, O Lord, would you have
me be.
Feb 5, 2016 7:52am

Know, ye not, that God
watches over all who
trust in things they
cannot see...........!
Know, ye not, that God
knows and sees all things!
9:38am Jan 31, 2016

What matters if tomorrow
I die with sorrow
If today my cup of happiness
is full and running over
and I live for God.
9:18am Jan 31, 2016

With earthly eyes one sees
things of the worldly.
sometimes, which are not...

With inner eyes, through the
lens of the heart, one sees
things as they are and will
 always be.
8:54am Jan 31, 2016

When a man cannot
see beyond his house
The world's evil playground
gets a little bigger.
8:41am Jan 31, 2016 

Truth is the knife
evildoers fear...
Faith is the shield
a faithful man
always before him
Angels stand guard
over a good man's
Let he who seeks
to bargain with the
devil -for the hurt
of another, stand
naked in the waters
of his sin.
10:43pm Jan 30, 2016

With a vengeance life's winds
moved my world into a spin
The quite became a clamoring
thundering sound
as for the last time my life
twisted around.....
Lord, help me to overcome
whatever fear rests inside of me
and accept wherever is to be,
will be.
10:20pm Jan 30, 2016

Give me the wisdom
to choose wisely
the weapons needed
to defeat the enemy.
For, none can fight
my battles but me.
9:37pm Jan 30, 2016

Lord, you have once more
brought me to the crossing
of the roads....
Let me not choose blindly
the road that I take......
For, none but I
can carry my Shield of Faith.
9:31pm Jan 30, 2016

When the morning came
I awaken to a new world
filled with the known and
What was yesterday
was no more
yesterdays were gone
and there stood before me
another open door.
8:46pm Jan 30, 2016

Again ,today,
I felt the hand of God
reassuring my heart
that love is the key
to all things.......
That as long as love
lives in me...
His love for me will
fill my every need.
12:40am Jan 26, 2016

Many times I tried
to run through life
Many times I stumbled
and fell....
It was during these
times I was taught ,
with each fall,
the importance
of getting back up again
and again and again.
For, the strength of
my spirit increased
every time
I raised my shield of Faith
to help me stand.
12:26am Jan 26, 2016

There was a time
I wrote everyday
I poured my heart
out- through my
Even when times
were hardest
I would set down
and pour my heart
into the words that
flow...Letting loose
of my inner feelings
helped me, many time,
to cope with loneliness,
and heartache- Through my
tears...writing helped
me let self pity go.
Life is to short to live it
beyond each moment
in the day....
Regardless, of all things
passed- I have learned
from living-the importance
of holding close to my heart
my shield of faith.
11:59pm Jan 25, 2016

There is a time in every life
for quite -for noise
for peace- for war
For the opening and
closing of doors.
There is a time in every heart
for love
For drawing one close and
for pushing one away....
There is a time for the biggest
and the smallest of things
A time to be and
A time to let be what was...
A time for day-a time for night
A time for darkness and
~a time for light.
11:34pm Jan 25, 2016

Today is the first day
of the new year...
Lord, let me carry
into the new year
Only those things
worthy of my tears...
Let me leave behind
in yesterdays arms
those things
that caused another harm.
Let me not lose sight
of those thing that
nurtured the better part
of me.....and like in the
years past...help me, Lord
to be the best that I can be.
5:36pm Jan 1, 2016

No matter what one does
in their lifetime
The dice were cast before
they were born.....
We are only an extension
of what use to be
nurtured on others'
We live in the shadow
of yesterdays
and by our very presents
in the day
we fill the void
of all that was
that now waits.
5:18pm Jan 1, 2016